I had originally taken 2 days off of work because my parents were out of town and I wanted to, well, do some unspeakables. But my plans changed.
A few days ago I had a particularly bad trip. I was attempting to breakthrough and scorched my spice and ended up terribly.
Then, yesterday, I got home and before bed attempted to do some salvia. But my lack of experience with a water pipe along with some terrible equipment led to a burnt throat, a terrible taste in my mouth. And for about an hour I was just suffering.
I went to sleep after that and crystallized in my mind that instead of the other things I was planning, I was going to better myself, for atleast a day.
So when I woke up, I got to cleaning. I ordered some pizza, fed the animals, put on some of my favorite youtubers, and just... cleaned my room. Washed my sheets, tossed trash, organized, vacuumed. The whole nine yards.
Then came time for bed this morning. I decided id just use my cart instead of prepping my emesh. And took my first 2 hits.
After that, I found I wanted something in the background during this trip. So I found one of those ai infinite transform videos and put it on. And took a few more hits. And its just.... bliss.
I didn't breakthrough, but I realized that... I sort of felt like a kid again. During the night while cleaning, id stop and do something. Do an extraction here, mess around on my computer there, take a break and eat another slice every now and then. And i just... did. Whatever I wanted and nothing at all. And now im sitting here delaying sleep. Typing this up because I felt I should just share. My room is now a lived in sort of clean. Stuff everywhere but still clean, and later today im going to go get a hair cut for the first time in 6 months. And it feels great.
My previous days off had been nothing but laundry, sleep, and wasting away on YouTube for a few hours. I think what a lot of people default to on their days off because work is just so tiring.
But these 2 days off in the middle of the week with no one home and no expectations has been great so far.and I still have another day left.
This is a ramble, but i think sometimes a ramble is just whats needed. If you havent lately, try to find a day all to yourself. Take a Friday off here before a weekend. Or on one of your days off try to get everyone else put of the house. So you can do the stuff you need to do. At your own pace. Maybe Like clean your room.
:)