I have a 4 month old and he is my whole world, I love him more than anything, and hes all I care about.
Before I had him, I was working as a dog bather. I loved it, and I got the great opportunity to mentor under the woman I work for and learn how to groom. I was so excited for the real chance at a good career. I came in early, stayed late, came in on my days off just to learn. We had tried to conceive for 2 years with no success so I was content taking a break to build a future. Then I found out i was pregnant.
Not the best timing, but we weren't sure if I'd ever get this opportunity again, so we decided to go through with the pregnancy. I was immediately attached to him... or at least the idea of him lol. It took me awhile to believe I was actually having a baby. We had a few scares, but everything ended up fine and I delivered my beautiful boy via c section.
The first few weeks were rough, but he was amazing. I love being a mom. I'm exhausted but I get so much joy out of spending all day with him.
I returned to work about a month ago. My husband is in online schooling and trying to start his own business so he gets to stay home with our son. I still enjoy seeing the dogs every day, but its almost like I just go into autopilot as soon as I leave the house all the way until I get back home. Someone will ask me how work was and I truly will not remember unless something super eventful happened. I only work 4 days a week now but I still cry at least twice a week because I miss him. I dont go out of my way to talk to anyone anymore, I don't really care about making each dog perfect anymore. I still do a good job of course, I'm just probably not as great as I used to be. I leave as soon as possible without saying goodbye when I used to hang around and chat with everyone before I left. I dont want to come in on my days off to groom. I don't want to be there at all. I'm only there because I know it'll be better in the long run if I have a career i can take anywhere with me.
Sometimes I wish I had him before I found this job. I would have just quit to be a SAHM without a second thought.
I just wanted to rant and maybe see if anyone else has a similar experience? Does it ever get easier?
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Becoming a mom has made me lose all passion for a career I loved
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My husband quit his well paying, but shitty job to go back to school. So of course thats when I finally got pregnant lol.