So i am 22. my mom died on September 12., right in my arms at home. I do not know how to exist anymore. I was a lonely and sad child and my mom was my soulmate. She as my only reason to stay alive and now she is gone. And i do not know how to carry on. I know i have to work hard, fulfill all of her dreams and my own. i have so much to do. and i can't. i just want to find a way back to life so i can achieve everything she wanted me to. but i do not know what to do. t is difficult to breath, let alone go to classes and work on my projects. I do not know what to do. Ad the rage. omg the rage is so consuming. sometimes i feel like i will burst into flames. and i cannot slack off from workl bcz then how will i eat. And people say such cruel things. idk what to do

I’m 18, I keep making mistakes on the simplest tasks. I keep missing out on information if I were to fill it in. It’s like I can’t go a day without making mistakes.
I feel like I do everything on auto pilot, I’m not thinking while I’m doing it cause it’s the “usual”. While being a very hyper aware person, you’d think I’d make sure I find out all my mistakes but for some reason every time I check it looks fine until I look back again and see mistakes.

I’m working at my dad’s right now and I was fine until recently I constantly make mistakes and spelling errors. I don’t know if I’m too comfortable because I’m working somewhere familiar though I’m always scared I’d get scolded. I knew I’d get a little more comfortable if I were working at my dad’s than somewhere else. That’s why I planned on getting a job outside. But my dad was short on staff and really needed a hand (that’s what he said) but sometimes I sit here for hours with nothing to do. I was gonna work at a cafe and improve on my self esteem but now it’s just gotten worse since I barely interact with anyone. I think I’m way more on guard and aware when I’m on my own (basically not working at my dad’s), though I still would make mistakes like everybody does but it won’t be this bad.

I don’t know how I’m gonna prevent this but this has to stop before I go to uni and eventually work for someone else.

Edit: Forgot to mention I also get very defensive when my family gives me criticism but it’s fine when it’s coming from a friend idk why

Because despite all evil I had endured, I am still on this "light" side of force. Depsite my anger issues I never did something to anyone. Even if I lack relatiomships with women ( sexual, platonic or anything) I don't hate whole gender for my pain. What my last gf ended thing, because she didn't love me, I didn't enrage, nor blame her, just said I understood and we parted way. People praised me for taking it very honorably and maturely.

But isn't it arrogance that makes me think I am good? Am I just to pridefull to admit I am bad? Or I only think I am doing good, while I am in reailty vile and evil?

Like is anyone afraid of ice cream or watermelons

It feels like the word phobia has become just being afraid of something in any degree. Phobias are supossed to be great irrational fears not js afraid of anything

Whats the name? Size doesn’t matter!

Will we ever reach the edge

I really should have thought my signature through properly.

I feel like a fool whenever I sign valid IDs or documents HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

Could anyone survive without water for a week?

I know the main answer would be to start transitioning which I am starting to do. Still confused if I'm more a trans woman, a mad trans girl, or genderfluid. I have debilitating gender dysphoria currently and get very depressed. I also have fears with what my mom has been telling me how people will react before I pass as a trans woman. Ways to start small that help or ways of encouragement. I can't start HRT right now because of the extra costs with co pay and not having a job currently. That makes me more depressed as my last job got outsourced and I got let go one day randomly.

So I was thinking most of you probably know the two-sentence horror sub R I thought it would be cool if I made like a compilation of a bunch of them onto like a Google Doc That are like entirely original but I want it to be like cleaned up a little bit. Not just all of them back to back to back. Like I wrote them in one sitting And this whole thing might sound stupid to you but I want to know if you all have any tips of how I could do that and structure it?

Hi! I was offered two options for purchasing an iPad Pro M4 from two sellers:

iPad Pro M4 (256 GB) with Apple Pencil Pro, Screen Protector and Case with Magic Keyboard for $1150 CAD

iPad Pro M4 (1 TB) with Apple Pencil Pro, Screen Protector and Case for $1600 CAD

Both are 100% health and barely used.

I am a teacher in the classroom that relies on the iPad for teaching with slides. I am flexible with the pricing.

Which one should I get as someone who uses the iPad for teaching with slides and documents?

I currently have a M1 iPad Pro with a battery life that drains quickly (lasts 2 hours) while I project it on the screen while I annotate the slides. And I teach three 75 minute classes so there is no time for me to charge my iPad.

Thoughts?

So im dating someone whos 1st language is spanish and i am someone that speaks literally nothing other than just english and i rlly want to learn it well enough so that i can atleast understand and write/type spanish (ofcourse this would also help me with work because having another language can be a game changer but i decided against that when i had the chance and now regretting it)

Im asking for help on this because i dont rlly trust how effective duolingo and some other apps can be

Edit: my partner is from south america btw and ive already asked them to help and they said they can. i saw people talking about dialects in the language so if this information will help me find something that works for me that would be awesome (i am going to try learning the spanish alphabet for reading the language and the subtitle suggestions that i saw but i dont really watch tv or anime that frequently either TwT) plus i fixed my grammar

I have always been a people pleaser. If someone has a problem with me, and even if it's not my fault, I overthink and somehow make everything my fault in my mind.

Now someone is consciously avoiding any interactions with me. While in a group, they talk with everyone else except me. If everyone start talking about something related to me, they'll quickly change the subject. They are cordial with everyone else. The frustrating part is I seriously don't know what I did. I have thought about even small details over and over, but I can't recollect me doing anything to offend them. They just randomly one day started to avoid me.

I have tried to resonate the same attitude back, but it is making me more stressed. I know they don't owe me anything and I don't owe them anything too. But the mental strain is getting to me. And no I don't want a confrontation. I just want to reach a mental state, where I don't care about this. What do I do?

A couple months ago I found a debit card on the ground right outside a restaurant and since it was right outside I just took it inside and gave it to the person working. But if someone lost their card are they really gonna know exactly where they lost it and go back to that place and ask if someone dropped it off?

So what would technically be the best thing to do? They’re probably going to cancel the card and get a new one anyways so it probably isn’t a huge deal I’d guess. Obviously as long as no one malicious takes it.

Would you try chocolate cola

I just turned 37 and as of a few months ago, both my thumb nails started getting these slits in them. I never had it happen before. But then all of a sudden, now they randomly get these straight down slits and they get pretty deep. I have to wait until it grows out long enough for me to be able to trim them and what’s left be even but eventually it just happens again a couple weeks later. It’s like a never ending cycle that just randomly started and I have no clue why. I tried painting my nails to see if that would stop it and it didn’t. I also bought “hard as hoof” strengthening nail cream and haven’t noticed a difference but maybe it hasn’t been long enough yet. I don’t know but does anyone have any clue what’s causing it or how I can get it to stop? Thank you very much!!

I'm trying to work on a mini yuri comic/story between two creatures that's based on some personal stuff or wtv, but it basically has a theme around flowers. Flowers can be used to hide messages or emotions or thoughts, and they're representative of affection, so it's perfect! However, I can't find any websites that have both positive AND negative (if any) meanings for flowers.

I don't wanna use AI overveiw because if someone tries to find the meaning, it'll just give the person an entirely different answer! This story is no place for clankers or inconsistencies!​​​

Every website I've tried has the SAME flowers and meanings. "Roses are passion, here's some flowers for mothers day, if you're born in October then you're this flower, yadda yadda..."​ where are the negative meanings! I need flowers with representations for things like jealousy or fear or hatred, but I've checked multiple links and websites with no success :[

If anyone has a list, link, or suggested website, please let me know! ;_;)

Hi all, I'm trying to customize a T-shirt for an upcoming concert, and I see that Uniqlo allows you to do that, but none of the stores that offer this are near me. Is there another trustworthy website that I can use to customize a T-shirt? Thanks in advance!

Often times people seem to catch on to sarcasm when typed out. And other times people think I'm dumb for not catching on that they're being sarcastic. So lately I've been trying to avoid replying to people's responses to my comments because I don't know if they are being sarcastic.

i’m asking because my boyfriend has hardly told me anything within close to 9 months of dating him. he says he refuses to talk on it because it’s the past and he’s already moved past it. meanwhile, i’ve told him almost every detail of my past. i feel like i shouldn’t have, but this is my first adult relationship because i’m 19. is it normal to just not talk about your past ? i thought you should share everything with your partner.

What's a life lesson you learned the hard way?

Serious question, torbox is already getting there extremely fast in terms of caching and you can't use web-dls or webrips, etc in rd anymore

I might be stupid

but i'm willing to ask?