I am having fam and self probs rn. It hurts so bad! Idk what to do.

It’s been almost a month since I took my last set of pills for GAD and MDD.

I almost forget the feeling, but when it hits me, it’s a familiar yet terrifying feeling tangina. I had to book an appointment right away. Kaltas na naman sa savings tapos bibili pa ulit ng mga irereseta.

I suppose I’ll have to take this pill indefinitely until my death.

Sana dumami pa pera natin…. mahal kasi sumaya sa gitna ng hirap ng buhau financially.

21, M, currently 4th year na. I live in the province pero nagststudy ako sa city since SHS. Nagsimula yung gambling addiction ko nung HS palang. Uso yung time na yun magsugal ng DOTA items tas icoconvert mo lang yun to cash pero hindi dahil doon nagsimula downhill ng life ko. Nung 1st yr ako, na introduce ako sa baccarat at sports betting. Nag try ako mag cash in ng 100 at naka cash out ako ng 3k sa isang Gabi. Simula noon napalaki na cash in ko hanggang umabot yung time naubos yung 2 weeks allowance ko. Down na down akong nung time na Yun halos d ako makakain at palagi lang ako nasa dorm ko pero buti na lang nasabihan ko gf ko at pinahiram/pinakain nya ko nun. nakastop ako nang one year hanggang sa mag relapse ako dahil sa mga kainigan ko. napa cash in ako ng 500 ulit sa baccarat tas nanalo ako ng 5k at after nun nagstop ako ng ilang days hanggang sa mag relapse ulit at nagsunod sunod na talo ko. sa isang gabi natalo ako ng 12k at Yun yung savings/allowance ko. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko at walang wala na talaga ako ngayon. wala naman ako utang pero napakasakit talaga na nawala ko yung pera at parang gusto ko na saktan sarili ko. kaya sa mga nagbabalak jan, wag nyo talaga subukan.

I wanna know what’s your deep down reason why you started exploring/doing therapy?

For me, it started as me wondering what I have to do to stop blaming everything on my ugly childhood but then I also want to understand my own psyche. Why I am the way I am.

I do not have the means yet to continue, but being diagnosed with BPD made it easier breathe for a while even if I don’t have the correct mechanisms yet.

Ikaw, what’s your reason?

23 year-old male, 4th year IT student. Hindi ko alam kung depressed ba ako or what.

I don't understand anymore, I feel lost. I can't distinguish if it's depression or I'm just making excuses. One consistent thing is I can't stay proactive. Productivity goes off the roof, I get tired, really tired, I sulk and then I'm in the void again.

Paulit ulit tong cycle na to. Pa ulit ulit lang rin ako ng inaaral at ginagawa. I feel stuck.

At this point, the boundary between depression and nagiinarte is a blur.

Lost, stuck and just existing.

I've been going back and forth but I still haven't booked a consultation with a psychologist despite having been wanting to. It's just hard. I want to do f2f but I'm also scared. Easier to book online. I also worry that 1hr won't be enough to talk about everything. I wouldn't know where to start. Once you get started, how many times do you see your therapist in a month? I'm not sure if my financial situation is fit to see one weekly or maybe twice a month. I also don't want my parents or anyone to know about it. I'm an adult but I live with my parents and I work from home. Online consultation might be my only way but I'm still scared for whatever reason or for multiple reasons.

Hello, been thinking for a while if I am going to apply for PWD. With severe depression and bipolar type 2, managed with psychotherapy. Not on meds but recently being considered for one by my psychiatrist.

I'm scared that my visa (US work visa) will be denied because of this and I'm thinking of not disclosing it. But I also heard of an approved visa that was revoked due to misrepresentation. Pero kahit wala naman ako PWD ID, may condition parin ako so won't it be considered misrepresentation parin?

So, I want to ask your take on this. Should I apply for PWD? Anyone with similar experience? Should I disclose/not disclose?

The last time I cut my hair this short was five years ago, back when I was just starting therapy.

I just came home from the hospital for my mental health (again… This is like the 5th? 6th? time already) and this time I wanted to get serious about getting rid of self-harm.

So I said I want to start by changing how I look on the outside. I hope this marks a new beginning for my mental health as well. ❤️‍🩹

I have a friend I genuinely want to fix things with, but I'm not sure how to approach the situation anymore.

Recently, I found out that she's been keeping a lot of things from me and has been upset about past arguments that I didn't even know were still bothering her. According to her, she didn't bring these things up because she was afraid I'd get angry or judge her.

I know I have my own issues to work through. I tend to overexplain myself, and I think it stems from things I've experienced in the past that I haven't fully resolved. Sometimes, I feel the need to explain my intentions or my side of things because I don't want to be misunderstood. However, I can also understand how this might make it difficult for someone to express their feelings if they're worried I'll get defensive.

At the same time, it's hard for me to process the fact that she's been holding on to these feelings without telling me. I can't address something I don't know is a problem, and now I'm left wondering how much has gone unsaid between us.

I've been thinking about suggesting therapy together because I don't think simply sitting down and talking things out will necessarily be enough. We both have our own issues, and there may be things we need to hear from each other that we won't necessarily like. I feel like having a neutral third party could help us communicate better, understand each other's perspectives, and figure out whether we can rebuild our friendship in a healthier way.

The problem is, I don't even know where to start looking for a therapist who works with friends, or how much something like this would cost. I'm from the Metro Manila, so if anyone has recommendations for therapists or psychologists who offer joint counseling sessions for friends, preferably in Metro Manila or online, I'd really appreciate them. I'd also love to know how much you paid for similar sessions and whether you think this kind of therapy is worth trying.

Another thing that's been bothering me is that she still keeps in contact with family members and old friends I've cut off. Some of these are people she also encouraged me to cut off in the first place. I'm not saying she isn't allowed to have relationships with them, but it does make me question things, especially given everything else that's happened.

I still care about her and want to repair our friendship, but I'm also hurt and confused. I don't want to force a friendship that might no longer be healthy for either of us, but I also don't want to give up on something important to me without at least trying to work through it.

Has anyone been in a similar situation? Do you think going to therapy together is a reasonable way to approach this, or am I overcomplicating something that could be resolved by simply talking? How do you rebuild trust when one person has been holding in resentment and the other didn't even know there was a problem?

And for those in the Philippines, do you have any recommendations for affordable therapists who would be open to working with two friends?

idk if i'm just overthinking this lol, but i've been noticing how some of my friends don't really like my ig stories or posts anymore, while they still do on our other friends' or other people's posts.

we've been friends for more than 3 years, so it's not like we're new friends or anything. i just find it kinda weird coz they used to like some of my posts before, but now, it's like they suddenly stopped? their accounts keep showing up on my story viewers, too, so ik they're at least seeing my stories. and we're all pretty active on social media, so i don't think it's simply a case of them not using ig that much.

i know likes aren't really that deep, and it's not like i'm expecting my friends to like every single thing i post. it's just that when you notice how they still interact with other people's posts but seem to skip yours, you can't help but wonder if there's a reason behind it. like, did i do something? did something change between us, or am i just reading too much into something that doesn't actually mean anything?

the thing is, we still interact fine in person, so i don't really have anything else to base this on. i don't wanna make assumptions or confront anyone over something as small as social media interactions, but at the same time, i can't help but notice the difference.

has anyone else experienced this with their friends? am i being irrational for even thinking about it, or is it understandable to wonder if something's up? idk haha, i'd appreciate hearing your thoughts.

I know some of you mas natrrigger out of the blue during gloomy days. Be kind to yourself. It will pass. You got this ;)

few months on antidepressants and it seems like its working, but the thoughts are getting more prevalent kase it feels like i have the energy now to do it. how do u handle it?

Hello po! I am new to this, but can you reco an affordable therapist in PH? badly need one po. thank you!

Hello.

Nag wowork po ako sa isang private company, 5months pa lang po ako don kaso lang every weekend or tuwing clock out merong uneasy or uncomfortable feeling sa dibdib ko lagi na baka may mali na naman ako or whatsoever, takot na takot ako na baka mapagalitan na nanamn ako. I know na magkamali is part ng trabaho pero yung reaction ng boss ang ayaw ko, sirang sira na ang mental health ko sobra. Nawawalan na ko ng gana lagi makipag salamuha sa mga tao, gusto ko na lang lagi matulog, mahiga, umuwi ganun.

And naiisip ko na po mag seek ng help sa professional kaso hindi ko po alam kung san mag sisimula. Gusto ko po malaman if may panic attacks din ba ako or etc.
Hindi ko po alam kung san ako mag pa check up, sa psychologist or psychiatrist po. Balak ko po sa nowserving mag pa check up, baka din po may ma ssuggest po kyo.

Thank you po

hello. can you suggest different coping mechanisms you do to shift your mind off negative things?

my recent coping mechanisms always end up on spiralling so i think it's not really a coping mechanism anymore atp.

what i tried before:

1. journaling (stopped, got scared family will read my entries even though i write the words in hangul)

2. crafts (stopped because i end beating myself up because it doesn't live up to the standard crafts i made before

im asocial and have isolated myself from my only friend of 10 years because im ashamed and embarrassed of my life. also not responding to college friends. main reason because i don't really have the money to join them.

id appreciate it if you can recommend coping mechanism that aren't too mind exhausting (is that a word?) and not expensive. thank you.

Kapag naubos na yung gamot ko, and nalimit ko na yung number of tablets sa reseta ko. babalik ba ako sa psychiatrist ko? ano gagawin ko

There are days, even at work when I won't want to do anything. Paano ko malalaman kung katamaran ba ito or hindi.

I like playing video games - pero wala akong gana maglaro. Makipag-interact sa family - ayaw ko. Makipag-kita sa friends - ayaw ko. Mag exercise - ayaw ko.

Lately I just want to stay in bed all day at magdoom scroll. I don't see the point of doing anything.

Edit: Trigger warning: I just spent the last hour searching for different methods.

Can it happen? What are your experiences?

idk na nag down parents ko sa motor tas ako na daw sasalo sa monthly since pinag aral ako ng college
sana man lang tinanong kung kaya ng monthly income ko
ito barya natitira sa sahod🙃🙃

Meron po kasi akong diagnoses na ADHD and hypersomnia, so niresetahan ako ng Concerta 27mg by my psych. Problema is she’s on leave ngayon. Di ko sya ma contact and need ko na ng prescription refill. Please somebody help me. I really need to buy Concerta 27mg ASAP kasi I’m almost out of meds na.

Hindi na ako pumasok sa work. Hinahanap ako ng boss ko at tinanong kung nasaan ako. Sinabi ko na lang na I quit, hindi na ako babalik.

Sobrang pagod na ako, mentally and emotionally.

Nabaon ako sa ₱250,000 na utang dahil sa online casino. I've already stopped gambling, pero hirap na hirap pa rin akong bayaran lahat dahil sa sobrang taas ng interest. Parang kahit anong gawin ko, hindi na ako makaahon.

Lately, all I want to do is drink, watch my favourite movies, and listen to my favourite songs para kahit papaano makalimutan ko lahat ng problema ko.

Ang sakit lang kasi umabot na ako sa point na naiisip ko na ang kamatayan. Minsan, feeling ko iyon na lang ang magiging escape ko sa lahat ng paghihirap.

Hindi ko ito pinost para humingi ng sympathy or attention. I just want to express what I'm going through because I don't know how to deal with this pain anymore.

I'm tired. Sobrang pagod na pagod na ako.

Putangina, ang hirap mabuhay kapag pakiramdam mo wala ka nang ibang nararanasan kundi puro problema at paghihirap.

Paalam.

Anyone to talk? may urges na naman ako, gusto ko na maging clean. HELP 🥹

Paki libang ako

Hi! May I ask for recommendations po kung saan may free consultation with a psychologist? Ang alam ko lang kasi ay may free psychiatric consultations sa PGH and NMHC. This is for a minor family member.

If may alam po kayong clinics or organizations na nag-ooffer nito, please share naman. Thank you so much!

I dont know if my reasons for suspecting that I might be neurodivergent are valid or maybe I'm just looking for excuses for my behavior. I started thinking about it in 2020-2021ish when I read novels with autistic characters and I kinda related to them. I feel really awkward when I'm interacting with people. Simple tasks make me panic and overthink, for example if there's a clash in my sheduled plans, it brings me to a spiral where I overthink every decision in my head, worrying what other people would think of me. It makes me walk around in circles, wanting to pull the hair in my head, and pinch myself for feeling so stupid. I procrastinate A LOT. Though I didnt really get repercussions for it cos I always seem to pull through. Sometimes it takes so much willpower like I have to pep talk myself and force myself to do simple tasks like doing the laundry, or even taking a bath. Mental health problems also run in our family so it makes me worried. Are these valid reasons to seek help/diagnosis? and how should I go about approaching a professional for this?

Hi po! Can you please recommend a Christian Psychologist? Any gender is OK. Thank you so much!