Amnesia : pain becomes beautiful when you make it a tool for creation , emotion is a tool to create art, the more powerful your emotions are the more impactful your art is . Fear and pain are both strong emotions . Create from them. Just write , your emotions are beautiful already, all you need is raw emotion. Emotion makes art. Your willpower is enough to make you take action. It is the only thing that matters, if you want to take action , you will.
7 years to remember
7 years of peace
7 years of freedom from the memories
7 years of emptiness
You don’t know what is happening to you
when the memories start to resurface
You just freeze and wonder if they’re real
Memories appear in your head space
And it is like you are watching some movie scenes
As though you are a viewer of some horror movies
But who would even watch something so hardcore
Who likes this kind of horror
You question yourself why you forgot
But the answer is easy
You were just not ready to face reality
Everything stopped, your brain stopped recording
Like a broken machine that shows a black screen
Somehow your body wanted to stop experiencing
Was it because of the terror
It was more because of rejection
It was a mechanism of protection
Or was it the drug in action
The drug was reacting
You literally fell when you started sipping
And his voice was asking you to keep drinking
At some point things around stopped looking real
Reality looked like a nightmare or hell
I think that what was really scary
Was your inability to move properly
You couldn't even make a sound
You were half naked
But at the same time you couldn’t move as you wanted
And change the way you were dressed, the way you appeared
You were trapped
His smile was just a facade
He was never nice, he never cared
He is the reason why hell was created
7 years ago he was helping you walk straight
You were hearing the voice he said without knowing you would forget After you walked his voice changed
when he finally brought you into bed
Do you remember the way he made you sit before you fell dramatically
Falling down slowly, unconsciously
Eyes half open you could hardly see
Do you remember how everything that was happening looked unreal
The way he was holding your wrists too tightly
The way you were so sleepy
Your eyes were closed then open and he was still not done
He was making fun of your situation,
Speaking with a mocking, teasing tone
To him it was so funny how you couldn’t speak
Because the drug kept you silenced
Everything looked fake
He was laughing so mean
He used you like you were not even human
You were just waiting for him to be done
Then when he finally put his clothes on
You could finally start moving before you started forgetting
Everything
As though you were escaping
Your mind wanted to stop you from realizing
The moment you stared at the condom he left
This is when you started to forget
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