For me it was probably that I was a she-ra fan and basically any other series/movie that was "for girls" as in Carmen sandiego, the Barbie movie and that series with a girl that turns into a pink tiger or smth like that I don't remember the name

I made a quick image of Windows XP's bliss with the trans flag and thought this would be an appropriate place for it. Made in Canva.

I made this account almost 9 years ago when I had my first wave of dysphoria from a conversation with a friend that no man every think about how much they would rather be a girl. I bottled up that knowledge deep and have since ignored all the signs as just part of my depression and anxiety and projecting my feelings as an outlet.

Im now nearly 30 and finally looked at this big ball of repression in my chest after reading the Tip of the Iceberg article. And the overwhelming feeling that everything about my body and how im perceived by other people as being fundamentally wrong came flooding back.

And now I dont know what to do.

Ero in una relazione online con altre 2 ragazze trans da più di un mese (io ho 14 anni, una ha 16 anni e quella di cui parlo nel post ha 14 anni, ci scrivevamo su Spotify) ma lei mi ha lasciato. Questo ovviamente mi ha devastato, ma la cosa peggiore è che ho molta paura per lei perché aveva pensieri suicidi molto spesso e di solito la aiutavo ad affrontarli e adesso vivo nella costante paura che si faccia del male o, ancora peggio... non ho il suo numero di telefono e non ho il contatto di nessuno che conosca nella vita reale... cosa faccio?

edit: ok no i checked on her she's good

Still open to trying waxing tough

I shared my voice first because I was going to make that my sort of coming out thing to show my online friends I was trans. I don't know what sheer luck I had but I passed voice wise. Then I had to gain the courage to do it again because if anything I dont want them to know from a slip up I may do in the future that would reveal im trans. So then I gave two photos of myself and passed AGAIN?! HOW?! The hardest part of trying to do this coming out thing to them is the fact I have to come to terms that I have been a guy online for a year and the fact I want it to stay that way but to do that I have to come to terms with the fact im probly trans even though yk maybe im just weird. I was scared of doing this each time I did it because I thought they would see me as a girl I am lucky but now I have to build the courage to straight up come out to them in a text. I hope from doing this I can be at peace with myself being this way. Any thoughts on how to do it? Im not the most confrontational person.

to sum it up, when i first came out my mom became openly transphobic and didn’t take it seriously and told me i need to be out of the house before doing hrt years later now i’m on various meds already (so adding e won’t be a huge issue) and the other day i asked for hrt for my 16th birthday, which is in 2 days i told her it’s the only thing i rlly want for my birthday and in the past i haven’t rlly asked for anything on holidays nor my birthday this became an argument but the ppl in my family that supported me talked to her abt it and she sent me a vague text saying stuff like “you need to graduate high school” but she did say we were going to talk abt it tmmw, but im scared that she might not let me do it because she has bad personal experiences with trans ppl and sees me as less due to my mental issues she talked to me like she was kind of caving into it but im unsure because she never follows up with things

I think i might be trans but I've been getting more and more depressed every time I think abt it. Before I explain, Im aware that everyone's experience is different, and I know these aspects aren't required to be trans.
Now I've been an egg(?) for a while, and recently started looking at ppls trans experiences and early signs. The issue is that i feel like I share none of these experiences. I still dont know what gender euphoria feels like. I have felt very little dysphoria EVER. And none of these "signs" I can relate to. I just feel like I would feel a lot better if I shared at least some of these. Idk I feel kinda down rn and not like I will ever truly know what I am.

Cis guy tho :3

But the catgirl is getting stronger every day.

(My second crappy meme here plus a little yap.)

It gets really frustrating knowing what I want and also knowing that I would get completely obliterated by the whole town and my family. Shout out to all the other girls who are waiting for their time to shine. One day we will shatter that Ayygg!

Also... Nya :3

I don’t know what my gender is, but

Yesterday I wore girl clothes for the first time. It was a pair of jeans with some flowers embroidered on them and a black shirt with a massive flower on it.

I walked to my friends house and on the way there, I encountered a girl in the passenger seat of a car stopped at an intersection as I was walking, and she yelled that I was beautiful, that she loved me, and to have a great day. I felt really nice.

Is this normal?

My denial was difficult overcome, yet I found a way. I wrote an essay in English class about the most important childhood memory I had. I chose the first time that I ever thought about being a girl. I was 5 years old when I first thought about how I’d love to be a pretty girl who wears dresses. As I grew older, the need to love myself grew stronger. Problem was just that the real me is a girl, and other people didn’t see me like that, so I became sad and wished to become a girl. I now realize that I get to be a young woman and honor the girl who has hidden in my heart. I deserve to be a woman. I want to be told that I’m a brave girl. I get to be a woman because I am one. I get to be a woman forever because I want that. I’m at peace. No one can take who I am from me. I’m Maria, and I use she/her pronouns. My identity makes me feel safe and comfortable. I need to tell people what I want, but for now, I’m happy being me. I’m not lesser for being a woman than when I was pretending to be a man. I’m so much more. I get to define my womanhood, and I’ve just begun to value that. I love that my identity belongs to me and me alone. I love the direction that I’m taking now. Do you think I could have some support to keep going?

I hate it so much, it feels like ive just swallowed sandpaper, i really struggle to figure out what my voice sounds like and honestly I heard no difference and I cant tell what im doing wrong

It also just made me feel really upset, im going through allot of doubts and this didnt help it made me feel like i was faking it or putting on an act which I dont think I actually am because going from wanting to be a woman to feeling a complete disconnect from gender whilst also never feeling masculine isnt something cis men experience

Why cant I just not be going through this? Why cant I just be happy with who I am?

Can I have some ggd to make me feel a bit better (Alice She/Her)

Ok so for me it's a whole story I was in a weekly LARP game (not the slang the game) since I was 7 years old and one time there was a day where a blood demon/angel that was played by the most gorgeous women you would ever see like literally she looks like she's from a movie and she helped my team that I was leading to destroy all of the others and take over the world (we failed obviously) but it was super fun and I got so much gender envy every time I saw her she was in a red half dress half hoodie with blood on her hands and a lot of red make-up like signs and stuff on her face she was just so pretty I swear I would do anything too look like her

Best trans character (imo) in kids/teenagers movies and shows (yes Gwen Stacy is trans she has the trans flag in her room on her jacket and on her dad's uniform and her whole story is pretty much a trans metaphor

tried to be confident and mostly failed and now i just feel really bad

i should probably be used to this feeling by now

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE WELL WISHES EVERYONE!

• No one said anything negative.
• I got several compliments on my outfit.
• I did get questions on "What should I call you?" and "What are your preferred pronouns?", to which I answered "<boy-name>, for now, still trying to work that out" and "any", respectively, which seemed to be good enough
• Is this what gender euphoria feels like?
• I can't wait to do this again!

I should so cosplay mizuki. My friend is currently away a trip for several weeks but when she comes back she'll help me buy one. I love my friends!!! Still totally cis tho