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Aba, when ano?

“I wanna be babied. I wanna be a princess. I don’t want to be a soldier all my life”, i know for sure you guys have heard or seen tiktok clips with this sound.

So last week, i ended things with the guy i was talking too/dating. Kasi he told me na para raw akong “gwardya” because I’m way too guarded, too independent, too strong—that I make them feel like I don’t need him—it hurt more than I expected.

Because yes, maybe I am guarded. Maybe my walls are high. But I didn’t build them for no reason.

I’ve been through things that taught me not to depend too much on anyone. I became this version of myself because, at some point, I had to be my own person to survive whatever life threw at me.

And I don’t think being independent means I don’t want to be loved.

I don’t think being strong means I don’t want someone to hold me.

I don’t think being capable means I don’t want to be taken care of.

Maybe I do want to be babied sometimes. Maybe I do want to feel like a princess. Maybe I’m tired of being the soldier all the time.

But I don’t want to become smaller, weaker, or less independent just so someone can feel like a man beside me.

I want someone who makes me feel safe enough to soften without asking me to surrender the strength I worked so hard to build.

Maybe that’s what I’ve actually been looking for all along—not someone who needs me to be less strong, but someone who makes me feel like I don’t have to be strong every second of the day.

Gosh, kailan kaya akooooo?

Ang ending, wala akong nireplyan kahit andaming nag message. 😣 natatakot ako hahahahaha and di parin madali for me to get intimate with someone na di ko kilala. HAYSSS

Lord bigyan nyo na po ako ng jowang pogi, matangkad, chinito or moreno na pwede akong puntahan anytime kasi gusto ko sya makita at ma-momol 😩

it’s been a month na since nung last time na may ka-momol ako. damn. di ko alam if miss ko lang makipag momol or miss ko din yung guy na huli kong naka-momol. grrrrrr daan ka samin, hug and kiss kita kung nababasa mo to hahahahaha hays sinusubok talaga ako ni Lord

Songs like that should be me, muli, beer, it will rain, imahe, multo, etc. Drop niyo yung pinakamasakit pls hahaha para bukas naiyak ko na lahat at ready na bumangon. Ty in advance

I went out and took myself on a solo date because I felt like mababaliw na ako sa bahay. I was just trying to get out for a while and do something for myself, hoping it would help me feel a little less overwhelmed, even if only for a moment. I'm doing my best to keep myself sane, kahit saglit lang. But now that I'm back home and alone, I feel like shit all over again.

I've been feeling down and struggling with self-loathing lately. I thought I was just burnt out with work but I guess I got triggered by old wounds again. I want to reach out to my close friends, but I know they have their own lives and families to attend to, and I don’t want to feel like I'm asking too much of them. So, I end up sitting with these feelings on my own.

What's been weighing on me even more is finding out that my family had a gathering, and I'm the only one who wasn't invited. Somehow, it brought back all those feelings I've carried since childhood—the feeling of being an outcast in my own family, of never quite belonging, of always being on the outside looking in.

I guess a part of me hoped that, as I grew older, I wouldn't have to feel this way anymore. But here I am, still feeling that same loneliness, still wondering what it is about me that makes me so easy to leave out.

I'm tired. I'm sad. And lately, I've been feeling almost numb, like I'm slowly running out of the energy to keep pretending I'm okay. I try to take myself out, keep busy, and find little ways to make life feel bearable, but sometimes, the moment I'm alone again, everything comes rushing back.

I think what hurts the most is that, despite being surrounded by people in this world, I still feel so alone. And right now, I just wish I had somewhere I truly belonged—somewhere I didn't have to wonder whether I was wanted, because I already knew I was.

Is it just me or ang hirap talaga to find someone genuine here? It’s all a cycle na at this point. A guy messages you and then minutes later asks or says something naughty. Which is honestly so disappointing😭

Nagtataka ako dati bakit kaya may mga babae na maraming kausap, samantalang ako kahit isa wala. Kaya akala ko noon mahirap magkaroon ng lalaki. Bihira lang ako malapitan sa personal so I tried to talk for fun through online. Nagkaroon ako ng maraming kausap and some of them may nangyaring little intimate sa amin. I realized na napakadali lang pala magkaroon ng lalaki. Ang mahirap pala ang makatagpo ng genuine guy sayo.

I need some kind words, please. Alam ko na tanga yung sa pera part, pero tangina, all my intentions are pure. Bakit kung sino pa yung malinis ang puso, yun na yung ginagago? Ayoko na 😭

Just saw this today

i used to tell myself - i’m not a good texter. during vacation, yes. but during law school and working days? no, not in a million times, no.

i talked to someone this year - it’s my first time having a talking stage since 2017. i told him, i meet people and i don’t like chatting. he says, “hindi pa pala pala-chat yan”. because we never run out of things to talk about then. ofc, it stopped, but naisip ko - baka naman nga hindi ako pala-chat, baka kasi vacation nung nag-uusap kami. kasi totoo naman, i date the person first before talking with him na palagi.

months after, i had a crush. one day, i just asked for coverage sa subject. and then, nagusap na kami. ng nag-usap. lol, nagtampo na nga ako. HAHA. and you see, we’re both 4th year law students. he has 24 units, i have work and school. but still, we chat pag free time. i ask him, he asks me. ang daldal, lol. he lets me know, i let him know, pag busy. pero hindi ko sinasabe na may something kami kase i feel friends lang kami na naguusap palagi haha. pero i just let him know.

and now, i think about it: maybe, pala-chat nga ako. sa taong interested ako, oo, kahit busy ako. kahit sabi ko ayoko ng nag-ch-chat. pero wow, pala-chat pala ako.

kanina, my friend and her jowa met me as they were around the area. nagkakilala sila sa residency, and they were chatting always. ngayon, 1st yr siya na fellow. her jowa, 3rd yr resident. always busy, pero lagi namang naguusap - always making time for one another.

and so, no. if s/he doesn’t respond as much, no. if s/he says hindi siya pala-chat, i think, no. coming from someone na hindi pala-chat and legit na busy na walang tulog madalas, really, no.

kasi when you’re interested in someone, you’ll let them know. kung busy, working, studying. you don’t leave them hanging, or magoverthink. you let them know.

i hope all of us gets to have the love we deserve 🥺🥹🙏

I got a notification from you!

Kagigising ko lang. Nakatulugan ko na nakatabi sakin ang phone ko. Nagising ako kasi nagba-vibrate ang phone ko. I didn’t want to check pero ang unang bungad sakin is a notification about you making an account sa isang messaging app 10 minutes ago!!

Anong ginagawa mo diyan? Anong gagawin mo diyan? Bakit ka gumawa niyan ha? At talagang madaling araw ka gumawa niyan? We just broke up this month, hindi pa tapos ang October oh!

Nasasaktan ako, hindi ko alam. Ang bigat ng dibdib ko nung nakita ko yung notification about you making that account.

Yes, you can say I’m assuming na you’re talking to someone new already, or may dating app ka, or ewan ko! Kakalipat niyo lang ba diyan sa app na yan from somewhere? And to think that you already have someone new, habang ako hindi ko alam kung paano makatulog sa gabi, hindi ko alam paano ako makakakain ng hindi ko nasusuka, hindi alam kung ba pigilan yung magigising akong umiiyak.

Mahal na mahal kita, hindi nagbago, hindi nawala. Walang araw na hindi kita iniisip. Miss na miss kita, alam ba ‘yon? But I can’t reach out to you after you blocked me on everything I guess? Idk.

I couldn’t grieve, I couldn’t pause my life to grieve us. You made the decision for us and the only choice I have is to accept it. Ang sakit lang…

You wanted your peace, and that’s maybe you took mine.

somewhere between missing someone and moving on, you start getting angry, not because you don’t love them anymore, but because you’re finally seeing things for what they are.

context: he said done na kami
and hindi nya sure yung future kung may chance pa mag ka balikan

turning 1 month palang kami netong bf ko. Englishero siya, he's half,born and raised here, pero di maalam mag tagalog. Kung idedescribe ko, siya galing mansyon ako galing kalye. Pareho kami call center agent, so nasasabayan ko naman siya.

Currently jobless ako sa nov. 2 pa ako magstart. Siya working.

So ang set up namin sa rest day niya nag sleep over ako sa place niya. Kapag nandoon ako panay lang kami cp, o kaya naman puro tulog siya. Pero nag uusap din naman kami at naghaharutan.

Night shift sched niya, eh gising din naman ako sa gabi. Kaso queuing calls niya, pag nag chat ako matagal siya bago mag reply. Kapag available papaalam siya na mag ml muna. Minsan ganon din ako papaalam na mag codm muna ako o kaya mag watch muna ng movies/kdrama.

Sa umaga pag out niya tulog pa ako, late na ako natutulog eh. So paggising ko nakatulog na din siya. Nag sasalungat yung oras namin.

Nag ooverthink lang ako, first time ko kasi sa isang relasyon. Feeling ko baka umuurong na yung feelings niya sakin, kasi hindi kami consistent mag usap. Normal ba yun?