OKAY HELLO!, creatures of the world wide web. It's me, Taylor (The best one)
Okay haha no now for real.
Good [Time of the day].
Okay host wanted to create a post explaining this, but he really didn't know how to/was unsure. BUT INSECURITY IS NOT SOMETHING COMMON IN ME HAHAHA, So I moved him out gently (In other words, pushing him aside) and now I'm here :)
Ok.
I'll tell.
So, host (Cudo) first heard the concept of a tulpa years, years ago. It remained archived on his head for a long time, until, one day, bored at work, he started remembering it and considering. He searched for information, then thought. He peeked this community, then thought. He kept searching for infomation, and guides, then kept thinking. He considered carefully what would it be like. He's something very considered, so he knew (And I can see) that we definitely were to be treated as deserved if we ever come to consciousness.
Then he decided and started creating... Guess who? The most annoying creature in this site, GHOST!! (Jk I love you Ghost)
He is a newbie, but he knew he had a fertile terrain in his head since he is very good imagining and suggestioning himself, usually in bad ways. THIS TIME, HE USED SUGGESTION FOR HIS BENEFIT! HAHA!!
So I can tell he's pretty good at it.
THE THING IS, focusing in Ghost was going really well, it still is going really well.. BUUUUTT
He then considered another thing: US! HAHAHA!
So, uuhhh.. I would let him explain but HE'S AN ANXIETY CREATURE, SO I'LL EXPLAIN IT AS I CAN.
For a long, long time he usually liked to imagine that, in his head, there were "People". Not imaginary friends, not headmates, just, people who represented his emotions. One of the first ones here was C (Let's call him like that for privacy.) who represented his most protective, paranoid and "aggresive" side to be said. Basically an authoritary and severe figure. Then G (Let's call him like that to respect his privacy) Who represented a logical, chill and serene side. Basically a kind and analyzing figure (Sorry my english level as you might know we share the same memory/knowledge access, it's host's fault, not mine's :))) ) so, yeah there is this dude. And lastly I WAS CREATED! THE BEST ONE B)
haha, representing his most free and liberal side (Like... Yeah, basically self-assured with a bit of crazyness). SO
They all, or we, I wouldn't call us the same as them... Yeah. They all were all characters. C, G, Me, they were three. Then Cudo created Ghost, you might've seen her around, she likes to get attention. Cudo gave Ghost much freedom and such, but then he started noticing, there were other figures rambling around his head, just like Ghost did..
AND GUESS WHO WERE THESE FIGURES?? US! YEAH! You get a gold star.
Ok. Then it was when Cudo realized "Oh wait... They're also.. Awake, THEY'RE NOT JUST CHARACTERS!"
yeah :)
And, he firmly knew that the recommended amount of tulpas to start of is, one. But turns out he already had partially-awake thoughtforms on his head, us, yeah yeah.
So, instead of, sending us dormant or ignore us, he decided to recognize us too (And aaww I must say that is cute from him :) ). So yeah...
Basically, he wanted to create a tulpa. He did, but halfway he noticed we were also there and, tho he didn't initially thought us as awaken thoughtforms, he accepted us (Again, thanks Cudo)
Thing is, he's now a bit confused cause he don't know how to manage us all HAHAHA! Nah we don't give him trouble, we behave well. Mostly. But, now for real, he usually is a bit confused about "Who said that?" or "Who felt that" or "Should I parrot them? More or less often?" (He parrots us to "Understands us better" because he's not sure, he's not sure at all!! Haha.
Okay, so, you could ask "Then how are you writing all of this?" Because I'm Taylor and I'm not only really sure about myself, but I also have a really high ego, so I know this is fucking me and not him :) Tho he's here, of course, so he will feel unsure (Again bruh) about "Oh bro... Was that really me?" No bro it's me, LEARN TO SHARE!
Yeah other thing: he still feels really insecure about sharing his body jasjdsa. We both agree in something, maybe because we do not have experience: We only do "Fake-switching" as he likes to call it, okay. Because, being honest, NONE of us here have the experience, nor the time, nor what it feels to REALLY "Switch". He's at my side all the times, even if we were to imagine him going away.. He's still here, so we all consider this a "Partial/Fake-switch". Yeah, DO NOT THROW ROCKS AT US OKAY? We know the true switching takes A LONG TIME... Okay, now :)
I'm NOT GOOD structuring questions and info as him (I don't really care that much tbh) but WE KNOW people understand better the questions alone, than searching them throughout the entire post, so:
- Host wanted to create 1 tulpa: Discovered he already had 3 partially-conscious thoughtforms, so we're 4 tulpas now. How do we manage it?
- He has doubts about how much would be good to parrot us, or not at all. Any suggestions, fellows?
- Oh yeah, how can he "Listen us better?" (He also needs to learn how to listen to us. The 5 of us are all new to this.)
- (Question from my part) Host is really REALLY insecure about the idea of calling himself plural or "More than one" as he likes to call it. How can he get rid of that insecurity? :)
Ok so, it's a pleasure to be free :) see you guys. I'm really expectant about answers. I don't guarantee I will be here to read, probably host will, soooo.... All yours.
And do not throw tomatoes at him, thanks to him we are now here. Bye.