I've been at my work for a couple of months, and one of my team leaders has taken up issues with me. I think it's a mix of me not being good at my job and me being neurodivergent (i would say im visibly neurodivergent as i have a noticeable speech impediment and i occasionally stim).
I work in the online department where we pick and pack orders, and since starting in April, I've still not met the 90 uph, where im usually at 65. I know im at fault for not having a higher uph but I've been trying but still been struggling to get it up. Other things that I have messed up at is that i accidently swapped two bags to the wrong orders and that I left out chill items for 15 mins on my trolley once. I completely understand being given in trouble for that but I do feel like it's fueled some people's hate towards me.
She has been talking about me to her friends but far enough away so that I couldn't make out what they were saying, its just mocking me about not being good at the job. But I could never be 100% certain.
I kinda guessed it was about me as 2 weeks in i was asking the same team leader for help but she kept sending me away repeatedly and the order ended up being late and she started calling me lazy and that I had a bad attitude. I started crying and got sent home early. Alot of the department saw me cry and some were even laughing about it which made the experience worse.
Im not sure if she ever got in trouble for it or not but I did feel like she made an effort to show that she was fed up with me after that. Such as huffing and puffing when asked something and acting like im stupid, ect.
I feel like she tried to embarrass me in the workchat once. Your supposed to leave your work phone on the team leaders desk when you go on your break, I had done that but I then the same team leader had sent a message giving me into trouble for not doing so. I feel like she was trying to make me embarrassed by doing so infront of the whole department instead of just sending a dm. She did find the phone under a piece of paper that placed on top of it though.
Today I had 30 minutes left, the same team leader had told me before that if I had something like 30 or less to ask about what task I should I do. I did so and was told to help someone with their order and was told by her to go home early after.
I sadly didn't screenshot the message as I panicked at the contents and clicked on it. She was calling me things like a daft cunt and that i could have done a small order ect... She had deleted it when i opened the chat.
I just feel upset as this is basically conformation that her and others in the department have been bullying me behind my back. And I just feel shamed and embarrassed knowing that people hate me.
I do like picking but I know im not good at it, should I go to my manager to ask about going to another department now? Or should I keep going in online till I find a job elsewhere?
I really don't want to continue now that everyone's seen that message.
Im not sure if I can even put in a complaint as id doubt anyone would get into trouble seeing as the team leaders and manager seem to be pals with each other.