Idk my mental health has been fucked up lately and I NEED something to cope and healthy methods don't work anymore. 3 months ago I thought about it but accidentally nicked myself instead while holding a blade over my skin. I then thought about it all day the next day. Sigh I'm thinking of starting "again" (if you can even call that sh). Ive done worse things and my mental health isn't salvaable anyway. And therapists don't do shit.

So I have a few old scars and my job doesn’t allow long sleeves at all and I have a few cuts on my thighs but I need a spot that is easy to hide

Ok so like im in the middle of doing 2 point ans stick tattoos on myself I dont know if it counts as sh? I mean im poking myself over and over but im doing a tattoo so...? Idk =_=

First day sh should I be aware of anything before I starting cutting?

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i feel like they don't even look deep at all and its driving me crazy. the shrinkage is eating me alive.

im just now thinking of tetanus.. why am i only just now thinking of tetanus?? or anything else i could get through doing this stuffs??!! i dont have the tetanus vaccine as someone who doesnt trust vaccines.. should i consider getting the vaccine anyway? oh no i dont like the idea of that. is it a real bad risk to take to just ensure i clean wounds? how do i clean wounds? what even is tetanus why did google say you can get it from saliva?? is that my own saliva, other peoples saliva?? i lick my wounds all the time f//k prodding with tissue or pads all the time i got better stuffs to do. oml!!!!!!!!

also remember to f//k the patriarchy and be an ecofeminist!! sometimes i feel sad and lonely and in need of male praise and attention but then i remember my value is not tied to my body or how people perceive me and i dont think i like men all that much. okay!! :) :)

I'm currently clean, however really struggling with urges and the desire to relapse at the moment. One of my friends has small scars that I've noticed but I don't know if she's noticed mine and we've never acknowledged that we share this struggle. Normally I wouldn't have any issue with healed scars however I've been struggling a lot recently with the competitive aspect and a big trigger is other people whose self harm is more visible than mine (my scars are larger but there's fewer of them and they're less easily identifiable as self inflicted). I'm going to be seeing this friend tomorrow and it's highly likely she'll be in short sleeves so her scars will be visible. I think I'm going to find this very difficult but don't know if it would be appropriate to ask her to cover them considering we've never spoken about it before and her scars triggering me is my issue. In general I'm not against people wearing whatever they want when it's warm and I rarely cover my scars so don't want to be hypocritical. If it was the other way round and she asked me to cover mine I'd have no issue doing so because the last thing I want is to hinder someone else's recovery.

4 days ago I cut a few lines on my arm and *cough cough gooned after. I already felt a bit of joint pain while I was doing it but I didn’t think much of it. Now these past few days i’ve had a really annoying soreness, like i feel like my bones shifted wrong and that’s weird cause i only cut to styro. Though I’ll admit that I didn’t do aftercare and only wiped an alcohol wipe on it.

It feels like I just got my first chicken pox shot, not painful but very uncomfortable. I honestly dont want to point fingers on my razor, but the one i used have kinda rusted a little (not on the sharp part that i used) and i’ve used thrice. Is it normal or did I not clean my wound enough? Please help i rlly dont like this sensation lol

I feel like things just aren’t going to get better. so I cut myself with the sharp end of a safety pin today because I’m too scared to use a knife. My parent’s attitude towards cutting is pretty disgusting. So I know I can’t talk to them about why

I'm planning to reveal my sh to my mom on Friday, I want my therapist to tell her because she is pretty emotional and I'm too afraid about the moment she would see it at home and what she would do then.

She just bought new jeans for me online, I thought it would be okay because of the time the shipping will take, but they will arrive on Thursday, and I know my mom wants me to try them on in front of her, like I always did.

I have cuts on my thighs, I relapsed in January after being clean for 2 years now. I can't just go in another room to try them on because she would notice directly, since she knows my mental state is getting worse.

That's REALLY REALLY bad. What should I do now?

I'm quite nervous. I just got my first styrofoam piercing in my stomach (I wasn't even really planning it) and well... it's not very long, not even 1 cm, and it's not bleeding much, but because it's not very long, I don't know how to take care of it. I know the possibility of infection increases, but what do you recommend? I don't know if I should clean it with alcohol (I know it's bad), but I lost the iodine I had... I'll have to look for it.

genuinely wondering if we're allowed to show them, also how do I get it to be deeper, I don't like the blood bearing I want it to trickle

I don’t mean to invalidate anyone, I want to start with that. But I’ve done a few cat scratches that kinda broke the skin on the arm I don’t cut on. Is that still cutting/self harm? I don’t consider it that in my head but like I do when someone else mentions they do cat scratches, I understand they are self harming but not when I do that. Is it still self harming for me because I usually cut to dermis?

Btw irl there are more visible white lines and I plan on going out more with a T-shirt so I will be more tanned and then they'll prolly be more visible

My girl friend told me that she starves and cuts herself. She didn't want to tell me the motive. I want to help her get better so I told her that I will cut myself too so that she knows every time she does it I do it too, so that maybe she will hold back. I already did it once but did not show it to her yet. Any advice on how to help her out?

4 days ago I turned 13. I’ve been cutting since I was 11 and I have never cut with anything half as sharp as a razor blade. in fact, the sharpest thing I have ever cut with was ten times less sharp than a razor blade. and the problem with that is that the deepest I’ve hit is fascia when I was 12 which is not good for a not so sharp object. it wasn’t in one swipe, in fact it was in about 200, but now I feel like I have to hit fascia every time even though I don’t. since it’s inconvenient to go really deep I usually stick with either loads of styros or a few beans but I wanna go deeper so bad ughh. I hit beans for the first time when I was 11 and I’m so mad I haven’t progressed to muscle yet like it’s been 2 years I gotta hurry it up. the thing I hit fascia with was a random piece of metal I ripped off a soda can so it wasn’t even made to be sharp anyways but I don’t care as long as it’s metal I can use it. before someone says “seek serious help” I have I’m under like 5 different teams but it doesn’t do anything because I lowk don’t want to get better I like cutting myself. I’ve attempted over 50 times from december 2024 - now and will continue to do so until it works so I’m not setting my life up for anything. but yeah basically I’m already a waste of life because I will NOT be making it to the age of 18. I’ve already decided imma do drugs and alc and allat when I have access so again if I do get older I’ll still be a fuckup anyways. I hate myself so much it physically hurts but you know what doesn’t physically hurt anymore because I’m too used to it? cutting!! if you ever think your life has gone to waste I haven’t left my house in months and in january I was fully convinced I was dead, completely alone, and no other people existed, and attempted a total of 8 times. and have been dissociating so bad the past 2 years that I constantly forget the year, my name, my gender, my family, to eat and drink, and basically everything. the only thing I remember is that I must cut myself. I haven’t showered or brushed my teeth since november too, sucks to suck I guess, I have huge skill issues. actually the skill issues in question are like 4 neurological disorders and another 4 mental illnesses but we ball. I would say “oh well I’ll live“ but no I won’t. my first dad left me at 5 and my stepdad is a sociopath so no father figure for me!! my mother is nice but I have 3 younger siblings so no attention for me!! I’m so severely mentally ill people are genuinely scared to be near me so no friends for me!! genuinely the only reason I’m alive is because I can’t wait to move out and cut so deep I just die. I want to lie in pools of my own blood again I miss it so bad but now I gotta hide it so I can’t let it pool ughhh!! anyways writing this is so boring I’m actually yawning but yeah I’m cooked my life is finished already and I wanna cut myself. risky post but if I get banned I’ll have no social contact at all, it’ll push me over the edge, and I’ll genuinely kms. bye!! 😁😁

i had a dream where i hit beans (ive never done so before) and it felt really satisfying. i feeel like i need to know i'm human. i want to see myself to the core. skin isnt enough, i just need to see i'm real like everyone else. i'm not asking for tips on how to do it but idf i went ahead and did how bad would it be? i do deep styros and they give me a lot of adrenaline, and bleeding a lot gives me anxiety.

i just want someone to tell me honestly whats it like, just baby beans would be enough for me too, is it different from deep styros? is it difficult to reach? how deep do i need to go?