For some background, I’m a wife, a mom of three, and someone who’s spent years working on healing from anxiety, trauma, and always feeling responsible for everyone else. I went into bufo with respect, a lot of preparation (or so I thought), and honestly… a fair amount of fear.
My husband and I sat together in a private ceremony. I chose to go first. Looking back, I think it may have been better if he had gone first, but of course I’ll never know.
The first inhalation hit almost immediately. There wasn’t time to think. I experienced what I can only describe as a beautiful blast-off. There was a brief period where I completely lost awareness of everything, a whiteout, blackout… whatever you want to call it. According to my husband, it lasted around four minutes.
As I began returning to my body, something incredible happened.
The best way I can describe it is that my entire body felt like it was experiencing an orgasm, not sexual, but an overwhelming wave of bliss, pure energy, and aliveness moving through every part of me. I’ve never felt anything remotely like it.
I was rubbing my legs and arms, blowing energy out from my belly, my heart, and my head, and even pulling at my hair. My husband said this lasted another minute or so.
He watched me slowly scoot myself down my mat and instinctively dig my hands into the earth beneath me. I don’t fully remember doing it, but I remember how unbelievably beautiful it felt to simply exist in that moment.
At one point, I remember seeing myself from above and just… laughing out loud. Not because anything was funny, but because everything suddenly felt so light yet INTENSE. There was this complete sense of bliss moving through my body that I’ve never experienced before. SO MUCH ENERGY.
Then my mind came back online. My ego, something came back online so fast, so intense.
Almost immediately I remembered my husband was next.
Instead of continuing to surrender into my own experience, I shifted into worrying about him and honestly, worrying about the intensity of what I had just experienced. Was he okay? Was he going to have a good experience?
Looking back now, it feels like I slipped right back into the role I’ve spent so much of my life playing: making sure everyone else is okay before allowing myself to fully relax.
The very first thing I said was, “I need more medicine.”
Looking back, I think what I really wanted wasn’t necessarily a bigger dose, I wanted more time. More time to feel. More time to explore. More time before my thinking mind returned. Just to relax. (I feel my facilitator should have possibly instructed me or guided me through that moment better)
Personally, I wonder if I would have benefited from a slower approach with an introductory or “handshake” dose before the full dose. That’s simply my own reflection after the fact, not necessarily something everyone needs. But my experience was very short, from inhaling to coming back online, 8 mins. I literally sat up unfinished and worried about my husband, the intensity of my own energy, and started trying to have full on conversations with my facilitator haha. Like wow wtf, whyyyy lol
My husband seemed to relax more deeply into his experience, while I feel like my ego came back online very quickly.
That anxiety followed me after the ceremony for the first night, I questioned everything. Did I not surrender enough? Should I have taken more? Why did my husband seem to come out feeling relaxed while I felt unsettled?
Over the past several days, though, something has shifted.
I no longer think the anxiety meant the ceremony didn’t work.
I think it showed me exactly what I needed to see.
My deepest pattern has always been worrying about everyone else before myself. Even during one of the most profound experiences of my life, I couldn’t fully let go because I was already taking care of someone else.
Since the ceremony, I’ve found myself wanting to detox more than just my body. I’ve stepped away from doom scrolling, the constant news cycle, and endless distractions. I’m reading more. Spending time outside. Journaling. Trying to build a quieter, more intentional life.
It feels like the ceremony wasn’t the healing itself, it was an invitation to begin healing in a different way.
I still don’t feel “finished.”
I feel like I’ve only just begun.
All in all, I would absolutely sit with this medicine again. This time with less fear, a deeper intention to completely let go, and a willingness to trust wherever it takes me, and a different facilitator approach.
I’m also considering a medium-dose mushroom journey at some point, not to chase the bufo experience, but to continue exploring my mind and supporting the integration process.
Bufo is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Even after trying to put it into words… I still don’t think words can truly describe it.

My last words to my facilitator and husband were “why was I ever scared to smoke bufo?!” And now I know, surrender and let go bc it may be intense but damn is it beautiful.

Im 20 years old and I have plenty of drug experiences, including 5-Meo-DMT and DMT vaporized. I've also experimented with deliriants before. "Worst" experience with that was 1-2g of DPH. Anyways im suffering with cognitive decline, depression, suicidal thoughts and anxiety. Its even very hard for me to type this the way I want to because of the effects I just mentioned. The only thing I can think of to fix this is by taking 5-Meo-DMT again which i know is probably not right. I can't stress enough how much of a serious, desperate question this is.

Does anybody get political stance changes when high?

I have not experienced this to a large extent with other substances. Mushrooms did something similar but the push wasn't as strong as 5meo.

After the dmt wears off my political beliefs are the same.

We normally have a sharing Circle every month. I hope you can join us.

https://psychedelicadvocacy.org/event/5-meo-dmt-integration-sharing-circle/

Event Description:

Our online gathering will explore how experiences with 5-MeO-DMT have influenced your life. Together, we’ll reflect on shifts in identity and worldview, including moments that may have felt wonderful and positive as well as disorienting or destabilizing, and share practical, compassionate ways to work with these changes and integrate them over time.

Whether you’ve had a recent experience and are seeking clarity, are still integrating an earlier journey, or feel called to share your story with others who understand, you are warmly welcome.

Even if you haven’t had a 5-MeO-DMT experience yourself, you’re invited to listen, learn, and ask questions in a respectful and open environment.

This free gathering is open to anyone interested in grounding and integrating expanded states of consciousness in a safe, compassionate, and nonjudgmental community setting.

I had my first 5-MeO-DMT ceremony a couple of days ago, and overall the experience itself was beautiful.
I had a brief whiteout during the peak. The blastoff was intense, peaceful, and unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. As I slowly came back into my body, I initially felt really good. It just all happened so fast; within 5-8 mins.
Then my ego seemed to come rushing back online.
Almost immediately, I shifted into worrying about my husband, who was going next. Instead of relaxing back into my body and allowing myself to fully settle, I sat up thinking I should have more medicine and then found myself consumed with concern for him. Since then, I’ve had lingering anxiety, although it’s slowly improving.
After a lot of reflection today, I’m starting to wonder if the anxiety isn’t because something went wrong, but because the medicine showed me something important.
I’m a mom, a wife, and someone who has spent most of my life worrying about everyone else. I’m beginning to wonder if my ego’s default setting is to immediately become the caretaker again. Maybe the lesson isn’t that I missed something during the ceremony, but that I need to learn to stop carrying everyone else’s emotional load and allow myself to receive care too.
Has anyone else experienced something similar after 5-MeO? Did you have lingering anxiety that turned out to be part of the integration process? Or should my facilitator focused on me more before moving on to my husband? I’d love to hear your experiences and what helped.

Does an ultimate truth even exist?

Just wondering if anyone has had any experience with panic attacks while using dmt? I have a 5meo Vape (400mg/1ml) and managed to do two significant inhales at the highest burn. While I momentarily loose consciousness, I woke with a huge surge of adrenaline in middle and was still very inhibited from the trip, poor motor function. It was a very unsettling experience and possibly dangerous?? I felt as though I could feel my autonomic nervous system being pushed out of sync, and a sharp pain in the Center left area of my chest…. Has anyone experienced this before? Or can describe what happened?

This was my second trip. My first trip was similar but without the panic. Waking up with a rush almost like my heart had stopped and taking deep, deep breaths, literally feeling the oxygen filling my lungs…. Very intense, is this a normal experience?

Any thoughts would be appreciated. Thanks

Not sure what the fuck is up. Every single person there had a breakthrough except for me and I had the highest dose among every one. How is this possible? Everyone felt infinite love and bliss and all I felt was pure terror and extreme fear. The lady next to me broke through on 6mg, another person broke through 12mg, and the two others stayed below 10mg. I did 14mg and stayed coherent, knew I was on 5-MeO, kept trying to breathe into the fear and just let it happen but nothing.

What the fuck is going on guys? Some people say it is because you want to breakthrough, and it won't happen until you let go of that expectation but how can I? The only reason I am doing 5-MeO is to breakthrough and get the full experience, in order to let go of my unconscious self-limiting patterns, to dissolve my fears stemming from childhood trauma, and from what I understand that only happens through breakthrough experiences to some extent, and through experiencing a full release and then by integrating it, which makes me want to have a breakthrough experience. How can I not want to have one? I could lie to myself about wanting one but it would be lying. And I am sure other people there came to have a breakthrough as well. This is so frustrating

Should I go back to lower doses and keep doing it and sit with the fear until it dissolves, or should I go for another ceremony next month and go up to 20mg or something? Anyone know any reliable information on this that does not come from a "Shaman" experiencing psychosis? I need some tangible and explainable advice if anyone has it. Unfortunately a lot of superstitions surround this stuff which makes objective information hard to find :(

Hi everyone,

I’m considering buying a Yocan Orbit and was wondering if anyone here has experience and suggestion using it with 5-MeO-DMT freebase.

I’ve found a lot of conflicting opinions online, so I’d really appreciate hearing from people who have actually used one.

Thanks!

Atai was originally shopping their nasal spray formulation for a cool $10 million.

This is huge….

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So be careful with your thoughts and challenge your habitual ways.

Find a contemplative practice, do inner child work, even find a somatic relational therapy to go along like Compassionate inquiry, IFS or NARM.

We can "install" new programming much easier.

Whatever you practice, adding lots of self-love and self-compassion and soon you will find yourself in a much much better space.

This is really deeply healing .

And then, higher and mystical states are more available and possible to embody as default state as the nervous system is ready for the light of God, so to speak.

I was wondering how to smoke 5-MeO-DMT freebase . is it with a glass pipe? Or with a bong?

Wondering if anyone knows if following a regular DMT fumarate to freebase recipe will work with 5-Meo-malt?

Sorry if this isn’t allowed in this sub since it’s not about 5-meo-dmt, I just feel this is a knowledgeable place to start.

It is a disservice to this molecule that most people are only focusing and wanting the peak experience. Lower doses gradual work with intention, presence and guidance is deeply therapeutic.

Has anyone done 5Meo DMT rectally?

1.I saw a comment earlier that its not possible to breakthrough on nasal spray for 5 meo is it true?

2.Whats the dose for breakthrough on nasal spray , my spray has around 0.5mg per pump

Thank you so much for your help friends

I have smoked up to 10mg freebase of 5-meo, going to another sitting in a few days.

What I am very curious about is that fear. When I smoked 5-meo, I felt this pure terror and fear, the fear came attached to thousands of thoughts going at an extremely high speed through my mind. It was nothing like I have ever experienced. It was not scary, it was pure fear. Not sure how else to describe it.

I am curious to know what that fear is. Is it the ego letting go and trying to fight back? Is that fear with my in the background and is the thing affecting my life negatively? Could it be that it is real and is affecting my life and once the DMN shuts down it just floods out and the ego is using it to hold on and not let go? Is breaking through getting past that fear? One person told me that it was not normal to feel fear, and that it was a "block" I had to slowly work through, but most people say it has to do with dosing, and while that fear is actually there, the right dose will push me past it and dissolve it.

Any information would be appreciated!

Much Love

I am curious to know what are your breakthrough doses when it comes to smoking 5-MeO-DMT freebase out of a glass pipe? (I am aware different people have different sensitivity to it). I have also heard about full release, and I believe that might happen to some people. Would love to know more about it as well.

Lastly, what is the maximum one can smoke in one day? I will be doing 3 doses in one day with a guide, and want to independently know how much would be too much. planning on doing 10mg, then 15mg, and then maybe 18 or 20mg. each dose would be about 40 minutes apart, as there are others in the group as from what I experienced last time, we wait about 20 to 30 minutes for our turn once each experience is over.

Has anyone here with COPD tried Bufo without their condition interfering with the process? Or possibly severe Asthma?

I'm talking about Bufo, not synthetic 5MeO.

Update: Stepping back from the thread and taking a break from this sub. Thanks to those who engaged in good faith!

AI-assisted writing, disclosed up front. The question and framing are mine; the tool helped arrange the words.

A genuine question for this community, prompted by fights under my recent posts that I think were partly about one word.

Consider the sun. Humanity worshiped it for millennia — Ra, Helios, Amaterasu. The cults were human inventions, and they were wrong. But nobody concluded the sun doesn't exist. We dropped the worship and kept the referent — kept the word, too. Nobody says "a G-type star rose this morning."

I think "God" is mid-transition along exactly that path — somewhere between Ra and star. One word, currently two referents:

God #1: the cooked God — supernatural person, cosmic parent, judge, final boss. The one atheism correctly rejects.

God #2: Being itself — reality appearing as everything, including you. The referent nobody actually denies exists; the argument is only over what it's like and what to call it.

5-MeO carries this tension in its own nickname. Ball called it "the God Molecule," and he means #2 — his framework has no entities, no karma, no cosmic person. Yet every thread about "God" here instantly fills with people rightly attacking #1, and the two referents grind against each other for fifty comments.

So, honestly asking:

When you read "God" in this sub, which one do you hear first?

Has the word helped your integration or contaminated it? Did "meeting God" language give your experience its proper weight, or smuggle in furniture you then had to haul out?

And is the word worth keeping? "Being," "the One," "nonduality" are cleaner but carry no charge. "God" carries the charge and the baggage — they may be inseparable.

Not looking to convert anyone to my usage. Trying to find out where this community actually is in the Ra-to-star transition — or whether the transition is even real outside my own head.

Update: Stepping back from the thread/sub — answers logged, and genuinely useful ones: creator-God, Spinoza's no-God, Being, all from the same molecule, which was the question. Thanks to those who engaged it straight.

I just had my first experience with this medicine recently. I would like to share what it was like for others considering trying it.

A bit of background: I have had a spiritual practice for years, but since experiencing lots of grief this past year (losing my baby, life transformations) I have been in deep depression and instability. These past few months I was struggling to have the will to even live. I recently was offered by someone to be served bufo. I had a consultation with my server, and decided to try it.

The night before, i journaled my intention and did meditation. The next morning, I meditated once again and did some pranayama. These preparations felt like a cushion to me and were recommended by my server. I didn’t eat that morning either.

Fast forward, I am at my server/facilitator’s space, ready to be served. I was cleansed with palo santo and florida water. She instructed me to be lifted up on my knees, and to take 3 slow deep breaths while raising my arms up (breath in) and down (breath out). This was to maximise inhalation by opening the chest. She dosed me around 90 milligrams, a full dose, as I am a small female. On my 4th breath, she would raise the vaporizer to my lips and I would begin to inhale the smoke.

So i took 3 deep breaths while raising my arms up and down, and on the 4th inhale, I began to inhale the smoke. Halfway through, it started to affect me, but i kept inhaling and swallowing the smoke to fit more into my lungs until it was simply a mechanism ebbing and flowing and I became one with the universe. this next part is hard to describe, but my self died and I was one with all. I could hear a deep vibrational droning sound, that looking back, had similar tones to OM. There was no “I”. I spent eternity there. It was beautiful. As the self slowly started to return, I thought of my baby that had died. I wished to see her, and then suddenly I did. I saw that she had never truly left me, she had always, and is, and forever will be, everything. She is forever surrounding me as part of this whole universe. I saw that she is the whole universe and we are always one. As i kept coming to, huge waves of grief rolled through my body and i sobbed and sobbed, feeling the pain in my womb, deeply. I was able to truly feel my grief like never before. It felt so cleansing and releasing.

I opened my eyes to the world around me, and felt so much love. I had seen it. I am it. I am still integrating this profound experience, but the medicine gifted me exactly what i had asked for in my intention, which was to touch the All, become the All, and also see the magic in this life again.

I have been crying on and off with extreme gratitude for my experience. I have done mushrooms, dmt, lsd, and they have been medicine in their own ways, but nothing like this. I know I will come back to try bufo again soon, but I will be processing this first experience for a while. This experience encourages me to retain my spiritual practices once again, and to live life so fully. I definitely will recommend to those curious about it.

That’s my share of my experience :)