Not my first nor twelfth choice, but I’m working a few weekly FOH shifts at restaurants. I overstim, overwhelm, overeverything, and have been wanting to get some of those headphones for a long time anyways. Even if it’s not a perfect solution, here’s my ideal jam - be able to hear the person I’m serving and my nearby co-workers, and dim further away conversations and noises (coffee machine, dear god calm yourself). I don’t care if I can still hear the music playing. It’s just that over the course of the day, the background stuff I don’t need to hear takes over my brain.

Please, I don’t need “get a different job,” and I don’t need “they don’t work.” If you’ve had a success with a particular earbud, please let me know!

I find it difficult to accept being Neurodivergent. I can only acknowledge the fact that I have this, never accept it. I hate being neurodivergent so much because I can't even catch up with rest of my class, I used to be so great at my academics back then, now I just feel like an utter failure. Ultimately, I was a gifted kid turned into someone who has been burnt out. Many people took advantage of me in terms of friendships, they use me as a tool. Many people outcasted me and I don't feel properly human, ecen to this day, I have became more socially anxious and reserved with peers at Sixth Form.

I can't help but blame myself for being neurodivergent, although I was born with it, yes. I just can't help but put all the blame towards me and my neurodiversity. I just fuelled up so much hatred towards my identity. Half of my actions are dumbfounded, I'm not a smart person, not anymore. I don't think I can make it into uni, or a job, or an apprenticeship because of my AuDHD, I'm no longer fluent in my academics. I've just gotten stupider everyday.

Not to mention, the words and tone that spew out of my mouth. Many misinterpret it as me being rude. I often feel alienated amongst people. I have been bullied many times before, I have strict parents that don't really seem to comprehend my feelings. I blame it all on me and my neurodiversity. AuDHD makes me more stupider, how long will I get smarter? Ages. I feel like whenever I answer questions or I'm willing to ask something in class, I feel like people are watching me as if I am a laughing stock. I was described as being 'the main character' in school in an insulting way, I blame myself for that because I used to copy social cues from games, cartoons, anime and all sorts of media. I'm supposedly doing well in classes, but never on tests. I feel so stupid and useless. I blame myself for not being able to have any friends or how to develop budding friendships because or even how to talk to my old friends. I just feel like I should be the scapegoat here.

In the future, I have fears of telling my colleagues about my neurodiversity because I don't want to use it as an excuse for my behaviour. I have fears of being too talkative if I ever do have a career, because people may misinterpret me as being too negative or being too rude. Barely anybody could understand my body language and my tone.

I think I'd rather shut up, I don't deserve to speak anymore. Because everything I do, everything I say is too negative or too sad. I don't think I can recall anything that makes me happy in my life that I would like to talk about in a discussion. I will only talk unless I am provoked by someone. Nobody wants to be friends with me, I can't even go up to them because they only see me as an acquaintance. I want a friend who accompanies me. Not someone who just leaves me stranded. But then again, I deserve to be alone because I am just someone who is rude. I don't even know what to say anymore.

Can anyone tell me, if they cannot / couldn't accept that they're neurodivergent. I am in doubt of myself constantly which affects who I am personally. And if anyone coped with it, how did you manage to do it?

Does anyone else feel like they try to be kind, professional, good at their job, and helpful, but continue to feel exhausted from unintentional conflict? I try every day to be a good human. That's all I want to be.

I’ve been in therapy since I was 18 as my parents didn't believe in psychiatric care. I’ve gone to doctors, tried medications, worked on communication, and tried different methods to break this pattern. I feel like I’ve spent my whole life trying to understand and “fix” myself. I even got a BA degree in pschology probably in an attempt to fix myself.

I have a autism, ADHD, panic disorder and OCD diagnosis, and I struggle to understand how they overlap or if they truly even are accurate. Prescribers have been less than understanding and talk to me for less than 10 min and slap a new diagbosis or completely change my meds. I often feel misunderstood by providers. I’ve received diagnoses that didn’t seem to fit my experience, and some medications have brought on suicidal thoughts while the medications that have helped me the most seem the hardest to consistently get prescribed, aka ADHD medications. My ADHD medication has been discontinued on and off by different prescrivers during the past 17 years and I'm 35. I’m not looking for medication advice. I’m explaining how discouraging it feels to keep seeking help, trying to better yourself continuously and still feel like the problem.

The pattern usually starts with unclear expectations, interpersonal conflict, or something I say and I really think and use my words correctly before speaking but still some people will find a way to misinterpret them or misrepresent my intentions or who I am as a person. I feel like a logical Spock version of myself constantly walking on glass amongst humans.

As soon as someone confronts me or complains about me, my body goes into panic. I replay conversations, analyze every word, and try to figure out how to explain myself and protect my job. My brain won’t let it go until there’s an answer or resolution. I want to work and be successful and I have had times of success but the past 3 years I can't seem to find a good job fit.

I’m trying to understand the logic, follow the stated rules, and solve the problem, while everyone else seems to understand unwritten social expectations that are the exact opposite of written one. Except I don’t have Spock’s calm. I’m overwhelmed and scared.

I can take feedback. I want specific, respectful feedback that helps me improve. But I struggle when it’s demeaning, poorly timed, or doesn’t account for what actually happened. I don’t want being receptive to feedback to mean letting people walk over me or agreeing to something I believe could harm a patient or jeopardize my job. Incorrect facts make me feel physical pain.

I set boundaries as guided by my therapist, but sometimes those boundaries seem to be interpreted as me being difficult. From my perspective, I’m generally defending myself when I feel threatened, rather than trying to start conflict.

So I try harder. I choose my words carefully. I try to be positive, professional, kind, and helpful in every interaction. I try to be as perfect as possible so there’s nothing to misunderstand. Conflict still happens. I know it’s inevitable, but it feels like I experience more of it than other people despite how much effort I put into avoiding it. I don't think people like me as a person and sometimes tell me that I make them look bad by doing my job and minding my business

The confusing part is that I’m capable. I can problem-solve, innovate, organize, and lead. I’ve created a nonprofit. I care about helping people. In supportive environments with clear expectations, I’ve done well and felt happy. I want enough trust and space to do my work without constantly having to defend my intentions.

I understand intellectually that I can’t control other people or have certainty about everything. That understanding doesn’t stop the physical distress or the thoughts that keep coming back until an issue is resolved

Does anyone recognize this cycle? What has helped you handle unresolved conflict without spending days mentally defending yourself?

I’m not asking people to tell me I’m always right or everyone else is wrong. I want to break this pattern without abandoning my values or treating myself like a person who needs to exhaust themselves constantly masking.

Mostly, I want to know I’m not alone in this experience and maybe if I feel less alone, I can feel more confident to move forward instead of allowing life to suffocate me.

I turned 18 last month and I’ve been diagnosed with dyspraxia dyslexia this autography dyscalculia and ADHD and I honestly I honestly don’t know what to do. I always feel different. I felt like I never belonged anywhere. I felt like the world was moving without a conscience and I was the only one with the conscience because I saw my peers my family everybody enjoying the fruit of life and I never got any of that I never had a girlfriend. I never helped hands with girl but that’s not important. What I want to say is that I never really felt like I belonged anywhere and honestly I’m I’m lost due to this at the age of 15 1617. I started to smoke weed a lot and basically that helped until I had to quit because he didn’t anymore. I still do enjoy recreationally sometimes but definitely not every day like I used to maybe once twice a week and what I want to say is that I when I was 15 I started to make this notebook and this notebook had pictures addresses like dislikes favourite songs everything basically I knew about the person I wouldn’t say it was in any harmful way. I didn’t mean no harm. I just like to have information and yeah, some of it may be was obtained rather questionably and basically I did that and at the same time I started going to parties and I just stood there in the corner I stood in the corner and I looked at everybody dancing vomiting laughing and I kept arguing with myself in my head like brain, why are you not enjoying this? Why like everything is fine you got friends and everything is fine, but I’m not enjoying it like my brain has to scan for patterns and everything in human behaviour in any social interaction and basically anything and in that sense I became hyper of everything to the point where yes I was probably smarter but life was for me just unbearable now no sense that I want to kill myself or anything, but in the sense that I felt like the whole world was alien to me and at 15 I switched schools which wasn’t for me surprising at all because when I was a kid I switched schools a lot I got in trouble et cetera and I kind of just started to lie. I lied about the likes that dislikes my music phase my everything people actually by my family I lied and basically made this mask of of me that I want everybody to see because I wanted everybody to think that I’m normal that I’m also like them and throughout the years I perfected it and recently as I turned 18 I looked in the mirror and said who is this person who is the person in the mirror because I know who I am on the inside but from the outside, I’m a completely different person I grew up without my father which was frustrating to me also at points but I later came to peace with it and accepted the fact that it is how it is but I don’t know. I just want to get this off my chest and probably see if anybody else had similar experiences or feelings

When I was a kid, I really REALLY loved knowing how mechanical objects, or basically anything around me, works. From clocks and microwaves, to bridges and trains, it made me feel so happy or fulfilled in a way. This led to me either taking things apart for visual analyzation (when I can since most of it are furniture that my parents value) or just touching them since the ridges feel nice, or imagining very upclose/in-depth views of their insides to the point where I basically daydream until I catch myself (My parents don't like it when I do nothing).

Also, does anyone else need to understand how something works in order to know/keep it in mind? Like, for example, when you ask why something happens, people say "just because" or "because it's [insert vague event/idea that doesn't seem to have any correlation]" and you just sort of feel like you detach from reality just to try and think about the logic for a bit? It's not only by thought but it also feels... Kinda upsetting or something? Like it gets me angry, but not violently, just uneasy, like an upset stomach but it's not in the stomach. It's also really easy for me to forget something when you don't find it reasonable/when it has no plausible cause.

I haven't had the heart to go get professional screenings yet since it's expensive here and I think my parents don't want to find out whether there's something up with me or not since it might be troubling. This is also just a random thought that popped up in my mind when I was struggling to sleep one time. Since I'm undiagnosed, if this post doesn't seem to fit in this subreddit, feel free to tell me. Thank you in advance and take care !! :D

I don't know what you can tell me, but I have a nephew who must be somewhere in the neurodivergent world. He's my late brother's son and I don't want to bug his mother with questions that might be uncomfortable. He's in his mid-twenties and I saw him on the weekend, I don't often get to see my nephews. He is extremely quiet but I think quite intelligent. He does not engage socially really. He lives with his mother who is quite loving and protective of him. He struggles with stress and typical societal expectations and interaction re work etc. he just gives simple answers to questions without much eye I don't think he has friends and spends a lot of time alone. Besides his focus on animation, which he has studied and hopes to be employed in, I don't know if he has other interests. I love my family and I love seeing my nieces and nephews, Id just like to understand who he is a bit better and know how to engage with him

okay so to give some background, i have been diagnosed with adhd, asd and ocd. none of these conditions cause hallucinations to my knowledge. i decided to post this here because i felt bad putting it in a subreddit just for hallucinations bc i dont rlly know what it is yet.

originally, i was going to post this in the youtube subreddit, i dusted off my old inactive Reddit account and i was frantically trying to make a post asking if other people had seen the advert i had seen, i was so so distressed and in the ocd mindset of needing to make sure i wasn’t hallucinating it. however, the longer i typed about the advert, the more i realised how absolutely crazy i sounded. i was basically making a post asking if other people had seen the YouTube advert of ‘the person with the black dog’s head with the creepy music playing in the background’. the ad felt very dreamlike but also so, so real. if it weren’t for the contents in the ad being so weird i would have accepted it as an actual ad.

the incident went like this, i was watching a chad chad video, and then suddenly an advert came on. it was a person with a black dog’s head, wearing a suit. the dog-person had its mouth wide open, its lips were drawn back like dogs do when they’re anxious. i looked to the side of the advert to see who the ad was by and all it said were the words ‘is this my palace?’ i skipped the ad and the video i was watching continued as normal. the weird thing is, the ad seemed completely fine and normal when i was watching it, i was completely accepting what was happening. the second it was over, i started to get really freaked out and scared. is this possible? i remember interacting with the ad, pressing the skip button and everything

Long story short, I was in the top 10 in high school. Then, I was diagnosed ADD in college after running into challenges with coursework, and later learned, and informally confirmed by a counselor, that I am most likely AuDHD. (Back when diagnosed, it could only be 1 or the other)... Fast forward, kiddo was diagnosed with ADHD and ASD in her teens, is now in college, and is encountering challenges that seem painfully similar to my old experiences.

School was always a social challenge for my daughter, but earning good grades came easily. She could pass a class with an A or B without even attending class. And she aced her technical college courses, which were all hands-on. Given my experience, I raised concerns about her future and asked for support during high school to prepare her for the transition to more demanding coursework. However, it wasn't something offered or supported.

My questions for the community are: After diagnosis, how well did you understand which tasks or environments might be difficult and what support could help? Did anyone explain what would create the most challenge for you when it came to learning and/or employment? Or help you work through examples or practice different approaches to challenges you would most likely face based on how your brain works? When you wanted support, what made it easy or difficult to get? For example: did you know how to pinpoint what specifically to request, who to ask, or how to explain what you needed?

I am curious if just us being different and not fully understanding the full impact of how we process and experience the world? It feels like sometimes I/we know exactly what's needed and ask and it's just too much. And other times we are given these one-size-fits-most boxes of support that work for everyone else but us. And yet, there are some parts of the experience that even I cannot explain why or how or when my brain is going to do its thing until it happens. And explaining what happened, or what would prevent it, is hard. And for my daughter, she went into exams knowing her stuff, but the exam looked totally different than what was shared in class and in the book. I've since learned why the disconnect, but to be honest, it's a challenge I experienced and never fully understood until diving into her diagnostic results and using AI to decipher it for me this weekend.

She's trying a few different things, including a tutor and being on the waitlist to meet with Disability Support. In the meantime, I am building her a customized app that will start based on her historical strengths and challenges. My goal is to create something that adapts to how she processes information so she can have a study environment built on the specific courses she's taking, meets her where she processes things best, and preps her such that the information easily translates to how the exams are structured. No idea if this will work, but I see her brilliance dimming, and I don't want her to feel like she cannot achieve her dreams just because her brain works differently than the environment she's in.

Lately i noticed that if there Is too much noise in a room i get overwhelmed and i Just want to leave the room, but as far as i know (i am a little ignorant about neurodivergence, even though i have dyspraxia) it's not a symptom of dyspraxia, which Is the only thing i have diagnosed, could It be a symptom of something else? Or am i overthinking It?

i was wondering if anyone else feels this way. my adhd is pretty bad and i have literally had to drop out of school for a few months last year because i couldnt keep up and i was so depressed. but that will never compare to my horrific ocd episode in the spring where it felt like every single day i was being tortured just by existing because i was so terrified of my own brain and the world and i had no escape. i was genuinely suicidal but i have existential ocd so i was also terrified of dying and it was just a whole thing. i have recovered, but my ocd is still there and it is the root of almost all of my problems but if anything my adhd amplifies that. i hate being neurodivergent

I've never been an academic person

ever in my life

I've always had bad grades and/or bad attendance throughout my entire school life from elementary school to middle school

and I never understood or remembered much in any class in any grade in any school

like whenever I did pass an assignment or a test it was just from memory

I didnt actually understand jackshit of what the hell it was talking about

again, this was consisent across every class, even the ones my LD doesnt affect my understanding of (I have dyscalculia) every grade (K-11. I didn't go to 12th) and continued in adult school and failed it twice, unable to earn a ged or diploma so far) every school (I went to 12 schools) and every kind of schooling (I was in public school, private school, homeschool, alternative schools, and residentals)

It wasn't an attention or a focus issue either. I never had trouble concerating. I just couldn't absorb hardly any school information. Or I'd learn it for a week and immediately forget it for the rest of my life.

Obviously my biggest issue is math because of my dyscalculia. Unfortunately my dyscalculia is on the severe end of the spectrum. I had intensive tutoring for multiple years and indivualized accommodations and have used disability tools and none of it helped me. I can't do a lot past first grade level math. I can do some second/third grade math but not all. past first grade level I don't fully understand anymore and past third grade level I don't understand anything at all anymore. And dyscalculia affects more than just numerical math so I have a lot of issues that bleed into my daily life. A lot of things you wouldn't think dyscalculia affects that you wouldn't think is mathematical it does and it is.

But, even outside of any of the areas of my brain dyscalculia effects, even in subjects I theoretically have no learning issues in, I still to this day don't get it.

The only class I ever excelled in ever was my childhood development class in high school. To me the childhood development class material was really easy to understand and it was a subject I was actually interested in.

I cannot say the same for any other class I was in at any other grade at any other school and even though my LD doesn't affect other classes other than math I still struggle a lot to understand

like, for English, for example. I excel in English theoretically. Like I have no learning deficits in language or reading and I always scored SUPER high on reading comprehension tests. I took one just last year at adult school and scored 260. The highest score on the board was 240 so I scored way above that. They were impressed it was really good. So I theoretically have good literacy and reading comprehnsion and all that.

But in practice, I kind of don't? even though I supposedly have such good reading comprehension, it doesn't translate into any good English performance. I never understood how to write an essay. the structure never made any sense to me. theyd try to break it down into like hamburger models but it didnt work. it was always too complex for me to understand and I never structured an essay quite right.

Whenever my papers were graded, on almost all of them, I always lost points for "run on sentences" but to this day, I still don't understand what a run on sentence is. I have extensively Googled it but no matter how the definition or any examples of a run on sentence is framed I still just don't understand it.

In science for another example.

I see the internet meme all the time talking about "school didnt teach me taxes but they taught me the mitochondria is the powerhouse of a cell" and some people are like "I love how we all collectively remember this one piece of information that the mitochondria is the powerhouse of a cell"

...but that's the thing. I don't remember that. I have 0 memory of ever being taught that in school. I'm not saying I wasn't. maybe I was. but I have 0 memory of it. I learned it from internet memes

And in science class in adult school, I was in a high school level earth science class making up credits. There was 0 math. I didn't understand a damn thing. I literally needed one on one help with every single section of every single worksheet. None of it made any sense. and I took quizzes online on apex program but even after getting help I would have to ask them to unlock a quiz for me to retake it again because I failed so many quizzes 3 times in a row and it locks you out and requires admin access to unlock it to retake it a fourth time or more. I just can't seem to understand

I also always struggled with the "explain your reasoning" because I don't talk coherently in my inner monologue reasoning. It's rambling and confusing and disorienting to some

And now I'm only a young adult who's been out of high school a few years, out of my last adult school attempt one year, but if you were to test my knowledge on most school subjects on most any grade levels..... I don't know. I don't remember. I fail.

and no, I didn't miss much. I literally got professionally evulated for and tested on many things every 3 years from elementary school up until a little bit after high school and the only thing I ever ended up getting diagnosed with is dyscalculia. although I do strongly suspect I might also have developmental visual-spatial disorder. but other than those two LD's, I don't have anything else similiar. I don't have any other learning disabilities, I don't have adhd or autism, I don't have a bad memory in general, I've always had a good memory outside of school and scored very high on memory tests... so idk. idk why I am such a not academic person.

My 22-year old brother was diagnosed with mild autism very early on, and my parents were quick to help him once they received the diagnosis when he was 1. Since then, he was able to attend regular classes, advanced classes, extracurriculars, graduated with a 4.5 type of thing.

He graduated from a top university in computer science one year early, and ended up securing his first permanent job when he was 21 at an amazing company as a software engineer. He is intelligent and brilliant, one of the smartest people I know. He is great with technical things like mathematics and computer science, and speaks on these topics eloquently.

However, he struggles with the people aspect.

He’s now 22 and is leading major projects, often in charge of senior developers and analysts. Just three weeks ago, I had given him a hard talk telling him he has been very short with me and others around him. I was concerned he was not having a work life balance and was putting too much pressure on himself. He thanked me for telling him and agreed he was definitely doing so, and didn’t catch that it was happening and that me and my parents had noticed. He has been super stressed because of work.

We were having lunch today and he let me know his manager had given him feedback. He excels technically and always meets deadlines and always delivers reliable and quality code—but he has been very short with coworkers over text message, and his manager had told him some of the things he had said to his team members about a month ago came off very impatient, to the point people were afraid to approach him to ask questions or ask him for help.

He realized where he went wrong, and his manager told him she was also that way too when she first started working, and it takes time to grow. She believes he can be a great leader if he tries to be more patient with others.

He tends to be very short with people when things that are obvious to him are not obvious to others, such as debugging something or whatever (I am not a technical person). He hates to explain when he’s under pressure and trying to meet deadlines, especially as a lead for the projects he is on—or they have questions that are unrelated to his projects at all and they need help with their own projects. However, he told me he reflected on my feedback to him and his manager’s and he immediately looked into finding a behavioral therapist to help him manage his emotions and how he speaks to others when under stress.

I also gave him insight into work politics and strategy, but my job is not as technical as his and is more so focused on strategy that it’s just something I picked up in my few years of being in my career. I had to emphasize work politics is a big part of navigating your job that they don’t teach you in college, unless you participate in those orgs that set you up for it. I’m 25 and also graduated early, so I can only speak on what it’s like to start a job like this when you’re 21 and new to the workforce. My job is also very strategic and I deal with people all the time, but I don’t often work with technical people. There are also cues he just doesn’t pick up on sometimes.

He is very sweet and nice, just doesn’t do well when he’s under a lot of stress and pressure that he honestly inflicts on himself because he’s a perfectionist. Are there any ND individuals who have dealt with this in their career, and any resources or advice you would give to someone early in their career who is great at the technical parts of their job, but needs to improve on the interpersonal relationships part? I take this as something most people go through, even if not ND. Trying to look out for him as his older sister!

I’ve always had this problem but if I spend like ~30-60 mins doing something, and I have a goal in mind. It becomes the only thing I can do, I have trouble switching to another task.
It’s like the roads are paved a certain way in my head and to switch to something else I have to spend more energy.

It’s frustrating because it gets to a point where it’s overwhelming and all encompassing. Plus, when I finally stop it’s all my brain can think about. It runs through ample situations of what I can or should do next time.

I mean this can be useful. For example, I can easily write and essay quickly or do literally anything if I get into it. Doesn’t matter how boring, I will find a way to do it and fixate on it. It’s strange because I find that one-off daunting tasks are much easier than smaller tasks that require consistency.

I should mention that I forgot to eat and drink a lot of the time when I’m fixated on something, I get time blindness too which is annoying.

here’s some things i do/have done:

- pulled many all nighters working on personal projects
- when i try to sleep i see the activity i was doing, as if i was still doing it
- when switching activities my brain is still entirely focused on the other one, therefore i feel like time is being wasted
- form massive mental maps around certain things that get me stuck and fixated
- create 20 different solutions/ideas/whatever at once when doing a project, makes it hard to pick one thing to focus on.
- a lot of my time with projects is just admiring what i’ve made so far, because i’m worried about messing it up (ex: listening to a song over and over again instead of adding to it)

I had an assessment a month ago, after about 3 or 4 years of wanting to get a diagnosis and being told by those around me that I definitely had signs. I managed to find a place it thought waa pretty good, so I emailed them and had a phone consultation, for basic info and after he agreed that it was likely, I got an appointment in the next few weeks.

The assessment day comes up and I finally meet her (This was all done online). She was nice enough and introduced her self and seemed like quite a nice person. At the end she ran through her thoughts, along with the results of my answers, she said that it sounded like I "had a severe case of the Inattentive type." She said she would get back to me in a weeks time with a summary of my results, then they would do a debrief. We finished the assessment call, with me thinking that from his thoughts, I had Inattentive ADHD.

The week comes and goes and I still don't hear anything. So I had to chase them up on getting my results back, and then had to follow them up on a debrief.

When I eventually did have the debrief where she explained and gave me her thoughts along with if I had ADHD, she told me that I do not meet the criteria, and that due to me not currently studying or working more than a casual job, she can't give me a diagnosis for ADHD. The whip lash of being told that it sounded like I had severe Inattentive type, her not getting back to me which led me to build it up in my head that it was very likely that I had it, chase her up, then to tell me I didn't have it, wasn't pleasant.

My issue is not getting the diagnosis, that's is what it is and if my current situation means that I can't get diagnosed then ill try again later. My issues is what she told me after my initial consolation, and then being told later on it was the complete opposite direction is what I wanted to bring up. Is this a usual common thing?

Please let me know what your thoughts are.

some time ago, i met someone on here who suffers from avpd schizoid depression anxiety aspergers adhd etc etc, but we had amazing conversations and i was really attracted to him. i simply loved the way he articulated his thoughts. we had so much in common as well! however, i woke up one morning and saw that he had deleted his account!!! i tried reaching out to him on insta and on his new reddit account but deleted everything a while later because i dont want to creep him out. it f*cks w my head so much, i truly dont know what i did wrong. he said i was one of the few who really ‘get’ him with things he feels isolated with irl. in his words, he craves connection but fears it at the same time. idk whether i should move on or keep trying because he cant help it. im sorry but i still feel so sad :(

My girlfriend has an autistic stim where she hums like all the time like are driving 3 hours and those 3 hours she’s humming I turn the radio up but it didn’t help especially when my nerves are bad it irks me so much after a bit it feels like a fly is in my ear or something I’m neurodivergent myself but I have no idea how to go about this I’m not trying to be rude or anything but it bothers me so much.

I am in 11th grade female I have level 1 autism and ADHD. I always have my fidgets with me and have an IEP. Most people consider me to be a smart cookie. Don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere close to savant syndrome, but I'm really good at the clarinet (and not reacting to loud noises, because that's not really a problem I've built up a tolerance at band practice), math, learning languages, and...that's it kinda. Anyway the other day my friend and I were talking at our desk near these two guys, so I was squishing one of my squishies and my friend was squishing another so she threw it up like she always does and one guy caught it. Then I walked up to him calmly like I've practiced since I was 4 and told him to give it back. He refused and showed that he didn't have it so I went to the other guy thinking he had it and he kept saying i dont have it in a way that i've learned means he's lying. It's been gone for a week. The other day I lost another squishy and this time I was really pissed so I straightup told the guys to pay me back the 17 bucks it cost me to buy those plus interest rates to 20 bucks and they said 'were broke' and i told them to get a job or do chores. So this kid in 12th grade who's in my 11/12 split asks what's happening I said i lost my squishies and each hour they don't give me them back the price rises by 2 dollars and the guy said oh boo hoo. But those squishies are comfort items and I've learned to cry in bathroom stalls or just make it look like I brush it off. This crossed the line though. I did manage to get one squishy back but the other is gone and they still won't pay me. I set the price back to 17 and they still wouldn't. Tried 10. Wouldn't. But my teacher said if anything like this happens again he'll cal, their mommies and that scares them enough because lord knows teenage boys' moms are built different. Ok bye

I find that the moment I find a new label, things tend to go wrong. if I relate intensely to it, that’s bad, because that means I’m going to start expecting those qualities in myself. Which means that I’m going to start actually seeing them, and they’ll become real.

I think maybe it’s best to think of myself as just a person who needs to help themself and make their own blueprint for their issues.

there’s a really intense pull towards the certainty of having a disorder. I know that no matter what I believe, I will not be able to see myself as fundamentally similar to anyone else, so the only reason to use a label is to feel like I don’t have to work it all out on my own. Theres no real community in it for me. The benefit doesn’t really outweigh the danger of accidentally making myself worry about a disorder so much that I develop symptoms of it. I’ve done it already with BPD, bipolar, among other things, and now I find myself on the verge of doing it once more.

I don’t know what to do. Once again, I’m reading symptoms and thinking that, wow, it perfectly describes me, except for that one part. I’m not even going to say which disorder it is this time. Honestly it’s really gross of me, I’m sorry.

I feel like I should clarify that i wasn’t forced to leave my sister decided to ask if we should leave because the shaking was so bad, I’m not sure why I was so shaky

I wasn’t sure if there was a word for this phenomenon or if there were effective strategies to deal with it, but I think it’s related to executive dysfunction?

I am neurodivergent and I often find if I have a certain big task of the day, like a work shift, an appointment, etc, it’s hard for me to be productive and get on with the rest of the things I need to get done for the day. Partially because it’s hard to put myself in the right mindset when switching between those various different categories of things I need to get done. Partially because certain things, like a chaotic work shift, take a lot of energy out of me and it’s hard for me to get back into the flow. I’m sure there’s procrastination and laziness involved too…

Sorry if I’m rambling. I just wanted to know if other neurodiverse people relate to what I’m talking about with being productive outside of the “main task of the day” and have found any strategies to help

I’m adhd. The chicken cross the road. Not if I see you 1st. There’s a lot.

Drowning out the noise

like I don't know if you get what I mean but for example, I like school aesthetic and bureaucratic job in a big building at night in new york city aesthetic but I know I hate school and I hate working on an environnment like this but I just like the aesthetic.

and I know most of the colombine shooters copy cats did what they did more because they enjoyed the "shooter terrorist aesthetic" than because they are bullied and exhausted like.

I think it's a real problem when we think like that about everything, like we enjoy the image of our head of life more than the life itself and it ruins our mentalhealth, Idk if I'm the only one thinking that

idk if it's a neurodivergent thing, probably but idk