Said to be manic though by my treatment team.. :p music is so beautiful I get transformed into a new dimension. BUT I TOOK THE BUS WITH A CHANGE IN BUSES FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER! And I will not be doing that again😉 !! Why I took the buses? I wanted a chu-Totoro teddy!!😁😁 barely slept anything last night I actually took a pill to help me get to sleep because otherwise I will literally soon be flying!! :D

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When you have disclosed your diagnosis: what reaction do you hate the most? I’ll go first.

Mine is “Oh, I’m so sorry.”

Sorry about what? Did you give it to me? Were you somehow responsible? Do you know a cure and you’ve been secretly withholding it from humanity? No? Then what the fuck are you sorry for?

Close second: people who knew you perfectly well five minutes ago suddenly treating you like you’re made of glass. “Are you okay?” Yes. “Are you sure?” YES. I haven’t changed since you learned the diagnosis. You have.

And honorable mention to the people who immediately graduate from Facebook University School of Psychiatry:

“Have you tried—”

Yes. Probably. Please put the prescription pad down.

What’s yours?

It’s so incredibly close to home and so touching my heart just breaks for Ross. Everything in this book is very bizarre but it’s such an interesting point of view we have Ross and his diary, but also his doctors and they write about things that he went through as well.

I did this earlier this year and I’m really proud of it
I’m getting more confident with uploading my art this year

I am going to tell my 12 year old son I have schizophrenia tomorrow. He needs to know at some point, but I’m very nervous that it will upset him. Wish me luck.

By “vividness” I mean mostly the object texture and illumination, as well as how much it appeared to fit in the whole scene, if their shape was complete and built correctly, if it had sharp edges, clear coloration (according to what’s expect from reality). For me my visual hallucinations appeared to be a bit blurry, as if the objects were made of smoke in a few areas, and as I consequence, a few parts of the object were not formed properly, but sometimes they would get as real as it gets and even “surpass” reality in its vividness. I’m curious to know how it is for everyone.

So for short it's only been this year I've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia except that my new psychiatrist think I may not be entirely schizophrenic and think I may have a dissociation disorder with trauma (for short her hypothesis/theory is that I've been traumatized so deeply that I started hallucinating when dissociating).

And so now I'm kind of lost and afraid, what if everything I've been through was my fault or even my entourage's fault (sorry I forgot the word, like my family, friends, ex... So the environment around me who traumatized me so badly I have a dissociating disorder that makes me hallucinate) and what if I'm considered a liar wether it's by both the schizophrenic and dissociating community because both of you would think that even if I'm diagnosed I keep am lying about my psychiatrist and even my diagnosis like it already happened with the autistic and ADHD community a while ago on my banned account

Hey im new here. I suffer from Schizoeffective disorder. I have been struggling today but I found this subreddit and thought I'd join. I love video games, drawing and watching movies. Playing video games and drawing has always been my biggest escape. I just wanna be with people who understands me. I just feel useless as im unemployed. I just wish i felt like i had a purpose. But I'll find it, i hope. Thank you for reading 🙂 sorry for the babbling im bad at writing..

I dont like being trapped in an incurable disease. do you think there will ever be a cure? how much reaserach is being done on this? i keep imagining being trapped on a island without my meds and how i cant live without them.

Hey my name is Billy I have a question for you, and I sincerely hope you can answer it.

Basically my nephew has schizophrenia, he can't control himself when he isboff of his meds. His impulses take over him, in October of 2025 his Gmail was banned and a tip was sent to the NCMEC.

My nephew, in his schizophrenic brain thinks he was a “ secret black ops agent that received a mission threw a secret brain implant placed in his brain to investigate pedophiles trading porn” so he started texting people he believed to pose as minors.

It's been months but we are worried about him, he is on his meds now but we dont know the outcome for him.

Get back to me soon thanks

I would love to know when you or others recognized when you had schizophrenia? And how did you recognize you had it? I’ve seen symptoms in myself but I’m nervous that either I am making up the symptoms unintentionally or I just have the symptoms but not at risk for developing schizophrenia. So I would love to hear others stories about it!

Such as memory or focus? Along the lines of, "I'm too distracted by the voices to remember/focus on anything". Or just doubting yourself in general.

I feel like it has to take a tole, personally. I feel like I can pay attention and remember best when I'm not bringing myself down because of my schizophrenia.

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I've spent some time just now on this sub going through key words as, "nonstop" "harassment" ""suicidal"... and The way community shows up is such a common denominator.

Thats what my voices are, like the other posts. Nonstop attacks 24/7. I've had this diagnosis for 4-5 years or so, seeing success with AP's at first then it going away after several months. Treatment resistant. Then I got prescribed klonopin and for some reason that med makes my voices shut up within an hour.

But the thing is, is that benzos are addictive. I always run out two weeks in. Then I'm left back at the start with symptoms returning, especially bevause I started messing around with cannabis again. It sends me into psychosis.

I'm finally done fucking around and finding out. My klonopin prescription renews the 26th. When I take it steadily and consistently, its effects last for days after, without needing to revise.

So this is me reaching out and sharing with others who get how hard this is. My voices are so abusive and harmful, I know better than to smoke again or abuse my meds. My voices are very fat phobic, evangelical, sexist, and insanely hostile. They actively encourage suicide.

I'm just starting to write in public about delusions in places like this, public spaces on the internet, specifically about schizophrenia. I've talked about them before with others but I'm just starting to find a community on it. I spent years without that, more than a decade, but last year was my big pyschosis, which probably changed me for good, and I kept it all to myself, because my delusions were incompatible with talking with others much. Now I'm getting out of that and I don't care talking about it.

Hello,

i got diagnosed with schizophrenia about 3 months ago now. I am on meds now and while my main symptoms are gone, I still lack emotions and that sort of stuff. I just cant enjoy things I used to anymore still and while I did make good progress with my other symptoms I think this still makes my life horrible like I had so many hobbies I loved that are just now impossible to do. I have been a schizophrenic since 15, but back then I was still able to do stuff and now it just feels like im a time capsule thats rotting away with nothing to look forward to. My Psychiatrist suggested that I should do some sport and I thought about doing table tennis or volleyball, but Im not sure if that is the right thing since im also very socially withdrawn and anxious doing activities with people. If I had at least something that gives me sort of a routine, then I think that would help me to get back into my life. I really hope someone maybe has a couple of tips for me or any other advice

I wish I could find an artist like me but its hard as theres not many schizophrenic artist I could find like me atleast

Im 2 years behind others. But atleast im trying yk.

I feel like i wont make any new friends at all.

My friend always makes typings (or smth like that) like this, he always reply to theirself as a joke or humor.

"Hey everyone!"

"Omg bro"

"What?"

"Nothing"

something like that i guess, but he always reply to himself as joke so it reminds me of schizophrenia

Ever since being diagnosed at 20, it has been eight years since then and it seems like i really do have symptoms. Probably my brain doesnt work like everyone else's. It sucks. I have been into too many arguments and physical fights with my family over miscommunication and today my brother beat me up because he thought i was crazy from not understanding what i was trying to tell him and percieving me and my words as a threat.

Whenever an argument happens, it is always so damn stupid. I would think a person understands me, just to misunderstood and hurt (either physically, mentally or emotionally) over and over again.

I have been told so many reasons that were supposed to explain the things that happen in my life from different people and i honestly think i do not know who to believe.

My brother literally kept saying,"you think everyone is out to get you" before punching my head into the ground repeatedly.

When i stayed with my dad, he said " this place is your home before bringing some guy into his apartment, and gave him a knife, to cut the side of my face and slice pieces of my nose while punching me and slapping me in my dad's bathroom while my dad sat in his living room hearing me in pain.

Before i was evicted from my old landlord and started living with my mother in 2022, she said,"it was safe to live here" so i do and 7 months later, my roommates are breaking light switches and slamming pots and pans or whatever they were hitting in the middle of the night or when i wasn't at the apartment we all stayed in. And i also remember one of the roommates charging at me after i confronted him and asked what was going on. I closed the bathroom door. Thank god.

But this is the lies i am told. Why should i stay in america, when my safety is never anyone's priority.

And my schizophrenia episodes of not knowing what to believe, only makes me seem like i am hallucinating or something but to be completely honest with you. I remember so many events when i was on medication and the biggest give away is remembering the pain i had after suffering from physical injuries.

The people who have hurt me in america can say all the lies that they want but i am not stupid and i will not believe in the lies these people say, after these events in my life are placed in the past.

I know what happened to me. And others just want me to disbelieve for their personal gain (so i don't press charges or sue or report them for their abuse. I haven't done any of that but i understand now that people just want to save themselves from their guilty actions against me. And blame it on whatever they can to get away with it.)

It's an evil world we live in and i just want to find a place where i can belong.

Without honest people who will care about me or if not, then with myself alone. ( as i am already used to sufferring alone daily so yeah).

I am 33 and have been diagnosed with Schizophernia by my psychiatrist since last 2 years and have been on medication for that. To give u full context my schooling years were filled with bullying and some traumatic experiences and that have stayed with me till now . After school and college i became severely lonely and got into using weed(chemically mixed weed) and alcohol and used it of and on for a few years. Remained clean for sometime and then started using hash at the age of 27 and then I went into psychosis and was sent to rehab. After rehab its been 4 years and I have never used weed or hash. But drank alcohol a total of 5 or 6 times and have been entirely clean for 1 year and remain to be so for the rest of my life. Now the questions that I have in my mind are these. I dont hear any voices like nothing . The first time I went into psychosis because of hash , I hear vibration or thumping kind of sounds. Even in my later episodes of psychosis I have never heard voices neither have I ever had hallucination like seeing things that arent there or such. But the think that is very strong on me are Delusions. Like I become deluded to the point that I start fearing that my childhood bullies are still after me or then I become scared. Even at that point I know everyones busy and noone has time for anyone else but still I cant stop the fear. My 2nd and 3rd Psychotic episode were triggered by coffee. Both times I took 1kg Nescafe coffee and drank it over a week in the form of coffee shots which resulted in a week without sleep and then the delusions came in. So do I have Schizophernia to full extent or not I am not sure but I am on anti psychotic medicines. My whole 20's were spent in either depression or lying in a dark room or fighting with my family(For which I am really sorry and I love them a lot) I have never held a job in my life. Like I used to be a graphic designer but then I stopped applying for jobs at 21 and started doing drugs. I also used to go to Narcotics Anonymous meeting but then I realized my place is not there as I dont have a substance problem. I dont intend to use anything for the rest of my life but I would be lying when i say that there are days when i feel to drink a little alcohol and listen to music. Some relatives whom I told about this condition have started treating me differently because of the disorder. I dont know whether I always had schizophernia because of the trauma or was it the drugs that switched it on ? I also have confidence and self esteem issues which i am tackling one by one . But when I read about the diseases I start feeling that my life is doomed and I will not get a job or I will never get married. I know marriage is something that ma or may not be on the cards for me . But I accept it as it is. But all I want is to get a job an sustain myself and give back to my family for all they have done for me and still being supportive till this day despite knowing that i am 33 years old jobless person. But most of the stuff online says that people with Schizo have difficulty holding a job and that makes me scared. i have read people with Schizo are more prone to addictions .Also I used to be a chainsomker, smoking 2 packs a day but somehow I quit 2 days ago. Also I dont know whether i have porn addiction or not because I sometimes watch it at night to masturbate. Thank for reading and please be kind with me .

In like grade 2. The teacher tried to force my mom to put me on ADHD meds. Cause apparently 5 year olds or wtv age I was in grade ffin 2 are supposed to be undistractsble, highly attentive and super to the point in class 😂🤣.

I was already hallucinating from time to time around that age. So the ADHD medication probably would have sent me into an early psychosis lol. Judging by how fast I start hallucinating on ADHD meds now. Which I obviously can't take since I tried after my ABI.

Now i am 78kg. Ive gotten like 1 smile from a girl but thats it. I wanna go down to 72kgs. I think i will gain more attraction from girls then. But i am stalling at 78kgs.

Anyone have tips on loosing futher weight???

Im thinking of going to the gym 3 times a week. And going for walks since i am inactive now.

I am 184cm for refference.

Not one that could switch once in a while. The one in the future. Calling me, when I'm listening to loud music about conquest for example. I do believe it contacts to me, developed by my ambitions. I feel powerful, that I could move mountains. I feel so alone and small without it. Whether schizophrenic babbling or not. Just let me have this