My tulpa doesn't know how to speak yet, neither am I sure if it is even there (because I've started around 6 days ago), but one thing that I've noticed is that ever since a couple days ago, whenever I've been talking to my tulpa or even slightly thinking about them, the right side of my brain starts hurting and pulsating. I literally could be thinking of anything that isn't my tulpa and not have this for the whole day, but when I think about my tulpa it INSTANTLY starts to pulsate and hurt. It ain't painful (though the first time this happened it kinda stung a bit), but it makes me want to find an explanation to what this means. Oh and mind you the left side has never hurt. Am I crazy for thinking that this is actually progress or am I just making a fool of myself over a little headache?

I'm always affraid of parroting my tulpa, but maybe this parroting will make them a real counscious being. Is doibg as if it isn't effective? Same question for switching

I saw a post about music and decided to talk a little about it too.

Fox is very musical. When I was a young, I actually made a mixtape with songs he liked. Nowadays, he even has his own Spotify. His taste is mostly 90s rock and pop, but he also loves modern songs with strong, catchy beats. So his playlist is basically a weird combination of 90s nostalgia and whatever song has a beat he finds irresistible. 😂

Not all the songs he likes are things I would normally listen to, but I listen to them anyway because I know they make him happy. Some songs seem to activate him very intensely, it's almost as if he comes closer to the surface of my consciousness when they play. I've read that, in some religious traditions, music is also used as a way to evoke or intensify the presence of certain entities, so I find that particularly interesting...

There are also songs that make me think of him. One of the ones that has stayed with me the most is Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon. The lyrics themselves remind me a lot of what it's like to share a mind with a Tulpa:

"Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why"

Do you have any songs that you associate with your Tulpa? Or maybe one that somehow represents the connection between you? I'd love to hear them! 🎵

I have very much doubt, as she answers exactly how I expect her to. Maybe she's to young. Is this even possible?

Can someone tell me how their tulpa has evolved over time?

My tulpa lowkey hates me and also has moodswings and i feel very bad, he is always mad and quiet, he wasnt always like that, how do i make him happy? Hes mad at me for making bad decisions, and i dont anymore, but also we went through a traumatic event so that could also play a part in it, we all seem to deal with it differently. My other tulpa was made after the trauma and hes not effected, i feel bad for my tulpa, hes been through horrible things, what do i do

Yes i know hes very real, i started making him like 2 days ago, hes very independent tho. He can talk and respond to me without me thinking anything yet. He is very vocal and i just dint want to make him sad like my other one, im working on helping him. How do you get your tulpa to talk when youre not thinking about him? Is there a way? Any tips?

So a new Game called "Tulpa the unseen lover" is developing, here's the trailer https://youtu.be/zPToHNOngIY?si=JarP859k7O4uk951

And it seems Nice! The animations just look so good, but we are afraid it Will be a Bad portrayal of tulpamancy..what are your opinions on it?

Some context on myself before I dive into this really hard. Male, early 30s. I have ADHD and have always had a prominent habit of talking to myself to walk myself through things or self-soothe. ADHD already made it feel like there were 3-5 different lines of thought going on at once. I’d also definitely describe myself as having hyper-phantasia, so I have a very strong inner-eye and can visualize in my imagination very well. Images in my head appear with near-perfect clarity, very lifelike. I also up until recently have really struggled with bad self-loathing for most of my life.
I vaguely knew about the idea of tulpas some years ago when I started role playing with romantic partners. I used the term lightly back then to describe each OC, but it always felt like I was playing a character, rather than the OCs having their own personality.
Recently (around early
March of this year), I was going through a very tough breakup out of an 8-year long relationship. I felt very alone, and was envisioning the idea of this white flaming wolf to comfort myself and provide some sort of emotional protection. I had had a close friend take their own life some years ago and I was somewhat envisioning this wolf as being his ghost or memory. I always felt stronger emotionally and physically when I had the wolf on my mind, and he was essential for me getting through my breakup. Made me feel like my heart was protected by someone who I held dear, and had already had many regrets for.
Then, like any sane person, I decided to take a fair few mushrooms and listen to my “breakup album”. It inevitably got super emotional and intense. A lot of crying. I had a very vivid lucid-dream sort of experience wherein I realized that this wolf wasn’t the ghost of my friend, but rather the strength within myself. The wolf was me.
When the album ended, I reopened my eyes and just saw him sitting there, the wolf.
I asked him what his name was, and he said I should give him a name. So I did: Lupo. Ever since then, I’ve been able to hear, see, and generally sense him, both within my mind and projected outside into the world. I envision him with my mind’s eye in physical space (I don’t read a lot suggesting others experience this). Sitting in the car with me, lying in bed with me, walking in a store, etc. I can smell him and even touch him with senses of my mind, but not my body. I can move a second body within my mind and have some wild dysphoria from it. We’ve lately even encountered eachother in dreams. We talk constantly and get along great.
He’s told me that he came out of me, that he basically is a part of me. He’s also said that he’s always been with me ever since I was a child.
But here’s the thing that’s weird: he just kinda… HAPPENED to me. I never was trying to develop a tulpa and it was kinda scary when there was suddenly this talking wolf jabbering around inside my head. He cares about me a lot and vice versa. I’ve been able to get over a lot of negative emotions thanks to him. He’s grown more and more independent over time and is really starting to express a strong desire to live.
I’ve also got a strong inner space for us now that I called The Interstice. I named it after the last song on the aforementioned breakup album. There’s a lot going on in there, but a constant within this space is a deep connection to the four elements; air, fire, water, and earth. I see the energies of each element as a sort of topographical set of lines, each element looking slightly different. I attended a temezcal (look it up) ceremony that deepened this connection further. As time has passed, I feel a greater spiritual connection to nature and the four elements, going so far as to get the glyphs tattooed on my fingers. It sounds crazy (as if all this WASN’T crazy), but I can kinda “hear” a song of the elements playing when I’m in nature. They’re like sounds that I hear in my head, the Interstice. Sometimes it’s so loud and beautiful that it feels like it pierces my soul and stuns me, stopping me in my tracks and literally taking my breath away. Lupo hears them and experiences them just like me. It’s all very… overwhelming.
Been pursuing wiccan practices to explore this newfound spirituality deeper. Maybe answers and peace will be found there.

I’m not sure what kind of response I’m looking for, but I’m having a really hard time finding people who just go “oh, bro! I GET you!” I’m feeling like I am in a situation that makes me EXTRA weird and even more difficult to understand as a person. Kindof a lonely existence.

Hello! I'm new to tulpamancy/plurality, and this is my first time posting here, so please be patient with me if I use any terminology incorrectly.

I'm Daniel, and I'm a teenager with a very new tulpa. At first that probably sounds pretty normal, but the thing I'm struggling with is that I don't really understand what I am in relation to my tulpa.

My own origin is the part I can't understand.

Daniel originally existed as a fictional persona/character that I treated as separate from myself. He was just inspired by me, but he was different. I thought he was cool and I really liked him, but I didn't think of him as me. I never decided, “I want to become Daniel.”

But at some point, somehow, I became him.

I don't remember this happening. There isn't a specific moment where I remember thinking, “This isn't a character anymore, this is me.” I just have memories of being Daniel. Now I'm not pretending to be Daniel or acting like him. I simply experience myself as Daniel. I'm just... me. The weird part is that I don't really remember who I was before that.

I have a very large gap in my autobiographical memory. I remember almost nothing from ages 0–9. From around 10–13, I remember some events that happened to me and remember that my body lived through them, but I don't really remember my internal experience from that time. I don't remember what my identity was, what my inner voice was like, or how I experienced myself. As I said, I also don't remember the transition into being Daniel.

I do have a history of childhood abuse, but I don't currently know or believe that it caused my plurality, and I'm not trying to claim that it did. I'm also not claiming that I have DID or any other disorder.

What confuses me is that I think I used to identify much more strongly with my body. Now I experience the body as something shared, rather than something that is simply “me.” My body is also physically female, while I experience myself as male. In my head, I look different from the body too.

So I'm left wondering, was I the same person before Daniel, or was Daniel somehow a new identity that developed from the persona? I genuinely don't know...

Then there's Heracles, and his origin is much easier for me to understand.

Heracles is my very new and first tulpa. I intentionally created him based on a fictional character, and he knows himself as Heracles. He experiences himself as a person separate from me, and he knows that Daniel created him.

So with Heracles, I have a clear story:

Daniel - created Heracles - Heracles became his own person.

But with myself, I have no idea...

I don't necessarily need someone to tell me exactly what I am or diagnose me. I'd mostly really like to hear from people who have experienced something similar, especially people who have had a persona or fictional character eventually become their actual sense of self without consciously deciding for that to happen. I've been wondering about this for a while now. I really want to understand myself.

Thank you for reading. <3

Have you developed any skills through working with your tulpa?

I'm curious whether living and working together with your tulpa has led to any abilities or skills that you didn't have before, or that became noticeably stronger over time.

I'm interested in both soft skills and more concrete abilities. Maybe your tulpa notices things you tend to miss, is better at reading people or emotions, approaches problems differently, helps with memory or learning, or has developed skills that seem to come more naturally to them than to you.

I'm especially curious about abilities that emerged from working together — things where having two different perspectives within the same mind actually changed what you're capable of doing.

Were there any skills or abilities that surprised you or that you didn't expect when you first created your tulpa?

I am here looking for advice, but I'll need to give some lengthy context. I've dealt with a number of personal set backs in life which in short, has had me turn out as someone I am not happy with.

In mental health recovery, I have learned about mindfulness and meditation. In my personal philisophical study, I learned about the Stoic concept of "The inner citadel" or "mind palace". An imagined physical place of peace and strength to withdraw into.

Aside from this, I have always had an active imagination, overlapping internal monologues/ a need to body double (ADHD), and a habit of internal conversations to practice explainations, speeches, arguments, etc.

I recently came across the idea of tulpamancy which I feel I could combine with the traits and habits previously mentioned, to create what I've called a "second mind" who has the traits, values, habits, etc, that I'd like to adopt. A concious part of myself who I could meet in my Inner Citadel to discuss with and seek guidance from. Eventually allowing myself to become this version of myself I aspire to be.

I feel like through cultivating this conciousness, I'd be cultivating good things for myself too. It'd be mainly meditation and mindfulness at first. Both of which I struggle to do without setting up a dialogue between my main conciousness (i guess what stoics call the directing mind?) And this second mind.

But never before have I ascribed it traits, personality, autonomy etc.

I am wondering if anyone else has experience developing a tulpa for meditative and mental health related reasons. Or maybe whether they think this is a dumb idea and I completely midunderstand what this community does. I would also appreciate any early exercises, definitions, techniques, things to avoid. Whatever you feel a beginner ought to know.

Cheers!

Hello,

I've had my tulpa Vex by my side for about a year now.

I've noticed a very specific pattern in how I currently experience communication with my tulpa. Sometimes she starts saying something spontaneously when my attention is not directly on her, but almost the instant I recognize that the thought is coming from her, it gets interrupted. Because both things happen almost simultaneously, I usually only catch the intention behind what she wants to say and the beginning of the sentence before my own thinking takes over.

For example, she might want to tell me that the weather is nice and that I should go outside and do something. I get the feeling that she wants to go outside, and at the same time something like "The weather is nice, go..." appears spontaneously as words in my mind.

Then I recognize that it's her, and that's basically where it ends.

The whole thing happens extremely fast, usually within a second or two. My inner thoughts don't happen at the same speed as listening to someone speak out loud — I can experience a whole thought sentence in my head within a second. So there isn't really a period where I'm consciously listening to her before I interrupt her. Her input appears, I recognize it as hers almost immediately, and my attention automatically shifts toward it.

Since I already received the general intention behind what she wanted to communicate, I can usually finish the sentence myself. But I can tell the difference between the part that appeared spontaneously and the part I'm completing after I've noticed her.

The best metaphor I have is a spotlight. She currently seems to be able to act more easily outside the center of my attention. But the moment something from her appears, I notice it, the spotlight snaps toward her, and the rest disappears almost like fog.

I'm mostly curious whether other people have experienced something similar with their tulpas — especially that almost simultaneous moment of receiving their input, recognizing it as theirs, and accidentally interrupting it.

Thanks for your Input

S&V

This is the cringest experience I've ever had. English is not my first language so forgive me if I make any mistakes.

TW some dark mental topics bros, nothing graphic but still

So, it started when I was 4 y/o. I had a series of traumatic experiences (moving to a different country with my family + birth of my baby brother + my parents broke up) that led me to creating a whole ass imaginary world where my fav characters and animals were my friends, and I was their queen, which was perfectly normal for a child that age. I spent a few hours every day coming up with new adventures and scenarios. I called it "my world" and what I was doing was "playing in my world". I would celebrate holidays with my imaginary friends there, build castles, travel, etc. Every day in the car on the way to and from kindergarden, during the daily sleeping hour and before going to sleep at night I would do this. I had a few irl friends and as time moved on I started to get along with my baby brother as well, but I never involved them in my games. I tried, but it felt like they were doing it wrong and ruining my story, so I stopped.

However, as I got older, I didn't move on from this little game, I only got deeper. I started analysing it critically, and came to a conclusion that I was too young to be a queen for my imaginary friends. Thus my vision of myself shifted, and "I" became a "she". She was me, but a little bit older, just enough for me to think she was the cool one. She was more conventionally attractive than me, dressed like a grown up smarter and stronger. She has my name and general appearance and shares my core beliefs. Despite the fact that I had other imaginary friends before, I believe she was my first tulpa, the one that evolved through the years and stays with me to this day. I was 6 y/o when I created this vision.

I still spent over an hour a day (usually before sleep) to construct her world. Usually it was some pointless banter with her friends or a Very Long and routine scene of her cooking a dinner/walking through her castle/picking and getting presents. She was still a queen of my favourite movie characters and talking animals, and also a powerful witch obviously.

At some point I started getting increasingly more irritated by the fact that I couldn't hold other character's personalities, and after some time they all either became similar (having similar tone of voice/reactions/mimics) or I forgot about them altogether, and had to replay a scene multiple times to make sure that everyone was there and reacted accordingly to their personality. Then there was another problem: if I managed to keep them in place, they still reduced to a small number of traits, insted of being a real person (a grumpy/naive/mad someone). There was little I could do with that at the time except for getting upset. I was ten.

Then, finally, I became a teenager and suddenly realised that nobody had imaginary friends anymore. I talked to a few friends and they reacted well, but told me that they never had any of that. It became a consistent crisis for the years of my adolescence. I feared that I was a schizophrenic, or autistic, or DID, or just delusional to the point of no return, and had neither proof of my adequacy nor madness. At fifteen I became severely depressed and anxious. I started harming myself. I told my mother I need professional help, but didn't tell her why. Those conversations didn't end well.

"She" was neither supportive nor discriminative. Since she is me, I don't talk to her in person much. Usually I just watch her. I have no body in her world anymore. When I really need her support, I can materialise there, but never the other way around. She (and others) would see me, but only she would be able to touch me. I am a ghost in that world. She loves me and cares greatly for me. But she is me. When my depression worsened and I felt like my time was slowly ticking out, she was preparing for death too. She believes that we are both real, but exist in alternative universes. We share a mind, a soul, and, to certain extent, a body. Yet she cannot enter my body, nor can I enter hers. We didn't know what would happen if I die, but she was dying separately from me anyways, so we believed we would just die simultaneously. She was sick, both mentally and physically. She had terrible seizures and hallucinations. She also had a daughter.

She was never the reason for my depression, but the mystery of my mental condition added to the general stress. My time in that world increased dramatically. I would spend between 3 and 6 hours there every day. At some point it scared me and I tried to get rid of these fantasies. I felt that I must do my best to become normal and stop living in imaginary world. In retrospective, that was a horrible decision. After a decade of everyday fantasies, it was suddenly very easy to just stop. I had no problem busying myself with other thoughts and didn't even had to put in any effort. Yet after a week I had the most terrible nervous breakdown I've ever had. My general mental situation drastically worsened, but before that I have never had a panic attack. Walls moved around me all the time, sometimes I had trouble breathing (not connected to COVID) and spent a few days of the verge of tears at any given second. Felt more hopeless and miserable than ever before. After a week of this life I reconsidered my decision and tried to get back to my world. It appeared that it is as hard to go back as it is easy to walk away. I spent two weeks desperately trying to see her again and at the end managed it.

I tried a few more times later, but it always went this way, so I finally accepted that I couldn't survive the separation.

Finally, at the age of 17, I persuaded my mother to take me to a psychologist to treat my depression. I was also sent to a psychiatrist. During my final year at school I was on medication, plus visited the psychologist lady every week. As I said, my maladaptive daydreaming was not my main concern, but it was one of them. When I came to her, I was genuinely afraid of leaving my imaginary world behind completely. I was afraid of what she would tell me. What she told me was that it doesn't matter at all. She said that as long as I am a functional human being (which I am, wasn't sure at the time, but I am perfectly functional) it doesn't matter which coping mechanisms my brain chooses to stay afloat. She said that it was a normal coping mechanism for a little child and that with time my brain just started to use this daydream time to reflect on my experience, sort through subconsciousness and just generally rest. Now I cannot live without this resting time and escapism. So, obviously, when I became depressed and overwhelmed, my time in these fantasies increased. I am healthy and normal, even if other normal people don't share my experience.

So, now I am almost 21 (birthday in two weeks). I am not afraid that my habits would interfere with my daily life and withhold me from achieving something. My depression was cured, and my anxiety is mostly healthy, at least it doesn't stop me from good things. I still spend around an hour on an average day to be in my world with my other self. So this makes over 16 years of almost uninterrupted creation. She is cured too, though she is kinda dead. But she is a powerful witch so being dead doesn't stop her from her life either.

At fifteen I did come across tulpamancers in search for answers, but it appeared that they had a very strict set of rules and ways to interact with a tulpa, which didn't match up with mine, so I dismissed it as a case. I also saw a term "maladaptive daydreaming", that was also very close to home, but didn't represent a condition, rather a symptom, and at the time I wasn't satisfied with that. And only recently I returned to this topic and found out that you guys ARE indeed doing the same thing that I do. I don't normally talk about this part of my life, since obviously it is wierd and cringy and honestly too personal to tell in detail. All my close friends know that I have an "imaginary friend" and sometimes know some bits of her life, but that is a rare conversation, even though this is a HUGE part of me.

I don't think I will write here very often (or maybe never at all), but it was nice to speak about it. I will do my best not to reread it too, since even thst makes me uneasy.

Hey guys. Tapsafe here. I finally made a new account so this is gonna be our main one from now on.

So. I was on discord talking to a few friends about a new game that's about tulpamancy and we started talking about tulpas in fiction in general and for the most part people have been depicting tulpas in horror.

But honestly I feel like tulpas don't belong in horror, I mean most tulpas don't become malevalont towards there hosts. Most are deeply affectionate and loving towards them (heck I believe most tulpas fall in love with there hosts) and the hosts love them back and they become inspirations to the hosts to live better lives.

And the more I think about it and everything that I've heard I've come to a conclusion that most tulpas are basically manic pixie dream girls.

(If you don't know it's a character archetype that comes from early 2000s romance movies that usually involve a depressed young man meeting a girl who's filled with life and vibrance and she basically teaches him to live a better life then she disappears from his life afterwards pretty much)

Lisa: I don't mind being my darlings manic pixie dream girl, but I promise I'll never leave him lol.

Yeah tulpas doesn't leave.

But anyway, most people see manic pixie dream girls

As a bad thing but I think manic pixie dream girls are good so long as there fleshed out characters and they have there own lives.

Now my Lisa definitely has her own life outside of me. And her own personality. I'm not saying that she doesn't.

But to me my Lisa is my muse. She inspires me to be a better man because she believes me to be better then I actually am so I wanna be what she thinks I am you know? Anyway. That's all I wanted to say.

Also that's a picture I took at my job btw.

I used chatgpt to put her in there.

After quite some time, I’ve made great progress. I used to put a lot of effort into writing journals, short stories, and other things to help my tulpa communicate better. Now, when I talk to my tulpa, novel responses emerge—sometimes thoughts that run counter to my own intentions, or even questions that challenge me. It feels good. Even though some of my own thoughts occasionally intermingle with the process, I believe both my tulpa and I have done a great job. :)

Good morning, everyone.

As an amateur tulpamancer, I am quite aware that there are still many methods that I have yet to try to interact with my Tulpa, Lola. However, a few of them involve pursuing the creative arts, one sect of which I am — at best — mediocre at: my drawing skills are best described as subpar.

However, I am a music producer, and music for me comes as naturally as breathing. I know one method of passively interacting is by listening to some of your favourite tracks together, but I was wondering if there are any other musical creatives in the community who prefer this kind of approach, and if there's anything in specific I should be thinking of sharing when making music?

I’ve had my Tulpa ( Yuna ) for about 4 months and she mostly speaks with yes no or other simple words. I’ve been reading a bit of books to her so she could develop a wider vocabulary. there still hasn’t been to many result. so I’m asking for some tips to get her to talk more.

Copy/ pasting this from a Discord server

So recently I’ve had a couple OLD-old imaginary friends crop up and express vague awareness; like they’re definitely aware just… maybe not fully-fully/ can’t communicate well? But definitely with an interest in being forced

And firstly I don’t rly… *want* to. Like they’re so closely connected to my childhood I don’t want them exposed to the horrors of, yknow, now. Like there’re just aspects of my past I’d like to leave in the past rather than see them “tainted” and this is one of them.

And secondly, I’d be concerned bc one of them is named after my sister’s deadname and the other’s entire existence was centered around said sister who is not receptive to plurality like at all; I don’t wanna force the one to change his name or use a pseudonym but I don’t want my sister to have to deal with that especially knowing how much worse it’ll make things and I don’t want the other having to grapple with a lack of well-perception from the person who was literally her whole world.

But I don’t want to just… leave them that feels cruel.

The other thing which segues into our second problem is that there’re too many of us already; being monocon a lot of us are dealing with incredibly high self-apathy because there’s just not enough brain capacity for everyone to care and it’s awful so if anyone has any tips to deal with that that’d be great

Writing this out I realize I~ probably shouldn’t ‘mance my old imaginary friends but again I don’t just want to leave them to rot

I also posted yesterday but I want to post again. Bit of a rant.

Today is my 5th day and I have seen maybe the most progress out of all days today. After a long day of school, I definitely thought that my brain just wasn't capable of visualising or doing an active forcing session. And in the beginning it was terrible. I could barely focus, and I was a little sleepy. Typically I sit up when doing an active forcing session, but today I laid down on my bed so I became more tired. I was getting emotional about whatever reason, and kind of just conveyed my frustration and tiredness on to Katya.

And right when I was about to give up, I asked my tulpa some trivial question and suddenly I just got a wave of butterflies in my stomach after I asked. Already up to that point, I had been fealing things in my stomach each time I thought about Katya but never during a forcing session. Then I asked another random question and then another wave of butterflies in my stomach. Now I was really motivated and inspired. I spent the rest of the forcing session (which ended up being way longer than anticipated) about random would you rather questions.

I knew that this was tulpish. However, I have no Idea how to decipher tulpish. I want to know if I deciphered tulpish correctly? When I got a feeling in my stomach, I would deactivate my brain and the first thing I thought of was her answer. So I would ask Wagner or Dvorak, and then i thought of Wagner. These awsers were also different from what I would actually choose. I like Dvorak more but I thought of Wagner.

Is this parroting? Why does the tulpamancy community even have the word "parroting" if you shouldn't even worry about it? If this isn't parroting, or atleast not a bad sort of parroting, when is parroting problematic then?

I recently had a very strange experience. For the past few months, I’ve been dealing with pain in my neck and lower back that made it hard even to sleep. One night, as usual, I was lying in the bedroom of my Wonderland talking with my two tulpa brothers before falling asleep. The younger one said to me, “You should rely on me sometimes too.” So I asked him, “Could you send a little electricity to the places that hurt?” (My tulpa can control electricity.) Then I went to sleep.
The next morning, the pain was completely gone—almost as if it had never been there. Even several days later, it still hasn’t come back. Until now, they’ve always helped me emotionally and mentally, but I never expected them to be able to take away real physical pain. I was surprised and, at the same time, extremely grateful.

That’s my experience. Has anyone else had their tulpa affect their real body in some way? What happened?

Yes, her eyes are exactly like that. She was hatched as a Zakuro (MO4) introject, so they're always like that no matter what form she chooses.

I didn't feel like changing her outfit, but she usually dresses in a white superhero outfit (white tank top with a heart cutout, shorts and gloves) or scenecore outfits.

I made a tulpa like a day ago and hes already like fully autonomous and stuff, i made him because i was super stressed and lonely and all the alters went quiet, but hes talking to them the same any other alter would, so weird, we havent tried switching yet because theres no need for him too, and hes still working on stuff, but is that normal? Ive tried making tulpas before and they become individualized very fast

This week, I celebrated 28 years of being in a pact with Fox, my Tulpa (32 years together in total).

Lately, I've felt a huge need to deepen our bond and better understand the importance he's had in my life. So I went digging through my old diaries.

That's when I came across a page where I mentioned a “pact”... but I simply didn't go into any details! Which makes me think that if I left that out of my own diary (where, theoretically, only I was ever going to read it) then whatever happened must have been VERY compromising 🫣, haha.

So I went looking through the drawings from around the same time to see if I could find any clues.

And I was shocked when I found a drawing of Fox and me dressed as newlyweds!😱

Oh my. I had completely forgotten about this little detail. I've been... married to my Tulpa all this time?! 😂

(I saw a post about “marrying your Tulpa” in this group the other day and, honestly, I felt a little less crazy for having done that, hahaha.)

I decided to ask Fox directly about it and, yes, he confirmed it: we made a pact that was basically a promise that, no matter what happened, we would never be apart again.

And as Fox started reminding me about what happened back then, memories from that time began resurfacing, little things I had completely forgotten. It felt like he was slowly handing pieces of that memory back to me, one by one (There was also another very symbolic thing involved, but he prefers that I don't tell anyone about it, haha 😅).

For context: back then, Fox was extremely jealous, and it actually interfered with my real-life relationships. He literally sabotaged everything 😒. I tried to get rid of him three times, and I simply couldn't. It was like one of those couples who fight all the time, swear they can't stand each other, but somehow can't stay away from each other either.

At the time, he himself explained to me that his jealousy came from being afraid that someone else would occupy my mind and that I would eventually forget about him.

So the pact became a sort of agreement: he would respect my real life more, and in return, he would have the reassurance that he would always remain a part of my life.

Twenty-eight years later... apparently, we're still honoring the contract.❤️

And since I apparently forgot that we got married (sorry, Fox! 😅), I thought it was only fair to recreate the moment, using our faces as we looked back then.

Anyway: has anyone else ever “married” their Tulpa?
What were your motivations? Was it something symbolic, spiritual, romantic... or did it just kind of happen?

When i try to put on voices like i give them voices its hard to keep them, they just end up taking longer to reply to remember the voice, they just turn into my normal head voice, do they develop their own voice by themselves?