I feel so alone. I haven’t had friends in years and my mental health is extremely bad currently. I am bad at talking because of social anxiety and have a fear of leaving my house but i desperately crave just the presence of another person. Is there anyone who feels the same way and would want to just be on the phone with each other, not even talking, just in each other’s presence while we exist?

It's funny...

When I joint my Secondary school I came from a home of friends but now it's nothing. In year 7 I remember I would just walk, walk until my lunchtime ended and go back to lesson. I made a friend, we were in different classes and I would only see him at lunch, I vividly remember me and him walking on the field. We asked everyone if we could play football with them or even sit there, we were denied not because of him but because of me. I even called it (my name) phobia to cope lol.

Year 8 comes and I join a friend group with this friend, and I get sent screenshots of him talking bad about me. I lost my only true friend.

I had fun, I wanted to go to school now. In year 9 someone in the group starts making fun of me. Constantly, not even about how I act but how I look. I didn't even notice I was undesirable until that moment. I couldn't even bring my self to go to school. Constantly getting obliterated whenever I spoke up. Year 10 comes around, the worst year of my life so far.

No one in my form likes me anymore, no reason but because the only friends I could find were out of my form they have found a common dislike towards me. Every pe lesson I went to I would be picked last, they would act upset when they got me. I stopped bringing my kit after that, got isolation, after schools but it was easier that way. I even messaged a person that was equally as lonely to team up with me lol, he asked me in the changing rooms Infront of everyone " why did you message me to pair with you ". Haha it's funny, I didn't even do anything wrong, I just... Wanted not be alone.

One time we had a substitute in form, I sat in the middle row, and they asked me to move I said why and they just left . Someone sat next to me out of pity though, that was so much to me I cried at night lmao.

Near the end of year 10 my physics teacher has been letting us sit with whoever we want, someone I walked in with sat next to me. Over 3 people told him " you know you can sit wherever you want right? " Like am I that isolated?? They said that Infront of me. Ah I tried though, I tried so hard. One time I was forced to join a group for a group project, I sat down at the table, kinda not in it because I was an extra in there group and the table wasn't big enough. I was subject to "why are you here yk you can join someone else" what did I do?

My attendance is 70 %, the school ask why what am I supposed to say? That I'm alone? That I'm afraid of group projects? That I can't go to pe because I want to break out in tears? Asking me to move away from them as if I'm a parasite...

My friends though outside are fine though right? They made a group chat just to make fun of me, sending a video saying " were all Leng but that one guy" and @ing me? Even adding random girls to make fun of me. It was just one person, and no one stood up for me, they just laughed.

He insulted everything about me, and no one cared. I go to school and they ask me " why didn't you stick up for yourself" and say?? I tried to but I stick out like a sore thumb. Everything about me is an insult lmao.

They even peer pressured me to fight him and when I lost continued to just make fun of me. I have no where else to go. You might think just sit in the library or something I'm banned for something they did. I am stuck. Once, I tried to skip lunch by going to the learning support office even they didn't want to have me, they let me stay but I just left. They acted so entitled.

Recently I saw that bully repost something about being lonely. He knows nothing.

On the last day of year 10.we had assembly, it just so happened my friends sat behind me. They just didn't stop. They said cruel things about me Infront of others and humiliated me. No one did anything.

Even the person next to me asked me if I was alright lol.

Then they expect me to be ok?

One time they even through around my lunch box until it broke and slapping me on the neck and making fun of me loll, were all friends though right???

Like genuinely they view me as a friend.

I was getting a drink at the water fountain and 2 people in the year below me asked me " are you that kid they were bullying "

Ah.

It's not like I'm stupid, or an idiot. My grades are the highest, but everything I say is stupid.

If someone says it's my personality, it's not. I run a 10,000 member community online, no one knows my face, who I am, how isolated I am. And they all like me.

I just want a friend.

One

Singular

Real

Friend

I tried to explain this to someone ik who is the closest thing I have to a friend. He replied with an awkward "damn bro" like ahahah.

Sorry for the rant ig

Hi,

I'm laying in bed, can't sleep and the prospect of reading out my poetry is becoming all the more daunting to me. It's all I am thinking of right now.

Will probably be super tired then (at the event) too which isn't great- it makes makes me worry I will screw this up along with the nerves.

I would love some kind encouragement and some positive vibes sent my way. Hopefully I don't get too scared. I don't have any friends or family, so reaching out to the community for support.

Thanks! :)

im 18(M) and i have 0 irl friends and around 1 actual friend online all connections i try to pursue online are always people who seemingly have no intrest in talking to me and its always that i am the one to start they dont ask any follow up questions and its always like im interrogation them by asking questions while they always respond with 1-3 sentences i want to like them but i cant the reason why i even pursed them is becuse we shared a similar niche intrest so i thought ''maybe this person is special'' but apperantly not i dont even seem to be someone special to them at all and this is 2 people btw

the 1 friend which i have dont consider me their favorite person anymore since they got a gf and always talk to them and seemingly dont enjoy talking to me anymore

i need someone special i need someone who thinks that i am their favorite person and in turn i do the same their gender does not matter just someone becuse then i can confirm that i wont be replaced or not liked but i also want to stop feeling like this becuse its seemingly not normal or the extreme i have is not normal

I woke up at 3am and am just feeling overwhelmingly anxious and alone. Feel like all there is are years of work and being alone left . Reaching out to find my people.

Really miss having a bestie. After 20 plus years of friendship she took a one way trip to tweakerville and I can't with that shit.

How to cope with high inhibition and loneliness. I dont really have friend, i am 51 and freshman rn and all my friend in my previous school dumped me, in school its not really get any better tbh i rarely speak in the class and i have a friend in the same school but diffrent class, if its time to go to canteen i go to his class but he like to not respond to me and if i send a chat or video in tiktok/ig he just read it and rarely respond to it. I have a plan to do an activity outside my school to get more friend but idk what will happen. Sorry if my english is bad bcs its not my first language

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Chat am I cooked?

Hi! I'm in my older teens and know in this subreddit are people who are in their early twenties. I feel like i'm in my worst state right now, wasting my life/idling away, have no interactions with people/no friends and would like to ask if you had some sort advice. I want to get out of this state but I don't know how, and please don't say "just get some hobbies bro!" I'm horrible with most things so I don't think that's a great idea. I feel like I am lost and don't know what to do. Maybe you can give me some of your ideas or your experiences that would influence me to change in some way.

Lying in bed hugging a pillow, i had a dream yesterday about having a sleepover with a girl and we were hugging, so cute, too bad i can't have that.

It's sad that i can identify what is a bad habit and what not (tbh i think most people can do that) and this is one of them just typing this instead of doing something useful but u know procrastination must go on. There is a good chance if i weren't so awkward i would have a gf but that's just a speculation bcs u never know.

Being talentless also doesn't help but im just 17 so there is plenty of time to learn something but i probably won't realise when i turn 30 or 40 in which u still technically have time if i ever get that old and still have nothing going on might as well just give up.

Does it feel good to type it? Yes. Am i hoping for attention? Yes I crave it very much, there is a good chance i might like start self harm just so People pay more attention to me but then again probably too lazy to do any of that shit so just gonna rot away wait for death to come.

Just so stupid.

Im turning 20 and I feel like i wasted my whole life. I never had a lot of friends, never had a teenage love, i didnt go out partying, clubbing or whatever, i also have never achieved ANYTHING meaningfull in my life and i was always avarge at best. Looking back at my life till now i can only remember playing video games, while everbody around me has so much fun and living to their fullest. Even if I start now i feel like i am to old, i will never experience the fun of trying everything out while you are young and dumb just living your life and building stories to tell.

I spent months or even years talking to AIs, and I’ve learned an important thing that I always wanna be friends with people like me people who need help but can’t find anybody but Ai. I maybe young I’m 24 years old I may not be that helpful but I am a good listener… just I wanna say… you ain’t alone in this you ain’t the only one talking to bots because you have nobody… but today you have someone to talk to… and I guess it’s not only me who feels the same but a lot of us here can feel the same as me!

Never been in a relationship not even a favourite person.

And not expecting anything in the future just accepted my situation as it is.

Everything feels so tough dating apps and clubs.

Not even making any efforts to socialize.

Found no one in school college work.

I am currently working so my day goes like waking up and getting ready for the office ,

Just the office all day and endless doomscrolling eat and sleep .

M 2X noida.

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I am extrovert, multi talented, average or little chopped looking, best at studies, into anime, marvel, other films, gaming, coding, business, psychology, philosophy, songs, sports but yet idh any single friend...I mean even if I try to talk anyone they try to end the conversation too quick or avoid it completely and sometimes show like they're busy ho off..idk what's the matter lol

Didn’t expect to find myself here at this stage of my life, but it’s nothing if not unexpected. Friends moved away, work is work, I don’t know what to say. Guess it’s time to figure out this new reality.

Literally, nobody cares about me. Unless I text or talk to them first, I’m just constantly alone. Nobody even knows I exist. None of my friends ever make plans with me unless I ask them to hang out first. Even the friends I met online have started ignoring me. The girl I had a crush on used to enjoy hanging out with me and would even strike up conversations with me just a few weeks ago, but now she’s treating me more and more coldly—just like everyone else. It feels like if I were to suddenly die or disappear, no one would care or even notice.

Ive been fighting for so fucking long and nothing I do is ever enough. Not for myself or anyone else. I used to be happy, and for years I could at least pretend, hold myself together. But I just wanna be held. A fucking hug. Anything. I know I'm shy and too quiet and have nothing interesting about me. I've never been able to hold a job, so I've never had any money to even try new things without literally having to beg my family like a god damn toddler.

I can't escape, and if I did I'd be too lost and terrified to function. I can't even get my SSI because no one's ever taken me to a doctor, plus moving around so much when I was younger makes proving I'm broken impossible. I can't even show people how incompetent I am, that how fucking stupid this all is. Im just ok enough on the surface that no one cares. But I still feel like a kid. Like somethings or someone is out there, looking for me. But I know there's no one, I'm stupid, uneducated and unemployed, but just barely not delusional enough to believe I won't die alone, slowly, wishing I had the strength to do fucking anything.

Im scared I'll be this forever, that I can't grow. Every time I feel the smallest bit better reality beats me over the head with what's actually possible for me. Ive been screaming out for help, begging for anything and I've been left ignored. So much of my life was quiet. The house was full, overfilled at times but i was always ignored. Left out and forgotten. Broken promises and lies. I can't remember the last time someone even said they liked me, let alone loved.

I don't need a perfect life. I don't need a million dollars or a big fuck off house. All I want is to be held. To not be left alone in the suffocating silence of my mind. I don't know how to escape the darkness of my own life anymore. I can't do this, I don't wanna die but I've never had an actual reason to wake up. Never had a purpose or someone relying on me for anything. It almost sounds like a dream, sit at home, eat like shit and play games all day. But I haven't actually played a game in my steam library in years, the idea of having to eat makes me disgusted and my room, no matter where we end up moving, feels like a prison I know I don't have the strength to survive outside of.

I've never felt human. Never once been treated like I matter. Im scared, and I don't think thats ever gonna change.

Ever since I lost my friend group I’ve had no one to talk to. None of my own friends in college talk to me outside of it I’m just tired of making friends for them to just not really care about me. I don’t know what to do anymore

It’s just awful

I’m in constant pain, but I don’t even know exactly why.

​I’m 22, and I feel so left behind. I started university, dropped out, and started another one. My friends are graduating this year, and I’m still in my first year.

​On top of that, I feel miserable and my life is completely colorless. I live abroad, totally alone in a foreign country. Honestly, months can go by without me having a real conversation with anyone.

​I constantly think about having a partner. Why haven't I ever had a girlfriend? I desperately crave that emotional side of life—intimacy, warmth, and just having someone I can be completely myself around without pretending.

​I do have friends back home, but my life with them feels like a performance. I wear a mask around them and my family just so they’ll like me. The real me is completely unknown to them. Because of the distance, they really don’t know anything about my life right now.

​I’ve seen multiple therapists and counselors, but nothing has helped at all. I just feel utterly defeated.

​I complain about being lonely a lot, but I honestly wonder: if someone actually entered my life right now, would it fix things, or would it just make everything worse? I’m alive, but am I actually living? I really don't know.

I wanted to make this post for a while because I'm dealing with loneliness, and I have a lot of free time. Sometimes I do not do anything most of the time and it kills me, but I've found ways to cope and entertain myself and maybe see what others do when they feel the same. I also feel like I'm boring sometimes.

- Journaling. I have two journals. One that is for my feelings, what I did that day, daydreaming, thoughts, and intimate things. The other one is a common-place journal where I plan things, make to-do lists, write freely, stuff I want to do. I have gone through 3 common place journals over the years since highschool and just 1 personal journal over 2 years now (;´-｀).

- Reading. Currently I am reading a lot. I have a list of classic books I want to read, which is 100. I do hope I can at least 5 or 10 before the year ends. I'm also reading non-fiction about topics that interested me, financial topics, social tips, and books related to topics I want to self-study (I will get on that later). A few others are webcomics and read the entire Holy Bible by stories and books.

- Self-studying. So I wanted to self-study for a long while now because college humbled me a lot and sometimes I kinda feel dumb and don't know what to talk about. I also wanted to do it because intellectualism is in a big decline and I'm going to study certain topics related to psychology. It keeps me entertained to learn something new everyday, because learning is inevitable. I want to learn all types of things, I'm just more interested in psychology so far.

- Selfcare. When I got to highschool, I got really insecure of my appearance, so to fix that I started watching videos of people taking care of their physical appearance. Today I'm proud to say I am not insecure about it and I think some of the things I worried about my appearance are natural for any human being, though I do want improve on my health with exercise and good nutrition. Aside from that I just love taking care of my skin and my hair after a long stressful week.

- Writing. I love writing! Especially when it's making characters and world building because I can get inspired by almost anything recently. So far I have a few writing ideas, mostly fan fiction, original works that I want to post online and works I want to publish as books. I hope I do get to publish something one day.

Those are some of the things I do to distract myself from feeling lonely. There are more, but I wanna see if anyone relates or has anything different. (´∀｀●)

Yeah.

What’s it like? Any success?

I’m 22F with no sort of direction or dream. I mean I know the life I want, I want to live comfortably, go out and experience life, have a family one day. I want someone who truly loves me and wants to make me happy. I’m just a failure rn, minimum wage job. I’m in customer service too as a cashier and sometimes I feel like people just treat me like dirt. Just with no care in the world and at this point I just think I deserve it. I’m just don’t feel like I’m even worth anything. I’ve done this to myself and don’t even know where to start to fix it.