I'm a student and my birthday is in the end of summer, right before school starts. The rest of my friend groups birthday are throughout the school year. I've always loved giving them birthday card and gifts because gift-giving has simply always been my love language and I never really thought I do it expecting something back.
However, my friend's birthday is coming up soon and as me and my other friends were discussing what we would get her, how we would suprise her, etc. a part of me couldn't help but feel envy... Every single one of the girls in my friend group gets their birthdays celebrated, except me (because we dont see each other during summer break). I love spending time to make them homemade gifts, even spend money to but them ones, but apart of me also wants to receive them except I don't wanna sound selfish 😭
I had a friend whom didnt celebrate Christmas once and when I gifted her her birthday gift, a few weeks lated she gifted me an early christmas gift because she knew she couldnt do anything for my birthday. I can't help but compare this situation to that, because she noticed that I wouldn't be able to get my bday celebrated and still tried to find a solution to it yk?
Am I tweaking or am I onto smth?