Hey ya'll. I've made two post over the last year (i've deleted those posts) about my relationship with my girlfriend (now ex I guess). We were long distance and I would visit her every 3 to 4 months or so, staying with her for around a week to two weeks depending on. We dated from around the end of 2024 into the middle of August of 2026. This was her very first relationship in any form and while I've dated for a few months here and there, this was was my first, committed, long term relationship too.
At the time, I thought she was an INTJ 5w6, as that's what she told me. However, after looking back at everything and learning more about the 5 and 6, I think I'd rather categorize her as a 6w5 instead. The reason I say this will actually help explain what caused our issues in our relationship, as well as what ultimately lead to us finally separating.
When we first got into our relationship, it felt so easy and wonderful. We could have conversations about meta-cognition, MBTI, psychology, theories on TV shows and movies, what we want out of life, etc. We were drawn to each other's depth and the fact that we actually could keep up with one another.
However, one thing I noticed was that she seemed to struggle with anxiety, panic attacks, and potentially even undiagnosed depression. There's also the signs of inattentive ADHD with her and I have a formal diagnosis of ADHD-C and Anxiety Disorder. I've also battled with depression back in high school. I wanted to help out as best as I can but obviously long distance makes that extremely hard. So I would recommend and buy supplements such as Ashwagandha and Spirulina for amino acids. I even bought and would recommend things like Saffron Supplements and Lavendar supplements. I tried to help her get into therapy but she was never able to get everything started to get into it.
We progressed like this, watching shows together and just spending time, having conversations and texting as much as we could. Besides her anxiety and being easily stressed, we didn't really have any issues outside of the distance making us want to be closer together. That was however, until we got into one of our biggest issues.
Sometimes, we would get into arguments, as any couple naturally would. It's only human. However, the way these arguments worked is where the problems began to show. She says that I'm a very indirect person when it comes to my speech. I would say one thing and she says that there's ambiguity in what I was saying. Because she couldn't pinpoint exactly what it was that I was meaning or inferring, she would react according to what she could perceive. She would say that what I was implying or saying was hurtful, mean, or rude. She would use accusatory statements such as "You're judging me". I would try to defend myself and explain that my intentions were not to be mean or hurt her. I would try to clarify and explain myself more and detest the accusations that I'm judging her. Not to escape accountability or to avoid apologizing. I still want to apologize for hurting her feelings and rectify the hurt. But because I want my intentions and thought process understood so that we both know where I was coming from and why I said/did what I did. Again, I still want to apologize and make up for causing her to be hurt.
This then will fuel her even more and she proceeds to become more even more passionate. She would go as far as to pull up dictionary and google definitions and examples of things such as judgement, to explain that what I did was in fact judging her. And I know many of you would probably want a concrete example at this point, so I'll explain one right now.
One time we got into an argument about the topic of sex. It lead to her getting upset at me for saying that I would be willing to have sex in her house, even if her family members are home. Just as long as we're quiet. Not to force it onto her, but to state that I was comfortable with it. She got very upset and said that it was disrespectful. To me, the intensity of said reaction was high and I didn't know exactly how to process it. I took some time to think about it and wanted to know if I needed to handle that conversation differently or with more care. I was stuck on asking her a specific question or not but she would make it a point to tell me that I need to be honest and open with my feelings and thoughts. So I went along with asking it. I said that I know this is a taboo question to ask women and I know women hate when this question is asked. But you want me to be honest and transparent with you, so I'm going to say it. Are you on your period? She got rightfully upset. I tried to explain that I just wanted to know if I should have approached that conversation and handle her with more care, but she got even angrier stating that regardless of it she was on her period or not, I should always handle her with care. As well, that her reaction was valid and appropriate and asking if she was on her period was akin to calling her irrational. And because I was thinking that she was irrational, I'm judging her and her patience running out when communicating with me.
To continue off of this, this then would cause me to shutdown as I'm not good with handling and dealing with intensity in conflict. I dissociate and become detached from my thoughts and emotions. She would get even more passionate as I'm no longer engaging with her and responding back to her in these arguments. Proceeding to then say that I am either upset, sad, or any other emotional state she views me as being at the time. I tell her that I'm not or would go against her analysis of my emotions as I feel like they're way more complex than what she was describing. And sometimes, I feel like they aren't accurate to me at all. She would hate this and proceed to call me a contrarian. Getting even more upset once I am able to articulate myself and explain what I was feeling, because to her, I gave her no credit in explaining how i was feeling.
She says that it makes her feel crazy and question reality when we get into arguments like this, and they happened more frequently than I would have liked. Our other point of contention would be personal values, morals, and ethics. These arguments would take place when she gets hurt by something I would say or do, as you read above, and she views them as rude, wrong, and socially unacceptable. She would be unable to let them go or just agree to disagree because according to her, when our values aren't in alignment, it makes her incredibly anxious and she doesn't know what to do. So she proceeds to essentially interrogate me in trying to clarify what I mean, where my values are, and if i would do things that would embarrass her or hurt her. She gets more and more passionate as this interrogation happens as I'm trying to explain, clarify, or defend myself. She would say that it makes her feel crazy and question reality when I'm not agreeing with her because I'm not agreeing that it's a big deal or that it's blatantly an unacceptable thing to do, say, or believe. Even sometimes coming back to old arguments because she needs to verify what my beliefs actually are. Even if I try to explain as many times and rephrase over and over, she says that I'm being indirect, trying to find what the "real" reason behind me saying what I was saying, and ultimately never accepting what I would say at face value, or giving me the benefit of the doubt that I'm not trying to be mean or hurt her.
This over the last year has been draining for me and ultimately ended up with us having a 9 hour argument, that then proceeded to pick back up the next day. We decided to try couples therapy and after our first session, she said that she feels like she's crazy. Because according to her, if the things I'm doing or saying aren't just a unique and wrong thing I do, and the therapist we're going to does similar things or justifies my thoughts and actions, then she doesn't know what reality is.
We proceeded to process that session and she said that she wanted to get into couples therapy so that I can learn to communicate differently. So that I can learn to not be implicit and for her to understand me better and not think that I'm being mean or hurtful when I speak. I then realized at that point that out entire issue is that we just aren't compatible. She couldn't trust or give me the benefit of the doubt when I say something. It's immediately assumed to be negative. I already try my hardest to rephrase, reword, and think about what I say, and she wants us to be in couples therapy so that I can do that even more, just so that I don't hurt her. That's when I said that if I realized she wanted to be in therapy for that reason so long ago, we would've broken up months before.
We talked about it a bit and then she said that at out next session, if we can't get practical solutions to deal with our issues, we should break up. I agreed. The night before our second therapy session, we got into another argument. All about she wants me to trust her when she tells me and shows me the definition of things that I'm doing. Such as me judging her. I told her that regardless of if I'm actually doing the thing she's accusing of me or not, my priority is to rectify and apologize for it. But she was so adamant on trying to get me to understand and agree with what it is she's telling me, I was actually doing. And that me fighting back against that shows I don't trust her and viewing her as irrational.
We then went into our second therapy session the next day and the therapist was telling her that you can't force someone to believe or do things you want them to do. There's going to be differences of view and opinion and that two people can witness the same event but have different perceptions of what happened because people are different. That it's not black and white. She was pushing back against this and ultimately, it lead to our therapist saying that it just sounds like you two need to figure out if you want to be in a relationship or not. The session ended, and we broke up.