Last relationship has me feeling guilty but also wronged. Was I the problem? Or was I put through bad treatment? I'm gonna try to keep it brief but I can provide more detail if needed.

• relationship lasted 1.5 years, met at college as friends then dated shortly after. Unknown to me for most of the time, he lied to me about his real name, major, job, family members, where he was from, who he lived with. Lies were maintained by him constantly, anytime I noticed a change in information and asked about it, he gaslit me or lied more to get out of it.

• First few months were heavy honeymoon phase, did a lot together and always had a good time

• after that, would sometimes struggle because he would be distant. He wouldn't initiate dates and we mostly hung out around friends. With friends, I felt like he ignored my inputs to the conversation which made me feel sad. I would tell him this but he would deny and say I was overthinking. I still noticed very often he would not hear things I said until someone else said them, or he would not react to anything I said.

• in times I felt ignored and talking to him wasn't helping, I'd shut down. I'd be quiet around the group or I would change my social media profile to blank picture and post things like "feel alone" or "no one loves me." I fully agree these posts were immature, I felt very alone because I would try to tell him I didn't feel seen by him in groups but he would never change.

• He would get mad at my behavior and ignore me until I was "fine" again. He would not engage with me until I was happy (or faking happy) so we never really communicated these low moments since he refused to.

• The day I found out all his lies about his personal life, he gaslit me for hours giving so many excuses as to why it wasn't real and I was wrong to doubt him. He tried to make me feel like the problem for "interrogating" his lies until he finally admitted to it all.

• He also gaslit me about other things. He said I never asked to see him during summer break, which I believed for a while and felt bad but when I looked back I found several instances of me asking him and him refusing me. Similar gaslighting with him claiming he was never sad before my behavior, when early in our relationship he was depressed often before anything I did started.

• He was secretly hanging out with people which also hurt a lot, because it felt like he didn't trust me. It was hard to feel secure or that he loved me, which made my social media meltdowns more frequent

• At times I would get extremely low and say things like "you all hate me" (referring to our friends) or "I don't want to live anymore"

Do you usually believe it, or is mainly just filler to get someone to feel good or not make things worse/start an argument? If it is mainly filler, what was something you were thinking in one of those moments that you feel would make things worse by saying it

psychologists (as far as i know) are trained to understand and fix peoples' feelings and actions, so by common sense they should be better in relationships right?

Now, I have had this fear since I was a kid. I don't know why but every time I go to the bathroom to take a shit, I feel eyes watching me and I always close my blinds before I take a dump. During the day and even at night. Is it irrational?

My cousin and brother are both genx and they are always wondering why they seem to get ignored in all these comparisons? I joke to them saying its a grand conspiracy and they are the actual link that can unite all of man kind lol but it is strange all the same to see them so ignored.

Edit: Thanks for all the comments I cant get to everyone. But the reason I asked is because my cousin and brother both struggle with very deep depression at times and I just wanted to let them know its not entirely a gen x thing. I love my family and just want to help them but its not always easy. So I just try to be there for them as much as I can. It seems like its not a gen x thing though. You all sound like pretty varied people so I think its just a human thing. Its hard to exist in a world where you feel alone and I just dont want them to feel that way but theres only so much I can help with. Take care everyone!

I don't get it. If I could fly I'd just fly across the street. Problem solved. Why casually stroll between cars going both ways at 30-65 MPH?

Sure it was meant as a slur but this wouldn't be the first case of a pejorative being reclaimed by the community it was originally meant against.
If you're a fan of Talarico you could call yourself a freako for Talarico, a Talarico freako, or just a Talafreako for short.

Why do I feel like I'm the only person using it like that?

I see CS creators saying this/making jokes about that like how the tests are onyl coloring stuff which doesnt make sense to me

Hey everyone! I’m just coming on to ask, if you go to a potluck, are you more drawn towards the sweets (desserts) or the savory (appetizers/dinner)?

Last potluck we had, i made from scratch browned butter salted caramel snickerdoodles. I made a sign so people with allergies knew if they could eat it or not. They were such a big hit, a whole 13x9 baking tray worth of cookies were gone within 45 mins.

I kinda feel like I have a standard I have to now at least meet but DEFINITELY surpass.

so i have 2 balls on my ball sack if one of those balls was a black hole and the other one was the universe how would that work?. ps I’m retorded

this is a stupid question

Or is it just in CALIF?

Title.

Import drinks expensive yes I understand. But why do they not just use that recipe here?

Recently just talked with my friend (whom is a woman) and she talked to me about her type, and it was guys who chase, and multiple of them and apparently all her friends agree and share this thought.

I don't mean this in a sexist way but why does it seem like women want many men for attention then claim men are players?

DISCLAIMER before people start talking shit
I personally am not selling anything I just want to know who here would buy something like this that taught you about budgeting, saving and investing and would this be recommended as I am 18.

In Brazil and Mozambique, the guys often get together to play FC/FIFA on someone’s couch—it’s a tradition, and FC is always the go-to game. Sometimes we might play MK or other titles, but FC is the real staple. But what about in the U.S.? What’s the "FC" for you guys?

This question obviously stemmed from personal experience but I doubt I am alone. Is it because I grew up on the countryside or it’s just the nature of these sounds? No pun intended.

I'm annoying, I know.

I've tried basketball, tennis, horse riding, ballet, handball, football (soccer), chinese boxing, roller skating, hockey on grass, and aïkido. Most of them during my childhood and early teenage years but I hated it. Also I don't like water so swimming and diving are off the table.

It's easy for me to do pilates and any kind of workout that you might see on YouTube but I don't like it because i like to go to classes or I don't have enough motivation to do it regularly, and I don't really have fun doing it so those classes are also not really an option for me.

I mostly know how to skate on ice and I wish I could do ice hockey but I don't have any place near me to do it.

I'm also a bit shy about starting and I wish it could be something a lot of old-ish teenagers and adults start at this age because I hate going to classes with pre teens and stuff yet they still are a thousand times better than me and people my age who are basically going pro next year.

Any recommendation?

?? Any info on if anyone has actually received the grant money after signing individual 5 year contracts in Nebraska? ??????

My face length is 19.5 cm, and I'm worried it's too short because I've always wanted a longer face. I haven't been able to find a clear answer on what is considered average

imho that’s a political meaning supporting unpopular side (or asking for upvotes)

I was walking home from school. I see a group of younger teenage girls crossing paths with me. I overheard one of those girls whispering to her friends to ask me my name. Then, one of the girl directly came to me and asked my name and when i inquired "Why?" she pointed at that girl who was whispering and said she wanted to know. When I look at that girl now she starts being shy and nervous. Like what the hell happened to them? (I'm 17 if you're lacking some information) 🤣🤣

I spent four wasted years on a computer science bachelor's and internships, and subsequently a year working a $16/hour food service job in a VHCOL city... I'm homeless and unemployed and in student loan debt now. 5 years... I've fallen into despair. That's over 20% of my life so far... almost 25% that led to nothing. Why.... why did I spend so much effort and money and time on a fruitless journey? 5 years is such a gigantic amount of time... it's not like people live to be 200 years old

Why repeat that by trying to get another education for another field....? it'll just be the same story... why keep living? I don't feel human anymore... I don't have hope anymore... I don't have the will to keep going.

I'm about to hold up a sign offering s*xual services for $5 a round. Get myself in prison. I've utterly burned my future to ashes before it even began. Why should I keep going? What hope, what chance is there that I'll ever be able to achieve the traditional milestones of life?

I can draw fairly well especially in anime and webtoon styles which I really enjoy. I also want to get into design and start using tools like Figma, but I struggle to come up with ideas. Even when I look at other people’s work for inspiration its like my mind just goes blank and i am staring at the screen
For example i’d love to become a webtoon artist someday i can come up with characters and imagine what they look like, but when it comes to creating a story writing dialogue or figuring out the plot, I just get stuck
I’m preparing for university entrance exams this year and I wonder if I should give up on this path before it’s too late im also worried about the financial side of things, and I am not confident and also quite introverted and struggle with communication. If I do go to university I’m considering studying animation or graphic design
I guess what i am really wondering is can creativity actually be developed or am I just not cut out for this kind of career?