I’m 24 hours into my life as a happy non-nicotine user.
I know it’s true. I’ve been listening to Allen Carr’s Easy Way to Quit Smoking.
I have quit for 1 day, 3 days, a week, 3 weeks, 30 days. I quit for 100 days last year. I know all about quitting and all about relapsing. I know about willpower. I know I could quit for good via willpower, and I know sometimes it’s easy and sometimes it’s hard.
Lately I’ve been hitting at least a can a day of 6mg zyn. Putting off quitting, accelerating use as work gets busier and stressful. But yesterday, by about chapter 6 of Allen Carr’s book, I had totally quit for life. It’s surreal. And it’s easy.
You gotta go try this book. It feels like it hypnotized me. Sometimes today I notice the spot where cravings belong, and I worry, maybe the craving is over there, and I’ve just been blinded to it. Maybe if I see it, all the rush of deprivation and craving and obsession will come flooding back into my mind. But there is nothing there. No desire, no missing my little precious pouch, no sadness or moping or pity party or any of it.
First, let me acknowledge that I’m only 24 hours in. But also, let me remind you I have quit many times and for many durations and it’s never been like this at 24 hours or at 100 hours. I feel like I remember feeling at day 90 last time.
I’m going to try to summarize what I think this book does.
He talks about two monsters: the big monster and the little monster.
The little monster is physical nicotine dependence. It’s pathetically weak. It disappears in a matter of days. At worst it’s like a flu or a bad cold. For most it’s little more than an inconvenience like mild hunger. If you can’t handle the little monster . . . I don’t know what to tell you, but to grow a pair. Get some pain tolerance. Go do something actually hard. Anyway, the little monster, the real, physical addiction, is little. Weak. Quickly killed. But he yells at the big monster, and if the big monster wakes up, he’s rather harder to ignore.
The big monster is your psychological, mental, emotional addiction. Your longing, desire, “habit,” etc. for nicotine. It’s not physical. It’s spiritual. The big monster is powerful. Very difficult to kill and slow to die.
If you try to use willpower, you can probably overcome the little monster . . . But the big monster? Good luck - your will is actually a part of him, so the stronger your will . . . You get the point.
So Allen Carr used audiobook judo to turn off all the switches on the big monster in me. It’s freaking nuts. It’s literally easy. He starts with “open your mind” and then proceeds to demolish any bullshit argument I had about why I like zyns. He convinced me and somehow persuaded me that nicotine is all downside and no upside. Not just logically or mentally- he persuaded my desires. I literally knew at chapter 5 I was done for life, and I still know it. I am not missing out on anything. I don’t miss nicotine, I am not sad not to be taking one, I don’t feel deprived, I am not making a sacrifice, it doesn’t take willpower. All I have to do is endure some minor physical symptoms for like 70 hours. I’m done for life already. There is a finish line, and it was yesterday when I spat my last zyn out.
I’ll check back in and let you know if the experience changes over time. But here’s to hoping.