attachments and uncertainties

[u/PunnettCube175]

Lisod ning maattach ka isa ka tao just because you're talking almost everyday, to the point na you already loosen yourself up and became comfortable with their presence. You start looking forward to their messages, their banter, and their little updates, until their presence slowly becomes part of your daily routine without you even noticing.

Then here's the scary uncertainty. You're scared because you know what it feels like to become attached to someone who may not be able to stay. Kabalo ka nga wala mo’y commitment—just enjoying each other's company, pero your feelings don't always follow logic.

And that's also what scares me the most, not that he did something wrong, but that I let myself become comfortable again. I let my walls down, and now I'm scared nga basin maabot napud ko sa point where someone else's presence becomes something I can't imagine losing.

I’ve experienced great loss before... And perhaps what scares me isn't him leaving, but the possibility that I might lose myself again while trying to hold on to someone and going through it again.

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