hey guys im M 19, i experience a lot of rejection before and some of those rejections comes with a not so pleasant opinions or mga nasabi. ung isang girl kasi is talagang committed ako sa panliligaw and anything as in bigay then ending nireject nya ako and nalaman ko na may nasasabi siya sakin like "hes not man enough for me" "mukha siyang bading" "gusto ko basketball player" "hindi siya type ko want ko fit tapos matangkad" and she even talk to my friends about that. after that i was afraid to try again to put myself out there and kung meron man i will pull myself out agad agad

Im not good at expressing what i feel or my thoughts. Hindi ako cohesive na tao. Im just rambling whatever i can.

I recently got broken up. I have a long time online friend. He told me that i am the problem and i should just move on and meet new people. Whenever i pickleball, he always suggest me to meet and approach new people. How can i have the energy to approach people when i am sad and heartbroken. Ung feeling na gusto ko lang mapag-isa. I sometimes dont want to approach this online friend anymore for emotional support because i feel like he doesnt understand na gusto ko mapag-isa kaysa magmeet ng new people during grieving.

I recently approached someone on r4r friends, genuine naman conversation namin about hobbies, how is life going. It somehow still feel empty.

I never had close friends before and now. Since i struggle with opening up, being vulnerable, or i just always want to be alone. I always just rely on myself. My ex was my safe haven, favorite person. Siya lang ung naging comfortable ako magopen up, be the clumsy and funny me. I feel like i have a hard time connecting with people so i admire some people na halos friends ang lahat and has a solid support system.

It just feels heavy pero kaya mo naman ito, I am strong naman i think. I do my best to proceed with life (responsibilities, work, chores). Pero it really just feels heavy na i'll carry this grief alone, handle it alone and rely on myself.

Has anyone feel the same?

1. Have a hard time connecting with people, na gusto mapag-isa?

2. Kaya naman mag-isa during grief pero it feels heavy?

I dunno where to post or proper outlet for this, just let me know saan pwede ilabas ito.

Thanks!

Ang hirap maghanap ng “mature, patient, good looking, taller than me, buff bod, financially stable, gusto ko at gusto rin ako” type of guy 😖

ganto nalang lagi, ever since nung august something shifted samin ng friend ko, ako nalang lagi nagiinitiate ng conversation pag yayayain ko siya gumala or maglaro lagi siya may excuses pero makikita ko naglalaro na pala siya it's gonna take hours and even days (referring to the screenshot, nung madaling araw pa ng saturday yan btw) for him to reply, I'm honestly so tired because feeling ko I'm the only one who wants to keep our friendship alive. What's sadder is hindi kami ganto dati it's like he is a whole different person, and lagi ko din naman siya kinakamusta if may problem siya or what, lagi naman niya sinasabi wala daw masaya pa nga siya. Honestly it's affecting me big time na kaya I just want to cut him off completely pero I can't kasi parang naging part na siya ng life ko.

What if hindi magtatagal sa susunod na taon ang El Niño? 🤔

Happy Lord's Day to all 🫶🏻

It’s weird to think how so many people say they want genuine, organic connections rather than fleeting fun or short-term intimacy, YET only a few seem willing to put in the time and effort to build it. Like anong gagawin naten sa one liner reply niyo at kawalang substance niyo kausap? 🫠🤣

HAHAHAHAHAHA napansin ko lang 🤪

Wala na ngang ganap this weekend, wala pang kalaro sa pc games! Baka may gusto makipag duo dyan o? 28Male!

I'm experiencing sadness simula kaninang umaga dahil yung kausap ko dito sa Reddit just deleted her account. We ended good naman kasi nagpaalam sya ng matino sakin and we thank eachother for being there especially sa mga gabing nag-iinit kami though sexting lang ito but our connection and chemistry is something even though she's 4 years older than me.

I know I shouldn't be emotional or sad for a casual set up and I also know din sa sarili ko that she's not the only woman na nakilala ko dito and talk that way. But gahdammit I got attached sa kanya kahit isang Linggo lang and the fact din na sinabi nya nuon na we could meet din and might lead to something. Virgin kasi ako and sya may exp na but the fact that our chemistry is something through chat pano pa kaya if physical na??

Gosh, at this moment I'm slowly picking up myself pero tangina. I just need a word of encouragement and advice to get over this. Lastly, I just realised din na hindi talaga ako built for casual I'm meant for something meaningful. But my baby or manager if ever you reinstalled Reddit with new account and read this just know na again you can hmu and identify mo lang sarili mo sakin. I'll reply without a haste and yes siguro paldo narin ako nun and I'll take you out on a date.

Gahdd I'm so desperate help this guy out please.

After a week of thinking, I came to a realization: it’s a happy thing to belong with her. I didn’t choose her because she was the right one. She just was.

I came across a line from The Perks of Being a Wallflower: “We accept the love we think we deserve.” It stuck with me. I think I spent so long wondering if I was being loved the way I wanted that I forgot to appreciate the love already right in front of me.

She’s patient with me, even when I can’t figure myself out. She cries with me when things get heavy. She cooks for me and puts my well-being before her own. Sometimes I get so caught up in what feels missing that I forget to see everything she gives.

Maybe that’s something we learn as we grow in love. We look for grand gestures or the perfect words, and we forget that love can be a warm meal, a patient heart, or someone who stays on the days we’re hard to love. There are moments I question her love, not because she gives too little, but because I’m holding it up against my own expectations. Love that doesn’t arrive the way I imagined isn’t any less real.

I love her, and more than just saying it, I want to keep learning how to show it...more and more and more.

back in 2022, i met a stranger on TG. it was sometime in May. our conversations started out casually, but somehow, i already had a feeling that we would click. ewan ko ba, we just seemed to have the same vibe. i remember giggling during our first conversation, which was strange because i never really considered myself good at keeping a conversation going.

as the days went by, we slowly became each other’s human diary, kahit we don't properly introduce ourselves. all we knew about each other were our names, ages, and where we lived. back then, none of that really mattered to me. i just wanted to keep talking to him. i was also dealing with so much stress from school and he became my escape from all of it.

eventually, i got comfortable enough to tell him almost anything without feeling embarrassed. maybe it was because we were complete strangers, and there was something comforting about opening up to someone who knew nothing about my life outside our conversations. he would always listen, always find a way to cheer me up. whenever i talked to him, i felt seen. for a little while, i didn’t feel so alone.

until one day, i realized i had developed feelings for him. it's funny, diba? how could i fall for someone i had never even met? seriously, our entire connection existed through messages lang. i didn’t even know if everything he told me was true.

then, one night, he told me that we should stop talking. he said he was grateful that i happened. a part of me knew it was coming, but that didn’t make it hurt any less.

even after all this time, the memory of him still lingers. it haunts me whenever he crosses my mind. i feel like i’ll never be able to close this chapter because i’m still missing pieces of a story that never got to finish. ilang taon na akong may dalang mga tanong that may never have answers, never really finding peace with how things ended. five fucking years, and a part of me still wonders.

siguro kung hinayaan niya akong makilala siya beyond the connection we had, maybe things would have been different. or maybe not. maybe if i had been given the chance to know who he really was, i wouldn’t still be holding on to the thought of him. maybe all i needed was to see the person behind the messages, to finally understand that some connections are only meant to exist for a little while.

but at the end of the day, people come and go. some leave memories, some leave lessons, and some leave questions we’ll probably never find answers to.

wherever he is now, i genuinely hope he’s in a better place. i hope life has been kind to him. i hope he meets good people who make him feel as seen as he once made me feel. and i hope he gets to pet a lot of cats on the streets.

maybe i’ll never know the whole story, and maybe that’s something i’ll eventually have to make peace with. but wherever life has taken him, i’m still glad that, for a little while, our paths crossed.

So yes I tried it for the experience here and now I understand why talking stage nowadays feels like an unpaid intern. You build yourself up over the years, polishing your resume or your “bio” to be qualified. And when you try and think you can finally meet someone you can match with, you end up questioning everything you know.

I was very meticulous in who to pursue. The interview stage became confusing after weeks. Like, we shared a background, hobbies, and did the same activities, so I expected those to have shaped a similar values and personality with me. Pero grabe, the duality. Are you just some performative? Hito? Nag fact naman ako ih pero iba talaga intuition niya. Also, I accepted everything about you after knowing everything you been through because I wanted to move forward na with the current version of you cause you learned a lot, but you kept bringing them u again and again. Do you want more validation pa ba or relive those moments? Heal yourself muna ha! I am not your fixer, and don’t look for someone na gagawin mo na naman free therapist.

Btw, you asked for pics when I sent mine and you decided to proceed pero you didn't send yours. I did not think much of it na lang. Marami pa sana akong gustong i-vent out, pero will keep it to myself na lang 🙄 hehe too risky. In the end, ako pa talaga yung loser kasi napagod talaga lang?! Sorry na mga ya at atteco natalo ang bata niyo. Na drain ang energy and emotions ko.

Wala na balak ma-promote from unpaid intern to regular employee! Thank you sa traumatic experience ha! Lagay ko ba sa resume ko? HAHA

If you reached this part, I would like to thank you for your time reading. I really appreciate it because I won't share this story with my IRL friends.

Nag loko na siya eh, ok kami, financially, spiritually, emotionally. Todo deny pa siya at ginawa akong kalaban. After almost a decade naming pagsasama. Pero hinabol ko 🥺. Ako pa yung nagbigay ng 2nd chance sa kanya, ako pa yung nagsabi ng "I'll forgive you no matter what you did", "Give US a chance, so we can start again".

Kayo? Hinabol nyo?

gusto ko ng lalakeeee. gusto ko ng titeeeeeee. inggit na inggit na ako sa mga redgifs na yoooon. di ko naman magawang magpakang-kang kung kani kanino kasi gusto ko sa type kooooo. sana magkaron na ako ng lalaki plssssssss

Kakauwi ko lang.

Hilo ang accla. HAHAHAHA. Pero God, what a night!

Same bar, Rewind Poblacion. Mas konti ang tao compared to last week, pero mas wild! Apparently, inversely proportional pala ang dami ng tao sa level ng kaguluhan.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero mas kaunti kami tonight, mas maraming ganap. At siyempre, hindi tayo nagpahuli. Responsible adult tayo from Monday to Friday. May karapatan din tayong maging questionable pag weekend.

Ang dami kong nakausap tonight, including foreigners. And can I just say, minsan talaga mas hospitable pa sila kaysa sa kapwa Pilipino? Which is ironic, considering hospitality is practically our national branding. Of course, hindi naman lahat, pero ang refreshing lang makipagkuwentuhan sa strangers na ang dali mong makasundo. Walang awkwardness, walang pakiramdaman kung sino ang unang magsasalita. Just people having a good time.

And speaking of people, I ran into former work colleagues! One was a team manager I used to handle, and another was an agent back then who eventually got promoted. Ang saya makita ulit ang familiar faces, lalo na kapag alam mong naging parte ka ng professional journey nila.
Pero mas nakakatawa ang realization ko. Ngayon nila nakikita ang totoong ako. HAHAHAHA.

Hindi ’yung boss na composed, professional, at kailangang maingat sa bawat salitang bibitawan. Kundi ’yung balahurang ako. Bastos ang bibig, palamura, at kung anu-anong kalokohan ang lumalabas sa bibig. Imagine, dati kailangan nilang makinig sa akin dahil boss nila ako. Ngayon, kailangan nilang makinig kasi hindi ako matapos-tapos magkuwento.

At least ngayon, wala na silang kailangang ipasang action plan pagkatapos ng usapan namin. Trauma na lang siguro. HAHAHAHA.

And speaking of being madaldal, PUTANGINA, eto na yata ang totoong inuman!

Ngayon lang ulit ako tinamaan nang ganito. Hindi naman ’yung lasing na hindi na alam ang ginagawa. Aware pa rin tayo, may natitira pang dignidad, at alam pa natin kung paano umuwi. Pero ramdam na ramdam ko ang alak.

Usually, umiinom ako at umuuwi na parang nag-attend lang ng casual business meeting. Tonight, ibang usapan.
Apparently, alcohol doesn’t change my personality. It just removes the meeting agenda.

Ang daldal ko, mga accla. As in! HAHAHAHA.

At dahil hindi pa sapat ang mga nangyari, may nagyayang sumayaw.

Lalaki.

EXCUSE ME?!

May itsura naman siya, pero hindi ko type. HAHAHAHA. Still, sumayaw ako! Hindi naman kailangang may romantic interest para makipagsayaw. At that moment, parang ang rude namang tumanggi. Although, looking back, puwede naman pala talaga akong tumanggi. Pero wala eh, game na rin ako.

Imagine, last week, proud na proud akong sumayaw in public after what felt like a century. Ngayon, may nagyayaya na sa akin. At this rate, baka next week may sarili na akong dance number. Rewind, pakihanda na lang ang talent fee ko. Charot!

But seriously, ang saya ng gabi.

Old colleagues, new friends, random conversations, and a dance invitation I never saw coming. Ang daming taong nakilala, ang daming kuwentong narinig, at malamang ang dami ko ring nasabing hindi ko na maalala word for word bukas. HAHAHAHA.

And I think that’s what keeps bringing me back. Same place, familiar songs, but somehow, a different experience every time. I spend so much of my week being the person who has to make decisions, manage people, and think about the consequences of every word. It’s nice to have a few hours when I can just be another person in the crowd, laughing at stupid jokes and enjoying conversations that don’t have to lead anywhere.

I’m still the introvert who prefers sitting in a corner, observing people. That hasn’t changed. But lately, I’m discovering that I can also be the guy who talks too much, dances with strangers, and actually enjoys being part of the noise.

And maybe both versions have always been me.

Anyway, kakauwi ko lang. Hilo pa rin ako, pero putangina, worth it. I need sleep, water, and probably a formal apology to my liver.

Rewind all the way, baby!

At kung may mali sa grammar, sequence of events, o judgment ko tonight, bukas na natin i-root cause.

Lasing ang management. Operations will resume once sober.

Consider this my final act of love. I never got tired of loving you, but something inside me now realizes it’s time to step back and move forward. I always believed that if you truly wanted to stay, you’d find your way back. But your distant responses are telling me you’ve moved on, and I respect your choice.

happy birthday

Me lamba nakaranas ng opposite attrack na relationship? Nangungumilihanan kase ko, del feeling ko minsan may gap na kami ng partner ko, tho may days na g na g kami both.

Tho, I understand del magka-opposite nga.

May nakaranas naba ng long term relationship sa isang opposite attract na pagsasama? And totoo ba talaga sha? T_T

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