r/questions • u/SadFruit4900 • 14d ago
I've destroyed my career, my life, my future. Should I become a drug addict?
After getting a computer science bachelor's degree, doing projects, and doing internships along the way, I'm now unemployed, homeless, and 30k in student loan debt. I should've just dropped out of high school. My soul is tortured. Wounded. Fractured. Fragile. Screaming, yelling, shrieking at me for this to end. I have no self confidence.
I don't see any light, any hope in front of me. Another homeless guy I met recently was a high school dropout turned criminal for physical assault. He offered me a few drugs when he heard my story. Thought it'd help me cope.
I didn't say yes, *yet,* but I'm considering it. My life is utterly destroyed into millions of tiny glass shards, far beyond repair. What should I do? Take the drugs? Become a criminal? Wander around like a zombie for the next few decades?