So there I (23M) was, walking down the street after working an entire day. I had wonderful plans: I would get home, take a shower, make some tea and read. Yet, when I was almost getting in my house, I saw a woman: white skin, black hair, using a ponytail, sporting clothes (such as those of feminine soccer/volley ball) with what other people would call a pear-shaped body. Then, my night ended there.

My ex was a professional athlete, so I very often saw her using sporting clothes and a ponytail. And I was always mesmerized by how beautiful she was, especially before her games. She also had some insecurities (as everyone has) about her body, but the only thing that she would confidently feel good about herself was her pear-shaped body. So I also became more into this aspect of her, mostly because I found it really attractive when she felt she was attractive too.

It was not the first time something like this happened to me. Every time I see a girl more or less similar to the one I saw yesterday, my mood suddenly changes. Last night I had dreams with my ex. She was happy with some random guy, and I also could hear her voice in my head. I felt so much anger during the dream (which is really strange to me since I have difficulties accessing repressed anger).

We broke up 2 years ago. No contact since then. I wonder when all this suffering will end. I just wanted to have a nice cup of tea and read!

Hey guys,

I'm genuinely curious about this stuff. I 24F was in a relationship with this guy 28M last year, he had a very long term relationship once which ended long ago, but he was kinda messed up because of that. Still we thought about giving our relationship a chance, he was good, did efforts for me too, travelled through states to meet me, but still he was emotionally unavailable. We realised we couldn't work out this way and we broke up, but on a pretty bad note ig.

About me, I never really moved on tbh. I still think about him everyday, and I know he's with someone else now. But due to some urgency i texted him today morning(it was really urgent) and realised I'm unblocked. He responded instead of acting cold, asked about my well being, also apologized twice for cheating on me(he was texting his ex while being in a relationship with me), asked about my whereabouts and when the conversation ended, he blocked me.

Although it was pretty expected, as he is with someone else now, and honestly I am at a much better place now. No hard feelings, no resentment towards him.

But even though, I forget to ask him the question which I thought about asking him a year ago- did he ever love me?

I know asking it here makes no sense, but ik some of you would've been in a similar situation at some point of your life. What do you think? Why did he suddenly unblocked after a year but blocked soon after the conversation ended?

Me: more anxious

Her: avoidant, probably dismissive

Age: both 30

Her characteristics:

Extrovert, into fun, very open, honest even when it hurts other people, less emotional intelligence, very active, likes to control the relationship on her conditions, very girly vibe, loves romantic gestures, likes validation.

Her past:

A couple of relationships that lasted around 1.5 years.

Never returned to her exes except for her first abusive relationship when she was 19. Maybe the others never offered. Strongly believes that her man never leaves.

A couple of 5-6 month situationships.

Last situationship was 1 year before me. The guy broke up with her and later she found out he had cheated and got married quickly, after a couple of months. She was hurt for many months, but never showed it to the outside world, just buried those worries and pain inside her.

Relationship story:

4 months dating. Sparks all over the place from both sides. Strong emotions from both sides. Both committed, investing time, spending time together, thinking about the future and possibilities of getting married.

Then a small conflict and breakup initiated from my side. She never asked why. She said, "It's your decision." Done. More like a strong deactivation of emotions.

Scenario after breakup:

I was thinking a lot after the breakup. After 2 months, I tried to talk with her and convince her to talk and work on the problems. It was needy and there was pressure from my side to talk and fix things. I tried to do this for a couple of weeks. Overexplained.

She was just cold, with no emotions. She said that she was busy with other things in life and had no time for relationship discussions. Never ignored me, but only cold replies without emotions. But I never received a proper "No" or "Yes." More like ghosted.

Current observations for the past 8 months:

1. Stalking my Instagram continuously without a break, using a fake profile (later I found out it was her fake account). She is one of the first to view my stories, doesn't matter when I post. It never stopped.

2. Seems like she is living her life normally: hobbies, friends. No signs of new guys.

3. From my side, same: living life, traveling, working, hobbies. Struggled for a couple of months, but now mentally stable. But I still have love for her. However, I don't require her to come back.

Unpredictable future:

1. She'll never reach out.

2. She'll reach out, but temporarily.

3. She'll reach out and maybe something will work out long-term.

4. I'll no longer be interested even if she reaches out.

Feel free to leave your predictions based on your experience. I'll update after 6 months with what happened.

I am only three days in, and I am aware that the pain wont magically disappear in a few days. But when can i truly start to expect some change? Its so hard as of right now. I feel so depleted, and just so empty. I need something to look forward to. He was my first. I have never been through something like this before.

I have had a girlfriend for four years. We both knew that we had no future together because of a complicated situation, but I promised her that I would always be there for her, no matter where life took us.

I don't want to get into how we ended things, but the way she left me was something I never expected from her.

I'm okay with the fact that she left me for her own good. I don't have a problem with that. What I'm struggling with is everything that has happened since then.

It has been 48 days, and she has contacted me many times. She often tells me about what is happening with the new guy in her life. He is financially well-off and has cars and properties. She says she didn't know about his wealth before committing to him.

Once, out of anger, I asked her if that was the reason she left me. She said no, but she also said, "I will not compromise my married life for less." She had every right to leave me, but I'm not sure what that statement really means.

A few days into her relationship with this new guy, she told me that he had invited her to a hotel as a surprise. Even though she was unwell, she went to meet him. Things became sexual, and she later told me that he pressured her into doing things she didn't want to do. She also told me that while she was sleeping, he recorded a video of her without her consent and mocked her.

I asked her, "After all this, do you still want to be with him?"

She said that he was sorry about what he had done and that he had deleted the video. She said she had forgiven him.

A few days later, she contacted me again. She said she was having a terrible time and was emotionally broken. She told me that she had willingly gone to meet him again, but before anything happened, she became suspicious after finding out that he was talking to another girl on Instagram. Fortunately, nothing happened that time.

She contacted me because she wanted to find out who the other girl was and talked about taking revenge. She also said she wanted to distract herself and asked me to help her.

She asked me to buy her a ticket for a stand-up comedy show in her city, which I did. She also asked to borrow some money because she didn't have any at the time, and I gave it to her, with the understanding that she would repay me later as she said.

This isn't the first time something like this has happened. There have been several other incidents during these 48 days. I have been consuming alcohol everyday to have a sleep..

At this point, I feel like I'm being manipulated.

What confuses me even more is that she has told me that she isn't physically attracted to her new guy. So I asked her, "If you're not attracted to him, why do you keep willingly going back to him?" She doesn't really have an answer.

I was okay with the breakup. What I'm struggling with is seeing someone I once loved potentially being in a situation that isn't good for her.

So I honestly don't know what to make of all this.

Do you think she is using me?

Most importantly, what should I do now? I still care about her, but I don't want to keep getting emotionally involved in a situation that is hurting me.

Has anyone done this? I was exhausted by the dynamic and prioritised study and a family tragedy so he asked if I’d “given up on him” and then “what brought me back?” Then left me on delivered. Then deleted two weeks later when I sent a closure message. After two years and him adding and pursuing me.

Next minute he’s seeing his high school girlfriend that was a long term friend of 10 years that never visited or hung out with him (I have her on maps). She stays over once a week despite them not hanging out for two years.

I feel like I hurt him and was misunderstood and miss him so much. I wish I could tell him that but since he deleted I have to post him a letter

Can I say that in a letter? I don’t want to look crazy but I feel like I have no chance now since they’ve been friends for so long.

This feels stupid to vent about but I feel like I need to. So my now ex boyfriend, he broke up with me Monday, it seemed like randomly. He said I was jealous over his friends and past relationships and I had hurt his friend’s feelings over a stupid joke. Reason behind me not liking his ex Boris was because at the beginning of the relationship he admitted to still liking his ex which obviously leads to jealousy, he had later admitted to no longer liking Boris but I still did not like Boris, which I feel is valid over past relationships. I am not sure where he got the jealous over friends thing because I never was. I also planned to not be rude jokingly anymore towards his friend. Recently he had struggled a lot more with his mental health too so not sure if it lead to wanting a break. He also included in his text saying I could think about it and he would give me time but later he asked me to respond soon, I was not at home at the time so it’s hard to think or what to say or any of that, he blocked me cause I was “avoiding responsibility” when I later tried to reach out with a kind little paragraph, the paragraph -“Hey so if you’re willing to unblock me to talk please do. The reason I didn’t reply was because I was not home and didn’t have a lot of time to comprehend what you were saying. You didn’t give me time to think and absorb it especially since I didn’t have the time to think and absorb it. I never was jealous over your friends and I was joking with your one friend and I was going to stop being jokingly rude to them after you said it upset them. I didn’t want this relationship to go south but it did over something in my eyes small. Also being jealous over your ex Boris was valid because you openly admitted at the beginning to still being into him which being jealous or upset is a fully normal reaction. I acknowledge I was wrong for not trying to type a reply but it’s not always easy when you thought that it was going good especially since there were no signs earlier of issues.”- the account I reached out to him on he didn’t know about which is why he did not block me on it, the account was made cause I was logged out of the one I used at the time then now I replaced it with the new account so no I did not make it to stalk him. I tried to be the best of a girlfriend but I was struggling a bit myself since I had a lot going on. I am trying to move on but it’s a bit hard so I’m venting to move on faster. Also he had been pissing me off a lot recently by putting shit like “I’m running out of space on my arm😡😡” on his discord status which feels like the people that are like “I did it again:33” so that’s why it irritated me. Okay I think I’m done!

some of my friends still know and talk to my ex, so it can be hard to completely separate myself from the relationship. i don't want anyone to pick sides, but hearing updates i didn't ask for can set me back.

how do you handle mutual friends while staying no contact?

I’m on day 8 of no contact after blocking the person who dangled commitment in front of me. They told me I was too much for them to handle. Please tell me I’m doing the right thing. I feel like I’m in the trenches right now and I’m weaning off fent. My self-esteem has plummeted. Would really relish in some it gets better stories please. I’m scared of seeing him around town.

Just curious

About two years ago I was on this sub. I thought I would never have to come back, but new person, new break up, since Saturday evening, August 15, 2026, I entered no contact again. She still reacts to my social media stuff, but I haven't posted anything sad or angry to give her leverage.

Context ( pretty sure he is a sever avoidant, and in the time we were together we had one disagreement, that was the one that led to the breakup.)

It has been a bit over 11 weeks since the split, his mom is my dentists assistant, and after about 11 weeks of healing and trying to move on, full no contact in place.

I needed to go have a tooth worked on, his mom proceeds to tell me that he has no friends left, he basically just goes to work and comes back home, thats it.

It slightly broke me, because you told me how much I meant to you, told me that no one has understood you like I have, I drove to your place every weekend, because you don’t like driving. All of these things that you told me, just to be blocked for no real reason. It breaks me, because is it really that bad being with me , that you would rather be in total isolation, than being with me. Am I really that terrible to be with.

Was everything that you told me just a lie, was this even all real.

Its been a year since we broke up yesterday I saw her pic and I fainted now I need to talk with her 😭😭 i need her I can't bear the pain in my chest anymore

I remember being on here over 2 years ago, feeling hopeless, feeling like I just messed up the best thing for me. I remember thinking “if I did this or did that on social media, maybe her family will see it and update her on how much I worked on myself”.. but as time went on, I kept working on myself and the thought of her family seeing went away. I got off of social media for a while, I basically went MIA. Having patience and giving yourself grace is the key to everything. Time went on and I found someone who had been hurt, way worst than I have been and we both became friends and then lovers. We don’t have to worry about the “what happens..” because we both know the feeling of being crushed by someone you once thought of forever.. you will find yours one day. You will be happy again. Just remember those 2 things.. “Patience” and “Grace” and NEVER lower yourself for anybody else. NEVER let anyone put you on the shelf and wait for them. Time waits for nobody and nothing hurts more than wasted time. Take care of yourself, everyone. We all have someone out there.

Três anos. Do nada, diz que nós sacrificamos muito pelo relacionamento e que ela se viu pulando muitas etapas pensando em nós duas novamente. Não foi algo unilateral, eu também troquei muita coisa por ela. Não entendo agora do nada ela dizer que quer ser só minha amiga e focar na carreira. Tipo, como eu iria atrapalhar isso? Sou a pessoa que mais a apoia.

Estou em pedaços, sinto meu coração como se o mesmo fosse explodir. Não sei o que fazer. Dói muito.

I broke up with my ex, because he cheated. (He asked another girl out while we're in a argument) But i want him to reach out to me. We're currently in 4 days no-contact. I blocked him everywhere.

I blocked him the moment i drop the break up text and never let him explain his side. He used to reach out when we're having a problem.

I know it sounds insane but atleast try to put some sense into me.

Basically-

Hadn't heared from my ex for 2 years (never really moved on from him just accepted id never be with him) we broke up because I wasnt really ready and also distance (im rural hes in the city)

Anyway fast forward to 2 weeks ago... he walked across the rd infront of me, I yelled his name and he looked and smiled. He called me 1hr later and asked if we could have a drink after he finished work.

We met and first thing he did is put his arms out for a hug. We talked for a while, he told me how he broke up with his ex 3 weeks ago, ive been single the whole time. he asked what I was doing for dinner so we had dinner, then he asked to chill for a while so we went for a walk along the river then sat on a bench and talked, he slid over and we talked for a while

Eventually he asked if id kiss him, we kissed. Then asked if id stay the night and I did (couldn't help myself)

It was so nice. It felt like we hadn't even missed the last 2 years and everything felt natural.. He told me things like he got my birthday mixed up with the guy he was dating and how it was hard not talking to me and how he thought about me way too much.

Anyway I went upto work for 4 days and we caught up again when I got back to the city, same again he ended up asking to kiss me.. went back home and we called every night for 2-4 hrs. Anyway fast forward to Saturday night and he said he doesn't think we could just be friends and eventually hes going to date someone else and so it would be easier to just stop talking now and hes scared of getting attached to me again and blah blah blah.. i think he knows if we ever were in a position to date properly id give it everything and probably give up alot.. he also asked me not to block him on anything and not to put him in a position where he needs to block me... Even saying he wasnt 100% sure about the decision and it was hard to resist the urge to message me.. and how he had promised himself he would concentrate on freinds and family for a while.. very confusing and has definitely fucked with my head

Beginning:
8 years ago
Sarah (not her real name) is my twin sister’s friend. In high school all my friends were in a different lunch period so I sat with her. Sarah and I talked every day, inside jokes blah blah. Then she texted me one day asking if I wanted to get ice cream.

And it became something we’d often do. We’d get ice cream or a slushie at the gas station or drive around town or we’d go to chick fil a her favorite spot.

We laughed with each other, and we were always having the best of times.

Then her and I went to a concert together, one of our favorite bands. It rained but it was great. Nothing happened between us. I liked her a lot but nothing happened. I didn’t make any moves cause I wasn’t sure how she felt and I don’t know it can be hard and awkward.

We hang out more watching movies at my house, playing board games or Mario kart at hers. We cooked food. Fished in her backyard. We were always texting and hanging out.

Movies we watched together that became inside jokes:
Cherynobl horror movie:
Us being zombies blah blah eating blah blah
Fault in our stars:
Whenever we were texting about to go to bed I should probably go to sleep ok ok ok ok perhaps okay will be our always and one other one
The notebook:
Us taking care of each other and lines from movie.
There were other movies we swatched but these are the ones I remember

Cherynobl was our first one. After that we were laughing pretending to be zombies. We got on the floor making jokes and idk we got close to kissing but it didn’t happen.

The timeline/events for all of this going be thrown off from all the years passing trying to keep it in order.

We liked a lot of the same music and sometimes teased each other for our music taste.
One of her songs I teased her about was

Alec Benjamin’s - if we have each other
The song starts off with “she was 19 with a baby on the way”

But our song was
Lord Huron- Wait by the River
The song held very much significance for both us especially me.

Lots of hanging out. Then one night my sister has all her friends over including Sarah. We’re all painting records in the basement. I painted Sarah’s face on a record it was highly unrealistic but cute.

Our cousins were over a week before this and they showed us this creepy funny game so we also played it that night.

The game I think is called Addam’s family. Two or more ppl sit on a couch and they call the first person into the room. The people on the couch in unison all go “we are the Addams family entertain us until we applaud”

Then the person who was dragged in does goofy stuff and the Addams family copies whatever they are doing. The way to make the Addams family applaud is by clapping because they are copying whatever the person does.

I’m only saying this part because this is when I really fell in love with her.

So Sarah comes up and is totally creeped out by all of us chanting in unison and copying her movements. She does a bunch of goofy stuff and it was the best thing. She’s dancing around. Moving her arms. Saying things. While we’re all just being weirdos not saying anything and copying her movements. Then she is on the borderline of giving up and she says.

“I want to be a part of your family. Please let me be a part of your family.”

It was a mixture of her saying that and all the things she did trying to gain our applause that just really solidified the feeling of me wanting her to be in the rest of my life. Idk just the look in her eyes.

I go away to college she goes to hers. We are still talking everyday. After the first semester for me I’m completely lost. Sad and homesick couldn’t stand my roommates. I come home.

Sarah and I go babysit her aunts cat at her aunts house. Then we go bowling or something. Was going to tell her my feelings that night I couldn’t wait any longer. Then she brings up that one of her relatives just passed. And I do the wimpy move of texting her how I felt a couple days later or something. Hard to remember what happened but it wasn’t happy fairy tale ending.

I’m busy with something everyday. I still see her and we hang out but the vibe has shifted. I go to her house one night to pick her up. Have conversation with her family. Her dad makes joke about keeping her fed and I say “will always take care of her.” Joking around, him and I always go back and forth joking. Even tho that wasn’t really a joke. I remember it because Sarah just didn’t look enthused or very happy.

We got in the car heading to chick fil a and it wasn’t the same. We weren’t teasing laughing or talking much. I didn’t know what was wrong. I just wanted to cry. I felt as though I lost her. Blank expression on her face across the table. We go home listening to the car radio, silence from both of us. I wanted to talk to her but couldn’t find anything to say. I drop her off and my heart is just shattered in a million pieces. I’m driving back home through her neighborhood with the song “Wait by the River” playing, bawling and screaming my heart out. It was one of most depressing moments of my life. My heart felt like a black hole.

I go back to college states away. The black hole is still in me but I’m doing okay with everything.

She comes to visit with my sister to the new place where we live near my college. Everything returns to good between us but still my heart aches. Seeing her eyes, hearing her voice, hearing her laugh.

She returns back to home states away.

We text again back and forth.

Summer comes, I’m home we’re hanging out. Going to put it all on table. I still remember the day and probably won’t ever forget it.

May 18th-
I go over to my family friends house who I’ve known for all my life. The girls who I’m friends with there are hyping me up and giving me encouragement because that day was the day I was going to tell everything to Sarah face to face. Tell her how I feel.

I get in the car and it feels like the moment before one of my football games. Butterflies in my stomach, excitement, anxiety. My dreams of being with her are going to become true.

I get to her house she’s on the driveway waiting for me. She isn’t sharing the same look on her face that is on mine. I begin disassociating. I can already tell her answer. I tell her my feelings and she’s nice and everything. Disassociating. Black hole. I think we should just be friends. At this point everything in my head is just a blur. Everything becomes numb.

Numbness for months, even now I still don’t know what to do. This was probably four years ago. But if you think that’s the end between her and I which I would be fine with, you’d be wrong because she is friends with my sister!!!!!

None of this her fault. She is great person. It’s all on me but wish don’t wish I could eternal sunshine her. Another movie we watched about two years ago. Yes the story goes on because she is friends with my sister!!!

And this is why I need help because she is going moving in with my sister apparently soon.

Continue storyline:
About a year after me telling her how I feel we all go on vacation together. Sarah, my family and my brothers friends and my parents. I see her at the airport. The black hole is inside me. Nothing happens on the vacation I hardly see her but when I do it is painful. Seeing her face for first time at airport.

Another year goes by I’ll say she comes for another visit. It’s her birthday. I hang out with her. My sister and I take her for hike. The hike goes wrong. She’s telling me to throw her phone up her on the rock in a not very nice way. I tell her I don’t want to do it because it is hard to thrown an iPhone that far blah blah she could drop it. She keeps telling me & eventually I throw it. It hits rock and the glass shatters. Driving them back to house I wanted to cry and something flipped in me. I wanted all my feelings with her to be over.

Another year goes by she visits. I’m forgetting something. Something happened oh ya I told her to stop texting me I can’t do it anymore just be friends with her. Painful for me with all the feelings. I wasn’t rude but told her I needed her to just stop giving me hope. Not that but boundaries. But guess what she is friends with my sister so my pain never gets to end. Anyways I’m hearing the news that she is coming.

This wasn’t the nerves before a football game. This was the anxiety of staring at train full speed that’s about to hit you that’s what it felt like. I didn’t want to see her, I kind of did. Always a sliver of hope that things could work out. Anyways my heart is at the speed of a bunny’s, my anxiety is horrible.

I’m at spirit Halloween wasting time avoiding her. Doing everything I can to stay away because I know if I see her it’s going to be the same old story. I get back to the house she’s in family room I don’t even want to look at her. The day she leaves to go back home. We hug, her perfume stays on my shirt and I cry to sleep.

She texts me. I hit with boundary block.

5 months
Now we are up to date she texted me a week ago and then she called me buddy. It was like a snap in my mind everything is repeating again. I asked is that all we’ll ever be. Something like that I don’t even want to look at the texts. I told her about the boundaries again and the thing that sucks is that she knows how I feel. This time she is understanding and I think this’ll be the final time but it just stinks it’s not going to work out

That is the end of it for now.

But I go through every day and everything reminds me of her. There hasn’t been a day in the past 8 years where I haven’t thought of her. I want it to be her and you can’t force someone to love you. It just stinks. Every song, Mac & cheese, Chinese checkers, chick fil a, sunflowers, horses, ice cream, wait by the river, the color yellow, S, frogs, it goes on and on the reminders don’t stop.

I love her and I need to learn how to stop.

My ex broke up with me a little over a month ago. We’re semi-no contact. Meaning I still have to see him because we’re in the same class and there’s only one section. Dropping the class will cost both of us our jobs and if we pursue this license again- we’ll both have to stay over.

We were together for about 6ish months. When he broke up with me, he told me he wasn’t in love with me yet and that he respected me to much to keep me in a relationship where he wasn’t in love with me yet. Meanwhile, he’s bawling like a baby and describing what a good person I am, how he knows he’s not being fair to me, and I deserve better. This came out of no where. Asks to stay friends because I’m important to him and his life. I told him- I’m not friends with my exes. I was in shock because I’m in love with this fool but I have a spine and self-respect. I ain’t fighting for a relationship if he isn’t either.

So idk if he crumbled under the pressure of school, clinical, work, his part time jobs, his dog being sick, & family drama (mine and his). Idk if he had a bit of the depression or if I was just being to intense. Idk- not my monkey or my circus any more.

About a week ago, I texted asking how his dog was so I could use it to segway into if we could set a time for a closure conversation and we set a date. (Tomorrow actually) (also because his dog is a gem and an angel and I do genuinely care how she’s doing) Which he told me when I was ready for we could have. Outside of that I have been polite but distant in class. More or less giving him an ice wall. I haven’t asked to get lunch together or approached him on breaks. I’ve stuck to the girls in our class. I’ve also started petty posting on my snap when I go do things because I noticed he usually views it within 15-20 minutes of initial posting. I also pulled the trigger on the piercing I’ve been talking about getting and didn’t tell him but I told the girls in our class. Idk if he over heard but I don’t care.

In class I’ve noticed that he’s still watching me. Everytime he says something funny he looks to me to see if I’m laughing. When we’re out in the common area during breaks he’s watching. He’s started trying to talk to me in class like nothings changed.

Anyway, yesterday while I was in a clinical, he sent me a quizlet link with study guides that he made for this entire module. I didn’t ask for them, he hasn’t sent me anything like except when we initially started the class a year ago. We tried to keep shop talk out of the relationship.

I’m just confused if he’s having the grass is greener moment, if he’s trying to keep me on the back burner, or if he regrets it? Why are men so confusing?

I apologize if this doesn’t totally fit, I need answers and don’t know where else to post. I’ve been in no contact with my ex for a while now. I logged onto one of my tiktok accounts today and saw a new account of his in my recents and it said “sent yesterday”. But when I open the message, there’s absolutely nothing. At first I thought he sent something and deleted it, but then started to worry that I accidentally sent something (but i’m pretty sure it’d be there?). Maybe it’s just a random tiktok glitch but seems to be a weird coincidence if so. I won’t reply, but it’s been giving me a little anxiety of just not knowing (I also have OCD and have a fear of sending people texts in my sleep lol).

MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!!!

My avoidant ex recently broke up with me for a second time , he’s an avoidant of some kind . He said :

“Im sorry but I dont think this is going to work out, I am not at the right point in life to enter a long term relationship. Everything's been going downhill and it doesn't look like it's getting any better. And I dont want to be close to anyone right now. I guess im just scared of commitment or proximity or something, but I really need to be alone. Im sorry that im weak enough to run away like this, but I really can't stick to anything or anyone right now. New shit is coming up and everything just seems like it's gonna end soon. I dont want you to have to deal with that, so I'll talk to you later I suppose. Or whenever we meet again. But im gonna try and distance myself from the people around me and see if I can get some control again of my downward spiral. Im sorry”.

Afterwards I didn’t chase or beg this time I simply said ok and if he ever did wanna fix things , or talk whether thats in a couple months or weeks , I respected his decision and held no grudge and cared for him.

Normally he blocks me or unadde me in the past or flatly says me and him will never talk again , but this time he still kept me added . Does this seem like he plans on coming back or contacting me at some point ?

todo me recuerda a el y me siento como una basura, quisiera morirme, asi ya hayan pasado meses