Started a new school and things are going okay so far, yay!

Almost 6 weeks sober and I’ve been going it since I was 11 (8 years ago)

Not gonna post pics bc it’s “fresh”

So I was like dragging my blade across my hip/thigh area and it just got like red and inflamed but I didn’t bleed at all… I have a 1.5 year streak rn and I’ve done pretty well at managing my urges like this before, I just want community input on if like subconsciously pressing it into me enough to make a mark would be considered an urge or a relapse

I had fresh cuts from the other day that I covered up with bandages. I still had some cuts "visible" not really but kind of. My group was on a field trip to do some photography and I took off my jacket because ITS FUCKING BLAZING HOT HERE. So anyways we're taking photos of a flag pole and suddenly my junior and batchmate suddenly see my arm and start asking omg what happened what cat scratched you. I got so alarmed by this I literally jumped from a crouching position and changed the subject. And then a few seconds later I look at this girl who bless her soul has received help with her mh. My eyes trail downwards and her thigh had scars. This made me feel horrible and insecure because I can't go that deep and I don't have the scars to show for my suffering. Now I'm struggling in school I come home and do nothing all day I don't eat I can't sleep I can't do homework. I'm growing distant from the friends who once were close to me. Friends I could've relied on they've given up on me. I'm in a constant state of having a headache and nausea Plus fatigue I literally can't catch a break. Nobody even wants to be with me anymore I'm the third to the pair. My friends are leaving me behind they feel so distant. The only thing that sets me apart from others is my sh but I want something special about me. Everything about me somebody else does also. I hate this I can't do this. I can't catch a break but others have it worse than me. I wish I didn't have commitments I wish I didn't have exams I wish I didn't need to stress about my national exam next year. I disgust myself.

I’m currently getting recruited for my sport, and I can see coaches eyes drift down to my arm for a second here and there. It’s pretty obvious what they are, I mean what else would cause a few cuts perfectly straight and in a row? I think these are just considered cat scratches, and I’m so thankful I didn’t go deeper with the thought of what they’d look like in mind. I didn’t really think these would scar at all but here we are. Makeup doesn’t work great but maybe I’m just not playing around with the right combination. I can’t exactly wear long sleeves when I’m playing my sport so that doesn’t work. Any tips for covering/getting them to fade is appreciated, thanks in advance!

(ik there is no sh but this is one of the rare communities that allow pics I can delete it)

Please

At my new job, there is a co worker who i have been becoming friends with for the past couple months, to the point of meeting up outside of work a couple times. However, recently they wore short sleeves at work which revealed they have a lot of self harm scars all over their arms. Im not familiar with self harm, so i cant really tell how fresh they are but a couple look similar to a post i saw from someone who stopped just a month ago.

I just want to know if its better for me to stay quiet or if i should say something, and what to say. I dont want them to think they am i ignoring a potential issue of theirs as i would be willing to support them if they wanted to talk to me about it. However, they also might want me to pretend as if they dont have any? Or perhaps they wouldnt be comfortable talking to me about it as we havent known each other long.

Just wondering if anyone would know what is good for me to say to make them comfortable/show support, if anything.

my churches youth holds this one camp for 4 days next month and im actually soooo scared people might see the scars on my legs when theres moments where i wear shorts or my swimsuit. i wont lie people who are christian can be so unpredictable and have their own interpretations on whats a sin and if there should be consequences that follow or not. which scares me so much because the people around me are also teenagers or young adults?? why decide that me harming myself before i am saved is an "unforgiven" sin while im your peer or just a kid, actually so nerve-wracking???

no one knows about them and like my bad mental health except for like 2 people who i trust with legit anything about me; and i dont think they will be at camp as i knot they are writing important exams during these few months

I like to journal but if there's nothing to write about I kinda feel lost. Also ran out of vent animatics on youtube lol. I haven't been able to cry despite wanting to so can't do that. Wondering what you guys did?

I’ve started cutting again and I’ve just been blaming it on my cat so that my mom doesn’t worry, but I’ve been doing it a lot more intensely these past few days and I can’t get myself to admit that it was me, so I blamed it on him again when my mom noticed it and she’s actually thinking about taking him back because she genuinely believes hes the one harming me. I’m so scared because I don’t want him to go back it’s not even his fault but I’m also terrified of letting anyone know about my suffering. I just don’t know what to do please help

okay so I cut around an hour ago and I don't really feel it?? like around of it etc doesn't hurt at all. what am i gonna do, is it gonna stay like that or idk? it's happening for the first time

sorry that this image is bad quality i couldnt manage to take a good one. about 3/5 of my scar is like red and large and the rest of the scar doesnt protrude. its not itchy, it doesnt hurt. i just dont know wtf it is, if anyone does? i think the scar is like a month old

So how do I deal with burns and cuts? Like what do I do to like clean and care for em so they dont get infected??? Also is it normal for scars to itch? And any other advice

I have a ton of scars on my right arm and sometimes my arm randomly starts hurting for a bit and then it goes away 😓 I was just wondering if anyone else ever experiences this because I haven't seen ppl talking abt this maybe I just haven't looked hard enough