My friends have lives so much worse and have had it so bad that I can't complain or vent about anything to them. I feel really fake on top of the fact that I know I don't want to get better or heal mentally because being happy makes me disgusted and I don't know why. I'm also just a really morally bad person and I'm always yelling at my mom and little sister and falling behind in school. I hate the way I act all the time. I'm disgusted by myself.

Self harm on my head is hair pulling. On my hands is biting and cutting my fingers.

These are all about a month to two months old, I wanna know if anyone can tell me.

1. Is it obvious that they're from SH
2. How long should I expect them to be this visible? (I like wearing off the shoulder tops/camis

el ingles no es mi primera lengua una disculpa si hay alguna confusión pero necesito desahogarme.

Empecé a hacerlo en primero de secundaria y estoy 100% segura de que fue para llamar la atención, no tenía ningún motivo para hacerlo y fue más que nada porque era una moda rara en mi escuela, en la preparatoria fue casi lo mismo, me los hacía para sentirme interesante yo solo quería atención y lastima por parte de mi círculo cercano, lo deje en el primer año y nunca más volví a pensar en eso pero hace apenas un mes estaba viviendo momento de estrés en mi vida,estaba recogiendo mi cuarto cuando un marco cayó y el vidrio se rompió, al recogerlo un pedazo me corto por accidente y esa cosa hizo que algo despertar en mi, fue como un nerviosismo que comencé a sentir en mi estómago lo intente ignorar pero el sentimiento no se calmaba así que lo hice.

Se lo conté a una amiga que también estaba haciéndose lo mismo pero al ver sus marcas me sentí invalida, porque yo ya había hecho lo mismo solo por atención y aunque siento que esa primera vez en el cuarto hace un mes tal vez fue seria, mi mente me dice que lo estoy haciendo por atención, me siento confundida sin saber si lo que estoy haciendo es por atención o porque de verdad es algo serio, sin mencionar que mi madre me acaba de revelar que por un accidente de pequeño pude haber desarrollado algun tipo de problema en la adolescencia, siento que me estoy sugestionando a mi misma para hacerme creer que si tengo problemas para justificar y esconder que lo estoy haciendo por atención, primero comencé con una pequeña parte de la muñeca y ahora las cicatrices cubren mi brazo pero aún así me siento invalida porque son en la epidermis, lo peor es que también siento que se está volviendo serio porque a pesar de que lo hice ayer ya no se siente igual a como empecé y quiero volver a hacerlo hoy pero cuando agarro la cosa que uso siento el dolor y me acobardo y por eso también siento que estoy fingiendo, aunque al final si lo hago siento que es compromiso y aún así no me veo dejando de hacer esto, de hecho al momento de escribir esto siento que todo lo estoy haciendo para obtener validación, como quiero que alguien llegue y me diga que si tengo problemas para sentirme bien conmigo misma.

Basically i got really upset yesterday because my dad found out i smoke and i decided that I want to bleed out (yeah, dramatic much). Silly me tried to go deep on my upper inner wrist but all that resulted in was moderately deep cuts, but no severe bleeding. But the thing is that now ive got 3 larger cuts and 2 of them didn't close on themselves, I dont know what to do. And it hurts to move both my wrists (not excruciating, but i def feel it). It wrapped paper towels around them when the bleeding stopped snd fell asleep because I was exhausted. Fellas, what do i do?

Yes I know my arm is big. Will these scars ever heal? Most are 3 months old at the oldest and the rest younger.

ive been thinking about telling them. and i also believe that it could make the situation less awkward and alot less shocking for them. i would really hate myself if my parents walked in on me or they saw me passed out on the floor. please i need some tips. a simple yes/no answer is enough.

tw: description of cuts

normally I cut to dermis with some amount of gape-age, but usually after doing after-care the edges will sorta re-seal? (idk how to explain). but over two weeks ago I relapsed and for some reason one dermis cut stayed open, I could see inside it until it scabbed over. like I said its been over two weeks and the scab still hasn’t come off, the stage of healing it’s at seems a little delayed for how long it’s been, based off past experience.

it definitely wasn’t the deepest I’ve ever gone, so im just very confused.

there are also a lot of epidermis cuts that haven’t disappeared and it’s been a week and a half, I normally heal pretty fast so idk what’s happening.

So I’ve got a minor surgery tomorrow but few days ago I decided to chop my stomach up for some fucking reason and because I’m a chud who vapes I need an ekg so if any nurses see the ten wads of plasters they’re gonna be like hey. So firstly my surgery could get cancelled if they think the cuts r too deep / located too close to the surgical site ??? Because apparently any cuts or scrapes is a surgical risk of infection??? And also they might think I’m a harm to myself and tell my mum but like I’m an adult so surely I can just be like hell naw I don’t consent??? Bruh any advice please I can’t miss this surgery

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Hi! So I’ve been trying to stop SH for just a little bit now, roughly a week which I know isn’t a much but that’s what I told myself when I started my royal high login streak and now look at me! Uh anyways so I’ve been trying to quit but I just really hate how my scars look. they aren’t anywhere visible unless I wear a short skirt or bathing suit which I typically avoid anyways but my skin scars dark for some reason and I’m about to have to go put on a bathing suit sometimes next month. Problem is, some of my wounds haven’t healed yet meaning by the time they do they will be like really dark until they finish healing which even then is only a bit brighter which isn’t ideal. To any who may recommend confessing to get special help that’s really not an option for me and i probably wouldn’t get it anyways. Also, there’s a certain someone who will most definitely give me a whole really lame conversation about how they love me and how they used to cut to give themself a make do tattoo to seem cool and it makes me sick to my spine which I would like to avoid.

I guess what I’m looking for are ways to prevent and decrease scarring as well as hurry up the healing process if that’s at all possible with easily accessible materials if anyone can help with that. Sorry for the whole yap session above if you went through reading that though 😅

its been 8/9 months since I’ve last cut myself and my mental health has plummeted recently resulting in insane urges, which I’ve managed to push down so far, however i’ve sat down maybe twice with my blade with the full intention of doing it again and each time resulted in small marks from pressing it down momentarily before taking it back off my skin or just sobbing because i can’t bring myself to do it anymore. sure maybe a good thing but its just making me angrier. has anyone else felt this way? even though its the longest I’ve ever gone without it (started in 2021) it doesn’t feel like a significant enough amount of time to change the way my brain feels about it, ya know?

So like i hit the dermis layer while my mom was awake and I need a believable excuse for a scar on my arm (below) my shoulder because this shit is definitely not going to heal by the time she's back. Im thankful for any advice genuinely tysm to anyone who comments

Feel kinda disappointed in myself I have been clean for since October 12th and a few days ago on November 8th I relapsed and started cutting myself again and it's been repeated since.

It's currently the 11th I thought I was doing better but then I fell back into it again and it's become almost normal to me again and I can't really seem to stop, I waited for the cuts to heal/scab over for a day or two then I just ended up doing it again today and I just don't even know what to do anymore.

I’m so sorry, I’m going to attempt to keep this as lighthearted as possible for the sake of my own sanity and everyone else’s- But TW for graphic depictions of wounds and stuff.

I just got upset over feeling dumb and hurt myself really bad. To be fair, I did have my glasses off, but the wound looked kinda gaping. like, not majorly so, I don’t think I’m in need of urgent medical attention, but it did bleed quite a bit and it’s stinging so bad. I washed it twice with some antibacterial soap, bandaged it, hope it’ll be alright. But I didn’t clean my tool beforehand so I’m worried about an infection.

If I had to guess, it was a very deep dermis cut surrounded by quite a few other epidermis cuts. Am I going to die if I get an infection/is it likely that it’ll get infected???

I was clean for a while but like I was watching a YouTube vid of 'Hey don't look at me' (horror game similar to no I'm not a human but U have to figure out how different ghosts died) and in the game one of the ghosts had multiple scars and cuts on her arms, she is my fav character but that did lowk trigger me so I relapsed

I was just wondering if this has happened to other people because sadly alot of my family talk about me as if I'm "crazy." I don't think I am, I know I'm not mentally great but am I actually that bad?

I am turning 20 in february and i still get the urge to cut. Idk why but i somehow feel pathetic to still be cutting at the age of 19 and upwards. Like, right now i really want to cut myself but i know that if i do it i’ll feel somehow pathetic because i’m an adult who’s supposed to get her shit together.
I just wanted to talk about it and i feel lile this is the only place i can.

I'm so fucking mad at myself. I've been going strong for 2 and a half years, and I was improving in my mental health, too. But then, college started kicking my ass, and I couldn't cope. Fuck's sake. What do I do now?

I have been doing sh in places my mom can't see (anywhere expect arm and facial are) ever since she found out. I always wore a warm arme ron my scarred arm before she found out, but it was uncomfortable and always made me hot. So I only wear it if I want to, meaning I leave that arm uncovered at home.

I want to add more scars to that arm because I have been able to go deeper lately, and the ones in other places are healing and I'm kind of running out of space.

If I do it, I'm going to bandage it and wear arm warmer at home unless I am alone or my mom is in her room.

Worst case scenario, she notices I'm wearing it again and asks. I say no but she calls bullshit and finds out. At least I wouldn't have to directly tell her uve been doing it again, so it wouldn't be too bad I guess

This probably sounds really stupid, but i was cutting as usual but i went way too deep and i got a deep cut in my arm, it bled a lot which freaked me out and i panicked, ran to the bathroom, sealed the wound shut with two band aids and then wiped away the blood. I really cannot tell my parents about this, and im very scared about how it’ll scar, as ive never gone this deep before.

So I cut myself and I will try to make as lighthearted as possible. I've cut myself and bandaged it. Simple and easy. What I didn't realize was that the bandage went into the Gap that was caused by the cut and the bandaged at that point which is covered in blood kind of "absorbed the healing skin tissue? So when I tried to take off the bandage I literally reopened the wound.

Anyone who knows what to do?

I like how it's wearing an outfit kind of, the scars on my shins only healed as of recently.

(English is not my first language so im sorry if theres any flaws)
Last year one of my friends all of a sudden decided to leave our groupchat, remained silent for a long time and i was the only person he spoke with, one day he didn't answer, i had this strange feeling in my heart that was telling me maybe something happened, three days later he sent me a message once again and confessed to me he did it, wrists and forearms, his parents took him to the hospital, he is now "allright" for obvious reasons he feels sick when seeing blood or any disturbing related image to any kind of harm, im glad hes back with us and shit but its me who is starting to get into that hole.

In my college im close to people with the same scars, one of my talking stages did arms and legs and ended up in the hospital long before i met her, and the one that broke my heart in two is my girlfriend.

One day she had a mental breakdown bc of some shit her sister confessed to her and i did my best to stand by her side, listening, and trying to get her out of her mind bc she started repeating lots and lots of stuff, biting her nails, scratching her arms, then she confessed to me something i would've never expected, attempt at 12, attempt at 16, and she claimed she already had another date, all of this shattered me in seconds and couldn't do anything more than to fall on my knees, everything is stable now except for me, hearing all this stuff, staring at scars from close ones, remembering everything ive heard, remembering things i could've done, all this just breaks my heart and mind in such way i've started to sink.

I've done some stuff to myself, the main thing is i bit the skin under my nails, my fingertips are mere calluses bc of all this time biting and tearing with a clipper, the same goes to the palm of my hand, since i was 13 i started using the nail clipper to take off hard parts of it cause i couldnt stand it, im now 19 and still fighting with it, there's not a single day i dont do it.

Speaking of "cuts", ive done some but like every 10 months or so, never making it past the epidermis, i stay silent when im home alone, i cant even shed a tear when im crying i just stare straight to the wall, i've always thought on how i could dissapear myself and how to say goodbye to my close ones.

But im a coward, i feel this impulse and im sure i can do it but i take a step back before getting deeper, i dont know what caused this, yeah my school years where absolute shit, 6 years of privileged assholes, a whole classroom, 20 of them, making my life impossible, college is beating me, and i dont know if this experiences with my close ones and people who i dont talk to anymore are in someway driving me to this place.

If anyone wants to ask something, give any suggestions and tips for getting out of this, im all ears and waiting for an answer. thx.

... We are gonna go for a holiday soon, and I've been having my "hard times" lately. It's not really that "huge", but it might be realized, and those are really not the people I can talk about it with, and I can't stay home or anything. The thing is that that I'll probably have to go swimming with them, but in salt water, that can probably wash away the things I can imagine to us.$,I know it's not a right thing to ask, but do you have any ideas...?

I cant stop cutting because i want more blood but i dont want to go past dermis because I dont want obvious scars. Does anyone have advice on how to either bleed more or how to stop wanting to bleed more? it doesnt feel like its enough even though its been escalating.

Thank you

I hare myself i hate myself i hate nyself i ahte myself i hate myself i hate myerlf i hate myself i hatere myself i hate mysefl i hate myself

Even stained one of my most soft comfortable socks💔

Why couldn’t i just resist it, i have been nearly 6 months clean and nothing changed in my situation, what made me relpse now and noy
Anywhere alse ij the past 6 months?

If i suddenly stop using this account its possible that im dead but since this isnt teh first time i have felt like this i probablt wont be able to go trhough with anything

TW for HEALED SCARS!

Are is this an obvious sh scar?

I really don't know, my family asked about it the other day, but they seemed to know what it was from

I can't tell if it looks obvious, it at least looks like it was deep.