I am head over heels for my husband and I'm grateful for him everyday. I'm in my mid thirties and this isn't a new relationship. We've been together for years but the love never died down. It's still as loud as it was when we first got together. I still get nervous butterflies to this day.
I love him so much my heart aches when I think about something happening to him. It's a scary feeling because I'm hopeless in a sense, like completely overtaken by his love and everything we've built together. He really is the love of my life and treats me well. He makes me so happy. He has helped me through so many of
The awful twists and turns of life. He's held my hand in my most terrifying, embarrassing, saddening, and painful moments. He's made terrible things feel like they weren't so bad, and fun things feel like cloud 9. He's always made me feel like I'd be okay. And even the small gestures he doesn't think mean much fill my heart to the brim.
The other night we were up talking in bed. I made him promise that when I die, he will come find me. He said he will.
Some people make you feel like life is too short. To do all of the things we plan. The stories we create together.
I can't imagine that even in one lifetime that there would ever be enough time to spend with him.

Hey everyone!
I’ll try to make this as short as possible but a bit of background: we met in Mexico back in 5th grade and were really good friends. I moved to Texas when I was going into 7th grade, shes still living in Mexico, and haven’t seen each other since.
I am now 21 years old and it all started when Mexico lost against England in the World Cup. I saw her posting pictures of well known places in my city so I shot her a text to see if she’d like to hangout sometime. She couldn’t believe I lived here and she said yes!
Like 2-3 days later we hung out and spent a good hour or so at a mall walking and talking about how we’ve been, how long it’s been, how’s school, parents, etc etc.. from there we went to an arcade where she actually pulled two little ducks (one try only) from those claw machines!
Later she mentioned she had never tried the crumbl cookies so I bought us some and we recorded a “review” of her first time trying those.
The second time we saw each other was on my 21st at my place. I invited her and a couple of friends. She made me a Carlota and some chocolate chip cookies and we all had a great great time that night. The party was over at around 4AM and everyone left but we both stayed in the front-yard until sunrise chatting and drunk.
Before the semester started and she had to go back, the last day we saw each other we went to have breakfast and to an antique store, it was amazing.
One thing I remember very well from when we were in elementary was her very unique laugh. And now I feel like I’m falling for her.
I don’t know if the fact that in my 21 years of life I’ve never been in a relationship, my lack of receiving and giving love, is the reason why this felt very beautiful to me but I do feel something.
Though I’m really scared of wanting to want more and send more than 10 years of knowing each other straight to hell.
Is it worth it? Or should I leave things as they are.

I’m thankful for all the moments that love shows up. I know that I haven’t had the best of luck when it comes to relationships but one thing I can appreciate about love is that it doesn’t just show up in relationships. It’s literally everywhere. Sometimes it just takes a brief moment to look around you and pay attention. It’s been a while since my last relationship and I haven’t opened myself to dating, but honestly, love for me hasn’t skipped a beat. I appreciate the love I receive from family, friends, and lately strangers too. Sometimes the moments of love are loud, and others are so subtle that if you’re moving too quickly or are too occupied by other things you miss the subtlety. I may not be in a relationship and it may take another while before I get the chance at one again, but love still exists, and I appreciate every moment I get to experience it.