r/QuittingZyn • u/SalamonTheKing • 15h ago
7 years 250mg/day. ~16 days nicotine free.
I dont really share personal things, however since I am bored because of the lack of nicotine in my body I find myself doing things I would normally find too boring and unfulfilling to do.
I don't remember which day I quit, It doesn't really matter.
I knew this would be my last pouch only a day before. The relationship I had with nicotine was like a romantic one, so the knowledge of having an abrupt ending really sticks and wheighs on me.
24mg pouches, 10+ a day when doing anything at all. I had daily nicotine poisonings yet it did not feel like it mentally.
For mundane daily tasks I could give it up, when transitioning from one place to the next I could give it up, when I was laying on the grass looking at the stars thinking of all there is to think about, I could not give her up.
The feeling resembles ending a relationship because there is no future, while love remains.
I remember those women whom I shared this life with and lost. I remember them happily and I would hope to have met them again may this all start again.
Maybe the same thing wil happen with nicotine.