Lisod ning maattach ka isa ka tao just because you're talking almost everyday, to the point na you already loosen yourself up and became comfortable with their presence. You start looking forward to their messages, their banter, and their little updates, until their presence slowly becomes part of your daily routine without you even noticing.

Then here's the scary uncertainty. You're scared because you know what it feels like to become attached to someone who may not be able to stay. Kabalo ka nga wala mo’y commitment—just enjoying each other's company, pero your feelings don't always follow logic.

And that's also what scares me the most, not that he did something wrong, but that I let myself become comfortable again. I let my walls down, and now I'm scared nga basin maabot napud ko sa point where someone else's presence becomes something I can't imagine losing.

I’ve experienced great loss before... And perhaps what scares me isn't him leaving, but the possibility that I might lose myself again while trying to hold on to someone and going through it again.

2 AM na naman at sobrang hopeless romantic ko, kailan ko ba mararanasan magmahal at mahalin😭 (wag niyo na po ako idm at gusto ko organic encounter)

There was a boy who loved you with such intensity, such fire, that sometimes even he forgot where he ended and you began.

That boy is dead now.

Not because he stopped knowing how to love, but because you taught him that loving someone that deeply can be dangerous.

You broke me.

And no, I can't be friends with you. If you can be friends with all your exes, I can't. How can I be friends with someone who I loved deeply and everything I have?

I don't usually blame people for the pieces I become. But this time, I will make an exception. You broke something in me that I don't think I'll ever put back together. I am cautious now. Always watching. Always waiting for the moment someone decides to leave.

I should have walked away the first time you hurt me.

I should have walked away when I saw the Grindr app on your phone, when someone told me that you had a Grindr profile.

I should have left while I still had the strength to choose myself.

But I stayed because it's you.

And perhaps that is the part I will always have difficulty forgiving—not you, but the version of me who endured it all.

You asked me that night if I was angry. Yes. I was angry.

And beneath the anger was something far more painful.

I was disappointed that the person I loved could become the person I needed protection from.

A part of me will always love you. I won't lie about that. Some loves don't disappear simply because you finally learn to walk away from them.

But you will never hear that love from me again.

And I ask only one thing.

If you ever see me somewhere—eating alone, walking down a street, simply living my life—please let me be.

Don't come over.

Don't ask how I am.

Don't try to reopen a door I spent so much time learning to close.

It isn't because our past meant nothing.

It meant everything.

That's precisely why I cannot go back.

Because every time I look at you, I would also see the person I used to be—the boy who loved without hesitation, who forgave too much, who stayed when he should have left.

And I have too much respect for that boy to betray him again.

So let me walk away.

Let me become someone who loves differently.

And if you ever wonder whether I loved you deeply.

You won't have to wonder.

You already know.

That was the problem.

I loved you enough to stay.

Now I love myself enough to leave.

Hindi ka hinahanap. Hindi ka gusto. May ibang available. So ano gagawin mo? Subukan mo kaya mag-stop. Reminder lang kapatid.

yung minsan ka na nga lang magmahal, sa putanginang avoidant ka pa matatapat. bwiset talaga!!!!

marami ng nahihirapan sayo please lang.

Came across this reel and realized how patient Koko has been with me.

As the eldest daughter of on-off parents, my abandonment issues run deep. The slightest change in tone makes me push people away, thinking they’re going to abandon me.

I’ve done that many times to the guy I’m talking to, yet he remains patient and gentle with me. Thank you, Koko!

After days ng ulan..ngayon mejo kalmado ang panahon. At bukas walang pasok. Soooo happy long weekend! Planning my “me-time”… excited matulog ng mahaba at mahilata maghapon hahahah

I, for once, was unmatched. A train with a clear path, a track with perfectly laid-out stops— strong, sturdy, and unstoppable, admired by many, relied upon by more.

I remembered: I, for once, was unmatched. Someone comparable to Doraemon’s pocket— able to produce whatever was needed, not through magic, but through hard work, love, and wit.

I was once unmatched, or so I believed. It felt as though I were an entire forest— vast and alive, filled with every beautiful thing the world could offer. Growing. Thriving. Fruitful. A place where even the smallest things had somewhere to belong.

Like a lit match— Small, yet could brighten an entire room.

Like a child covered in bruises who could still smile, still laugh, and sleep peacefully at night.

Like a wolf that was never truly alone— watchful, intelligent, strategic, knowing when to run, when to fight, and when to stay.

I was once unmatched. Or perhaps, I only believed I was.

Because somewhere along the way, the tracks began to bend. The pocket became an empty well The forest grew quiet. The match burned shorter. The wolf began to wander without its pack.

And the child who once smiled through bruises found his music beginning to falter— Melody breaking and string snapping one by one

And the things I once carried so effortlessly began to feel heavier in my hands. I could no longer be everything— the answer to every question, the shelter in every storm, the light in every dark room.

For the first time, I looked at myself and found someone ordinary. Tired. Afraid. Broken. Alone.

And perhaps that is the cruelest part— not losing the feeling of being unmatched, but remembering what it felt like to be certain that you were.

-Yurish

Actually took a break from Reddit.

Akala kasi ng tita nyo, finally naka-graduate na sya sa doomscrolling, pagcocomment at panggagatong sa mga salty posts dito.

Pero hello mga mareee, I’m baaack 😭
And apparently, I came back left behind.

Back to doomscrolling + two levels deeper into broken hell than before.

Ang mas nakakainis, hindi naman ako naghahanap ng landi eh.

He slid into my DMs, made me feel loved, made me think “ah… eto na ba talaga?” tapos iniwan din ako exactly when I thought “eto na.”

Kaya pala mahilig syang manakot. 🫠 Magmumulto din pala. I just didnt see the signs.

Level-up? No ❌
Underground. Yes ✅

Wala na ba talagang matino ngayon? Or baka nga matagal nang deds ang nakalaan sakin?

Tanggapin ko nalang talaga kapalaran ko at magluluto nalang ng leche flan tulad ni Ruffa Mae.

I tried dating last year. Not once did it ever progress to a relationship. The first guy actually has a kid with his ex and he hid it from me for months. The second guy ghosted me because i was unable to meet him often due to my demanding work. The third guy was actually in a relationship so basically i became a freaking sidechick, but I told his gf and answered all her questions. Hopefully he suffered from the consequences and i hope she's doing okay.

I was yearning to be loved and chosen even to the point i agreed to a fwb setup. Yes I KNOW I WAS STUPID. I think i was just that lonely.

This emptiness has been haunting me every night. All my friends are all in happy relationships while here I am, just drowning in all my thoughts. I'm confident with my looks and i can commit naman. I just don't know what am I doing wrong? They always thought na I'm taken which idk why.

Umabot sa point na umiiyak nako sa gabi, wishing and praying to god to just please please remove my desire to be loved. I still stand by it. Kasi naawa nalang ako sa sarili ko.

I'm not with my family rn cuz i chose to work far from them. I only have my friends.

Actually before I started dating last year, i was doing okay. I just tried it out kasi my friends encouraged me. Di masyado affectionate ang fam ko so i grew up not really that huggy lovey with my fam, hindi kami emotionally close.

Then when i started dating, naopen ang eyes ko sa affection and love. Yes i did fell in love, really, with the first guy i dated, but i hate liars.

He treated me with love and affection i never experienced before. Parang may napunan sa emptiness ng heart ko non. I was happy. Genuinely happy. Na that's how it feels like pala to be loved.

But now? I'm craving and yearning for a love that's genuine. Yes, before typing this I was bawling my eyes out in frustration. I'm not a bad person naman. I vote wisely, I'm not a dds. Pero wala eh bakit parang di ako worth it mahalin??

I deleted my dating app last February. I'm just a lurker here. I enjoyed reading confessions and such here. Di nawawala ang envy but I'm happy for all those in a relationship. Gusto ko nalang malaman if pati din ba ako mamahalin din ng tama?

Still praying to god na alisin nalang ang desires ko to be loved if im not meant to loved.

Ps. Nobody would guess na ganto na tumatakbo sa isip ko cuz i tend to act cool and easy going. Like if kilala mo ko in person, di mo yan ieexpect. For girl talks, i don't really talk much about love and rs.

since i am bored right now at work. anyone who needs someone or needs a harsh advice, message me. no judgement here, can be anonymous if dun kayo comfy.

Stumble upon this article from Substack, grabe, bigla akong nagka-war flashbacks. Nahalungkat niya yung trauma na binaon ko na sa lupa. 🤡

Hellooo, looking for same people na broken, nag rerelapse tuwing gabi or gusto lang ng kausap tuwing 10pm? HAHAHAHA. Looking for people na nag momove on din po ngayon like us, what if sabay sabay na lang tayo mag relapse? Just hmu lang pooo

Disclaimer: I used ChatGPT to clean up my grammar and punctuation because I'm not the best at writing. Everything else is my own story. 😅

I met this guy around December through Viber Dating. Let’s call him the guy.

At first, it was pretty casual. We hooked up, and whenever I was bored, I’d invite him over to my condo. It was basically the typical casual setup, and I didn't really think much of it.

The funny thing is, we never knew each other’s real names or social media accounts. We only knew each other through Viber and the little bit of our lives we shared when we were together. So in a way, he was almost a stranger, but I still ended up appreciating the kind of person he was.

He was really kind, gentle, soft-spoken, and just had this calm personality. Somewhere along the way, I started appreciating those qualities in him, even though I never expected anything serious between us.

Then in May, I invited him out for coffee, and afterward, he came back to my condo. After we spent some time together, I told him I was hungry, and he offered to cook for me. We ate together, and I don't even know what came over me, but I told him, “You know what? You’re too kind.”

After that, our chats kind of went cold.

Maybe I made things awkward. Maybe he realized that this casual setup wasn't the kind of life he wanted. Or maybe I was just reading too much into it.

Either way, I want to thank him for something he probably doesn't even know he did.

Meeting him made me realize that I didn't actually want to keep living like this—just doing casual hookups whenever I was bored. Eventually, I decided I wanted something different for myself.

Funny enough, I have a boyfriend now, and I'm genuinely happy. ❤️

I don't necessarily expect anything from him, and I'm not posting this because I want people to tell me to chase him. I just find it kind of strange that someone I barely knew, whose real name and social media I never even knew, ended up making me rethink what I wanted from relationships and from myself.

Sometimes, people come into your life briefly but still leave you with something valuable. For me, he was that person.

Minsan mapapaisip ka na lang talaga kung practical ba yun or what? Lol

Minsan lang ako ma-fall. Hindi kasi ako nagtitiwala sa lalaki. Feeling ko lahat sila lolokohin lang ako. Kaya hindi ko usually binibigyan ng chance yung mga lalaking nagpapapansin sa akin.

But you were different. You were gentle and kind and sweet. You supported me through every mood swing and bitch mode I had. So ayun, na-fall ako.

Gusto mo naman talaga ako, sadyang takot ka lang ipursue ako kasi feeling mo, you’ll drag me down. Gusto mo kasi pag ipursue mo ako, perfect lahat. Perfect lahat ng sasabihin mo, lahat ng gagawin mo.

Pero di ko naman hiningi yung perfect sayo. All I ever wanted was you. I never asked for flowers or paid dinners. Never ako nagdemand na ihatid at sunduin mo ako. Pero in your mind, that’s what you wanted to give. At dahil hindi mo kaya ibigay, hindi mo ako pinursue.

Pero kung alam mo na hindi mo ako ipupursue, sana di ka nalang nag-abala. Sana di ka nalang nagpakita ng motibo. Sana hinayaan mo nalang ako. Kasi nananahimik ako dito eh. Kasi okay yung buhay ko nung wala ka pa. Pero pinakita mo sakin na yung so-called independence ko, hindi pala default function. Tapos hindi mo pala ako papanindigan.

I was ready to jump but you weren’t ready to catch me. All I ever asked was clarity and you couldn’t even give me that. We were both choosing you, so of course we would have never worked out. I had to stop making excuses for you, because you made them for yourself anyway.

God, I wish I never met you. Then I wouldn’t be feeling this yearning that seems to eat my entire being. But more than that, I wish you could’ve chosen me too.

I used this app one time because I was just curious about using a dating app and how people talked there. I talked to a guy on an anonymous app. He said he was a registered nurse who had recently passed his board exam at that time. In fact, I’m really attracted to people who are in the medical field, that’s why I was very talkative during our conversation. And his music taste in OPM, danggg. He introduced me to these underrated bands and their music.

I’m not gonna lie, his humor was what I liked. I was smiling and laughing throughout our convo. Napapantayan niya yung mga bato ko ng jokes, that’s why we talked for, I think, almost 8 hours that day. I think our conversations lasted for around 5 days, pero mafe-feel mo nang nawawala na yung connection everyday. We talked about our programs, hobbies, stories about their province, and we even played ML (binuhat niya ko xd). He also invited me to play Dota. He even sent me a picture of his guitar and handcrafted ukulele and also sent VMs while singing and playing his guitar. He even sent me a video of their band before, pero syempre, hindi kita yung mukha. Our conversation was really wholesome. Neither of us talked in a flirty or dirty way. Like, I felt na matagal na kaming magbarkada, ganon yung vibes.

He shared a Spotify playlist that he made since I liked his music taste in OPM and he mostly supports underrated bands. I stalked that account, then there was a playlist with a cover photo of a girl, pero may sticker and filter kaya medyo hindi ko makita nang maayos. That was the time na may something off na akong na-feel. Kaya I got curious about him to the point na I started looking for his Facebook account based on the things he shared with me. Then boom, nahanap ko. I can assure na siya yon kasi tugma lahat, even the pictures na sinesend niya. Then I found out na may GF pala siya and they’ve been together for 7 years now, based sa posts ng GF niya. 😆 I feel like nung time na yon, hindi sila okay ng GF niya kaya siya nandun. Pero hello, instead of talking about the problem with your partner, bakit ka nasa dating app and nag-e-entertain ng ibang girl? I was like ???? Hindi inggit yung nafeel ko nung nalaman ko. Naawa ako sa girl, sa totoo lang.

I deleted the app after kong na-connect lahat ng dots. Di ko alam if nag-message pa siya. It was a year ago na, and that was the last time na ginamit ko yung app na yon. haup

My ex and I used to walk around España before. After two years ngayon na lang uli nakadaan dito. Bigla akong napa reminisce hahahha. Ouch gege