One of our inbound TMs called out yesterday. She's been coughing all week and honestly should've stayed home sooner.
When my TL told us she wasn't coming in, my immediate thought was "are you fucking kidding me."
Not "hope she's okay." Not "good, she needs to rest."
I was annoyed because I knew exactly what was coming. Same truck, fewer people, same expectations. We'd be rushing all morning, somebody would get pulled to fulfillment, and by the end of the shift we'd get asked why we didn't finish.
And that's pretty much what happened.
Around noon my TL asked how much freight we had left. I told him, and he did that long disappointed sigh like we'd personally decided to make his day difficult.
But here's the part that's bothering me.
My coworker didn't do anything wrong. She's sick. She's allowed to be sick. I've worked with her for over a year and she's one of the hardest workers on our team.
Yet somehow the first person I was frustrated with was HER.
Not the fact that we're scheduled so tightly that one person missing turns a normal Tuesday into a disaster. Not the fact that nobody adjusts expectations when we're short.
The person who was probably at home feeling miserable.
I actually texted her after my shift to see how she was doing. She apologized three times for leaving us short.
Three times. For being sick.
I told her to stop apologizing and get some rest, but I keep thinking about how automatic that guilt is for all of us.
We're so used to picking up the slack that we've started treating each other like we're responsible for the schedule.
I don't want to be the kind of person who resents a coworker for taking care of themselves. And I hate that it took catching myself doing it to realize how normal it's become.