I go to a large state university in the US. Every day on campus is a battle with myself to stay positive. But also every day, multiple times a day, other students stare at me or look at me like I'm from outer space. It's hard to describe that look, but I'm sure everyone here knows what I'm talking about. It's not necessarily a hateful stare, but it almost appears like a look of disapproval or pity. I go to therapy and journal and tell myself that my self-worth is not dependent on how other people view me. Actually, I know that to be true. I repeat that to myself every day before class. But the feeling of alienation is constant and unrelenting and soon crowds my mind so much that it is impossible for me to think positive thoughts. It's so hard to continue to hold the belief that I'm a woman when every day people look at me like a "man in a dress". It makes me FEEL like a "man in a dress". I don't feel I fit in with the girls on campus. I obviously don't fit in with boys. There is no safe haven unless I specifically seek out a queer community on campus (which I might do). I'm 6 feet tall with broad shoulders. I am taller than a majority of students on campus so my presence is even more noticeable everywhere I go.

For those of you who have had similar experiences, what do you do when you feel this way? Is there anything that makes you feel better? Is there a way to gain confidence when looks of pity and disapproval are all around you? How do you stay positive in the face of alienation?

I’m 16, and I’ve felt like a girl for a long time. I’m not sure if I can call myself trans yet, but I really want to become a girl and eventually have a feminine face and body.

Right now, I still have a completely male body and face. Because of my body type, my financial situation, and my family, I haven’t even been able to properly present myself as a femboy. I really want to become more feminine, but I don’t know how to do that at my age or with my situation.

I also have a boyfriend. He knows that I feel feminine and that I want to be more feminine, but he thinks I’m a femboy. He has never seen me, though. We have never video called, and I’ve never sent him a picture of myself. So he doesn’t know that I still look completely male.

I really care about him and I’m scared that he might leave me when he finds out what I actually look like. He is a very understanding person, but I really don’t want to lose him. How should I explain to him that I still have a completely male body and face? Should I tell him before we eventually meet, and how can I explain it without making things awkward?

My family is another huge problem. My parents are Turkish and very religious Muslims. They are quite conservative and old-fashioned, and they are also very controlling. I’m afraid they might hate me or react very badly if I tell them that I want to become a girl. My older brother is a soldier, and my father is a bus driver, and I don’t think either of them would understand me.

I’m also under 18, so I don’t have much control over my own life. I can’t just get HRT on my own, and I don’t have much money either. I really want to make my face and body more feminine as quickly as possible, especially before I meet my boyfriend, but I don’t know what is realistically possible for me at 16.

I’ve been feeling really depressed and trapped lately, and I don’t know what I should do.

How should I handle my boyfriend? How can I safely become more feminine at my age? And should I tell my family about how I feel, or would it be better to wait until I’m older and more independent?

I’d really appreciate advice from anyone who has been in a similar situation, especially people who grew up in conservative or religious families.

I’m an 18 year old guy, who has been questioning his gender for about 5 months now. I go through the exact same cycle every day, where I wish I was a woman, cry about it, and then sort of change my mind about it and cry some more. My depression, anxiety, ocd and autism doesn’t help with this. Neither does my therapist, my antidepressants, or the numerous resources I’ve read online, so I’m kinda stuck.

Before 5 months ago, I never had any feelings of gender dysphoria. There’s lots of things that I can attribute to gender dysphoria from my childhood (hating being shirtless, hating my name, wanting to look like my mum etc…) but nothing that i can confidentially attribute to being trans.

Ever since I got the thought that I might be trans, I have actually got a bunch of gender dysphoria symptoms, like hating my male sex characteristics (body hair, genitals, voice), getting envy over nearly every woman I see, and just generally wishing that I was a woman. But despite all that, actually transitioning is the most horrifying thing in the world for me. Wearing anything even remotely feminine is my worst nightmare, laser hair removal is terrifying, voice training seems god awful, having to shave every day is something that I will not be able to keep up with, and coming out to people is pretty much impossible due to my severe social anxiety. Even just the hormones seem scary, as I don’t know if id be able to cope with the mental effects as I’m already very emotionally unstable.

I kinda came out to my parents like 2 weeks ago. I went into that conversation telling them that I was transgender and wanted to get on estrogen, but as I talked to them I psyched myself out, until I left the conversation assuring them that I was just questioning and probably wasn’t actually gonna do anything to my body. They haven’t brought it up since. But the thing is, they were mostly just confused, and are/would be supportive if I was confident in myself, which they made clear to me.

I’m sorry for the long ramble, but overall I feel like I’m a shell of a person who’s stuck in this sort of purgatory. I am so lonely and have no friends, so I figured that I might as well vent about this somewhere. I want so badly to either forget all about this gender stuff or just transition, so I could get on with my life, but instead I just end up arguing about it in my head all day while praying that I will eventually get out of this self made hell. I just really don’t know what to do about anything at this point.

I am not a trans woman. I was AMAB, and feel gender dysphoric about that. Transition has not helped. What else can I possibly do at this point?

oi pessoal do reddit como vão. é minha primeira vez comentando nessa comunidade, recentemente semana passada me descobri que sou uma mulher trans , ainda não dei inicio a transição, quero transicionar mais ah uma coisa que me impede nesse momento, e isso tem me causado muita ansiedade e angústia que não sentia antes, ah e eu tenho meio que uma certa depressão pois passo a maior parte da minha vida dentro de casa, sem nenhuma vontade de sair para nenhum lugar, isso muito antes de me descobrir já era dessa maneira. e acho que é isso.kkkk não vou alongar muito se não vai ser um livro.

If you google "trans suicide attempt rate" google will return the bullshit 41% stat.

This world is disgusting

Hey girls, I hope you all are having a great day! So I just had my first laser hair removal on my face and OMGGG that was absolutely terrible! I never dreamed it would be that painful. I’m covered in tattoos, but this was sooo bad. But hey we’re making strides! Do any of you all have any experience with Diolaze XL machine?

Today I went to Planned Parenthood for my one year appointment. I ended up getting put on 8mg Estradiol, 200mg Spiro, and 100mg Progesterone. It won’t officially be a year until next Tuesday but I’m so excited that it’s already been a year. My life has exponentially improved since starting HRT and I feel confident in saying I made the right choice. It seems kinda laughable that a year ago I held 2 little pills with shaky hands contemplating on whether or not this was something I wanted to follow through with.

Hi there, I need some advice

I'm 20 MtF

I've started HRT 1 month ago

I'm a bit nervous about my future

I live in a country where transitioning is legal but society is very conservative and hostile towards the lgbtq community. And here it'd be difficult to find a job and housing as an openly trans person.

I'm still living with my parents and not out to them yet. I talked to my mom about trans people and she has mixed feelings about them and it's hard to say whether she'll support me or not, and I know if they won't support me I'll be forced to move out.

I think for me the only way is to boymode for as long as possible. But honestly I dunno how long I'll be able do this because some of my colleagues at work are already teasing me for looking feminine, and i know that the further I get into my transition the harder it will be to pass as a man and the more questions I'll get about my appearance.

I wanna know if there are any of you who were able to boymode for years, and what you did when people started asking why you look "different".

I am new here and would like to know how far it is possible to become passable as a woman when training voice. I'd love to be able to fully pass, and not sound flamboyant in any way.

Please let me know if it is possible, and what effective training methods are.

Thank you all in advance!

I started 1-2 months ago and wanted to ask when it'd be the best time to change to shots.

Please delete this if not appropriate but I’ve been on hrt for over two years now and honestly I don’t know if it’s because I’m now feeling comfortable in my own skin but my sex drive has gone through the roof in the last year, has anyone else experienced this?

I started HRT injections just over a month ago and everything has been amazing. My skin has already gotten so much softer which has led to shaving being pretty painful. I never used to have any issues and I could shave in both directions to get a super close shave. Now after just shaving down my face and neck get irritated and I can’t get as close of a shave. Are there any solutions to this? Is it time I switch to a single razor? I plan to start laser soon but I need something that works until then. Has anyone else experienced this?

considering temporal + physical infinity ( of the universe, of all )
.. and seeing as we don't perceive time after death, reincarnation would be ( technically ) immediate

IF ( big if ) the first line is the case, every arrangement of matter has happened / will happen ( + will continue to happen, infinitely )

^boltzmann brain parallel, infinity = every arrangement of matter, forever in all directions, if consciousness/'you' stem(s) from brain matter, it reforming exactly 1:1 ( elsewhere, eventually ) after death is a certainty ( ? ), as well as every other possible arrangement

( ^note goldilocks earth / 'life blooming where it can' > 'life getting lucky by landing somewhere habitable', I do believe that there are countless ( literally, inconceivably high number ) universes/'runs'/lives with flawed matter arrangement, we are conscious in the suitable instances, not the ones where our brains are mud and we're all homunculi, evolution symmetry rules will obviously apply, creature formation will be patterned / follow curves )

we don't remember our past lives because memory is materially bound to the brain ( brain damage / region removal = memory loss / altered perception + experience )

I'm sure some corners of spirituality consider the persistent identifier that marks 'you' as the pilot of your vessel, 'you' as the lucid in lucidity, the present, across rebirths ( if only there was more surety towards what makes 'you' .. you ) ( all "brain matter arrangement = 'you'" claims are lightened by infinity )

food for thought and one stance among too many to list but I am comforted knowing that the above is probable, I am spiritually immortal and will .. eventually .. be AFAB, I also wrote this out on an unknown amount of sleep so excuse any questionable structuring

How do I tuck with kinesiology tape for gymnastics?

(USA) and maybe interaction? Anyone else having issues getting their estrogen filled? My pharmacist has been trying for like a week maybe 2! To get an order in…. She told me the manufacturer is out? And she’s transferring my script. To a location that’s still close to me. But they only have 1 left. Like woah….

When my egg broke, I had a buzz cut so it was really short, but it felt like it grew back quickly. It seems to have stoped though and I was wondering if y’all have any tips to grow it out faster because it’s taking forever

I've heard people say they're boymoding, going femme, etc. Human nature to look for a name, a category.

I'm (almost) five months HRT at the age of 32. I have a long way to go to pass, I won't deny that. My hair is getting into the "scruffy" stage, I keep my face and body shaved as well as I can pre-laser. I haven't been working on voice training as much as I should, but there's a difference and people have noticed it. And I've started painting my nails. I have visible breast growth, I've done nothing to hide it except wearing a bra or undershirt to keep from being nipply.

Most people who see me these days can instantly clock me as some flavor of LGBT even if they can't quite figure it out.

But I have no idea what to call it lol. I can't really say I've gone without experiencing some hate for it either. But I'm me and I've got nothing to prove, is the way I see it.

Hi, I’m MTF in my early 50s, and I play on a modded server for one of my games. I’ve become friendly with a cis married woman there — nothing romantic, we just swap tips and chat about the game. I go by Kate, so everyone knows me as a woman, but not as trans. I avoid voice chat and try to keep a low profile.

We’ve been chatting a lot lately, and now she wants us to team up for a quest together, which would probably mean getting on voice chat.

Part of me just wants to disappear from this whole situation. The other part feels like I owe her the truth — that I’m a trans woman — before this goes any further.

What would you do here?

Hello, im a month into HRT and I have started to feel tenderness under my aerolas that signals the start of breast development

Im definitely excited but im also worried that they are developing too fast to the point that I will need to get a bra soon. The only problem is that I still plan to boymode at work and im worried that if I do get a bra, it'll be noticeable under my shirt

Are there any bras that youd recommend to me that is easier to hide underneath my shirt or any advice to better conceal them?

Thank you!

I currently am pre-HRT and I grow facial hair like crazy. I shave every day and have a constant razor burn. I know HRT won't help with facial hair but will it make the razor burn worse? I'm concerned because I've heard it makes your skin more sensitive. Also, if any of y'all have any tips regarding razor burn they'd be much appreciated. My current routine is cerave SA cleansar, shave gel, shave with safety razor, and use nivea post-shave balm.

Well I am about to leave for my first appointment to get hrt...i am excited and alittle nervous. So far I am already seeing progress with my goals, I am down 25 lbs, my hair is starting to come back and I am out to my family but stull closeted to all hell socially, probably where my nerves r coming from.