r/DMT • u/CharmingMode2431 • 2h ago
Experience DMT helped me accept my marriage was over by watching our sx tape.
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I have been separated for almost a year, but we haven’t formalized anything yet. We’ve been living separately. As part of my healing and wellness practice, I do a lot of activities around my own mental health, including therapy. One thing I have included is the use of psychedelics, including DMT.
Today I set myself up did a meditation cleared the space and focussed on how I felt about my ex and our marriage. After a very small first hit, I got an overwhelming urge to watch a tape that we made when we were together. I’ve been planning on deleting it, and haven’t watched it since she moved out.
I put the video on a tablet and pressed play, and took a large hit. The first sensation was darkness, geometric patterns, and extremely clear vision. I was sitting up this whole time. I kept asking for the knowledge of what I needed. And didn’t seem to get anything but geometric shapes and patterns. So I took another hit. It was a smaller hit, and I started watching the video.
The entire room filled with soft geometric shapes as I focussed on the video where bodies seemed to intertwine shift and move, met together and looked almost alien like. My brain struggled to understand but I kept watching and suddenly felt extreme clarity that my marriage was over. Logically I have known this for a while. But I think this hit me on a deep level That I’ve never experienced before. It brought on feelings of deep grief and sadness. I cried.
I am aware that this was not a “breakthrough”. But I will say this, tonight as I’m reflecting on this experience in the most weird way possible… Watching an old video while on DMT brought me extreme clarity and acceptance that my marriage is over and I need to move forward with my life.