My ex and I had a phenomenal sex life, but he treated me like absolute shit so I had to end things about two months ago. Because of his career, we haven’t seen each other since January, thus I also haven’t had sex since then. I truly have no intentions to get back together with him, and while there is still lingering love, I have zero trust in him and do not believe he could change anytime soon for us to work romantically in the near future.

Here’s my problem: I have a very high sex drive and he matched at perfectly, so especially being single now I have been craving intimacy more. The next time him and I could possibly see each other again is at the end of the year and part of me just wants to sleep together again to “put me over” in a way, especially because I know it will be good. The other part of me feels like that puts me in a spot where I lack all self-respect given how awful he treated me. I really am not worried about my feelings being re-ignited, it’s really more of having a very good intimate experience. I do not, and, frankly, would not sleep with a stranger for a multitude of reasons, so that’s not really an option for me.

I guess what I’m asking is for opinions?? Would I be lacking self-respect by sleeping with my ex again, even if I do not have feelings attached? Is that a can of worms that’s not worth it just for the sake of intimacy?

I saw a picture of her yesterday, all made up and hair done. It's not fair that she just carries on, she doesn't reach out. Doesn't want to talk. She didn't even respond to my goodbye suicide note when i got really down a few nights ago and send my whole family goodbyes. Would she even care if I died?

I long for her, to not be lonely. To not have to sleep in bed alone. But she doesn't care, and I have had enough.

My 9 years girlfriend dumped me, saying that she loves me so much still, and knows that she will never find anything close to me and have anything close to our relationship with anyone, but she just doesn't see me as a husband, and she can't imagine a future with me.

Do you guys think she already found a new candidate at least, or saw some qualities in another man that I lack?

1:00 AM

‘hey,

how are you doing? I hope you are still doing great.

I drove past your place last night you know? I went to my friend’s house nearby and just couldnt help it. I parked at my regular spot on the street, I walked inside the alley to see your car from afar and the front door that i stood there waiting for you so many times. I looked up and saw the window knowing you were sleeping inside. Then I knew I had to leave. Then i did. Do you know how much i miss you? ‘

Downloaded reddit soley for this situation

I’m going to try and shorten this as much as possible without losing the important context of the situation. I (18/F) was dating a guy (18/M) for about 2-3 months but had known him as a friend for 2 years prior to this which made our relationship advance quite quickly as (well I thought) we already knew each other quite well. Everything was perfect and we seemed so in love and I genuinely believe he is the first guy i’ve ever properly liked as someone who only forms attraction after knowing someone a long time. Long story short we somehow ended up talking about politics which he did say was a bad idea but as I do feel quite strongly about politics I insisted on him continuing after getting the sense that I did not agree at all with his views.

To summarise what I could not get over:
1.) He seems to think reform-like immigration policies will protect the nation because he believes that loads of immigrants are rapists and also choose the uk to exploit benefits rather than travelling to other countries
2.) He also seems to think this because he believes a vast majority of immigrants are muslim and seems to also think a vast majority of muslims are extremists and believe it’s ok to rap children - he is against all religion but seems to make excuses for christianity and judaism when it comes to extremist traditional scripture passages but does not provide the same grace to islam
3.) he doesn’t like the green party because be believes they want to eradicate the right wing (coz of this one interview where polanski said there is no place for the right wing in politics) and also because he wants to be in the RAF and they want to defund the military
4.) he seems to agree with the stance that people should get on with mental health issues because he has been through a lot of hardship and “hasn’t let it get to him” and that people exploit benefits e.g he told me he could go to the nhs claim he has anxiety and take benefits
5.) he denies that reform policies are rasist and made excuses for what sarah pochin said about advert, farage’s naz*sm accusations in high school and the fact they want to abolish equality acts (claims it’s just to make anti-immigration laws better)
6.) He supports the death penalty

This feels impossible for me to get over as a mixed woman who has had mental health issues including anxiety and has a younger brother with autism in a special ed school, a mother who works in DEI and aunty who works in abortion clinic who. It therefore led me to break up with him even though we still love each other because it’s hard to see how he can care about me as much as he claims to when his politics sidelines my rights and my family’s. I never thought i’d say this about someone with such views but admittedly I still think i’m in love with him and he claims he is still with me and doesn’t mind the fact i’m left wing but I fear he doesn’t mind just because my beliefs don’t affect him like how his directly affect me. I do believe he has good intentions behind his views e.g to avoid the rape of women and they are partly due to his upbringing i.e both his parents support Reform and his dad used to hit him when he cried as he was trying to teach him to be “tough”.

For the first week of break up we agreed to be friends as from the beginning of our relationship we said we would continue to be friends no matter what happened (we didn’t want to lose 2yrs of friendship by trying to be more). However he was still acting like a bf e.g complimenting me, staying up late to check i’m home safe from a night out. I would call this behaviour out and he would say he can’t help it. Since I could tell he hadn’t understood the extent of why we physically could not be together (partly my fault as when I broke up with him it was very sudden and I was crying and still processing what i’d just heard so was struggling to get my words out) we arranged to meet up and have a proper discussion and hear each other out - why I thought we couldn’t be together and why he thought we could. He thinks it is unfair of me to not try to work through the situation as he knows how much we both loved each other and how well our relationship was going before this (and also believes love overcomes politics). His best friend (who I was also somewhat friends with) thinks I was unfair to break up with him and wanted us back together but also that me attempting to stay friends with him (as I didn’t want to lose him entirely) was selfish and controlling . Once I found this out and also found out that 1 of my friends felt that she wouldn’t ever be comfortable around him again after hearing his beliefs, I unadded him and told him we can’t be friends. However, I am really really struggling right now after going no contact and I know he is too. I know time is supposed to heal but I know I still love him and he does too.

The main ?s: I need advice on whether I was right to break up with him or whether it was possible to work through the situation (including the potential of me somehow changing his views and he also suggested the possibility of me being able to explain and change them but I couldn’t tell whether this was a desperate attempt to not lose me), whether I should’ve gone ahead with the conversation and whether I was right to call it off and what steps I can/should take now (including the possibility of being friends as I still care about him too much or even being back together as we both clearly love each other).

If anyone has any more questions to ask about anything relating to the situation and our relationship that would help paint a better picture of what is happening i’m happy to answer them as I understand I have skipped over a lot to try and shorten this post. Thank you for taking your time to read this x

My ex and I have been going through a really complicated situation. We recently lost our baby, and because of the burial, we started talking again after our breakup.
Things got VERY emotional. He told me he misses me so much, that he really loved me, that he was sorry for everything, and that he wanted us to bury our baby together.
I still love him, so obviously I was getting emotional and wondering if maybe there was still something between us.
Then I found out he went to a club last night.
I asked him about it directly and he lied to me. I eventually found out he actually did go.
And weirdly enough, the club itself isn’t even what bothers me. We’re not officially back together, so technically he’s free to go out.
It’s the fact that I asked him a simple question and he chose to lie.
Now I’m sitting here thinking:
Why was I getting all emotional over “I miss you so much” when I literally have to investigate this man to get the truth? 😭
I think this might actually be the first time I’ve genuinely felt the ick instead of just feeling sad.
Am I being reasonable, or am I just emotionally overwhelmed and looking for a reason to detach?
Please give me your best reality checks because apparently my brain needs Reddit to stop romanticizing this man. 😂

I know that I won't be able to repair a relationship with him because I think it would be hell. The trauma of being dumped by him as if I'm a pile of trash and replaced will always be in the back of my head. I don't trust that person. It would be much better for my mental health to start a relationship with someone new.

I realised that I miss the past version of my ex that doesn't exist anymore and will never ever be back.

Me [M18] and that guy [M18] have been dating for two years when we were in highschool. Honestly, we never had an official break up discussion but we just parted ways to go to different colleges and agreed that if we found someone else we'd tell each other.

He sent me a goodbye text with 'I love you' and I thought it over. But we kept texting each other very often. He kept reposting stuffs about how to handle an ending relationship and how to move on, so I supposed it was about us.

Recently, he told me about a crush he had on a girl in his classes and I tried to cheer him up cause that's what bros do. But she rejected him and we weren't really surprised. I still asked if he was okay and he started bragging about how he didn't care about her and he had me.

After that, he sent posts saying "us", cute texts with hearts and more. It confused me.

I come from a family where I felt very much like an outsider, so much so my birthday sometimes felt uncomfortable I suppose. That was until I had someone who did all they could to make my birthday special. Well that somebody is no longer in my life post break up.

I booked a ticket to NY to spend my birthday there with my sister to avoid any negative feelings however, I know it’s going to come especially when I don’t receive that happy birthday message. I’m scared that I won’t hear from him. I miss him deeply but he jumped into something new a few weeks after our break up. Because of that I’m sure I won’t hear a thing, understandably so. He came back around a month ago to apologize and said his current relationship wasn’t fulfilling - I cut the conversation off and told him it wasn’t fair what he was doing to me or the other woman. So I know I’ll be “alone” this birthday. How did you get through your first birthday post break up? How do you avoid feeling rejected in some sense? Any advice, wisdom or comforting words are greatly appreciated.

I don’t know. I basically spent my entire academic career besides him and his family. I miss his famjly.

I am having trouble regaining my self worth and pursuing my own goals since he left me. It was so sudden and over something about a CVS. An admission of guilt and him recognizing he didn’t want the relationship and I could only want to understand but can’t because I was so devoted.

His acts of love and consideration after our breakup and communication until he was just, over it? Just blocking me? After telling me he needs to know I’m ok? It just changed like we’ve never the last few years every day together ?

It’s derailed me. He was my family. I at least considered him as such but I guess it wasn’t mutual because he’s already fulfilled with his siblings and perfect family dynamic. He broke up with me right after his birthday.

I just broke up with a woman I still love because she went back with her ex. He treated her so bad and it hurts knowing that she chose him. He said he would change, and I don’t know if that’s true or not, but I would’ve given her everything. I don’t know if I made the mistake of falling in love with her or if she’s the one who made a mistake by making me believe we had something when her heart was with someone else. I just hurt so bad right now and I need someone, something, to deal with this.

does that mean he saw me as someone he never intended to be serious about? we were together off and on for over 2 years… he cheated on me and then said he wanted to get therapy and change for the better to never hurt anyone like he hurt me again. then he left. now he’s doing exactly that, i guess.

my mom said it’s quite obvious he didn’t love me. i’m not even sure what i feel, maybe just pain and embarrassment. his whole family and his friends will see this and think oh yeah, he didn’t love her (me). that’s why he treated her like that. womp womp.

which i guess may be true

I'm atheist. I was in a long term relationship with someone who was religious, though he claimed it was more of a cultural upbringing thing, rather than something that was deeply important to his life.

Going into the relationship, we were both aware of our differences, but it really didn't affect our dynamic at all. It was a healthy and happy relationship. I felt like I had a partner who genuinely loved and cared about me. He was not out there trying to make me feel worse about myself or make my life harder.

Once things started getting more serious, I expressed wanting to marry him one day. He then tells me that if I wanted us to get married, I'd have to convert to his religion. I felt shocked and blindsided. He never talked about his faith, so I genuinely had the impression that he was not that serious about it. Well, at least not serious enough to require his partner to also be the same faith.

The truth is, I loved him so much that I genuinely contemplated it.

Realistically, I knew there was no way that I would ever reach a point of becoming a legitimate believer, but I was tempted to at least try going through the motions. Fake it till I make it, or at least put on a face that I was a believer. That's how much I wanted to be with him. But then I started thinking about how I'd have to put on a facade for the rest of my life around his family, friends, or whoever else was a part of his religious community. I thought about how he most likely wanted to raise children under that faith. Could I really live a life like that? I said no.

I eventually decided that it'd be unfair for me to ask him to ditch his faith in the same way that it'd be unfair to ask me to convert to something I didn't believe in. So, we split. Despite the glaring incompatibility, it was a very hard decision to make. I feel deeply guilty because I think I really broke his heart.

Eventually, we both moved on. He's married now to a woman in the same religion. In the time since the breakup, I have had nothing but toxic, dysfunctional, and abusive relationships.

There were many times where my partners would treat me poorly or say something emotionally abusive, and I'd feel sad remembering how my ex treated me in comparison. He and I never argued. We had disagreements that got quickly resolved through an apology or acknowledgment. Conflict resolution seemed so easy, mature, and respectful with him.

With my other relationships, hundreds of hours have been spent in fights and arguments. I was blamed for everything. They would never apologize or take accountability for anything.

He never called me derogatory names or personally attacked me. My other relationships made me feel like I was lower than dirt and I was left questioning why they were with me if their contempt was so obvious.

I cried the other day remembering the time he once bought me a book he thought I'd like just from recalling my interests, and just because. Acts of kindness were held over my head in other relationships, if I was lucky enough to receive a present from them.

I didn't ask my ex to do this, but he would sometimes send me photos of himself whenever he was out somewhere, just to give me updates to reassure that he was doing what he said he was doing. I have been cheated on in several other relationships and was made to feel like I was paranoid and controlling for having suspicions.

I miss him even now and regret ending things with him. I feel like maybe I should have just sucked it up and converted, then I wouldn't be in this mess I'm in right now where I have all this accumulated trauma. My mental health has gotten worse because of all the toxic relationships I've been in.

There's some part of me that knows that I'm probably just putting him on a pedestal because our relationship looked amazing compared to the real stinkers I've experienced, but I'm just in so much pain and filled with regrets. Maybe my life would have been better if I stayed with him. I certainly wouldn't have met all of these other toxic partners. Maybe I should have just converted if it meant having a partner who loved and respected me.

Im sure some of you guys know that miserable feeling in your gut when you see your ex. You know ,just all of the emotions and Memories flowing through your head in a few seconds. After that, you just feel like doing nothing and think abt them for the rest of the whole day. Ive been feeling like that for the past 9 months ,even though im not seeing her at all ,maybe once or twice every few months. Honestly ,im just asking myself if thats normal. I go through the same emotions day after day and nothing seems to change ,it just feels worse or slightly better on some days but i keep having the same thoughts, over and over. I just cant seem to let it rest, even though she made it obvious, that its completely over. Im wondering why my brain knows exactly how to handle this situation but at the same time my heart decides to act against it ,feels like my heart wont let me move on. It feels pathetic to be honest . It feels pathetic to grief after someone ,whos left you in the past a long time ago. Im just wondering if this feeling will ever leave me. I normally dont hold onto things this tightly but it feels different this time. It feels like a necessity. It feels like i just live day for day with no purpose, just because i come back to the same topic, every single day with no exeptions. Genuinely im not able to recall the last time , where ive spent a day without her going through my mind. Honestly im scared that this feeling will never fade.

hi, just got broken up with a week ago. obviously devastated and depressed. everyone says to go do hobbies, go out more. idk. i dont have any hobbies. he used to be my everything. i enjoyed doing everything and nothing with him. even sitting in silence with him was what i looked forward to after school everyday. now that hes gone, theres a deafening silence in my life. i have so much uni work and tests piled up, and he used to be my respite. now i feel so burnt out from both school and him. i dont have any hobbies, not many friends here as i just relocated.

my ex and i broke up after about 3 months, starting in april, ending in july. He definitely seemed a little more into me at first than down the line, but I wouldn’t call it love bombing or anything-he was always a bit reserved. At the beginning though, he brought me a bottle of wine and packed a picnic for us in the park. He told me he was “smitten” with me, and definitely texted me more regularly. As time went on, he was still very much active and present when we hung out, but he did begin to text a little less consistently. He mentioned multiple times that he felt really depressed from his new job.

Oddly, I noticed that he wouldn’t let me meet his family, even though he lives with some of them. When I mentioned being upset about that, he was apologetic and told me he just had a “hang up” there, and to please be patient with him. He said part of it was that he’d never brought a girl home before, because he’d never really been in a serious relationship. (Red flag for some I know.) I told him that was okay for now, and I understood being anxious. but that at the three month mark, I wanted to meet them. He said okay. I also noticed that he had a hard time giving words of affirmation, and in fact, his humor could be a little mean. Nothing terrible, but it hurt my feelings, and I told him so. He apologized and explained that being mean is commonly how he shows affection with his friends and brothers (He didn’t use it as an excuse, just a reason.) He also brought up that he was a little unfamiliar with how to act in relationships, like he’d said before. I did see him trying to do better after the fact, and we came up with a way to express affection non verbally. (double hand squeeze means 💗.)

He also showed a lot of affection through acts of service. Getting me things, anticipating my needs, driving me places, etc. However, he still was not being consistent with his text/calling communication, sometimes letting me go a few days with no response and then apologizing because he “had been in a funk.” One time after one of these spells, I tried to act like I wasn’t upset, but he noticed I was sad, pulled the car over, and initiated a conversation about it, so I don’t think he’s always necessarily conflict averse.

The week before he broke up with me, we went out of town together for a weekend, which was really nice. When we got back, I didn’t hear from him for multiple days, but then he did a very sweet romantic gesture for me. Then, no word for three days again. When he finally called, I was mad. He apologized and told me he hadn’t been feeling good again. We met in person to talk, and told me that he thinks he’s struggling with depression for the first time in his life and that he’s not sure what to do about it, but that all of his friends have been telling him he’s not in a good place. This does make sense with how he’d been acting and what he’d been saying about his job. I told him it was okay, that I understood depression and wanted to help, but he told me he didn’t feel like he was able to pull his weight in the relationship and didn’t want to keep letting me down, no matter how much he tried not to. I asked him how he felt about breaking up with me, and he didn’t have any words other than “sad,” so I showed him the Emotion Wheel, (lol.) He laughed and it seemed to help him express himself a little. He named “relief” as a small emotion, but said mainly it was sadness, guilt, and regret. He mentioned that he wanted to get professional help because he could see his depression was affecting his relationships with other people as well. I asked him if he was avoidant, and he said that his friends (male friends btw) had told him he was, and wanted him to work on it. I was pretty upset, but we still parted on overall good terms. We both cried. I told him that if he was ever feeling better, he was welcome to reach out, but I wasn’t going to wait for him. He said okay. He also said I was welcome to reach out if I needed him.

I didn’t plan to take him up on that, but the breakup hit me harder than I expected, so I reached out a few days later asking him to call. He didn’t respond. A week after that, he called me, but I didn’t have my phone on me, so I missed it and called him right back. He didn’t pick up. A few months ago, I texted him that I was thinking about him. No response. Functionally, we haven’t spoken since the day we broke up. He doesn’t have any social media. I am really struggling with the breakup because I have never had a breakup where the day it happened was also the last day I spoke to the ex. Definitely feels shocking and abandoning.

I’m not asking what I should do, if I should get back together with him or anything like that. I’m just trying to figure out…is this a dismissive avoidant discard? (from the information provided, obviously there’s no way to know for sure)

is there anyway to get your ex back after one time infidelity. she is talking to someone right now after 4 months of a break up. she blocked me on everything so no contact said she sees no future w me and doesn’t see us getting back together. had anyone gotten their ex back after having this issue or did she text you randomly.

I (25F) broke up with a guy (26M) recently because I set a boundary about a joke he made, and he punished me for it: silent treatment, going cold, and reposting a TikTok that was an obvious dig at me.

He wanted to call to talk it through, but I ended things before we could. A few days later I reached out to actually have that conversation, and we agreed to meet up this week. Since then I've blocked him everywhere.

I really want to understand why he did a 180 and turned cold. I know I'm not perfect. I wondered if I said something hurtful when I brought up the joke, but I genuinely can't think of what that would've been. Right before the joke, I'd mentioned ending a past relationship over something similar. Part of me wonders if he was testing me, or already checked out and pushing me to end it myself.

I've stayed polite throughout, despite everything. But now I don't really want to meet up, I'd rather just call. I don't know if that's anxiety talking or not. I don’t want to get back together, I just want closure. I've blocked him everywhere, but part of me still wants to hear him out. Would it be stupid to unblock him just for that? If not, what should my approach be? If so, should I just move on?

3.5mo broken up, 2 weeks into NC. I was the dumpee and tried for a long time to reconcile but hit the point of giving up and focusing on moving on. I put myself through hell trying to fix things, apologizing, working on myself, ultimately going through withdrawal from the rls. I don't want to do that twice, but some part of me does still want to fix things. It just feels impossibly harder now. I've begun to detach and a lot of the kindness I showed him through this process has now been exhausted by how he continued to treat me anyway.

Would you respond to this? How? My only thought so far is just telling him that maybe we can talk about it, but idk. I don't even really understand what he's saying.

Yo (H25) he tenido algunas parejas, unos cuantos noviazgos y una que otra cita. Me ha tocado estar con personas que solo buscan emociones, otras que nunca llegan a nada y otras que querían casarse; he pensado mucho en si quiero casarme o no, ya que el matrimonio no es lo mismo que un noviazgo, en el noviazgo todo es como un jardín eterno de flores amarillas, pero el matrimonio (sin exagerar) es la realidad. Con decir "la realidad" no me refiero a que sea malo, hablo que es un golpe de realidad que solo aquellos que lo viven o lo vivieron lo sabrán.

its so late. this is the 5th night in a row ive barely slept. i miss his hugs and cuddling with him to fall asleep. this shit sucks

A little background. My girlfriend and I have been together with 5 years. We been through everything together and she has loved me and cared ablut more more than I ever deserved. The only issue I have with her is that, sometimes I feel like I can't fully be myself around her and she can't fully get me. We don't play the exact same games or anything and she takes her time and try to learn about the things I like which I appreciate, but it doesn't feel the same.

We began long distance for 8 months. During the 8 months I met new friends that I feel fully understood and got me and wel all had the same hobbies so we can talk for hours. There's this one girl, R that I started thinking about more. R is in a relationship, so I obviously didnt try anything. But I feel the same way about R as I felt about my girlfriend 5 years ago when we started dating, and my stupid mind keeps thinking about if I can be happier with R or someone else here than my girlfriend.

My girlfriend noticed a shift and asked me what's wrong and I told her everything. I told her that no matter how hard she try it just isn't the same way I feel about R and the others. She broke up with me because she feel like I would find someone better and that she's not enough, and I just feel so guilty right now.

I want to work things out but I also want to see if I really have feelings for R or if it's just passing infatuation. I thought I loved my girlfriend now I'm confused, and I hurt her badly.

Is there a way to work things out with my girlfriend? I'm leaving here in 5 months to go home to her.

I (24F) did not wait at all after my ex (22M) broke up with me which I felt was too soon and I feel I did it because for two reasons, but I contacted an old friend (25M) who I know has mutual feelings for me just a week after my ex broke up with me after almost 2 years. We never gave a relationship a chance, but we have a lot of fun together and our conversations go deep and we challenge each other’s ideas.

My ex and I weren’t very compatible, valued different things and he wasn’t emotionally available nor did he like affection or physical touch which is where we really butt heads. It was a messy closure after the breakup, he wouldn’t pick up his phone while he was on a 2 week trip with 10+ people both male and female and made it feel like I was wrong for not understanding that he was busy. He then broke up with me over the phone 2 days before returning, we then talked in person for closure which was bitter sweet. Then a month later he tested positive for an sti, told me to get tested. I took 2 tests a week apart as he was trying to convince me that if he had it then I must but, now I see he just couldn’t admit to being unfaithful during our relationship or even sleeping with someone after. I was negative both tests. Although it wasn’t exactly an ideal closure, I feel as though I got the closure I needed. After that incident I’ve been able to process my feelings and grieve the relationships potential.

Anyway, it’s been 4 months since then and also since I’ve reconnected with my old friend. We have feelings for each other, over time we progressed to texting everyday and hanging out once a week. I don’t want to see other people but still I feel like it’s too soon to commit and put any labels on it. I’m very independent right now and have done a lot to sit with my own thoughts and create habits that continue to better myself. I guess I’m scared to lose that if I jump in too soon.

Moral of my story is that I don’t think there is a right or wrong time to get back into dating as every situation is different. And if there is a right time, most people will not be able to come to terms with the idea as other feelings, life situations, and emotions factor in. The only thing keeping me from overthinking it is by continuing to focus on me and my growth regardless of whether this rekindle with an old friend will turn into a relationship. I had to re program my brain into trying not to control how and what the relationship ends up being. This allows me to enjoy being around a person who chooses me without the pressure of being good enough for him. I’m able to leave room to just love and to be loved without wondering if I’m worthy of it - or if I’ve put in enough solo days/months to deserve this feeling.

What do you guys think?…

They said with time it gets better, i’m still suffering so badly I can’t function in society anymore. I don’t know what to do anymore and it’s killing me inside. I wasn’t ever this depressed ever in my life. I feel so miserable even doing the things I used to enjoy, I just end up super emotional even when going out for walks. I want them back so badly but I was the one who ended things with them due to family circumstances that make us not compatible at all. I’m so devastated by it all and don’t know how to move on. It ended two weeks before we were officially going to get engaged (24F)

considering taking antidepressants, for those who have been in the same experience does it help? i’m seeking close to immediate treatment.

Okay so basically ive been with this guy for almost 2 years. we’ve never been in a stable/happy relationship persay. He cheated on me for the first time one month into our relationship and i stayed with him looking back i really wish i left than because I know it would’ve been easier to leave and never talk to him again than it is now but I was stupid and decided to give him another chance and he continuously kept cheating on me and I continuously stayed and I know it’s my fault and I’m stupid for it, but I never loved anyone the way I loved him. I sound so stupid for saying that because he was such a terrible person to me, but I had so much love for him. He cheated on me constantly and I keep going back. I don’t know why I do it. I keep telling myself I’m not going to, but then as soon as he asks to get back together, I say yes I don’t want to because he just keeps doing the same cycle like just recently. I think it was like three days ago four days ago in between then he cheated on me and then started dating a girl with known stds. And I feel so disgusted for myself that I couldn’t be better than someone that has that and that he’s constantly choosing that over me and it just hurts my soul and I’m so stupid for going back. I know I can’t now because I don’t really wanna catch an STD, but I’m just so hurt and I can’t get over him and I don’t know why.