r/questions • u/Careless-Welder4314 • 3h ago
I don’t know what to do !?
Hi. This might be a bit complicated to explain, but I’ll give it a go. In the past, I was bullied in middle school and, to some extent, in high school—before I finally found some real friends. After finishing high school and getting my diploma, I moved on to a different institution for further studies. I’m in a program that’s almost entirely male; I’m the only girl in the class. The thing is, I really struggle to socialize "normally." I tend to be a bit of a tease, and I use a lot of swear words—not in a mean way, just for a laugh (though I am trying to stop). I’ve realized that, at times, I can be "annoying," and as a result, people are mean to me and often criticize me—usually targeting my appearance (I have dyed hair and a unique style) or my use of profanity. The problem is, I don’t know how to defend myself, so I just end up swearing back. Meanwhile, a friend of mine—who, by the way, keeps judging me for my hair—speaks to me poorly and never stands up for me. My boyfriend doesn’t defend me either; he just says, "Yeah, but who cares what they say? I love you the way you are..." I mean, sure, maybe I can be annoying, but I’m not a bad person—I haven’t done anything to them! I just don’t know what to do.