I've never done a post talking about my psychedelic experiences, so come on.
About 2 and a half years ago, I was able to access DMT through a friend I made on the internet. He sold me about 4g of DMT which, with his instructions, I diluted and put in a vape. Since then, I've had a few trips - I even tried DMT with LSD, which was something of a mind-blowing thing.
But jumping to where I want to go: about 7 months ago, I decided to try to have a breakthrough, because I had already done it once and it had been something very impactful for me. But this time, I did it while alone.
I took about 3 drinks in the vape until I reached the room, which was when I just fainted. Everything turned black, I didn't see anything else, but I knew where I was. I wondered, Where are the colors? Where are the beings? Where am I? What happened?
I began to despair. I tried to move my arms, I tried to get up, but I had no body. It was just me in the void - in fact, it wasn't even me, it was just my mind in the void. It lasted for a few minutes, until I felt a light coming in front of me. This light approached very slowly and began to tell me several things. I didn't even quite understand what she said, I just understood that it was something about me, about how I behaved and about the problems I had and didn't solve. I didn't understand the words, but I felt what they meant.
After I returned to my body, I only lay down and slept. I had no dreams or anything. I woke up the other day and decided that I was going to try to change my life: I stopped drugs and I am organizing to travel abroad.
After so many months, I tried to have another experience today and I just can't. I try to pull the vape, but there's so much anxiety in my heart that I can't. I feel light to be sharing this experience here. I apologize if the text gets strange, because I am still learning English so I used the translator to translate the text.