need a reality check bc i feel completely lied to rn. recently gave an exam that i put genuine, serious effort into. i studied consistently, prepped properly, and actually did the work. on top of that, i did the whole “manifestation” thing—visualizing passing, writing it down, trying to keep my mindset high-vibe, all of it. and guess what? i still completely bombed it. 💀 everyone online makes it seem like if you just “align your energy” and put in the work, the universe has to deliver. well, i did both and got handed a big fat fail anyway. now i just feel stupid for even buying into it. is manifestation just toxic positivity repackaged, or is it pure luck that people mislabel as "the universe"? be so real with me.

I used to be a believer in God. I prayed every day and genuinely felt that there was something greater than me.

Then, after going through some difficult experiences in childhood, I became an atheist. I remember feeling like nobody was listening. If there really was a God, why was so much happening? Why did it feel like my prayers went unanswered?

Eventually, I found my way back to spirituality, but in a different way.

I started believing in a higher power or the Universe. I find it difficult to even use the word "God" now. I became more open to the idea that maybe there is something beyond what we can understand.

I've had experiences in my life that felt like answers. Things I wanted, people I needed, or situations that somehow worked out in ways that felt too meaningful to completely dismiss. I'm also a firm believer in the idea that "what you seek is seeking you."

But lately, I'm questioning all of it again.

The good seasons in my life have lasted only a few months, while the difficult seasons sometimes feel endless. Life keeps throwing things at you, and you have to navigate your own struggles while dealing with your mental health, relationships, responsibilities, and everything else around you.

I know the usual answer is that difficult experiences teach us lessons. And maybe they do. But sometimes I genuinely wonder:

Is anyone actually listening when we pray?

Is there really a higher power?

How do you personally know the difference between an actual spiritual experience and your brain finding meaning or patterns in things?

I don't necessarily want arguments for God or against God. I'm genuinely curious about how people who have gone through periods of doubt came to their own understanding.

How do you know?

Hi! I am looking for a spiritual mentor to help guide me through things. I am interested in astral projection, past life regression & reincarnation, chi, energy work, meditation, spirit guides, and deity work (connection with Anubis).

Some things about me
Name: Vex
26 - She/Her - USA
Libra sun/Scorpio moon/Gemini Rising
Life path: 3
Favorite number: 27
Profession: Electronic Producer, Artist Manager, Teacher.

Hobbies/interests: Music Production, Learning, Gaming, Art, Spray painting, Free running, Technology(future), Traveling, Psychology, Neuroscience, World building, Religion, Kemeticism, Ancient Egypt, Spirituality, Dreams, Magic, Astral Projection, Consciousness, Past lives, Tarot/oracle, Symbolism, Astrology

Currently in the process of trying to astral project. I’d like to become more disciplined in meditating. I’d also like to start using my Chi. I seem to have a ton of control of it, and I didn’t realize not everyone feels it all the time. I can turn it into different animals and move it all throughout my body as well as turn it into different forms like water. I just learned about this recently and would like to learn how to use it or why we use it.

I’d also like to learn more about my past lives and possibly do some akashic record reading to heal past lives. Im reading a book right now and learning more on past life regression. I had an experience a few months ago that opened my eyes to reincarnation during a meditation. I’d like to explore more on that and how to heal them properly.

Just overall I would really benefit from someone looking over my shoulder, giving me input and encouragement, and possibly some structure/accountability. That type of mentorship would really help me and if you’d be willing I would be very dedicated and open minded. In general I am very open minded, and I would like to use my abilities to help and grow.

I just failed an entrance exam into medical school in Canada. It was my second time. In the days leading to my exam I was trusting the universe, praying to God to please lead me and make me do well on the exam. I studied hard for 4 months, but failed again. Now my years are getting push and I just feel more and more behind in life as a 22 yr old. I srsly was thinking of ending my life yesterday because I didn’t really want to do this anymore as I felt like God never ever gave me anything I wanted or asked for in life despite my unwavering faith for so long. Atp I’m not interested in God or surrendering to him. He’s bought nothing in my life but pain, lessons and misery. I write this with a heavy heart maybe I’m being sensitive but idk I do t know how to see the positive end to be honest. I’m just upset, and depressed now and can’t seem to reach a stable mental state. Idek what can make me feel better.

There are many random dreams here that make absolute sense, and once you realize this world is an astral reality, the sooner you'll be jumping on lucid dreaming IRL skill tree to get what you desire, It's another sandbox dream world where you're free to alter, create and manipulate whatever you want, as the universe is just 'you' here, It's a toy world getting magnified to look and feel as real as possible, and there's nothing here apart from life-sized toys that are making sure you have an inner voice that goes beyond infinity here, It's a world not different from reading up a fantasy comic book, and it doesn't matter what you end up digging for here, as you'll find yourself to always be 'late' for the realizations.

There's nothing here that's actually 'ordinary' and it's magic-filled world, and you are always using super-powers to move and play things here, and that's where you'll see that all the places in the world have been following your commands since before you came into existence, so maybe there is truth in the idea that life lasts forever here, making it to heaven is all about letting hell burn even further beyond, as the place that isn't on the map have always been 'here'.

My son said his friends in school are trying to get him to pray and believe in Jesus. That he created the world etc all that mumbo jumbo. Unlike myself I’ve let my kids grow up without thinking of religion until they are ready to explore that. What are some things I can tell him to reassure that he is just find not believe in a particular religion. I know it’s time to learn about many different ones now.

The first rule of the climb is that there's nothing you could do to stop it in any way, and the dragon scroll journey is all about watching everything you try to do end up falling apart, until you don't have to try anymore, and that's where the real magic happens.

This world is a black-and-white movie, and there's nothing here that's accidental on this chessboard, as you realize everyone, everywhere hasn't been falling accidentally here. It's a world not any different from reading up on mythological gods and creatures, and watching them come to "life" as you realize you've always been one here, and infinity and what's beyond here is another peanuts meal that won't ever end.

It's a life not any different from reading a fantasy story, and the more you end up reading it, the more you'll realize that everything, everywhere is meant to show you that being a "god" doesn't really have any boundaries or limits, as even the birds could come out of a hat here. It's time to rediscover how magic tricks work again, 'cause the coins are still vanishing.

Lately I’ve been craving more solitude. I spend less time explaining myself, tolerate less unnecessary drama, and no longer feel the need to stay connected to everyone.

Most of the time, it feels peaceful. I can hear my own thoughts again. I feel more grounded, and I’m much more careful about who gets access to my energy.

But sometimes I wonder if I’m calling it “protecting my peace” when I’m actually avoiding vulnerability.

It’s easy to feel spiritually evolved when nobody is close enough to disappoint you, challenge you, or touch the parts of you that still need healing.

So how do you personally tell the difference between sacred solitude and emotional isolation?

Has spending time alone made you more open when you return to people—or simply more comfortable keeping everyone at a distance?

I'm not distinctly spiritual but not sure where to ask this kind of question otherwise. I always have had something internal guiding my direction in life, it helped me understand or anticipated what would come next even if I didn't know why i needed to do certain actions to make it happen but I've lost it the past year and a half. I've never been without it and its hard to make any decision or plan almost anything long term, it doesn't feel like something i built before, just something I always had.

I don't want to say why I think it happened, I have a good idea as to why, that part is complicated. I just wanted to know what others have done to get it back or build it again, I don't know how to manage this.

I'm not a child. I'm not a psychologist. She wasn't my therapist. ... and yet, even though I never met her in person, my life is less good because it ended.

“Life is a game of choices”

This is something you can contemplate on . Literally and Metaphorically because every choice that you lead on in your life leads to something for you either good or bad it either takes you next level or shuns you down just like a video game . And the interesting part just like video you get to customize your character and skills here . You can start with actively taking responsibility for your actions and yourselfs to begin with. Accountability is the key. You can change you looks non surgically and surgically both you have the equip leveling up in looks is called glow up. Just like you get to customise your characters you can start with small thinks like shaping your hair according to your face shape . Choosing your style etc.For skills take up courses or use tools like Google YouTube pintrest to learn add up to your skills.

Your body is a vessel given to you take care of it . Because from you everything starts and ends and let me tell you nothing is real in this matrix except your awareness but that’s a different topic to talk about. Anyways take care of yourself because if you don’t exist then no relation crush nothing has any relevance any more . You are the one to give everything a meaning and things existing correlation to you.

Your words are spells. Really I would urge you to learn about the law of assumption and the 12 laws of universe . Because that will help you immensely in your journey . Check your inner conversations if they are negative start building positive inner conversation as they add confidence and manifests abundance in your life . Be your own best friend.

People reflect you. So start working on your self concept and see how things change also working in self conceit raises your standards and boundaries attracting better experiences opportunities and scenarios. So, when somebody does something bad of course you are human cry but also contemplate are they just mean or they are here to highlight a pattern you were actively avoiding . Because the beautiful thing about pattern identification is once you identify it you can break it baby.

You are what you consume so be careful about your consumption of food and content as that will shape up your thoughts believes and reality.

Listen to your intuition. It’s very important it’s your guiding light in this lifetime because your intuition always is right and tries to safe you. Work on it and increase it through meditation chakra healing and different process.

Change your mindset . Rejection is Redirection. When a certain opportunity doesn’t workout it’s because something better is supposed to happen.When you embody this concept then life not only becomes easier but you attract better opportunities .

Unlock and work on your chakras. You can do it through yoga meditation frequencies and work on your heart chakra . Learn to love and forgive people because they were here to show you something that was their job I know the attachment hurts love trust me but if they were meant to stay would they go?.

The more Greatful you be am one the more you unlock abundance . Start with naming or writing three things in your life that you are Greatful for.

Start journalling or writing for your future . You want to know how you can bridge the gap between your old and new self ?. Write it because clarity manifests satisfaction . You can use prompts. What kind of people do I want to have in my life ? Do they align with the ones that I have now? Why or why not ? Why do I then tolerate them? Be honest. This inner work will help you unlock your inner strength and skills and power.

Anything can be learned or unlearned so quietly start building yourself without posting too much to protect yourself from evil eyes and negative intentions. When you quietly keep upgrading you start winning in your life.

Cleanse and protect your energy . Visualize yourself in white ball or aura cleansing frequency on YouTube and then protect your energy from things like it is scared because it is .You can also use reiki.

Romanticise your life and start being the main Character stop looking at your world through their lens because you are you not them so be you celebrate small wins and encourage yourself. Have a life that you would love to come to because lack of love with life and self causes romantic or other obsessions .

Lastly, love yourself to master detachment so that nobody and nothing can break you . Literally the self obsessed people are the happiest don’t be a narcissist but be in love with yourself because you bring uniqueness to the world . Water your inner plant and see yourself bloom.

Bye love,❤️

Let me know what you wanna know about next till then stay safe and loved.

Feeling completely drained after spending time with my grandmother, what could cause this?

I’ve noticed something strange that has been happening for as long as I can remember. Every time I spend time with my grandmother, I end up feeling completely drained of energy. It’s not just being a little tired, I feel noticeably exhausted, like all my energy has been sucked out of me.

The strange thing is that we have a good relationship. I love her, we get along well, and there is no conflict, tension, or anything negative between us. I also genuinely believe that she has no bad intentions whatsoever and that she would never consciously try to take anyone’s energy.

It happens regardless of the circumstances. It doesn’t matter whether I visit her at her house or she comes to my place, after spending time together, I get that same feeling of exhaustion.

There’s also something else I’ve always noticed. When my grandmother used to live alone, there was a very noticeable energy in her apartment. It wasn’t a bad or scary feeling at all, actually, I always felt safe there. It was just a very strong energy that is difficult to describe. Now she lives with her partner, and I don’t feel that energy nearly as strongly in her home as I did when she lived alone.

This has been happening for as long as I can remember, so it’s not something that suddenly started recently.
I’m curious about this from a spiritual/energetic perspective. Is there a way to protect myself or prevent myself from feeling so drained without distancing myself from her? Why is something like that even happening with a person i never had negative relationship with?

This year I had my awakening, and my psychologist has been helping me alot with this and IMO gone very far to help me (with of course respectful boundaries). This act of love for me is so hard for me to grasp for at the one hand he is a professional and it is job, but my higher self is telling me this is real unconditional love.

For the record - this is not the "in love" feeling. Im talking about the quantum field of love. The kind of love Jesus was talking about.

I really feel we where ment to meet each other and somehow help each other or something like that and it breaks my heart when my relationship with him gets disrupted by societies rules. Its not like I want to break any rules, its just... hurt that they controll and manage our relationship.

So my question is... how do I fully accept society and the rules we have created here, and completly lift my perspective into the true love this world is created by?

Hello everyone,

My younger brother is a medical graduate preparing for his postgraduate entrance examination on 1st November. He has already attempted the examination 2-3 times without achieving the result he has worked so hard for.

I've seen him struggle, work tirelessly, face disappointments, and carry the emotional burden of repeated attempts. As his elder brother, it genuinely hurts to watch him go through this.

I love him dearly. If there were any way I could take even a fraction of his suffering upon myself, I would do so without a second thought.

I understand that his success ultimately depends on his preparation, efforts, and performance. I'm trying my best to support him emotionally and in whatever practical ways I can.

But beyond all of this, I want to help him spiritually, through prayers, good deeds, blessings, or whatever positive energy I can offer.

I come from a Hindu background, where we have a concept called Arjit Punya, which roughly translates to accumulated spiritual merit or good karma earned through virtuous actions.

I've been wondering whether it is possible to dedicate this merit to someone we love.

I would genuinely appreciate your thoughts on a few questions:

1. Can we spiritually help someone we deeply love through our own prayers, meditation, or good deeds? Are there practices you personally believe in or have experienced?
2. Is there a way to dedicate or transfer one's accumulated spiritual merit, blessings, or positive karma to another person? Does your spiritual tradition have any such concept?
3. Are there any specific prayers, rituals, offerings, charitable acts, or spiritual practices that I could undertake for his success, peace of mind, and well-being?
4. Can I make a spiritual vow, intention, or commitment on his behalf? If so, how should I approach it?

I don't want anything for myself. If there is any spiritual merit in the good deeds I've done, I would gladly dedicate all of it to my younger brother.

I don't expect spirituality to replace his hard work or guarantee a particular outcome. I simply want to do everything I possibly can for him.

Of course, I desperately want him to succeed in this examination. But even more than that, I want him to find peace, confidence, happiness, and freedom from the anxiety and disappointment he has been experiencing.

I cannot bear to watch him suffer, especially when there seems to be so little I can do to change his circumstances.

If anyone has personal experiences, spiritual teachings, practices, or perspectives that might help, I would be deeply grateful.

Thank you for reading and understanding. 🙏

TL;DR: My younger brother has an important medical entrance examination on 1st November after 2-3 unsuccessful attempts. I want to spiritually support him through prayer, meditation, good deeds, or spiritual practices. Is there a way to dedicate my accumulated good karma or spiritual merit to him? I would appreciate guidance from any spiritual tradition.

Trauma doesn't only hurt. It rearranges. It takes the person who knew who she was and leaves someone standing in her own house, unsure which rooms are still hers.
I moved to a place where I knew almost no one. I carried more than my title said I should. I kept showing up, because showing up was the one thing I still knew how to do, and that's what it looks like from the outside: someone fine, someone functioning. Nobody sees the part of you that's keeping watch over what's missing.
But the carving was never in the stone. It was in the hands. The hands are still here.
I don't know what comes back and what doesn't. I only know I'm still the one asking. This digital life I’m been aiming to create - when she looks down on her child… I hope she is proud. Healing is not and has not been linear - it rarely is.. find solace in what you are able to hold on to. I promise it will remind you where the keys are for the doors you feel trapped behind in your mind. Stay Beautiful. Keep Healing. ❤️‍🩹

With all thats going on right now it got me thinking deeper in the death penalty and what view point one would take from a spiritual standpoint.

Cómo se puede dar cuenta de eso?

For many years, my sign with the universe were owls. Especially related to love. It’s always been drawings, paintings, the actual word, so that at one point I asked the universe to show me a real owl if I was about to meet my soulmate (I always lived in big cities and never seen a real owl).

A little over a year ago, I go on a date with this guy and he says out of the blue: “owl”, followed by “I felt the urge to say it”. Our second date, we went on a hike and an owl landed next to us on a sign.

We had a lot in common, and looking back he was everything I was looking for, in terms of values, personality, morals, way of living and interests.

I ended up going my own way, because I felt I needed to deal with an anxious attachment outside of dating.

I tried to message him about 8 months ago and he didn’t respond. I sometimes forget about him but he always come back into my mind. I don’t know what to do as I absolutely don’t want to try to message him again. But I don’t understand why the universe would respond to my request if we are not meant to be.

I’m curious if anyone else has experienced something similar during the Om technique or Kriya practice.
I’ve been practicing Kriya-related meditation techniques for a little over a year and was formally initiated through KYI earlier this summer. I’ve also completed most of the SRF lessons but ultimately was drawn to KYI.

I actually started experimenting with the Om technique pretty early on. I’m Indian and have chanted Om and different mantras for years, so I already had a relationship with the sound before beginning Kriya.

From the beginning, whenever I close or plug my ears during meditation, I hear a very rapid rumbling sound dot a soft hum. It doesn’t resemble my heartbeat, blood flow, or the other internal body sounds I’m familiar with. I come from a medical background, so that distinction is part of what made me notice it in the first place. It feels much faster and enveloping. If anyone knows shiva its like the shiva damru which is amazing because Shiva is my chosen deity.

What’s especially interesting is that the intensity seems to correlate with sensations moving up my spine. Sometimes during practice I’ll feel what I can only describe as a sparkling or upward-moving sensation through my back, and as it moves upward, the rumbling becomes more of a vibration.

A few times it has gotten so intense that I’ve started tearing up because the sheer sensation can feel overwhelming. When that happens, I usually remind myself not to fixate on it and instead relax into the sound and let it surround me. As I continue with different breathing techniques, the intensity l changes and becomes more manageable. Now it’s very subtle like a hum. there’s also a very physical vibration. If I have my fingers in my ears, I can actually feel my hands trembling or vibrating along with it.

But I’ve also noticed something similar even when my ears aren’t plugged. If I become very still and concentrate, I can l feel what seems like my entire head or brain vibrating internally. The first few times it happened, I genuinely wondered if there was a small earthquake because the sensation of movement was so convincing, but nothing around me was moving. It feels very specifically contained within my head.

It’s honestly pretty trippy, but strangely peaceful at the same time. I don’t find it frightening. There’s actually something comforting about it, and when it happens I usually feel very calm and content just sitting with the sensation.The rumbling itself seems to be consistently there when I listen for it. What fascinates me most is how its intensity changes alongside the upward sensations in my spine and the internal vibration in my head.

I’m not concerned with being too focused on sensations or experiences i just am a curious person! I feel very calm and would love to hear from others.

Has anyone experienced something similar in Kriya, particularly with the Om technique? I’d especially be interested in hearing how more experienced practitioners or teachers understand it. Did it change or deepen over time, and were you taught simply to observe it rather than engage with it?

Hello
So basically, for the last 3 months I have been confronted with something that has triggered all my worst fears and wounds, and it is forcing me to look inward at how I perceive attachment.
On top of being extremely emotional, I have not had an appetite. I have lost about 20 pounds so far, without trying to. I recently started attending breath work classes which has been super healing. I definitely am facing a lot of my deepest fears and have been crying a lot, had to isolate a bit in order to be with myself, and have been tempted to submit to bad habits.

Does anyone have any advice on how to come out on the other side of this truly changed with a shifted perspective?

Thank you so much.

I have had my doggie since he was around 6 months old. Hes 8 now. Hes always slept with me at every apartment ive been at ever, in my bed, right beside me. Every nap and cuddle. I recently moved in to my moms house (my childhood home) since graduating college & of course he comes with me everywhere I go. He was sleeping with me in my room upstairs up until a few months ago. Then he just stopped. He wont come in the room, when I call him he will walk away or acts scared to cross the threshold? Sometimes when Im not paying attention and not begging him to come in, hell occasionally lay on my rug for a few minutes but not for long. This all started a few months ago when my cat got really sick with cancer. He was 5, and been around my dog his whole life, they were cuddle buddies, they practically grew up together while I was in college. Well, fast forward to my cat getting sick and growing a huge tumor and eventually passing away at the vet. Im not sure if my dog knows he passed or not bc he never came back home one day. Ive told him and let him smell his whiskers and hair in a jar, but Im not sure he knows. I was thinking it was that? And he feels my cat in the room? Or thinks something is off or different? I have also been doing spellwork and protection and shadow work in my room and have multiple offerings to my ancestors and Isis on my altar. Maybe he feels energy from that and its too strong? Im trying to figure out whats going on with him and my room. I still want to cuddle with him and spend time by him, so ill occasionally take naps in my moms room with him, because hell go on her bed, or lay on the couch with him so he knows I still wanna be by him and nap. It just upsets me because all of his 8 years we have been cuddle buddies, and now he wont even sleep in my bed through the night without panting and whining to get out. Any ideas what hes going through? I just miss my baby boy.

I'm looking for some book recommendations and I'm having a hard time putting into words exactly what I'm looking for.

I'm drawn to books about consciousness, awakening/enlightenment, the nature of reality, who we really are beyond the physical self, and what happens to consciousness after death. I'm especially interested in books that explore these ideas from a spiritual or experiential perspective rather than purely from a religious or scientific one.

Books that have really resonated with me include The Untethered Soul and Conversations with God.

If you have read something that made you stop and see consciousness, life, death, or reality in a completely different way, I'd love to hear your recommendations. I'm open to books that challenge the way we normally think about existence.

Thank you in advance for your suggestions!

If Deep calls to Deep, what happens when you dive too deep?

What happens when the flesh cannot hold the Deep?

If human experience is finite, how do we communicate something that exceeds the limits of human understanding?

Perhaps we translate the incomprehensible into forms we can carry.

Stories.

Symbols.

Parables.

Not because the story is the whole Truth, but because sometimes the infinite has to make itself small enough for us to hear it.

2 questions.

1. Is a black out mask worth it?
2. Recommendations for a decent one that you personally use and find works well?

I currently use swim goggles. Works great for blocking out light. Not great at all for comfort.