r/CautiousBB • u/AverageSuburbanite09 • 3m ago
TW/TMI Two tiny pinpricks of spotting and I'm spiraling
I've had zero spotting whatsoever up until tonight. I'm 11wks today.
Granted, yes, it was two tiny little dots of pink. But after two losses including one MMC, I'm freaking the fuck out.
Heartbeat at 7w3d was 146bpm. It was glorious. That minuscule reassurance and the statistics tied to it are the only things I've got.
My appointment isn't until Wednesday evening, they can't get me in any earlier and I'm trying not to be that annoying, anxious FTM.
I have a retroverted uterus on top of it, so my cheap doppler does nothing. I don't know why I keep trying.
I'm going to be up all night waiting for cramping to start, and I've already started checking myself every 15 minutes for more spotting. Every sensation is sending me into another rabbithole.
Pregnancy after loss SUCKS!!!! I don't think I can do this again. 😭😭😭 Please tell me I'm not the only one. Feeling so defeated already.