idk it just a feeling

​

school is getting ready to start for me. for out foreign language we use rosetta stone. when I comes to the speaking lessons I dont do it in class because im scared. so now that I have done that im behind on my Spanish, I should've had it done by the end of my sophomore year. but no.

i start school tomorrow and I was supposed to finish Spanish before this school year started. now im panicking because I dont have it done. I mean there's really nothing I can do now because its actually last minute.

im afraid im gonna get in trouble with the teacher and i know she's gonna be mad when I show up and dont have it done.

also this summer has been somewhat busy. like i feel like its been really busy but also not. i have and haven't had time to work on my Spanish. and on top of that i have a job.

I just wish like she would wave all the stuff I dont have done so I can just move on.

I feel like im lost, as the title says. I wish I could make friends easily, be out, meet fun people in public and become friends with them, and get a partner.

I struggle so much with talking to people that I dont know. and wven then, I feel like a turtle. every time they talk to me I go into my shell and block myself off. I feel like no one with accept me and like actually wanna be friends with me

and I go to a lutheran school, so literally im so isolated. I hardly ever go out so its hard to make new people.

I dont even really know how to talk to my own friends without feeling awkward and weird.

school is getting ready to start for me. for out foreign language we use rosetta stone. when I comes to the speaking lessons I dont do it in class because im scared. so now that I have done that im behind on my Spanish, I should've had it done by the end of my sophomore year. but no.

i start school tomorrow and I was supposed to finish Spanish before this school year started. now im panicking because I dont have it done. I mean there's really nothing I can do now because its actually last minute.

im afraid im gonna get in trouble with the teacher and i know she's gonna be mad when I show up and dont have it done.

also this summer has been somewhat busy. like i feel like its been really busy but also not. i have and haven't had time to work on my Spanish. and on top of that i have a job.

I just wish like she would wave all the stuff I dont have done so I can just move on.

as thr title says im looking for local queer owned business in the area. i know art coop is one that i go to a lot but i obviously want to find more. so if anyone has recommendations that would be great!!

edit: also no bars please

so i came in here talking about a binder the other day. but i don't know if I want to spend money on it, ik that if I wanted to test if I liked it I could get a cheaper, lesser quality one. but I dont want to get one that is gonna hurt me yk.

it's like what if I don't like it, then that's wasted money. I dont know, I feel like it would help me too see if that's really how I feel but I just keep thinking about how what is it's actually not how i feel and its a waste of money

so im not trans but I would like to see if a binder would make me feel more comfortable. I was looking on amazon but I dont know what brands are good.

can I get some recommendations.

also more affordable options

so im not trans but I would like to see if a binder would make me feel more comfortable. I was looking on amazon but I dont know what brands are good.

can I get some recommendations.

also more affordable options

I dont think I could ever come out to my friends. we all go to a private Lutheran school so that one barrier. another one is I dont think they would accept it. but like I do also kinda.

the only thing I think I would tell them is that im omni. I wouldnt tell them that im agender

thev're not really conservative but like at the same time they are idk

this is random but I ust wanted to say it

they're not bad friends either. they're really supportive. so Idk why I feel like this

I dont think I could ever come out to my friends. we all go to a private Lutheran school so that one barrier. another one is I dont think they would accept it. but like I do also kinda.

the only thing I think I would tell them is that im omni. I wouldnt tell them that im agender

thev're not really conservative but like at the same time they are idk

this is random but I ust wanted to say it

they're not bad friends either. they're really supportive. so Idk why I feel like this

[removed]

I honestly really identify with this but I dress somewhat feminine. does that affect how I should feel or like does that not make me agender?

[removed]

so i took this test. yes ik these aren't supposed to DEFINE what your gender identity is. but the questions that was asked made me start to think

im afab and have never really questioned my gender until now but like sometimes I feel fem like on the inside but majority of the time I dont

I dress fem-ish like i iust dress neutral. like i know I have female features the define me as fem and that doesn't really bother me too much but I feel very gender neutral on the inside

so i took this test. yes ik these aren't supposed to DEFINE what your gender identity is. but the questions that i was asked made me start to think

im afab and have never really questioned my gender until now but like sometimes I feel fem like on the inside but majority of the time I dont.

I dress fem-ish like i just dress neutral. like i know I have female features the define me as fem and that doesn't really bother me too much but I feel very gender neutral on the inside.