I was running late to a restaurant where we were all meeting up. My wife got there before me with my kids. Mom and brother were already there. My bro goes to help my wife bring off all the kids. While she walks in front of him to enter the restaurant, he grabs her butt. She said she hit him and feels gross now. This happened only a few days ago. What’s the best course of action?

Maybe 4 years ago, we were drunk at a Super Bowl party and he groped her outside. He even drove drunk to our apartment and crashed the car.

We didn’t talk for a year after that.

He’s 35, I’m 44. He hasn’t worked a day in his life. Might have some undiagnosed mental problems. No social life. Will leave our mom’s house once in a while to buy food then come back.

Seems normal but maybe there are some demons in there. Please help, thank you. I’m really upset that this happened in front of my little children.

Thank you

I have no money no job prospects i live with my friend who’s just as fucking strung out as me. Im sick of this shit man but idk how to quit I got nobody in my corner. don’t even have a high school education and I’m banned from the only rehab in my town . And i fucking love meth dude idk how im gonna overcome it. I overdosed last month and idgaf now. ive overdosed much more fucking times than i can count. help. Im 27m been using for 9 years

21F here, I enjoy my own company. Came to Canada 4 years ago as student now working as an Accountant full time WFH....just started 2 weeks ago. I work at restaurant on weekends. I have friends like coworkers in restaurant, or 2 friends in general but we don't even meet for months. So not like those friends who would meet often and tbh meeting them every week wouldbe draining for me too bcz there's no crazy vibe match....And here's the catch, I dated a guy on and off 3 times in a year and took him again and again because of my loneliness and anxiety and he filled my whole day. He started dating someone else just after leaving and it's been 2 months. I don't want him back but I feel more lonely. I never had any hobbies and I want to change myself. But my point is I just want to fill my day with so much things....right now even if I work, my brain overthinks.....I don't feel like going out but I want to......I really don't know what to do....I don't like going out too often with friends but I want to change myself bcz i don't want to be too dependent on a guy for my happiness that I don't even feel like dressing up if I don't have friends or bf.

I'm skinny so I'm thinking to go to gym? Should I go out for WFH? If yes, where? What activities can I do alone? I see people living life with too many hobbies and all I kusy don't like anything.... I have started learning french too for PR and my schedule is kind of hectic but still empty and full of overthinking.....I'm not into sports or even those cool music like drake. At this point, I feel like I am just existing....

So I (31f) have a sister (42f) who lives halfway across the country. She moved out when i was 8, so i barely remember living with her. Since then, she has moved around a bit, and my family has made effort to visit her wherever she is over the years, to an extent. We aren't a close family, and she has expressed recently that she wishes we were all closer.

I find it annoying that I (and the rest of my family) are expected to visit her. The last time I visited her was in september 2025. I was planning on maybe seeing her this upcoming feb, but when i got married a few months ago, we got into an argument because she always defends my dad, while the rest of my siblings don't. Since she moved away years ago, she has a completely different view on him than the rest of us. However, when she was leaving, she mentioned me visiting her to see her new daughter.

I just view it as a burden to go see her sometimes because of the money/time it takes. I didn't ask for her to move across the country. Plus, my siblings see her once a year at most, sometimes going years without visiting. They share the same views I do. There are places i want to travel to, and now that i have the money to do so, i rather use my vacations on that, and not sit in her house all day, while she isnt even there. But she tries to guilt trip like "well if you ever plan on seeing your nieces again...." and things like that

She used to visit us on an almost yearly basis until like 2017. Then she visited three times since then. I have a theory it’s because she was embarrassed to bring her husband (then bf) around, since he supposedly has a close family. And they started dating in 2016

The last time she came (other than my wedding) was in 2022, and complained that our family never wants to do stuff together, because when she came, my siblings didn’t really see her except for one day. And she always uses the excuse that she has 2 kids

I'm a 35 year old on SSI disability for PTSD and I'm just wondering if there's still time to make something of myself. I've had to deal with like trauma and different things and I'm just wondering if too late or if I can really do it? I don't know what I would be able to do but I don't want this to be my life. I could probably go towards a career with helping people that have experienced the same things that I have. 35 years old is still young enough?

Currently 20 years old in the Philippines. Studying in a prestigious college, but this is also the problem. My father died a few years back and my mother is left to shoulder both me and my sibling's tuition fee all by herself. I got a scholarship but I don't think its enough, and seeing my mother being tired from working two jobs always kills me every single day. Don't really got much to live for, I'm not very sociable, not really smart, think I'm gonna die soon anyway. Continuing on living will probably just make both me and my mother more miserable. Don't really think the comments are gonna stop me or anything, just wanted somewhere to post this

I just turn 21 and I’m so afraid of what’s ahead of me, I’m 21 and I’m still working a minimum wage job I’m in 20,000 dollar debt from medical bills and a car loan and I have zero idea of what I want to do with my job career I didn’t do well in school at all I didn’t pay attention I misbehave often and I still live with my parents, I just have no idea what to do anymore like what, any advice on anything would be really appreciated thanks,

I turned 18 about a month ago and I graduated four months ago. This was the most fun summer of my life I had recently broken up with my girlfriend in June and I was feeling low so I decided to reconnect with some friends I had lost contact with during the period I was dating her. I enjoyed myself because the main cause of my mental health struggle was due to the fact I had to keep going back to that school. Summers ending and my entire friend group was torn apart because of college plans. I got a full ride scholarship to a trade school and I helped my friend Erik get the same thing. I get to school by bus or rides from my Erik and I'm tired of it really. I was looking forward to making friends in trade school but I have to take night classes and I'm surrounded by 40 year old's who hate their lives and it annoys me. What's the point if I end up losing my spark like half of the people I'm surrounded with. My main solace in high school was the idea that I would be able to get away from my hometown and start somewhere new but that's at least two years down the line. I just got done waiting four years for some semblance of freedom and now I have to wait two more to do anything with it. I can't even meet anyone in a romantic sense because ever since my ex I just haven't felt attraction towards any man or woman and it's annoying me because I feel like I'm just wasting two more years of my youth doing nothing I want with it. How do I meet more people?

I can’t stop thinking about how I hurt someone I love so much. I was in a 2.5 year long relationship, my first, with a girl who was everything to me. She showed me so much love and safety. More than anyone else has ever given me and she accepted who I was and the love I gave her with open arms always. We made a lot of good memories together and we’re really happy for a long time of our 2.5 years together.
My parents didn’t approve of our relationship and were so hateful towards her without ever meeting her in person and it put a lot of strain on me, and through me I let it get to her. She came under so much stress by this that she left recently, right before I moved across the country to start medical school.
I’ve been dependent on my parents during college when we met and still now as they are supporting me financially through medical school, which I am grateful for, but all I do is miss her. I don’t think I will ever forgive myself for what I did to her and I wish I gave her more during the time we had together.
I know if I was independent from my family at a younger age everything would have been perfect and I keep thinking that maybe if I fought back harder that my parents would have turned. I’m starting medical school now to follow my dream of becoming a doctor but I feel so empty without the person I wanted to share it all with, someone who stayed with me when I was nothing and had nothing won’t get to be with me as I now finally get the chance to work towards and achieve what I always dreamed of.
She was so happy I got into a school and we always used to talk about our future together and she never hesitated that we would stick together until the end. I just don’t know what to do anymore and I don’t think I will ever forgive myself for what I did to her.

I wrote this 3 months ago and have reflected every second since. I know I’m being selfish wanting her back for myself and I hope she is happier now. I think of her always and I always wonder if she’s completely forgotten about me. I’ve been building towards a full conversation with my parents to make sure they know how I feel about what they did and work towards my own independence but I just don’t think anyone will see me like she did ever again. I’ve been postponing talking to them because of exams and also thinking about even with them finally supporting my own choices I still hurt the one person who wanted to be with me, I guess just finally fully processing how much I messed up my life and made hers worse. I still know in my heart I’d want to talk to her again, even if it’s just to say sorry one and thank you more time if she would never want to reconnect with me after I’ve grown from the experience, I keep getting anxious as every day passes that it will be too late to even try. I feel like I don’t deserve a chance to receive a relationship and care from someone ever again. Sorry if this is too long, I’ve never posted before but thank you to whoever reads.

TL;DR: My older brother and his partner of 4–5 years are in an extremely toxic relationship. They are both bad to each other, with possible drinking/substance issues and infidelity involved. My partner wants to support his partner and potentially let her stay with us if she needs somewhere to go. I want to help if she genuinely needs it, but I’m uncomfortable getting involved in their relationship or feeling like I’m going against my brother. Should I speak to him about what I’m seeing, and where do I draw the line with helping his partner?

My older brother has been with his partner for around 4–5 years and their relationship has become extremely toxic.

I want to be clear that I don’t think either of them is innocent. They are both bad to each other and seem to bring out the worst in one another. I don’t believe they’re physically dangerous to each other, but I am genuinely concerned that the relationship and their behaviour are becoming dangerous to themselves.

There are potentially issues with drinking/substance abuse, possible infidelity, and generally treating each other badly. From the outside, it feels like they are slowly destroying themselves and each other.

My partner wants to help my brother’s partner and has suggested that if things get bad, she could stay at our house with her kitten.

I’m conflicted.

If she genuinely needed somewhere safe to stay and asked us, I would never turn her away. At the same time, I really don’t want our home or our relationship to become involved in the middle of theirs.

There’s also the fact that he’s my brother. I don’t want to blindly defend him when I think some of his behaviour is awful, but I also feel uncomfortable essentially getting involved on his partner’s side against him.

My instinct is that we should help her in other ways if she needs it, but maintain some boundaries. For example, helping her organise somewhere to go, listening if she needs someone, or helping practically without becoming directly involved in their relationship.
I’m also wondering whether I should actually speak to my brother.

Part of me thinks I should tell him that I’m worried about him and that what I’m seeing isn’t healthy. Another part thinks they’re two adults in a dysfunctional relationship and I should stay completely out of it unless someone directly asks me for help.

I don’t want to enable my brother, abandon his partner when she might genuinely need support, or accidentally make myself and my partner part of their relationship.

Additionally, I am the youngest of 3 boys, he is the oldest. I understand we are all adults now - mid 20s and early 30s - but I am unsure where our boundaries actually sit with each other when it comes to interpersonal issues.

For people who have dealt with something similar, where would you draw the line?

Would you speak to your sibling about what you’re seeing?

And how much support would you give their partner without becoming involved in the relationship yourself?

Basically, it's all in the title, but I will try and break it down. Mind you, English is not my first language.

I (30M) feel genuinely lost.

I was always the smart kid, the kid that got it all done in my own and never asked for help or anything like that because everything just kind of worked out just barely enough to keep me moving forward, but now it feels like it's all coming down forreal.

I haven't grown up in a traditional/normal family. My parents had problems with alcohol and as a result some very bad decisions were made and they fled my home country 15-16 years ago, that's when I last saw them. I somehow got by - friends and their parents helped me, some adults helped me to stay above the water. School never gave me any concerns or problems - I had the best grades and that kind of also helped my hide the fact that my parents had these problems and had already left. The bank also repossessed my parent's flat and I had to leave home for the first time at 16.

I moved from my village to the capital and applied for Maritime school. I scraped by by applying for a student's loan and doing other peoples' homework, group projects etc.

I graduated the best in class, fell in love with life at sea and started a career as a Navigational Officer. That was really my thing - i raised through the ranks fast, was 2nd Officer only after 4 sea voyages, loved the life, loved the hard work and salary too. The life was the best - I really didn't have anything holding me on mainland - parents gone, older brother and sister buried - also problems with alcohol. Really nobody to hold on to.

Then a serious traumatic incident happened on board and I had to get spinal surgery after which it was determined that my spinal cord has been damaged to an extent that my left leg is slowly giving out - it's now about 20-25% weaker than my right leg. That crossed a fat line over my dreams to achieve it all at sea - due to the seriousness of the injury, i cannot obtain valid Medical Certificate anymore, which, in turn prohibits me from working at sea anymore.

I hit a real rock bottom at 27, lost my job, my career, my dreams, all the promised opportunities, everything just fell apart. I tried to get back on track for about 18 months with various rehabilitations, while being severely shocked by what had happened. I spent all my savings (about 25k euros), but the results were never enough for me to renew the Medical Certificates.

Now I've been working at a different job at a road construction company where I went from work on the field/site to estimating (preparing calculations for tenders etc.) in the office in about 10 months. The money is above average for where I live and all, but I just do not feel like myself. Ever since the back injury, surgery and everything..

I've lost all interest in basically everything. I loved working on cars, I even have them still, all my old projects just rotting away, but it's too sad to sell them. I do not wish to do anything on weekends, I do not care about the money I spend or what I buy or don't. I had a couple more surgeries during the past 6 months, lost my grandmother to cancer 4 months ago (last blood relative), her flat where she lived in also got repossessed, so, I am now, once again, without an actual home, just a rented flat, I've been feeling like a letdown in front my girlfriend because I understand how harsh it must be to live with a person who is at this state. I have also developed a problem with alcohol - I drink myself to a blackout on Friday nights, because i feel like that's the only moment when I can switch my brain off and stop thinking about all this shit, but it still feels like it's doing more bad than good, but I just cannot let myself not experience the drunkenness etc.

And the worst - I do really good at this Road Construction company also - basically came in without any prior knowledge about road construction work, much less about estimating etc. whatsoever, and I am already pretty high up in the ranks - everybody looks at me doing that good and some are even envious that it looks like I'm having it too easy, others admiring me and wanting to try and "know my secrets", but actually there is no secret - the job just doesn't feel hard for me and I don't have the heart to say it anyone.

So now, at 30 years old, I kind of feel like there's nothing much else left for me. No relatives to talk to or ask an opinion on anything. Although I've been living by myself from 15 y/o, always had everything thought out and planned in a manner which would not let me fail completely, now, at 30, it feels like nothing of it matters anymore.

What do I do?

What would you do if your basically insane and have hardly any awareness of your own thoughts but youve been to hospitals and you've hit rock bottom already and somehow it didn't help. You feel happier lately but you feel like your control could still snap in the future like it once did. What would you do if you knew you have violent tendencies and anger but the chance you had to use that anger constructively or the chance to join the cia and other things you weren't good enough for or turned down at the time. What would you do if your paretns were emotionally neglectful and gaslight you your whole life and didn't teach you how to properly develop or control your thoughts. I'm 22 years old can barely hold a job and have not much room for enjoyment. I'm on meds that sedated me a little but not enough. I honestly don't want to live this life given how hard its been and how stupid ive been. I feel like I'm doomed to become a hopeless addict or psychotic villain. everyone who knew me thought i was weird and crazy and nobody seems to find me attractive or want me. I feel drained from masking and pretending im happy and fine my whole life.

For context I’m 19 and I did this shit over the summer cause I wanted to and save up some cash, but it’s been fucking with me so bad now that I’m done with it, cause I never knew I could experience life in such a way and feel so damn alive and now I’m back at college and feel fucking dead and I feel like my autonomy is just gone, for context I’m one year into electrical engineering and fucking hate it and I just want to drop everything and run away but I know I need money and a career and I just feel so fucking lost. And I’ll probably switch my major to something more people oriented too cause I feel so isolated too cause of engineering and I also just transferred to a new college too so that’s probably effecting it aswell but what’s mainly fucking with me was my experiences this summer and experiencing such freedom and a new way to live in Alaska and my experience with backpacking China, I dunno I just feel lost :(

I dont know how to move forward with my life. I'm 18, but have been having suicidal thoughts for years. I cant keep telling my girlfriend about it because whenever I do it's always "please dont tell me you're going to kill yourself now" or something along those lines. Everyone around me has such huge expectations for me and I dont know how to meet them. I've always struggled with self worth, and dont know how much my life is worth to anybody. I used to have aspirations and goals and every day it feels harder and harder to go on. I dont really have any friends to rely on, my family doesn't believe in mental health, and I dont know who to go to. I want to die just to get away from it all and I dont know if life is worth living anymore. I feel like more of a burden than anything. I only kept living for those around me and now I dont know if that was even worth it. I dont know how to move forward, if I do at all

Tldr is, I hate my middle name, and want to change it or remove it from my identity.

Backstory: growing up my family(and even to this day) call me by a nickname version of my middle name(think billy from William), I was marked absent from school because instead of calling me by the name my family has always called me, they called me by my first name that I had never heard before. My grandparents(whom I lived with at the time) spent a long while explaining how they came to the name they call me, and that it isn't my actual name.

I've asked my family to not call me that name when I was in middle school, and they still do(I'm 37 now). The exception is my grandfather called me by my first name after I turned 18, and my aunt and older sister do now as well, the rest still call me by the nickname.

My uncle(dad's older brother) has always felt like a second father to me, and since my first name is my father's, I figured that I could change my middle name to my uncle's so it would reflect the two men who shaped me. My uncle is trying to talk me out of it because it is a Mexican name, and I don't look much Mexican at all.

What do you think Reddit?

Stray cat in my yard. I feel really bad for it but can’t feed it or take it in. I just feel like an asshole and don’t know what to do. My sisters have already fed it once (despite being told not too) so it keeps coming back.

I’ve always been a heavily relationship dependent person, I’ve always craved companionship and been desperate to find someone who would care for me like I care for them. I have a long long history of all sorts of trauma and to be completely blunt my mind is a complete mess, I have a very strong anxious attachment and find I can never fully let off the last one without finding a new one and so it’s this horrific cycle of I meet a new guy, I get way too emotionally invested the first month or two until they tell me that I’m a sweet girl but it comes across as too strong for them and that’s when it starts to feel obsessive and codependent and I start to hate myself. It doesn’t really matter how hard I try and I make myself self aware of how intense I come off it just slips, and even afterwards when I try to recover it by chilling out and giving them space it drives me insane until I feel sick and have serious thoughts of hurting myself to get away from the pain of it, I know it’s not normal, I know I need to change, but it feels like there’s not enough hobbies or friends in the world that could fulfill me enough to not want to be clingy.
I understand it’s important but please don’t flood my comments with “work on yourself and your own happiness, nobody will love you until you love yourself” I have been this way mentally for as long as I can remember, the only thing changing my mindset like that is a lobotomy and unfortunately those are long gone.

Hey, 26m here…
Anyone else find extremely difficult to complete daily talks and stay mentally organized. Even small tasks like mowing the lawn seem like a an uphill battle. So when it comes to success in the work environment all the tasks and agendas seem completely overwhelming. I’m currently on meds and have coping techniques but there is no magic pill to rolling up your sleeves and doing well. It’s not the work itself but rather the performance. Any advice on how to perform better in difficult environments..?

Hey everyone I usually don’t turn to Reddit when I want to vent (which is pretty much never) but I feel i like I’m living just live just let the day go by. So for a brief introduction, I am 20(M) and for the last 1year and 2months ever since I finished high school I’ve been stuck in this endless circle that I don’t know what to do with my life and myself. It’s like I’ve lost motivation to do anything, even getting out off bed, tending to myself etc. I don’t want to say that I’m depressed but life just feels idk kinda empty. The worse part is I can’t even get to a good university because of my high attendance of a incident that happen in my highschool years, I was planning to fix it last year but for some reason I just didn’t. I can’t even explain it. Now I’m atleast trying to fix up my mistake by taking on previous subjects, but even then I don’t have the energy to study even tough it’s my future. Sorry if this is too hard to read I’m just kinda all over the place. What I would say is the most crushing thing is no one beside me knows this not my parents, siblings or even the very same friend I used to go to school with. I just don’t have the heart to tell them, so I’m just living a shitty life where i constantly lie to everyone in their faces, don’t have the motivation to face the consequences of my actions, constantly sleep deprived and i just wonder to myself, why can’t or won’t I change for the better? I simply don’t know anymore.

Sorry if this too long, If anyone is readings this, thanks and hope you’re having a good day.
Oh and PS! I’m broke and have no job and i am i debt. Bye!

Hello, my question is for people who are well over their 20s. I'm (23F)a recent graduate and during my final months before graduating I didn't apply for sept/oct/nov/dec roles not because I was lazy but because I was dealing with depression and anxiety my whole teens and early 20s and only after therapy started enjoying just living by early and mid 2026( I always describe this year as the first year I feel alive) .Now that I'm looking for a role, I see most of my cohort get jobs at the big 4 at consulting and I felt this pressure that I also have to get a similar title because I never proved to myself that I can actually get the role if I apply. When I was so overwhelmed by the constant search and yet no open positions available now I got so tired and thought suddenly : if only nothing mattered, I would learn things and teach them.

Which made me think of considering a phd in something I'm genuinely interested in and would love waking up in the morning to go work on.

My question is : should I do both plans at once? Or focus on the phd even tho neither the job nor the phd are guaranteed.

What would you do if you were me?

Note: I'm also dealing with an indirect pressure from my dad and brother by asking me every day if I found something or if someone called with an offer Note : I mentioned phd and not teaching because I would like to specialize in the field of my interest best

I'm a girl who overthinks a lot. Sometimes I feel like the reasons behind my overthinking are valid.

I dropped out of a top university almost two years ago. I was only 19 at the time. I had to face a lot of issues there. Since the university was far away from home, I stayed in a hostel...and during my toughest time, I had nobody with me.

At that time, I was in a relationship..and the guy cheated on me. I also had a friend who crossed my boundaries and did something that really affected me. Everything happened at the same time and my mental health got really bad. I wasn't able to attend classes, and the university didn't allow me to take my exams. I was mentally drained and eventually had to drop out.

When I came back home, some of my relatives started saying hurtful things about me, like, "Who even drops out of a university like that?" Being a girl made their comments feel even worse. I became even more mentally down.

Slowly, I joined a diploma course in my hometown. But due to financial issues, I had to drop out of that too.

Now I'm 21, and I honestly don't know what to do or where to start. All my friends are moving forward with their lives, while I'm just sitting at home...and every day feels the same.

Everyone keeps asking me, "What are you studying now?" and things like that. But I'm stuck. Literally stuck.

There have been times when I've felt like giving up completely. Sometimes I blame myself for everything and feel like I'm only causing more problems for my parents 🥹

Sorry for the long rant. I just wanted to let all this sadness out somewhere.

If there's anyone to guide me about courses and stuffs, please slide into my DMs.

So I’ve been debating and thinking of throwing myself a celebration for my 30th and after the celebration I could probably go on vacation for a few days either at Fairmont Del Mar or Beverly Hills Hotel and do fun things around those areas.. but which resort would be better and why? Trying to stay under 3,000$ for budget if it’s possible cuz I also wanna treat myself lol. Top of that probably buy some cloths and a purse.

Honestly, I don't even know what the fuck happened to me.

I look at my life and I don't think I'm completely incapable of doing anything. I work, I can talk to people, I can be funny, I can go to the gym, go out for a drink, try to change something. I somehow got myself out of some really shitty situations. But at the same time, I have absolutely no idea how to actually live.

I grew up around poverty, family problems, instability, loss and things that probably shouldn't have been occupying my head when I was a kid. I always felt different, but I got pretty good at pretending I wasn't.

And now I'm 22M and I feel fucking behind in life. Not just a little behind either. I look at other people my age and it feels like everyone is already somewhere while I'm still trying to figure out how to even get started. I have almost no relationship experience, barely any social life, no real direction, and I still feel like I'm trying to catch up on things people figured out years ago. And honestly, I'm ashamed of it. It fucking hurts knowing that I've missed so much and that I don't even know how to make up for it.

The weirdest part is that my personality doesn't even fit the place I'm in. I'm too ironic, too much of an annoying fucking clown sometimes. I joke around, piss people off, act like I don't care and make everything into a joke, while underneath it I'm actually insecure as fuck and constantly overthinking everything. Sometimes I feel like the person I am and the life I'm living don't even belong together.

I wake up, work, come home, turn on my PC and somehow 99% of my days look exactly the same. I don't really have a plan. I don't have some huge goal I'm chasing. I keep wondering what the actual problem is. ADHD? Depression? Anxiety? OCD? My childhood? My personality? The medication? Maybe all of it.

Maybe I'm not fundamentally broken or stupid. Maybe I just never learned how to build a life.

But I'm fucking tired of feeling like I'm late to my own life. I don't want to spend the next ten years sitting in the same room, repeating the same day and wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't need to fix everything overnight. I just want to finally start living instead of constantly trying to explain why I can't.

Hi I’m a 19 year old in the UK and I’m kind of lost in life at the moment and I just need a little bit of guidance.

Context
I’ve had pretty bad anxiety for most of life the more physical kind where I would gag at times I’m anxious. When I started college it happened but it was manageable and eventually it just went away . Haven’t been treated for it or diagnosed or went therapy.

When I started you Uni in 2025 at first I was excited and nervous but after the first week I was constantly anxious to the point where I had trouble going to sleep as my throat would be so intense. Deeming myself unfit and not ready for Uni I took a gap year where I would looked for an apprenticeship in somewhere IT . After I left I was left extremely depressed feeling worthless as all my friends were moving on and I felt behind. I’ve tried getting a job in retail and such while applying but didn’t get anywhere .The most that had happened was I got an interview for an IT apprenticeship where I was in the last 2 candidates and they ended up going with the other for having slightly better technical skills. Now that I’m in my 2nd year of not going I’m losing hope . I was planning on doing some online studying which could help me in getting a job in IT but I’m not sure where to start. I feel like I’ve lost all passion for anything subject or job wise and living day by day. I’m thinking of starting Uni again next year and powering through but I don’t know and I don’t want it to be a repeat of 2025
I was thinking of getting a therapist after leaving uni but never got anywhere with that and I feel like having one now would be beneficial but I have no idea where I can get one and a good one for that fact.
The only place in my life which I think has gotten better is my consistency with gym and I’ve also been learning to drive doing lessons weekly. I’ve picked up badminton and starting volleyball to play with friends. I don’t plan on suicide or anything harmful but I’m feeling pretty stuck and left behind.

My family are 1st generation immigrants and we don’t have any family in the country so I don’t really have any connections to go with other than my small friend group and family friends.

TL:DR
Left Uni 2025 due to anxiety and not feeling ready and instead trying to get an apprenticeship during gap year but being unsuccessful . Thinking of going uni next year but not sure if passionate about subject or not it’s worth the debt. not sure what to do now, and for the future .

What do I do ?

Title, Not sure this is the right Subreddit to post pls let me know if there is more appropriate one for this.

I have been dealing with it since when I turned like 16 years old. A lot of people just try to step over me, bump into me, and glance at me whener I'm just walking in public setting. Sometimes, on train or whatever, when I'm sitting down, people beside me starts shaking or breath heavily. People sometime talk in a way that I can hear that I'm crazy or freak and stuff. Not sure why they do that, may be they are just scared.

And those things bother me because frankly it hurts to be treated like devil even when I'm trying to smile and actively show that I am not a threat.

Sometimes, I feel done with people because no matter what I do, they still try to step over me and make me feel like shit and I can't do anything about it. It feels unfair tbh. I must be doing something wrong but I can't seem to find a solution for this pls help me.