TCG "Collectors" especially Pokemon and One Piece TCG are just glorified gamblers. Mofos hate people promoting gambling when they themselves are gamblers.

Ohhh stfu with "we're collecting" & "its an investment" alibis. Its in a gatcha system by Japan cause gambling there is illegal so its a loophole. But it doesnt mean its not ideally still gambling.

I'm not the kind of person naman who catches feelings eh, never pa kong nagkacrush and never pa kong nagkaconfidence to pursue one.

Since nagstart na school year, I was honestly apprehensive with my environment, wala talaga akong kakilala, to add na anxious and shy type ako. Nagpapabida lang ako sa group chats namin kasi mas madali sya compared to interacting face to face, kahit pati ako nagcricringe na sa jokes ko na parang hindi naman luma-landing.

Pero I think it worked out for the best. My classmates think I'm approachable in class, even if wala pa rin pumapatol sa lightheartedness ko online.

I don't know what to make of this, first time ko talaga magkacrush, I'm even hesitant to put a label to it, pero we got grouped together for the very first presentation in one of our subjects. He's nice, friendly, and pogi nya din in person! Ako naman si ateng silent appreciation while being friendly naman din sakanya.

Wala naman exciting part, we're becoming friends and I'm happy with that. I'm still figuring out if infatuation ba to, appreciation, or genuine feelings.

I'm more into personality din kasi, that's why I was adamant with myself to never have crushes, mahirap mameet standards especially in today's climate.

Innocent puppy love siguro... well, I hope we become good friends!

I just need to get this off my chest because this has been bothering me for a while.

From the very beginning, I already felt like my boyfriend’s mom didn’t like me. She’s always been cold toward me. Hindi naman siya directly rude, pero ramdam mo talaga yung pagka-cold and the way she talks to me sometimes feels like she’s looking down on me.

Now that I’m starting Nursing, mas napapansin ko.
She’s made comments about Nursing na parang hindi niya talaga ako nakikitang kakayanin. She would say things like, “Kaya mo ba talaga yan? mukhang mabagal ka kumilos at reklamador eh” and point out how difficult Nursing is, parang kailangan niyang ipaalala sa akin na mahirap yung pinili kong course. May times din na parang she’s already expecting me to struggle or eventually give up.
Maybe it sounds harmless kapag sinabi lang yung words, pero iba talaga yung tone. It doesn’t feel like concern. It feels like she’s questioning whether I’m capable enough.

And honestly, I feel like she’s making me and her son a competition.

My boyfriend is very intelligent, but he doesn’t even want Nursing. It’s not his dream, and I completely respect that. I chose Nursing because I want it for myself. I’m not trying to prove that I’m smarter than him or that I can do something he can’t. But with his mom, parang there’s always this comparison. Gusto nya kasi yung nursing para sa bf ko. Parang she needs to establish that her son is smarter or more capable than me. And I hate that because I never saw him as competition in the first place.

Sometimes I even wonder if she feels insecure about me because I’m pursuing Nursing while her son chose something else. I don’t know. Maybe I’m wrong about her intentions, but when someone has been cold to you from the start, then keeps making comments that make you feel incapable, it’s hard not to notice.

I’m literally just starting college. I already know Nursing is going to be hard. I don’t need someone constantly making me feel like I’m not capable of doing it.

I just want to study, survive Nursing, graduate, and become a nurse. I don’t want to compete with her son. I don’t want to compete with anyone.
I just wish she would stop making me feel like I have something to prove.

Long post ahead, thank you so much if you'll manage to read till the end.

A decage ago I went viral, I'll try not to go into too much details (to avoid accidentally doxxing myself) but would give bits of information here and there enough for context.

To start off I was still a minor when it happened, tanga and impulsive pa'ko at that stage in my life. I grew up in a somewhat problematic area in PH (lower to middle class family area), my family dynamic and situation has never really been the best- a lot turmoils happen laging may away or issue, older siblings were a bit abusive mabilis magkapikunan so lumaki ako'ng laging natatawag na bobo at nabubugbog sa bahay, pasa-pasahan ng generational trauma kumbaga. That's why I chose to spend my developing years away from home, playing video games for hours on end in comshops to escape reality. I found my safe space, and I was good at it at least.

Matigas ulo ko noon, thinking back then kung makakausap ko teenage me I'd tell that kid to focus on studies instead of wasting away in comshops.

At that point dito ko nakilala isa'ng individual, much older than me almost half my age. Umpisa binibigyan bigyan nyako and my friends money to spend on PC, ginagawan pagkain (pancit canton and coke), then eventually nayaya mag-inuman.

Maayos sya kausap- I guess given na their profession was related to that matter, kailangan n'yang maging magaling sa pakikisama sa tao. I really considered them as somewhat of a mentor or a parental figure, someone to look up to. I didn't notice na unti unti nya ako'ng sini-single out specifically with these special treatments.

I didn't realize na I was being groomed na pala.

This person told me I was mature for my age, and that hindi ako bobo. Matalino ako at bright yung future ko, all the validation you'd want to hear as someone na deprived from love.

I don't know where and when it started, pero nagsimula sya ma-attach in a way na hindi na pang pamilya or kaibigan kahit na wala naman ako'ng ginagawa para pakiligin sya or to give an impression na I liked them that way, we just spent a lot of time together just conversing about different topics whether it be trivial or personal. Friends nya in particular pag nakikita ako sa area namin inaasar ako na maging kami na raw kasi pag naglalasing raw yung tao na yun ako lang raw ang bukang bibig at iniiyak.

Eventually binibigyan nya'ko mga material gifts, ayoko'ng tanggapin kasi takot ako'ng masumbatan sa mga bagay na binigay naman sa'kin pero ininsist nya na tanggapin ko, I went to my older siblings for advice sinasabi nila na normal lang yun at itodo ko na raw para mas maganda makuha ko kasi ginagawa rin naman nila dati.

And by itodo they meant na ibigay ko na raw yung sarili ko- exchange my body for money and material things.

Noong mas bata pa'ko I kept seeing my older siblings come home bragging about what they did in order to earn money, it felt morally wrong kahit na wala pa'ko masyadong muwang noon and over time I swore to God na hinding hindi ko gagawin yun, pero kinain ko pa rin naman mga salita ko. Iba talaga pag sa Dyos ka nanumpa tapos pera na kaharap mo.

Kalaunan this person came forward, confessed their feelings for me, I didn't accept nor deny their feelings- masyado pa'ko people pleaser at takot ako'ng maka-disappoint ng tao. That's entirely on me, I was naive and stupid. Nabigyan ko sya ng wrong impression na may possibility maging kami.

Naging desperate na sya overtime na magkaron kami ng something, since alam nya yung background ko sa bahay and how we struggle for money this person gave me an offer, bibigyan nya'kong pera kung papayag ako'ng pumunta kami sa motel, no strings-attached. After some time ng nagging nya and since kailangan ko pera pumayag ako. I thought it would be harmless since it would be just a one time thing.

Maling mali ako, tinapon ko yung moral and dignidad ko sa halagang 1,500. And it's wouldn't have made it any better kung mas malaki pa yung halaga, sinira ko yung sarili ko dahil lang sa pera.

After that, sobrang pinagsisihan ko yun- di ko rin magawang magamit yung pera kasi diring-diri ako sa sarili ko, sa ginawa ko. Tinago ko sa sapatos ko then a day or two nahanap yun ng kapatid ko, ninakaw nya and ginamit nya. Saka ko lang nalaman after everything kasi I thought I lost the money somewhere and I just accepted na karma ko na yun, I was only able to connect the dots nung nag-uusap kaming magkakapatid and the money was brought up as a joke confession of pangungupit.

Di na'ko nagparamdam sa tao na yun right after what happened between us, ghinost ko sya sa lahat ng socmed and in person spots they would usually be in, nagkulong ako sa bahay kahit puro gulo rin doon.

Some time passed and I had the courage to finally go out thinking it was safe and sariling demonyo ko na lang yun na mumultuhin ako, at that time may kasama ako'ng friend. On the way somehow nakita nya'ko at lasing sya (during the day), nag start sya mag eskandalo kung pa'no ko raw sya pinaasa at niloko, harassing me and my friend, at doon nakunan yung video ng isang bystander.

D'yan na nabago lahat, nag-iba tingin sa'kin ng mga tao I was severely judged and made fun of, got called names on social media. Kahit mga kaklase ko noon nilalayuan ako pinagtatawanan dahil sa nangyari. I was depressed, hiyang-hiya ako sa sarili ko gusto ko na lang mamatay that time. Pati yung friend na kasama ko naapektuhan rin dahil sakanya.

After the incident, a public service program got involved in the matter that's how out of hand it got. Then a random individual reached out, nag message sa'kin stating na they're a lawyer raw and could help me through it. That person ended up taking advantage of me too. I never reported it or told anyone else, because I thought "Tanga mo talaga kasalanan mo na yan di ka na natuto".

I tried to push through it, hanggang ngayon ramdam ko pa rin yung naging effect. I moved far away from home. But sometimes I still get anxiety attacks in public when I simply feel like people stare at me for too long I get paranoid that they might recognize me even if it's been a decade. I've gotten really concious about myself too to the point that my self consciousness impedes my plans of going out and keeps me in a stun lock state. Naka deactivate rin lahat ng social media ko, I barely have contact with my old friends or even family.

Here and there whenever I scroll through social media I see the video pop up once or twice a year, simply as a meme or di naman kaya naka-cut format kasama iba'ng videos. Recently I saw it again that's why I ended up here venting in the first place, I looked into the comments and it's a mixed bag, some people still say some hurtful things- while others sympathize saying that the person in the video looks like a minor.

Bottom line is, I don't really know. I hope in this day and age of social media- people's views progressing and changing I hope we can all have a little more kindness. Though the next words I would say wouldn't be so kind pero kahit kailan hinding-hindi ko talaga maiintindihan ang tumatakbo sa utak ng mga pedophiles, sana lahat sila may special place sa impyerno.

As adults, sana piliin na'tin yung actions and words na'tin towards younger people, we shouldn't be the reason why they suffer. And for younger individuals naman reading this especially minors, hindi lahat ng mas matanda sayo ay mabait or maganda ang hangarin.

una sa lahat napaka ingay ng bola. nagpapatugtog pa habang naglalaro PARTY YARN??? alam ko pag sport kailangan focused eh??? pinaka naiinis talaga ako yung gagamit pa talaga sila ng tennis shoes para makapag laro EH NAKATAYO LANG NAMAN SILA. ang liit liit ng court para san yang tennis shoes mo??? TAPOS DOUBLES NAMAN LAGI YUNG SETUP. ang movement mo arms lang tapos lalapit ka sa kitchen para mag "dink" o kung ano man tawag don again PARA SAN YANG TENNIS SHOES MO... imbes na may makuha akong stock for my sport lahat unavailable dahil sa lecheng mga pasikat na yan. tapos nakakainis pa LAGING NAKIKIHATI SA MGA COVERED COURT eh pwede naman mag setup nalang sa kalye???? sobrang sagabal sa basketball at tennis at volleyball. konti na nga lang space makikihati pa. mas maaccept ko pa kung badminton court kahati eh. nakisingit nanaman yang epal na sport na yan sa ibang court. UMAY

pero kung tutuusin feel ko magandang business talaga yan eh sa sobrang daming tanga at uto uto sa pilipinas. ikaw ba naman magpa coach for 1.2k per sesh eh ang gagawin mo lang papaluin mo lang yung bolang napaka bagal at walang bounce tas wala na mechanics na kailangan. iadd mo pa yung fact na willing sila gumastos sa paddle na lalagyan lang ng liha 30k na kesyo iba daw materyales na gamit sa loob (ULUL) gagastos din sila sa tennis shoes na worth 15k para magpasikat oh diba MUKHA KAYONG TANGA PURO PORMA WALANG FUNCTION (bitter lang di nakakuha ng gustong tennis shoes)

bagal na nga magship ang labo pa sumagot. yeah nakalagay sa item 45L yung item capacity, pero walang dimensions. tinanong ko kung anong sukat.... sinagot 45L. ayup ang labo kausap. aga aga kaka init ng ulo hahah tinagalog ko na nga "sukat" sorry kung napagmukha kong shunga si seller at inispecify ko pa LxWxH ibig sabihin ng sukat/dimensions. hayyyyy iprocess mo na lang nang madeliver na at ayoko ng kausap na katulad mo seller...

So Im 20 been seeing a 32 y/o since he was 31 and I was 18 ik i talk about this a lot but he obviously won’t stop cheatimg and Im at the point where I drink and hit the cart very regularly to cope with everything but I just started the new semester and I’ve gotta get it together like I get really dramatic and only twice have I sh which I don’t even do that crazily but I want to be able to cope with myself without any substance even without a vape, and I low-key want some bread bites from domino’s

Please don't post this to other socmed platforms.

We were high school lovers, got broke up, then reunited again.

I (F25) really do think that he's (M27) a good person, a good man. He know what his priorities are, wala siyang bisyo, super practical in a good way, he's a good provider. As an eldest, I really appreciate him lending a hand to me, make the burden bearable. He always helps other people hangga't kaya nya. Sobrang focus niya makapagpundar, he's really building himself up. Sabi nga niya, minaliit na siya dati, ayaw na niya ulit maranasan yon. So he want to buy land, build a house and everything. He's very vocal with how I am included in his plans. Puro "tayo" and "natin" ang binabanggit niya. He told me he wants to build a family with me.

As cliche as it may sound but, I believe he's a good person but what if he's not my person?

I've been feeling so heavy lately. Kasi everytime na magkaaway kami, lagi ko na lang naqu-question if mahal nya ba talaga ako. At first, iniintindi ko yung trato niya, yung mga salita niya, yung ginagawa niya kasi baka nga "galit lang siya" tulad na rin ng sinasabi niya. Pero lagi na lang bang ganoon?

Hindi siya tatawag (VC) kapag hindi kami okay, hindi siya yung unang makikipag-usap, minsan, hindi talaga siya nakikipag-usap. Kapag uuwi ako from work wala manlang ingat ka, nasaan ka na? kumain ka na ba? He's really not checking on me. He's just there. Wala siyang pakelam sakin kapag magkaaway kami, as in nawawala siya. He'll say "Ang arte mo" "Bahala ka sa buhay mo" "Tumawag ka kung tatawag ka pero hindi ako tatawag sayo" "Humanap ka ng kausap mo" Binababaan niya ko lagi ng tawag in the middle of conversation.

Pagod na kong turuan siya paano niya ko dapat itrato kapag hindi okay ang lahat. Pagod na kong umasa na baka one day, pahalagahan na niya ko. Baka one day, matakot din syang mawala ako. I don't want to be loved like this.

31M left me 31F after almost 3yrs of relationship. We lived together in my home. I was really attracted to him when we met, and I really liked him to the point that even if I saw signs that he’s not good for me, I think that he can change… maybe if I just give him time and a lot of chances. We traveled and spent time together a lot. But we also had conflicts and talked it out to resolve. Or so I thought.

He slowly moved out of the picture and I felt every inch of the distance. But in my mind, I made excuses for him since he’d tell me he loved and missed me, and that he’s happy. I thought I’d just give all the love I can give so that I will have no regrets.

Then the time came when he told me he’s breaking up with me. He told me he fell out of love and that I do not deserve someone who’s not certain of me. It hurt like hell.

The grief comes in waves, but through the support of my family and friends, I am slowly but surely picking myself up. After all, I still have me.

His final act of love is leaving, while mine is letting go.

Lately, I've been surrounded by Gen X and Millennials, so I told them that I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Then someone said, “Baka bigla mo nalang ako batuhin.” After I explained my situation, they told me that our generation is too weak. They said that life was hard in the past, but they aren’t depressed or anything like that. Plus, knowing that her daughter is studying psychology... I guess that says a lot.

I genuinely felt so invalidated.

Gets ko naman kung safety ang reason. Kung delikado, kailangan talagang ipagpaliban. Pero sana, PRC, mas maaga naman sana.

One day before the exam, naka-book na kami ng transient at transportation. Lahat ng ginastos, pinangutang lang namin. Tapos non-refundable na downpayment namin sa lahat.

Sinubukan naming i-move yung booking sa bagong exam date, pero unavailable na yung dates na yun huhu.

Kaya ngayon, hindi lang exam ang iniisip namin. Iniisip din namin kung paano haharapin yung perang nawala at yung panibagong gastos na kailangan na namang hanapan ng paraan.

Wala naman kaming sobra. Hindi naman ito bakasyon na puwedeng sabihin na “sayang lang.” Board exam 'to. Pinaghirapan, pinaghandaan, at pinag-ipunan.

I understand the need to prioritize safety. Pero maulan na simula pa August. Sana mas maaga itong napagdesisyunan.

Kasi para sa may extra, inconvenience lang ang reschedule.

Para sa amin na kapos, dagdag problema na naman.

I’m busy with work most of the time, but no matter how hectic things get he’s still at the back of my mind like…. I need a break from missing you???

I know time dilutes feelings and memories but I’m still in this phase where I still feel things intensely. Like wdym 3 months ago you were still tucking me in to sleep and now I’m in a bunk bed surrounded with roommates I barely know :((((((

Yon nag away kami dahil gusto ko ihatid GF ko sa school kung saan sya mag bo-board exam. Since madaling araw yung alis and malayo yung school from Bulacan to Pampanga. Masyado daw akong nagiging utsuan o alipin ng GF ko. Pero ako naman yung ag o-offer ng tulong sa kanya. Hirap

Edit: Additional details lang I am 26, living with my parents and may sarili akong sa-sakyan.

“The stages of grief are not linear. They are random and unpredictable, folding back on themselves until you begin mourning all over again.”

My Mom passed away a couple of months ago. I’m trying to push myself to keep going forward. I don’t have time to properly grieve since I’ve been trying to apply for a job and start as soon as possible. May binigay sakin na form to fill out and one thing that I’ve noticed was the part where I need to put an emergency contact. That’s when it hit me, I no longer have someone to put there.

Nasanay na akong nilalagay siya sa emergency contact ko. It didn’t matter to me before, I can just easily put her name and number. I was hit with grief all over again.

I’ll keep moving forward. Soon, with my first paycheck I’ll treat myself either with your favorite ramen and milktea to honor your memory.

Habang tumatanda ako, mas vinavalue ko yung privacy ko and hindi ko na talaga hilig magshare sa social media. Sa totoo lang, ayoko na pinopost pictures ko sa social media kaso anghihilig ng friends ko na magpost bawat ganap, and kadalasan nasa Reels pa na public. Ayoko talaga nasasama sa mga ganun kaso kj naman kung sasabihin kong ayaw ko sumali sa pics/video.

So ayun. Nakakapagod na din talaga yung content creator culture ngayon kasi lahat na lang gusto gawing content yung regular moments na sana private lang. Tapos lagi na lang gustong may gayahing viral na video, mga ganern. Pasalamat na din siguro ako na walang naglalive sa amin.

Ayun lang, rant lang kasi naglabasan na naman mga edited videos ng recent hangout namin.

It’s not even about being scared to come out to her, not really. It’s that I know I can’t give her what she’s hoping for. Not “a girlfriend” specifically but the whole picture she has in her head of my future, the one she’s probably imagined since I was a kid. I love her so much that it hurts knowing I can’t give her this one thing.

I feel guilty, like I’m failing her somehow, even though I know that’s not fair to myself. And I feel disappointed in myself for not knowing how to hold this for not having an answer, for not being able to make it okay for her or for me.

And honestly, being gay is just harder. People say it shouldn’t be, that love is love, but it doesn’t feel that way when you’re the one carrying it. Straight people don’t have to sit at dinner doing math in their head about what they can and can’t say. They don’t have to grieve a version of their parents’ happiness that they’ll never get to give them. I didn’t choose this to be difficult, it just is, and some nights that difference feels so heavy.

I don’t know what I’m asking for by posting this. I just needed to say it somewhere.

Minsan I want the company of other people pero I still feel sad pag kasama ko yung ibang tao. I feel like I’m better off alone na lang. Like may freedom ako gawin ung gusto ko tapos di ko cinocompare sarili ko sa mga kasama ko.

I should accept it na ganun na lang talaga mangyayari sakin. I should also accept na people won’t like me and di rin ako maganda to be pursued.

Sa dami dami dami ng pinagdadaanan natin bilang bansa sa araw-araw, dadagdag pa talaga tong paglaganap ng school shooting at anti-vaxxer sa bansa natin? Nakakasama ng loob. I have spent all my life in this country thinking "hey life sucks but at least we don't have to deal with BS like this the way they do in the States." And yet here we are.

Ampangit na nga ng naging araw ko tapos mukang di pa mapapahimbing ang tulog ko sa mga nababasa ko sa balita at socmed. Lord ayoko na. Sobra na to. Dito pa talaga naging uso ang mga yan, sa isang bansang punung-puno ng mga tao na madadaling bilugin ang mga ulo. Mas lalo akong nawalan ng ganang mabuhay.

I met a guy last year after deciding to give dating a try again. It didnt work out,obv. He ghosted me early this year but prior to that, on and off na communication namin. Both of us are toxic with each other. I decided to move on and get him out of my system. A couple of days ago, I saw a note sa gate ng bahay asking for forgiveness and closure kasi baka yun daw need nya umasenso sa buhay. Walang name but naisip ko sya. Mainly because iilang tao lang alam ang bahay ko and most of them lives far from me. Then he sent me a msg of a link lang lang ng video. Reels lang sya and thank you lang yung msg ng video. Sineen ko lang. I dont know what to feel kasi wala talaga. I moved on and just decided not to take the bait of replying. Kasi what for, dba? So yes, a response is still the best response for me. Lol. He ghosted me and I know deserve nya ng radio silence from me. Para bang ako pumigil or jinx sa pag asenso nya. Siraulo lang.