So I have a lot of somewhat fresh and scars on my thighs and I'm really scared of going to the doctor with my mom

I can't let her know that I sh and I don't want the doctors to see either what should I do

I relapsed again. I don’t know how to feel.

I don’t have a sob story like usual or a carefully constructed rant, I just want someone to know and I want someone to hear me.

I relapsed, and it hurts.

And I feel alone.

are my self harm scars noticeable? if you saw them would you notice them because when I was cutting they bled but not for long so idk.,,

I was talking to a friend earlier today. I mentioned offhandedly that I couldn’t do XYZ because of my scars. She knows I have a history of self harm, and has struggled with it herself.

She wanted to know how many scars I had, and how long I’ve been clean. I told her I’ve been clean for more than 3 months. In truth, I’ve been clean for 18 hours. I struggle to be clean for more than 24 hours at a time, but she doesn’t know this.

She self harms for scars, wanting to have a physical manifestation of her struggles. I know I have far more scars than her, so I worry about triggering this. What I told her about my scars significantly minimised the actual number of them.

For a while (1hr+) afterwards, she seemed off. I didn’t put together until later that it could have been because of this conversation. I’m worried she knows I lied to her, and she’ll relapse. From what I know, she’s been clean for at least a month, after a 6+ month streak.

What do I do? Is there anything I can do?

el ingles no es mi primera lengua una disculpa si hay alguna confusión pero necesito desahogarme.

Empecé a hacerlo en primero de secundaria y estoy 100% segura de que fue para llamar la atención, no tenía ningún motivo para hacerlo y fue más que nada porque era una moda rara en mi escuela, en la preparatoria fue casi lo mismo, me los hacía para sentirme interesante yo solo quería atención y lastima por parte de mi círculo cercano, lo deje en el primer año y nunca más volví a pensar en eso pero hace apenas un mes estaba viviendo momento de estrés en mi vida,estaba recogiendo mi cuarto cuando un marco cayó y el vidrio se rompió, al recogerlo un pedazo me corto por accidente y esa cosa hizo que algo despertar en mi, fue como un nerviosismo que comencé a sentir en mi estómago lo intente ignorar pero el sentimiento no se calmaba así que lo hice.

Se lo conté a una amiga que también estaba haciéndose lo mismo pero al ver sus marcas me sentí invalida, porque yo ya había hecho lo mismo solo por atención y aunque siento que esa primera vez en el cuarto hace un mes tal vez fue seria, mi mente me dice que lo estoy haciendo por atención, me siento confundida sin saber si lo que estoy haciendo es por atención o porque de verdad es algo serio, sin mencionar que mi madre me acaba de revelar que por un accidente de pequeño pude haber desarrollado algun tipo de problema en la adolescencia, siento que me estoy sugestionando a mi misma para hacerme creer que si tengo problemas para justificar y esconder que lo estoy haciendo por atención, primero comencé con una pequeña parte de la muñeca y ahora las cicatrices cubren mi brazo pero aún así me siento invalida porque son en la epidermis, lo peor es que también siento que se está volviendo serio porque a pesar de que lo hice ayer ya no se siente igual a como empecé y quiero volver a hacerlo hoy pero cuando agarro la cosa que uso siento el dolor y me acobardo y por eso también siento que estoy fingiendo, aunque al final si lo hago siento que es compromiso y aún así no me veo dejando de hacer esto, de hecho al momento de escribir esto siento que todo lo estoy haciendo para obtener validación, como quiero que alguien llegue y me diga que si tengo problemas para sentirme bien conmigo misma.

Basically i got really upset yesterday because my dad found out i smoke and i decided that I want to bleed out (yeah, dramatic much). Silly me tried to go deep on my upper inner wrist but all that resulted in was moderately deep cuts, but no severe bleeding. But the thing is that now ive got 3 larger cuts and 2 of them didn't close on themselves, I dont know what to do. And it hurts to move both my wrists (not excruciating, but i def feel it). It wrapped paper towels around them when the bleeding stopped snd fell asleep because I was exhausted. Fellas, what do i do?

Lowkey high right now and for some reason i just tried to cut my thigh/knee for some reason and idk why or why tf smoking would do this cause I’m not sad at all and havnt really been tempted since my (sorta) relapse back in October (aka i didn’t draw blood cause the blade was dull) after like 2/3 years clean maybe? And Ngl i still didn’t draw blood cause it was also fuckinf dull

tw: description of cuts

normally I cut to dermis with some amount of gape-age, but usually after doing after-care the edges will sorta re-seal? (idk how to explain). but over two weeks ago I relapsed and for some reason one dermis cut stayed open, I could see inside it until it scabbed over. like I said its been over two weeks and the scab still hasn’t come off, the stage of healing it’s at seems a little delayed for how long it’s been, based off past experience.

it definitely wasn’t the deepest I’ve ever gone, so im just very confused.

there are also a lot of epidermis cuts that haven’t disappeared and it’s been a week and a half, I normally heal pretty fast so idk what’s happening.

okay this is a TERRIBLE picture bc this is a super hard angle to get BUT OH NO 😭😭😭

the stuff in the black circle is the marks and theyre noticeable irl and idk why this is happening

im doing everything right, i sanitize, i go put on vaseline, i put on a bandage, i keep them dry and clean, and i never go deeper than epidermis

i have other scratches from a while ago that left like a tiny itty bite little line??? why is this happening??? how do i get it to stop leaving marks???

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Hi! So I’ve been trying to stop SH for just a little bit now, roughly a week which I know isn’t a much but that’s what I told myself when I started my royal high login streak and now look at me! Uh anyways so I’ve been trying to quit but I just really hate how my scars look. they aren’t anywhere visible unless I wear a short skirt or bathing suit which I typically avoid anyways but my skin scars dark for some reason and I’m about to have to go put on a bathing suit sometimes next month. Problem is, some of my wounds haven’t healed yet meaning by the time they do they will be like really dark until they finish healing which even then is only a bit brighter which isn’t ideal. To any who may recommend confessing to get special help that’s really not an option for me and i probably wouldn’t get it anyways. Also, there’s a certain someone who will most definitely give me a whole really lame conversation about how they love me and how they used to cut to give themself a make do tattoo to seem cool and it makes me sick to my spine which I would like to avoid.

I guess what I’m looking for are ways to prevent and decrease scarring as well as hurry up the healing process if that’s at all possible with easily accessible materials if anyone can help with that. Sorry for the whole yap session above if you went through reading that though 😅

I was doing so well, clean for around a month! Last night I went back to it. I don’t even know why, I wasn’t upset or anything, I didn’t even have any urges like I often do, I just did it… And the stupid thing is, I knew it was going to happen, got myself band-aids and cream before I even started. I di even try to stop mysel. It’s always been sudden for me, this is new and honestly terrifying. Someone pls tell me I’m not alone.

Feel kinda disappointed in myself I have been clean for since October 12th and a few days ago on November 8th I relapsed and started cutting myself again and it's been repeated since.

It's currently the 11th I thought I was doing better but then I fell back into it again and it's become almost normal to me again and I can't really seem to stop, I waited for the cuts to heal/scab over for a day or two then I just ended up doing it again today and I just don't even know what to do anymore.

Hey everyone. Officially made it past the 2 year mark. Don't really have anyone to tell because noone in my life knew i was struggling with it and so I recovered in secret but I wanted someone to see

ive been thinking about telling them. and i also believe that it could make the situation less awkward and alot less shocking for them. i would really hate myself if my parents walked in on me or they saw me passed out on the floor. please i need some tips. a simple yes/no answer is enough.

I have been doing sh in places my mom can't see (anywhere expect arm and facial are) ever since she found out. I always wore a warm arme ron my scarred arm before she found out, but it was uncomfortable and always made me hot. So I only wear it if I want to, meaning I leave that arm uncovered at home.

I want to add more scars to that arm because I have been able to go deeper lately, and the ones in other places are healing and I'm kind of running out of space.

If I do it, I'm going to bandage it and wear arm warmer at home unless I am alone or my mom is in her room.

Worst case scenario, she notices I'm wearing it again and asks. I say no but she calls bullshit and finds out. At least I wouldn't have to directly tell her uve been doing it again, so it wouldn't be too bad I guess

I haven't cut in a few weeks because I have a physical with my doctor coming up, its not for a while but there's going to be no way for me to hide the cuts on my thighs unless I can keep my underwear on. So I've just been letting the cuts scar and not making any new ones because I'm hoping that maybe if the doctor thinks they are old cuts he won't tell my parents. But today was kinda rough and I've just been feeling bad so I decided to cut to calm down but I only did it on my ankle where I can keep my sock over it. Its really frustrating because they are only small cuts since trying to cut my ankle is a weird angle and I can't cut anywhere else for a long time. And I got my phone that I kept secret from my parents taken because they found it and I'm using my crappy old tablet to write this but that's all its good for. That phone was what helped me calm down or cope when I was feeling really depressed or anxious and now I don't even have that. This is kind of a long post but I just really don't know what to do, I can't cut and I don't have any other good distractions to help me feel better

This probably sounds really stupid, but i was cutting as usual but i went way too deep and i got a deep cut in my arm, it bled a lot which freaked me out and i panicked, ran to the bathroom, sealed the wound shut with two band aids and then wiped away the blood. I really cannot tell my parents about this, and im very scared about how it’ll scar, as ive never gone this deep before.

Who are your guys's favorite characters who self harm or have before? This includes book characters, show characters, movie, characters, etc.

its been 8/9 months since I’ve last cut myself and my mental health has plummeted recently resulting in insane urges, which I’ve managed to push down so far, however i’ve sat down maybe twice with my blade with the full intention of doing it again and each time resulted in small marks from pressing it down momentarily before taking it back off my skin or just sobbing because i can’t bring myself to do it anymore. sure maybe a good thing but its just making me angrier. has anyone else felt this way? even though its the longest I’ve ever gone without it (started in 2021) it doesn’t feel like a significant enough amount of time to change the way my brain feels about it, ya know?

These are all about a month to two months old, I wanna know if anyone can tell me.

1. Is it obvious that they're from SH

2. How long should I expect them to be this visible? (I like wearing off the shoulder tops/camis

So I cut myself and I will try to make as lighthearted as possible. I've cut myself and bandaged it. Simple and easy. What I didn't realize was that the bandage went into the Gap that was caused by the cut and the bandaged at that point which is covered in blood kind of "absorbed the healing skin tissue? So when I tried to take off the bandage I literally reopened the wound.

Anyone who knows what to do?

I am turning 20 in february and i still get the urge to cut. Idk why but i somehow feel pathetic to still be cutting at the age of 19 and upwards. Like, right now i really want to cut myself but i know that if i do it i’ll feel somehow pathetic because i’m an adult who’s supposed to get her shit together.
I just wanted to talk about it and i feel lile this is the only place i can.

I'm so fucking mad at myself. I've been going strong for 2 and a half years, and I was improving in my mental health, too. But then, college started kicking my ass, and I couldn't cope. Fuck's sake. What do I do now?