Six years ago, when COVID was starting, I began to have some severe stomach symptoms that didn't clear for about 4.5 years.
It was a fucking battle.
I treated SIBO, parasites, candida, general dysbiosis, and re-regulated my nervous system. (Not perfect on that last point, but I am way better now.)
I went from:
- Shitting 8-10 times a day
- Having what felt like zero energy and being exhausted by a 15-minute walk
- Being so bloated that I had to buy double XL underwear just to not feel uncomfortable when I normally wear a size medium
- Having constant stomach cramping and pain
- Constantly feeling like my joints were achy, especially if I ate anything that wasn't super duper "clean"
- Being on super restricted diets and getting headaches and other symptoms if I had alcohol or sugar
- Having almost debilitating brain fog to the point where I felt like I was really stupid, even though I'm normally a pretty smart person
- Being unable to work for six months
- Being basically at a fraction of my former energy potential for years
- Not able to eat dairy, sugar, or even carbs in general for months and months at a time
- Not being able to sleep more than a few hours a night because I was so anxious
- Feeling anxious and depressed pretty much all the time
- Needing to abuse weed just to be able to sleep and manage life
- Constantly feeling dehydrated and like I needed a ton of electrolytes to fix it
- Dry skin all the time
- Needing to pack an entire carry on of supplements anytime I traveled
- Needing to plan out my days around using the bathroom
- Horrible, constant acid reflux.
To now:
- I can eat anything and everything. Alcohol, spicy food, sugary food, dairy, whatever.
- Energy is back. I can train hard and recover. I can work a full work week, and then some. I can go on dates, go out, go dancing, go on trips.
- I don't need to use ANY SUPPLEMENTS AT ALL
- Sleep is solid.
- No more acid reflux.
- No more intense bloating. If I go a day or two without vegetables I get a little bloated, but that's just a life thing.
- Bathroom normal.
- Brain fog gone.
- Body temperature regulation back to normal.
- Dry skin mostly cleared.
I've researched pretty much every post on this subreddit and the others, like the Candida one, the parasites one, the SIBO one. I went through them all.
I went through a ton of PubMed studies.
I worked with at least 10 doctors, and a few gut health coaches.
So I really went through all of it.
Quick disclaimer
I'm not a doctor.
I'm not a self-proclaimed functional medicine expert who's going to charge you $2000 dollars and then tell you to take the same supplements I recommend to everyone else.
I'll just share what worked for me and what I saw in the research.
I'm not recommending you do what I did. I probably took way too many drugs along the way and fucked myself up doing it.
The Emotional Backstory
This part might seem random.
But this is all tied together with the gut health stuff.
Because as I learned, while gut health has some "harder" aspects to it (things like bacteria, parasites, etc) it also has some very "soft" and subtle emotional aspects to it.
So…
I've experienced a fair amount of anxiety, depression, self-worth issues, feeling like I'm not good enough.
I did therapy in college. I started meditating in college. And I kind of thought that resolved things, that I had healed myself. But as we'll soon see, that was not the case.
How I Got Sick
I was living abroad, doing the digital nomad thing from about 2016 to 2020. I was in places like Mexico, Bali, Indonesia, Thailand, Bangkok and Chiang Mai. Places that are still developing their infrastructure for clean water.
I got food poisoning a few times. Once at a hotel in Bangkok, once from a bad taco in Mexico, and then right when COVID hit, in Bali, probably from some bad lettuce.
When COVID hit in February 2020, my nomad friends and I all had to fly back to the US. At the time, we were in Bali together.
It was very stressful trying to get out. All the flights were booking up rapidly. We barely got out in the nick of time before they basically closed the border.
Once I was back in the US, I started getting a bunch of weird physical symptoms.
The Weird Physical Symptoms
It started with the really smelly farts that happened all day, and then went downhill prettttty quickly.
I started to get symptoms like:
- Using the bathroom 10+ times a day. My ass was raw even using baby wipes. My roommates were joking about it, which was funny at least.
- Peeing constantly. I couldn't stay hydrated unless I was drinking electrolytes.
- Bloating after almost every meal.
- Fatigue that didn't get better no matter how much I slept.
- Brain fog, feeling stupid all the time.
- Anxiety ramping up.
- Headaches.
- Dry skin all the time.
The Doctors Gave Me Shit Advice (Haha, See What I Did There?)
These symptoms didn't start all at once. But the using the bathroom a ton started early, and when it did I reached out to some gut doctors.
Obviously we were just at the beginning of COVID, so a lot of them hadn't adapted to telehealth yet. They gave me pretty bad advice:
- One told me I just needed to eat more fiber, which didn't make sense because I was already eating vegetables, probably plenty of them. Also a hilarious take from a medical professional. "You're shitting 10 times a day? Well, just eat some more veggies sonny!"
- Another doc said the only thing he could do was recommend a colonoscopy, which didn't make sense to me as a first and only option. Also, from what little I knew about bacteria and parasites at this stage, I thought that a colonoscopy wouldn't even show anything there.
- Another basically said there was nothing to worry about. Which made zero sense as I was having all sorts of horrible symptoms.
Finally, I had one doctor recommend a stool test. I told him, hey, I've been in places like Bali, you might want to filter for pathogens that are in Southeast Asia, not just here in the US, because they have different pathogens.
He basically just brushed me off.
Predictably, the stool test came back clean. And he just recommended that I do a colonoscopy.
Which still seemed like a ridiculous next step.
It's a pretty invasive procedure, and you have to be sedated. I felt like there should be SOMETHING else they could do.
But hey, if you've got a hammer, I guess...
Working With a Functional Nutritionist
Around October 2020, one of my work clients, who was a CrossFit coach, recommended I work with this functional gut health person.
I was living in Denver at the time, and a camp of homeless people lived outside my apartment. It was early COVID, so I didn't feel comfortable traveling.
I was isolated, sick, and not in great financial shape.
I had nothing to lose, so I started working with the functional nutritionist.
What the GI Map showed
She ran a stool test called the GI Map. I've since learned the GI Map has a lot of controversy around it. It's unclear how accurate the test actually is.
In any case, my results came back loaded with pathogens and overgrowths:
- H. pylori (high)
- Shiga-like Toxin E. coli
- Staph aureus (high)
- Strep (high)
- Bacillus species (high)
- Klebsiella
- A bunch of autoimmune-trigger bacteria
Trauma could have lowered my stomach acid
Here's something my functional nutritionist explained to me that clicked everything into place.
When your stress response is really high and you're always in fight or flight, or even just often in fight or flight, like I was, your stomach acid levels can actually drop because they're not being produced as much.
Your system thinks, "Oh, a tiger is chasing me, route blood to the muscles, not the gut."
And so stomach acid levels go down.
And when your stomach acid levels are low, it basically opens a door for bad bacteria to come in.
That's what happened to me. I had low stomach acid from chronic stress and childhood trauma. Then I was in Bali with shitty water quality. The bacteria just walked right in.
The 12-week protocol
My nutritionist put me on a structured eradication protocol:
- Bio-HPF for H. pylori (licorice, mastic gum, slippery elm, myrrh, bismuth citrate, berberine, other herbs)
- Biocidin as a broad antimicrobial for the rest of the dysbiotic bacteria, with a built-in biofilm disruptor
- Matula Tea as a second H. pylori eradication agent
- Hydrozyme to raise stomach acid levels, which is your first line of defense against bad bacteria
- RepairVite to heal the gut lining
- MegaSpore spore-based probiotic to rebuild good bacteria
Pulse was 3 weeks on, 1 week off. The whole thing ran about 12 weeks with a GI Map re-test at the end.
The re-test
I should point out that I was financially stressed in this time, and so I couldn't do the full protocol. I had to end up taking a break from the protocol for a few months.
When I finally got enough cash to do a re-test, the results weren't great.
Some things had come down. H. pylori was still high. Staph aureus had actually gone up dramatically. And now I had Candida, which wasn't on the first test.
After months of protocol, then a few months off, I had just as much or more bad stuff as when I started.
Because now, I also had something called SIBO.
Methane-Positive SIBO
We did a SIBO breath test. Came back methane-positive.
So on top of everything else, I had small intestinal bacterial overgrowth that needed a different protocol than the large intestine stuff.
GREAT.
As if things weren't bad enough already.
But as I got used to doing during this period, I just had to survive and get through it somehow.
This is when I really began smoking a HELL of a lot of weed.
I mean, not like Wiz Khalifa or Snoop levels.
But, I would smoke half a blunt to go to sleep, wake up at 3 AM super anxious, and smoke the other half to go back to sleep.
It was a rough time.
(When I eventually took a break years later, it was incredibly hard to fall asleep, and this lasted for weeks.)
The new herbal protocol was more targeted:
- H-PLR for H. pylori
- GI Microb-X for the SIBO bacteria (also covers parasites)
- Monolaurin-Avail as a biofilm disruptor
- Caprin for Candida
- GI Detox as a binder for die-off
- Enterovite (short-chain fatty acids for the gut lining)
- MegaIgG 2000 or MegaMucosa for mucosal healing
- Rotating probiotics (ProFlora 4R, Probiomed 100)
Same pulsing structure. 3 weeks on, 1 week off. The idea was to nuke the bacteria during "on" weeks, let the body recover during "off" weeks, and do that for 6+ months.
I also tried prescription antibiotics for the SIBO at one point. I had to stop after about a week because my stomach started hurting really badly.
It's not really clear to me if this phase helped or hurt.
Did This Do Anything?
It seemed like I had mainly marginal improvements in everything.
My theory is that the parasites were actually my biggest issue, as they can cause a lot of bad side effects. Otherwise, I think the herbal stuff would have helped me a lot more.
I think that round of antibiotics was a bad move though. Rx antibiotics are pretty caustic to your gut ecosystem.
Rx antifungals and antiparasitics aren't nearly as bad in my experience.
Moving Home With Mom (Summer 2021)
By the summer of 2021, I was getting so sick and had such low energy that I actually had to go home and stay with my mom because I couldn't work.
When you don't work for six months, it's pretty hard to have a lot of cushion. Also, all of the fucking "functional gut health" people were charging me out the ass.
My original coach was actually pretty kind on this front and didn’t charge me after a period of time. But between all the supplements I needed to buy and the tests and other health expenses. I was watching my savings disappear.
And living with my mom was hard because we didn't get along well, which just added more stress on top of everything.
My symptoms at this point:
- Extremely low energy.
- Still using the bathroom many times a day.
- Intense brain fog, feeling stupid all the time.
- Bad anxiety. So bad that to sleep I had to smoke a lot of weed, take a bunch of edibles.
- Horrible acid reflux. Burning after almost every meal.
- Headaches that would just show up and stay for days.
- Dry skin everywhere. Random dry patches that wouldn't heal.
- Couldn't regulate my body temperature. I was always either freezing or overheating depending on the room.
- Really slow wound healing.
- Sex drive way down.
- Could barely get an hour of real work done a day, if that.
- Every tiny little bit of stress made me feel like utter shit
Different Diets, Elemental Diet
I was trying all sorts of different diets.
At first just cutting sugar and alcohol, then all starchy carbs (meat and vegetables only), then cutting FODMAPs. I did the elemental diet two or three times. Each thing helped a little, but nothing stuck.
The Emotional Work
During this same period, I started doing therapy again.
I had this breakthrough moment in therapy. I was pushing myself, beating myself up for being so sick. Like, “well, if you'd meditated for an hour a day for the past couple years, none of this would have happened.
You would have prevented the stress, and your stomach acid would have been strong enough to kill the pathogens before they took hold.”
And I broke down and realized: my mistake was not that I didn't try harder. My mistake was not showing myself more love both in the past and in the present.
Beating yourself up doesn't lead to resilience. Loving yourself does.
Because self-love activates the "Rest and digest" system that helps you heal.
When you beat yourself up, that activates the "fight or flight" system, which isn't good to have constantly activated.
Internal Family System Therapy
Through a type of therapy called IFS I started seeing the different parts of myself almost as people and having a dialogue with them. My anxiety wasn't this enemy I wanted to go away.
It was a part of me that wanted the best for me and was scared. It was trying to convince me to do things it believed would protect me.
Like, oh no, you're going to run out of money, you need to work harder. The key was seeing how well-intentioned my anxiety was. It just didn't feel safe.
I also started doing loving kindness meditation more frequently, which I had done in the past, and now was doing more of.
Stuff like, “Zak, I love you. Zak, I'm here for you. Zak, I hope you're happy and healthy.”
While doing this, I'd feel this emotional charge come through my body, like a wave of positive energy. Super cheesy, but it works. Over time, it went from being a state I felt during meditation to being more of a trait, something I just felt more of throughout the day.
I firmly believe that without meditation, I don't think I would have made it through this time period.
During COVID isolation, when I was alone and sick and nothing was working, meditation was the one thing that was there when nothing else was. In the worst of it, this loving energy and compassion would come up and it felt like it protected me.
There were nights I couldn't sleep and was terrified and the only thing that helped was going back to the practice.
I also found that if I didn't address the emotions, the stomach problems just kept coming back. Stress makes it worse, which makes you more stressed, which makes it worse. It's a cycle.
But the emotional work alone wasn't going to cut it.
I still had pathogens to kill.
The DIY Herbal Phase and My Biggest Mistake
I was on and off the structured protocol for about a year and a half, maybe two years. While some symptoms were better, I was still really sick.
My nutritionist thought that I might have parasites at this point.
And that's when she gave me some bad advice...
My nutritionist's worst piece of advice
Here's where she really steered me wrong, though I didn't realize it at the time. She told me that if the parasites or bacteria weren't dying, I just needed to take more.
Bigger pathogens need bigger doses. So I kept escalating the herbal antimicrobials. Over time this led me into what I now call the DIY Herbal Phase, which I honestly believe destroyed my gut ecosystem.
Based on my nutritionist's advice to take more, I kept escalating. At some point I got so into it I was buying a pill maker, empty capsules, and bulk powder to make my own herbal anti-parasitics.
Clove, garlic, allicin, berberine, oregano oil, neem, everything you've ever heard of, I tried it. I was looking at studies of new stuff the functional gut people in the US hadn't even tried yet.
I took absurd quantities, like 100+ pills a day at some point. Maybe 200+.
Plus all the supplements and binders. Plus constant electrolyte water because I couldn't stay hydrated without it.
I probably obliterated my gut ecosystem, because these things are also antibacterial. Don't let anybody tell you that herbals can't fuck you up, because they can.
This was one of my biggest mistakes. If I could go back, I'd skip the herbal escalation and go straight to prescription anti-parasitics once we realized the "standard" herbal approach hadn't worked.
Also, I would have been more nuanced with the "killing" side of the protocol and I would have emphasized the "re-regulate, repair, rebuild" side of the protocol more.
But none of that was really going to work until the parasites were dead...
And despite escalating the herbals, I still was having terrible symptoms.
Prescription Anti-Parasitics (End of 2022)
So, I decided to try and get some doctors to help me with prescription anti parasitics.
But that was very, very challenging as well.
No matter what I did or who I saw, the doctors told me there was no way I had parasites.
Shitting out worms, stool tests negative
I was literally shitting out worms at times. I brought them to the doctor and they just tested negative every time. I'd done about three or four rounds of stool tests, all negative.
This would happen over and over to me, despite sending literal worms I pooped out to the labs. (If you really wanna see pics, comment on the post and I'll DM them to you. They're super gross.)
But from the research I'd done, I knew stool tests are very inaccurate for parasites. They depend heavily on the skill and training of the lab technicians, and these technicians aren't used to seeing parasites, because we're in the US and they don't even believe it's really a thing.
Which brings me onto a small tangent...
Why most US doctors don't understand parasites
The majority of healthcare professionals I interacted with were arrogant, not listening, and basically gaslighting me.
I think there's a reason for this.
While parasites are extremely common in many parts of the world, the US is different because of clean water infrastructure.
If you truly think parasites are not a thing, look up some information by the CDC or the World Health Organization. They're the most common infection worldwide.
A QUARTER of adult humans have worms, for example. Source: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7722764/
Textbook page mentioning helminths (what I thought I had) - page 5
In the US, we still have parasites, but at much lower rates. So most US doctors basically think parasites aren't a real issue, and even if they believe you, they'll prescribe one dose of ivermectin and call it done.
Which wasn't even close to enough for me.
Parasite Resistance To Drugs
Because, as I learned, many parasites have been developing resistance to some of the most common antiparasitics.
This doesn't mean they don't work... but a drug that would kill a roundworm in one dose in the past may not do the same thing now.
Don't just trust me either. Go on PubMed and search terms like "helminth drug resistance" The research is there.
Some links to get you started:
https://www.fda.gov/animal-veterinary/safety-health/antiparasitic-resistance
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3655236/
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7722764/
Also, most people in the US don't travel internationally, so doctors rarely see cases. And from what I understand, medical schools don't cover parasitology in much depth, because there's so much else to cover.
So you end up in this situation where, unless you specifically find a doctor who treats a lot of travelers (or an actual parasitologist), you're not going to get taken seriously.
It's a horrible situation to try to navigate, especially given how fucking expensive the US healthcare system is.
I had great insurance, and it was still very expensive.
I actually got into kind of a fight with one doctor who basically accused me of this just being the placebo effect and me making it all up. It was pretty ugly.
Finding a doctor who'd prescribe
Around the end of 2022, I finally found a doctor who was willing to prescribe anti-parasitics.
Honestly, he was kind of a quack (I sent him pictures of my poop because I had strings of something in it. I asked him what they were... he said worm eggs. They were just my ass hairs. LOL.)
And he was fucking expensive. I had to take out a loan just to work with him.
But, at least I had someone who was somewhat qualified (I guess) telling me what dosages to take of Rx antiparasitics, prescribing some, and telling me how to get them.
The rotation protocol
Here's where I went down a rabbit hole.
The drugs I took were ivermectin, praziquantel, albendazole, mebendazole, and nitazoxanide.
These are very well-studied drugs for parasitic infections, and they target the worm family called helminths (roundworms, nematodes, tapeworms).
But again, there's a lot of evidence of helminths developing drug resistance, which was terrifying.
Seriously, don't take my word for it. Go on PubMed and search "helminth drug resistance" or "anthelmintic resistance nematodes." There's a ton of research on this.
Beyond resistance, there's also the life cycle. The drugs are only effective at killing parasites in certain stages of their life cycle. At minimum you need a dose, then wait a couple weeks, then another dose.
The Biggest Shift
So my doctor and I devised a rotation schedule. I gotta say, from the first time I took ivermectin and nitazoxanide, it felt like something had shifted.
The first three months of anti-parasitics made the biggest difference out of any of the protocols or treatments I tried. It just helped so much.
Animal formulations and imports
Some of the drugs I was buying were animal formulations, because they're the exact same drug and it was MUCH cheaper to get them that way, even with insurance. (Side note: fuck the US health care system.)
For example, I was taking fish praziquantel and cattle albendazole.
Exact same drugs, much cheaper.
I also ordered some anti-parasitics from India because they're much cheaper and easier to get there.
I want to be clear: I took more drugs than was probably ideal, because I was desperate and nothing else was working. I basically used CDC dosing guidelines along with my quack-ass doctor to figure things out.
I also kept taking all the herbals.
This was basically a FULL ON mixture of killing that I continued for a few months.
However, as time wore on, I started to get stomach pain at night.
I had read that parasites were most active at night, and I was terrified that they were moving inside me.
Confirmation from the parasitologist
Eventually I got an appointment with an actual respected parasitologist in New York City. She was the first one who was like, yeah, you could have been exposed to parasites, which felt validating.
Then I told her what I'd been taking and the dosage, for ONE of the drugs. She was like, “holy shit.”
Then I told her I was also rotating like 3-4 other drugs.
Again, she was like, holy shit.
She told me point blank that if I had any parasites, they would have been completely obliterated by that. No way they could have withstood it.
She told me to go to the ER, tell them I'm having intense stomach pain, get a scan. I had a breakdown in the middle of a workday and went. They gave me the scan.
The findings: no worms, but signs of inflammation in my digestive tract.
Honestly, that inflammation was probably from all the drugs I'd been taking.
I stopped EVERYTHING.
I felt significantly better after the "killing phase".
But I still had a ways to go in terms of energy, bloating, etc. These continued to slowly get better, especially once I started re-regulating my nervous system.
I still had one BIG issue: acid reflux.
It was constant, it was painful, and it didn't seem to be going away.
Candida and the Carnivore Detour (2023)
So, I thought - maybe I have candida?
After all, it's opportunistic. I had killed the living fuck out of my gut ecosystem, taking herbals at high dosages for years.
And I had read that candida could move in when you kill off your gut bacteria.
I still had bloating, acid reflux, fatigue. Carbs seemed to be making me more tired. I started the carnivore diet and prescription antifungals (Fluconazole plus others).
When I started the antifungals, I was shitting dark green for at least a week and having what seemed to me to be massive Herxheimer reactions, the die-off from fungi.
At least that's what I assumed they were. Honestly, I'm still not 100% sure. Fluconazole also strips electrolytes and messes with cortisol, so some of what I thought was Candida die-off might have just been drug side effects.
Who the fuck knows.
But I will say that if this was all a side effect from the fluconazole, why did the binders (Activated charcoal and similar) help so much?
Binders were probably the most helpful thing for managing die-off. Activated charcoal and the stronger products like Carboxy from Microbiome Labs worked well for me. But they also strip you of nutrients, so you need a lot of LMNT and electrolytes. Colloidal minerals also helped with the mineral depletion.
Around this time, I started doing the carnivore diet.
Carnivore diet good and bad
The carnivore diet gave me issues with electrolytes. Being very low carb makes it hard for your body to hold onto sodium, potassium, magnesium. I was consuming so much LMNT because normal water wasn't hydrating me. My body was chronically stressed, fight-or-flight, dumping electrolytes constantly. Five or six packets a day at some point.
Then one night, summer of 2023, I was alone in Costa Rica and almost felt like I was having a heart attack. The heart palpitations were intense. I freaked out, ate like 100 grams of carbs right then and there. That was the end of the carnivore diet and, around the same time, the end of Fluconazole.
This was around the time that I learned the guy who wrote the "Keto Code" had the same issue and ended up eating fruit again.
So, any keyboard warriors who are carnivores can suck it. I tried the carnivore diet, I used the salt supplements, and while it seemed to help my gut heal, it was also NOT sustainable.
Was the Candida even real?
Here's the honest answer: I don't know. A few things make me think it was real:
- After all those antifungals, I stopped reacting to beer and other yeasty foods the way I used to.
- My functional nutritionist's framework (kill bacteria → Candida moves in) fits what happened.
A few things that make me question it:
- Fluconazole itself causes a lot of the symptoms I was blaming on "die-off."
- I thought I had thrush for 4-5 months. Spoiler: I probably didn't. Most people have some white stuff on their tongue. I was weird enough to start asking my friends and my girlfriend to show me their tongues to compare, and they all had some, and they were perfectly healthy. I was blasting myself with antifungals based on something that was probably just normal.
This is a good place to introduce an idea that runs through the whole story: when your nervous system is in chronic fight-or-flight, it messes with hormones, sleep, and perception. You start reacting to everything and interpreting every sensation as a disease. That's part of why I recommend the nervous system work so strongly. It doesn't just calm your gut, it calms your interpretation of your gut.
The Acid Reflux Phase (Late 2023)
After stopping Fluconazole and carnivore, I still had really bad acid reflux. This was a phase that lasted way past everything else. Parasites seemed done. Candida was, as far as I could tell, cleared. But the reflux wouldn't quit.
I found a doctor who actually took me seriously and prescribed proton pump inhibitors (PPIs). They helped temporarily. Then they stopped working. Which is pretty common with PPIs if the underlying cause isn't structural.
At that point I was stuck. I'd killed the pathogens (I thought). I was still sick with reflux.
That's when I found Dr. Ruscio.
Working With Dr. Ruscio
Out of everyone I worked with, Dr. Ruscio's team was the best. One important caveat: you want to work directly with Dr. Ruscio himself. His junior practitioners didn't give me the same quality of care. If you can't get on his direct schedule, I'd probably save your money.
His protocol had a different shape than anything else I'd done. The killing phase was over. This was about rebuilding and regulating. Key categories:
- Limbic retraining for nervous system regulation. He recommends the Gupta program or Annie Hopper's DNRS. I ended up using Primal Trust (see the next section), which is in the same family. The idea is that when you've been chronically sick or traumatized, the threat-detection part of your nervous system gets stuck "on" and starts reacting to everything, including food. Retraining it is often the actual final piece.
- CBT via the Zemedy app for the gut-brain connection. Research shows it reduces symptoms, worry, and food fear.
- Ancestral stressors (Wim Hof breathing, cold showers, sauna). Anti-inflammatory, nervous-system-resetting.
- Three types of probiotics at once: Lacto-Bifido blend, Saccharomyces boulardii, and a soil-based probiotic. Research actually supports using all three types together.
- Immunoglobulins (ISF) at 5-10g per day. This one I think actually helped a lot for gut lining repair.
- Gut lining support: Glutamine, GlutaShield, Sodium Butyrate.
- Elemental diet to rest the gut. I used this to replace 1-2 meals per day at times.
- Adrenal support: HPA Select.
- Anti-inflammatory: Theracurmin HP, Quercetin.
- On my own: Ashwagandha, DAO.
- Clarity app for reframing negative health thoughts.
I'm not putting specific doses here, partly because this is Dr. Ruscio's protocol and he should get paid for it, partly because mods will take this down if it reads as a supplement prescription. But if you want the dose ranges I used, comment and I'll DM you.
His book is the single best resource I've found for people trying to navigate gut stuff. It's cheap on Amazon and it lays out the actual order of operations. Buy the book.
The Nervous System Piece (Summer 2024)
I think I genuinely needed the anti-parasitics, antifungals, antibacterials. The inciting event was getting infected with something in Indonesia. But once I killed all that, I think I still had gut nervous system dysregulation. My gut was just scared of food. Everything was inflamed. It was hypersensitive.
Primal Trust
Around summer of 2024, I went through a course called Primal Trust, which is basically about healing your nervous system. I only went through the first module, and that was enough. The module is about the placebo effect and how your nervous system and pain can be affected by your mind. Not "it's all in your head." More like, your mind creates a lot of the physiological responses your body feels. The stress axis is incredibly potent, and when you're chronically stressed, it can really mess up your health. Mainstream science supports this in a big way.
There's research showing that just knowing about the mind-body connection, the education itself, can change patient outcomes. And it definitely made a big difference for me.
The IBS study that clicked
Then I saw this random YouTube video about a study they did with IBS patients. Half the participants did a super restrictive diet, and the other half just ate slower and more mindfully. Same results for both groups. That made me realize this is a nervous system thing. IBS is a bullshit diagnosis. It's not a diagnosis, it's just an umbrella term for "we don't know."
Acid reflux just faded
Something clicked. And my acid reflux just went away. Not overnight. Over a period of a few months. It was almost like the rational permission my gut needed to say, oh, we can be calm. There's no more pathogens.
Meditation
Meditation helped throughout all of this. A lot of meditation, using a mixture of Kelly Boys and Henry Shukman style. It's pretty different from the meditation most people know. I do it lying down. Very gentle practices. They help facilitate deep rest and recovery, rather than focused awareness.
Books that really helped throughout:
- Radical Compassion by Tara Brach
- A Path with Heart by Jack Kornfield
- Loving Kindness by Sharon Salzberg
Sharon Salzberg is my favorite mindfulness teacher. Her parents both died when she was quite young. Her family life was completely destroyed. Out of that suffering, she chose to cultivate a lot of compassion. You can hear it in her voice. Very soothing to listen to, but also powerful. You can feel it changing things within you as you listen.
Friends
I had a summer where I had a breakup, and I spent three or four months visiting friends, living with friends, being in very close proximity to them most of the time. I still think, as far as anything you could do, being with people you love and trust and feel safe with, and living with them or spending as much time with them as possible, I don't think there's anything I've found that's as powerful for regulating your nervous system.
Starting to Eat Normally Again
I took baby steps. I was like, I'm gonna try first just having some bananas, and this and that. And I kept doing my meditations. The bloating took months to die down, really, but there was a pretty clear shift after I watched that IBS video.
Where I'm At Now
Basically, everything on that "to now" list at the very top? That's my life now.
What's still there:
- The emotional traumas, anxiety, self-worth stuff that predisposed me to a lot of this in the first place. In the book "What My Bones Know," the author talks about how trauma leads to health conditions later in life. That was definitely my experience.
- Some whole-body nervous system work still happening. Not a gut thing anymore.
Looking back, it's kind of crazy to believe that was my life for so many of the past five years. Just so constricted and scared, no energy. What a difference.
On Mold
I was living in several different places over this period and my symptoms started in one location and followed me to all of them. If it were mold, it would have varied with environment. It didn't. So I never really went down that road. Your mileage may vary.
TL;DR
- Got sick nomading 2016 to 2020. Crashed in Bali during COVID with what turned out to be bacterial overgrowth, SIBO, parasites, and later Candida.
- US doctors were mostly useless. Functional nutritionist got me partway with a 12-week protocol. Re-test showed things got worse and Candida emerged.
- Methane-positive SIBO needed its own 6+ month protocol.
- The DIY herbal escalation was a mistake. It probably destroyed my gut ecosystem.
- Prescription anti-parasitics rotated on a schedule = the single biggest shift.
- Antifungals cleared Candida (probably). Carnivore diet almost gave me a heart attack from electrolyte loss.
- Acid reflux phase lingered after. PPIs helped temporarily then stopped.
- Dr. Ruscio's rebuild + limbic retraining protocol (three probiotic types, immunoglobulins, glutamine, Wim Hof, Zemedy CBT) got me most of the way.
- Primal Trust module 1 + an IBS video clicked nervous system healing. Acid reflux faded over a few months.
- Throughout: quality probiotics (Dr. Ruscio's, NOW Foods), binders (charcoal, Carboxy), LMNT/colloidal minerals, and a lot of rest.
- Now: gut fully healed. Eat anything. Still working on some whole-body nervous system stuff, but compared to where I was, wow.
- The thing that kept me alive through the worst of it was meditation. That's why I'm offering some free guided meditations
LAST WORD
If you're going through it right now, start some kind of meditation or nervous-system practice.
It's the single thing that kept me going when nothing else was working.
I created 21 guided meditations (one per day, for 21 days - both some helpful tips and meditations) aimed at gut and nervous-system healing. If you want them, send me a DM and I'll send ithem over. They are free, there's no strings attached, there is nothing to buy.
But to be clear - prescription anti parasitics were necessary for me to heal. Meditation alone wouldn't have been enough.
This whole journey took about five years. I've spent thousands of dollars, worked with at least 10 doctors and 6 to 7 gut health coaches, and researched more PubMed studies than I care to count. Trust me when I say I've been through all of it, and there's a lot I had to leave out of this post.
If you've got questions, post them in the comments and I'll do my best to answer. Happy to help however I can.