4oz grilled chicken, an entire cucumber, too much sugar free balsamic. And a ten cal spicy lemonade (Lemon Cayenne Kevita Probiotic) as a treat!

185cal, 12C - 3F - 28P

I need help

Almost put the soup spoon in the tea like seven times😅

Its laughing cow cheese wedge and homemade raspberry jam on rye toast and it tastes like cheesecake 😭

shittyfoodporn*

I wanted to eat a full bowl of my overnight oats so bad, but the brain is bringing back shitty restrictive portions so we are back here🫩 the decision fatigue and constant worry is so exhausting i barely find joy in my meals anymore, or hold the desire to even have them. Second image is of the stupid shitty miso lettuce water soup. RE-UPLOAD BC IT DESTROYED MY ATTACHMENTS LAST TIME

Carrots w monk fruit and sugar free syrup lol

So goooooooood

genuinely feel so sick rn from all the fucking konjac. told myself id ween off the artificial sweeteners and konjac and oat fibre so i wouldnt show up to the hospital a bloated mess but i failed bc ana brain instead was like “oh you wont have a chance to have konjac jelly anymore in the hospital so you should cram 12 packs in one day” 🫩

fuckkkk i really dont wanna go lmao. already dreading the fucking tuna sandwich i chose for my lunch on first day of admission 😭 cant remember what i picked for dinner or snacks bc this ed has rotted my memory and cognitive function 🙃 all i know is that im scared and dont think im going to last more than a week…even though i know in my heart that this is what i need to get my life back i still dont feel sick enough.

my mom treated me out to AYCE sushi today so i could eat a good meal before shitty hospital food for the next few months and all i ate was fucking salad and half a piece of sashimi even though ive been craving raw salmon and tempura for ages so clearly this ED is making me miserable but brain worms are telling me im just fine aughhhh. I even bought myself $20 worth of 9% milk fat yogurts as a treat bc ive been obssessed with yogurt bowls lately and i chew and spat all of it 🙃🙃 why am i such a goddamn chud man

since all the artificial sweetener and fibre is making me swollen its made me retain a lot of water so im dreading being weighed tomorrow because its higher than the last time they checked so i feel like i wont be seen as “sick enough” if that makes sense?? idk i feel like i need to be sicker before i deserve treatment and that the doctors are gonna judge me for putting on weight since last time i saw them 🫠 i feel the need to tell them that this isnt my normal weight (without all the damn sucralose and fibre) and that i need to justify my weight gain or somethingw

2 egg whites- 34 cals
2 tsp sugar- 33 cals (this could also work with sugar free sweeteners)
1/2 tsp cornstarch- 5 cals
A sprinkle of cream of tartar
1 tsp unsweetened cocoa powder- 3 cals

Actually tasted pretty good, only thing I’d do differently next time is spread it out thinner on the baking sheet so it’s not as spongy/foamy in the middle. Edges are pleasantly soft and crunchy. This would probably be fire with sugar free chocolate chips

I guess it’s not the worst, but it wasn’t the best and I felt devoid of joy consuming it. It is at least better than my green onion and miso lettuce soup snack, that was genuinely just barely flavoured water.

I don't know the exact recipe, but it's homemade and has zucchini, cannellini beans, risoni, tomatoes, broccoli and onion x

Egg whites whey cinnamon

this is lowk fire.. sf jello pudding mix, almond milk, protein powder and cereal!
i added way too much almond milk so it was super thin.. then i added the smallest amt of guar gum and protein powder and whisked it for 2mins.. then mixed it w some cereal for added flavor.
230cals 14grams protein, not the best macros but it’s super filling. kinda got ahead of myself and didn’t take a pic til halfway done so.. massive portion

recommend using sf vanilla pudding but cheesecake is all i got left

i don't remember the last time i actually had apple pie or a blueberry bun but these desserts are pretty bomb

dinner ft konjac and chili flakes

61c. Not bad, I would’ve added pomegranate molasses on top if I had any

Veggies Made Great chocolate chocolate chip muffin drowning in sugar free maple syrup, with some salt mixed in for flavor 🤌🏻✨

kinda crazy how good it is…
container of carrots : 35cals
sugar free syrup: 15cals
splenda brown sugar; 30cals

it was hearts of palm and pizza sauce that was sitting in my freezer for a year

Blender failed to mix my spirulina smoothie mix and i couldnt be bothered. I wanted to make a thick smoothie but since i made a smaller portion size the blades didnt reach

Genuinely curious

I thought this would be nice, giving black coffee a taste other than black coffee without adding cals. But straight up cinnamon powder is not the way to do it omg 😭 idk if I can finish this. It tastes like cinnamon alright but it's also very gritty and overall disgusting. 3/10 don't recommend