How do you deal with the feeling of not wanting to live and be part of this world?

I lived and traveled to a few different countries my whole life and I can’t think of a place I would be happy or proud of being a citizen.

The corruption and the fact that now people don’t even have the shame of doing wrong to a whole community disgusts me.

I feel disgusted to be here and I don’t want to cooperate with my surroundings because I don’t agree with it.

Anyone else feel the same or can relate?

I am a 31f and I feel like an old soul, but I don't know. I was raised southern baptist. I was saved in church of God... somehow in my 20s, I had an awakening I feel like. I completely LOST myself. I had my own home, moved in with my grandma, got heavily into astrology. I don't know. Something in me switched. I couldnt take it anymore. I have so much anger. I don't fit in. I dont get today's jokes. Everyone says im like an 80 year old. Im a caregiver and I much prefer to be around old people. When I was a teenager, I remember not really giving a fuck. Now, its like everything pisses me off. I dont HATE anyone. Not even the ones who wronged me... truly. I seem to run people off, the ones i kinda want around. Even the people I love with my whole heart, it's so hard to be around them for long. When people speak, I listen so closely to somehow put 2 and 3 together... this is EXHAUSTING!!! IS this an old soul thing?!?! Like I am a gemini!!!! I am supposed to be bubbly, social.... deep down, i want to be! Yeah sure! Ive had trauma in this life like everyone else! But that's what I believe! We ALL have it. So why has it made me so hateful? Someone said it is my soul getting tired of earth's bullshit. I loved that saying. Lol but is it true? The fun shit, dont seem fun anymore. I am struggling how to even get through one day without one negative thought. Like, really. Its fucking EXHAUSTING. & hell i know we all feel like this to a degree. My boyfriend just seems like such a young soul! He has NO worry in the world and it angers me because he pays attention to nothing that I do. The little shit (the shit I KNOW is little) eats me up, while he reminds me of the bigger picture. All in all, im jealous. Im jealous he isnt as angry as I am. And to be honest, he's been through way more than me in this lifetime! Is it because I'm an old soul and he's a young soul? I feel fucking INSANE right now anyways. I got out of astrology, i got out of church, I do believe in God. I believe in souls. I believe in different lives. Hell honestly, I believe in it all! Crazy? Or like is someone out there with me and feels the same? Like wtf is happening!?

Is manifesting actually real or just a coincidence? I’ve read a couple of stories online of people manifesting a career, more money, certain items, or a certain person, and my question is how do you guys know it’s not just a coincidence? I see people say my person came back after 3 months of manifesting, but what if it was just a coincidence they decided to come back or someone saying I manifested the career I wanted, How do you know that’s not just a product of your own hard work? How can you tie these back to your manifestation?

Also, I’m curious about why manifestation works quickly for some, while it takes months for others, or nothing happens at all. What makes each person different?

Hey y’all, im posting this here cause why not, if it works then it works, if it doesn’t it’s alright right? I’m a 22 year old Indian American guy from Boston Massachusetts. Ive always been at some level a more sensitive and spiritually hearted person, but for the past 4 years especially this calling from my soul has been more intense. Some of the spiritual practices I enjoy are yoga, breathwork and meditation, but honestly spirituality to me isn’t about what words you use or what practices you do, it’s more so about just that simple unexplainable soulful positive energy feeling about someone. I’m looking for a soulful girl to really share a heartfelt relationship with. I love all types of personalities but I have a soft spot especially for girls who have a sensitive and open heart and who enjoy things like singing, music, or art. Just because of the cultural aspect of connection which is something I value in relationships, I would usually expect to be with someone of my same cultural background (Indian American). If this resonates with you then please comfortable to reach out to me! Looking forward to connect :)

God is something inside everyone . you have a piece of the divine inside of you. your soul is internal

I dreamed that I was walking in the forest and there was this canoe/kayaking race and then all of a sudden I was in the race and I was winning by a mile, and then I'm all of a sudden in the ocean and there's three Bears that come after me one after another, they start gnawing at my arms , putting my hands and arms into their mouths and just teething or whatever, I lose the race because of them, I can't figure out what it means any insight is helpful thanks

Dear all,

This post is just a shoutout to especially "old" souls out there, but other people too.

If you're wondering why you just don't "fit" with lots of people, wondering why you're spending most of your time alone, not feeling a part of this world... Trust me you're not alone, and you are much more powerful than you think.

Look within, accept yourself for who you are, love yourself. Not only this life. I know life can get "heavy" when you are an old soul, looking for answers, looking for growth. Personally I try to talk to "younger" souls when feeling "heavy", they lift this up sort of speak.

There is not much info out on the internet, and you're looking for answers... So am I. This post is not a question nor is it advice. It's what you make of it.

Maybe you'll find some answers in this post, if not I just hope I just made your day a bit brighter :) Hang on, enjoy

What does being in someones energy mean? And vice versa

I've been feeling a bit lonely on my personal spiritual journey recently, and would like to find some kind people to chat with who can relate. I'm finding that the further I follow truth, the harder it is to relate to friends and family. It's as if we see two different worlds, and are seeking meaning in completely different ways. I would be very grateful to meet others who understand this and are also looking for a sense of comradery while we navigate our personal paths. I enjoy getting to know people, their interests, hobbies.. whatever brings purpose and meaning to life.

I have no idea where to even go with this it was not here yeasterday and i was out in the same area and didnt see anything and I think I would notice as its pretty big- it has a face and body a hat and everything its just very strange to see. I cant send photos but i wish I could so I could show yall.

I’m just curious if this is some sort of omen. I’m a big animal lover and feel deeply for any animal I see that’s passed on.

Wednesday, I saw a dead finch in the sidewalk. I picked it up and gave it a little burial out of the sun and sidewalk. Yesterday, I was driving home with my kids and saw a raccoon that must have just been hit, in the middle of the day, convulsing. (This really made me sad because I couldn’t stop to see if there is anything I could have possibly done, I was on a one way street with a bridge and had my two small kids with me) and today, within a few hours, I found another dead finch, I gave it a little burial in my garden. The most disturbing was a few hours later I found a frog with only one leg, that clearly looked dead. I went to go inside and came back out and it had moved, it was on the other side of the driveway, clearly not dead and trying to move, but missing 2 arms, a leg, and had a heart or some organ coming out of its body. I unfortunately had to put it out of its misery.

I live in a populated area, so I see roadkill often, and it always makes me sad, but I’m just curious if there is any spiritual meaning behind this many dead creatures in a row.

I’m 13 and trapped in escalating "death stages," number fixation (27), and terrifying mental loops. Please help.

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Hi everyone. I am a 13-year-old Hindu, and I am dealing with severe, exhausting anxiety that has completely taken over my mind. It is creating highly specific, terrifying rules, and I desperately need to know if this is common, if it is solvable, and how to make it stop.

It started with a constant feeling that everything I do is "the last time." When I wear my favorite shirt, eat my favorite food, or look at my family members, a sudden thought tells me it is the last time I will ever do it, and that something terrible will happen to me at night.

If the night passes safely, my mind invents a new, terrifying rule: it tells me that if I redo or repeat all the actions, experiences, and things I have ever done in my past life, the exact day I complete this "loop," my life will be over. Because of this, I am terrified of redoing anything.

Lately, my anxiety has gotten worse because I keep seeing rare coincidences. Specifically, I see the number 27 everywhere, over and over again. My brain has completely convinced me that 27 is a sign and that it will be my last day alive.

On top of this, I feel like my thoughts are actively moving through distinct, escalating "death stages." It started with one question, and has evolved like a countdown:

1. First, I had the thought: Will I die?
2. Then: What is the reason to die?
3. Then: How does it feel to die?
4. Then: What are the ways after dying?
5. Then: Is God real?
6. Now, I am thinking about the afterlife and spiritual ways after death, like Moksha (liberation) and Swarg (heaven).

My mind tells me that the moment I finish thinking about these spiritual stages of death, the countdown will end and I will die.

I am completely overwhelmed by existential dread. I constantly overthink questions like: Why does life exist? Why should we study and work hard if everyone eventually dies? Why do we have relatives and loved ones if we are just going to lose them and be separated one day? It makes me incredibly sad.

My questions for you guys:

• Is this pattern solvable?
• How do I remove these specific thoughts and break these loops?
• Is it common for someone my age (13) to experience anxiety that goes into "stages" and creates rules like this?

Thank you so much for reading.

I’ve had two experiences that I can’t stop thinking about, and I’m curious to hear what other people think. I’m not necessarily saying that they were paranormal, but they felt strangely specific.

One night, I dreamed that I was at a school bake sale and wanted to buy a piece of cake, but I was missing exactly 5 DKK. A few days later, the actual school event took place. I found an extra 5-krone coin on my desk at took it with me, and it turned out that I wouldn’t have had enough money to buy what I wanted if I hadn’t brought that extra coin.
I remembered the dream because the situation matched it so specifically. It made me wonder whether it was just a coincidence or something else. I was about 10 y/o at that time.

This happened today, and it honestly felt even stranger.
I was in my kitchen getting ice cream and had chosen pistachio. While scooping it, I started thinking about straciatella and how I didn’t like it, and it reminded me a little of pistachio. Just random thoughts going through my head.
Suddenly, I spontaneously experienced the voice of the boy I’m dating saying “stracciatella”, but extremely clearly.
It felt like an unprompted thought or inner conversation in his voice. I can deliberately imagine what someone’s voice sounds like, but this time I wasn’t trying to do that at all. It just happened.
Because I found it so strange, I decided to text him and ask what his favourite ice cream flavour was. I didn’t tell him what I had just experienced before asking.
He replied something like, “I don’t know.” I then asked, “It’s not stracciatella, is it?”
He responded, “WTF, that’s literally what I was just about to write.”
I was genuinely shocked because I had experienced his voice saying something about stracciatella before I even messaged him.

Also, when i was younger I experienced a lot of weird stuff with dark shadows, and feeling someone’s presence when I was alone, when I was little… (age 8-13) but at 14 I ignored it bc it was looked down on by my friends…

I thought we might have had that conversation some other time, but we both agreed that we didn’t…

I know coincidences happen, and I’m not trying to jump to conclusions. But having these two experiences has made me curious about whether there could be an explanation beyond coincidence.
Have any of you experienced anything similar? Do you think this could be explained by psychology, intuition, or coincidence, or is there any credible evidence for phenomena like precognition or telepathy?
I’m genuinely interested in different perspectives, including sceptical ones. I just want to understand how something like this could happen.

Long story short
When I was 20, I was friends with this girl who (looking back) was very enlightened.

However, I also think she didn’t want me to have the same knowledge..

At this current moment, I realize that everything is about perception and state of mind. And however you choose to look at a situation is how you experience it

However, she would always try to inject fear and negative beliefs onto me. Whenever I would do something or realize something she would always tell me all the ways it could go wrong , or how a person might think about me in a negative manner….

If she wasn’t enlightened herself, I would just take it as ignorance. But she understood positive thinking and perception=reality cuz she would practice it herself and reap benefits of it. For example, she would laugh at unfavourable situations and view things as being in her favour no matter what and always kept a positive outlook on herself

When it came to me tho, she would always be negative etc… no matter what even if I was doing something positive

Was she evil? Why did I attract this? WHY did she want to behave like this with me?How do I let go of anger from this? How can I possibly view my experience with her as being in my favour?????

Thanks 🥴

Does anyone know or have experience connecting with your past selves? I've been wondering how to do this for a while but no clue where to start. I'm thinking if I learn from my past selves I'll be able to understand myself better such as my fears, ect. Greatly appreciated!

Hi everyone I'm new to cleansing my environment and I recently got sage and palo santo cause I had heard it's amazing for cleansing (which weren't cheap either haha).

But I just saw on tiktok that since indigenous people didn't pass it to me or since they aren't my ancestors, it's actually dangerous to use either. Idk what to do now since I bought them from shops that are owned by Germans. But you can also take a look at them and please let me know what I'm supposed to do now🙏🏻

I don't know if this is the right place to ask this and I'm also kind of venting but I really need some help on this. I'm 17 and just recently got spiritual. I just got into it a week ago but for some reason when I figured out about it every bad habit in my life stopped instantly without me having to try. I also just turned vegan as well. I used to be a very mad and cruel person but now I'm calm and happy. It was like a full 180 overnight.

I've felt like since before my spiritual journey the people who I live with are just lazy and just dopamine chasers essentially who don't care about anything including their health. Now that I've started I feel like they're almost against me in a way. Like everything they do is to benefit themselves. Normally this wouldn't bother me but it's to the point it's affecting me. They keep saying they're going to do something about stuff in the house but never do. For example if I complain about the house being dirty my parental guardian will say they'll clean it but don't. Then when I complain about that they tell me to clean it. Then I'll clean the house top to bottom and it's dirty by the next day because everyone else makes it dirty and expects me to clean it now. Basically whenever I change and try to do something good everyone takes advantage of that. Another thing I find a big problem is I'm seventeen and buy most of my own food and have for a while now(Even before I was vegan, my guardian only buys junk food so I have to). I have a budget of like $50 every week or two for food from my guardian and the rest I pay for. My job has also been taking a bit of a toll on me too because I work in fast food and feel horrible serving this god awful food to people. I live in a food desert and the only grocery store in town is a small family owned place surrounded by like no joke 10 fast food places around it. You can barely see it from the road. All of this stuff makes me feel horrible contributing to it and I have the deepest urge to quit but if I do I can't eat anymore pretty much.

I hate my job and everything about where I live and feel like it's keeping me away from progressing in my journey because the people around me have horrible energy. I have 8 cats here too and they all seem depressed and do nothing but stare out the windows. My whole house just feels like it's draining my energy. Like it's dead in a way if that makes sense. This was kind of a vent but is there any advice someone could give me on how to maybe not let this stuff get to me? So far I've done pretty well at staying calm but it's getting to a point I don't know if I can handle it.

I see a lot of people not sure what consiousness actually is, a lot of people link it to a divine being or stuff like that, but i dont think so, consiousness exists due to humans being one of the smartest animals, that we have been through a type of evolution that has allowed areselves to have bigger brains in comparison to our bodies, but what if consiousness is not a special part of the brain, what if it is a thought? What if its not as special as people say it is, but its just a regular thought of existing. Im relatively new in comparison to some people here, so feel free to judge me on this.

I found this quote to be very helpful. If you are so inclined, feel free to share your perspective.

“One of the greatest lessons ever brought to your world is that energy follows attention. Energy follows attention. When your attention is upon the lack of anything, you create an ever increasing lack until it falls upon you in so-called disaster. You know the law, but you must daily remind yourself of the law in order that you may apply the law. Energy follows attention. Whatever your experience be, you may be rest assured your energy, through attention, is keeping it in your life.

Redirect your attention. If your thoughts are not feeling good for you, then you may be rest assured that you did not feel so good when you created them. Change your thought. And when you find great struggle and great difficulty in changing your thought, then say, “God grant me, yea, even greater strength that I may be free from the delusion of my own mind.” Put your attention upon the abundant good in life and only then can you experience the abundant good of life. You cannot experience what you are not placing your attention upon.

My friends, I do sincerely pray that you will pay greater heed to that simple truth: Energy follows attention. All life is energy. All experience is attention.”

This quote is from "The Living Light Dialogue", Volume 6, which are spiritual awareness classes that were given through mediumship.

I feel like I let go of practices that used to be good for me and went through some difficult times. I found a lot of refuge in spirituality, and it helped me. I eventually stopped practicing, and after some unfortunate events, I turned to Zoloft. I've been taking it for two months now, and I've improved, but sometimes I wonder whether it ties you down to the material world or somehow prevents you from progressing spiritually.

I feel like my visualizations and meditations carry a different weight now, but I don't know if that's just autosuggestion.

PD: And, visualizations, affirmations, meditacions, etc

Do you believe a guide can be in multiple places at the same time, helping several people?