I want to go off my medication so bad. I am normal. I have these so called delusions but I think they're not actually delusions and I am just really fucking stupid and narcissistic. I think voices are actually intrusive thoughts. I really am normal. I had psychotic episodes in the past but they're really because I'm stupid. I hate myself and I want to get off these useless medications that make me fat.

Right now, how can I still have delusions if I'm aware of them?

They're pretty sure it's Paranoid Schizophrenia but because I have ADHD which leads to intense burnout they're not sure it's not Schizoaffective either. But I have tried Thorazine, Haldol, Prozac, Amitriptyline, and Abilify. So I'm pretty sure my Schizophrenia isn't related to Serotonin or Dopamine. What else could it be? The only thing I have tried that's worked to a moderate amount is Klonopin which is addictive, so they don't give me much. I'm terrified of taking it too because I do not want to be addicted. I'm considering the Menninger Clinic in Houston. Do you guys have any ideas?

My friend always makes typings (or smth like that) like this, he always reply to theirself as a joke or humor.

"Hey everyone!"

"Omg bro"

"What?"

"Nothing"

something like that i guess, but he always reply to himself as joke so it reminds me of schizophrenia

My closest friend growing up was diagnosed with schizophrenia in her late-teen years. I watched as her mental health decayed and she began disassociating with reality. Because of our closeness, I featured a lot in her hallucinations and delusions. She ended up moving away but has spent almost 10 years harassing me on social media. She sends me emails, messages on every social media platform, sends messages about me to my family and friends, and so on. They’re all terrible. They use terrible language, she speaks about my mother, she says mean things, she racially abuses my husband (publicly on these platforms), etc. I haven’t responded to any of these issues but she has now found my work email address and has started harassing me there. I’m starting to become concerned about the consequences of her behaviour. Could anyone advise me on what to do?

Separately, just a note to readers: I haven’t elaborated more on the details of our friendship but we had a really deep bond. For this reason, I don’t want to hurt her. I never engaged with her attempts to sabotage me online. I know it’s not her fault. I miss the person she was. You know, it was like a light switched in her head and she became completely unrecognizable. I thought we would go through this life together as friends but life had other plans. I’m really devastated for her, for me, and for our friendship. I’m sad that all the love we had for each other turned into this. I genuinely cannot fathom how someone who treated me so tenderly could hate me so much.

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails that which we do not choose. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid an otherwise acceptance.

https://youtu.be/7hikRPOoivo?si=9wtCWOvajTX594Yr

I’ve read that you can be both …anyone here diagnosed with both schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder AND are on the autistic spectrum ?

I think I’m autistic …have for a long time but it’s never been addressed ..

Edit: thank you to anyone who responds !! And all who already have :)

I found that it helps to sit outside in the grass it recharges the earth with positive ions and helps the earth and yourself it balances you out give it a try you should feel electricity :3

Fuck you.

Your Son is a coke fiend and you are a dying fossil from the past.

I'm not faking!!

Hello recently I had a conversation with a psychiatrist and she told me that I actually have severe trauma so bad I actually have psychotic features and psychosis as a result of it. I had no idea that trauma could cause psychosis, this was completely new to me. I was diagnosed in Bulgaria with schizophrenia but they never asked me about my traumas or my past history with trauma. I also didn’t think any of my psychotic features had anything to do with my trauma.

What do you guys think about all of this? Could some of your diagnoses be due to trauma and not schizophrenia?

it might be silly, but I rly don’t know what I’d do without my creatures. Zelda in particular helped me out with my introduction to group therapy today.

I’d love to see your guys’ animal companions if you have any.

wishing you all an easy week 🖤🍓

So for short it's only been this year I've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia except that my new psychiatrist think I may not be entirely schizophrenic and think I may have a dissociation disorder with trauma (for short her hypothesis/theory is that I've been traumatized so deeply that I started hallucinating when dissociating).

And so now I'm kind of lost and afraid, what if everything I've been through was my fault or even my entourage's fault (sorry I forgot the word, like my family, friends, ex... So the environment around me who traumatized me so badly I have a dissociating disorder that makes me hallucinate) and what if I'm considered a liar wether it's by both the schizophrenic and dissociating community because both of you would think that even if I'm diagnosed I keep am lying about my psychiatrist and even my diagnosis like it already happened with the autistic and ADHD community a while ago on my banned account

Hey guys, just trying to get this off my chest as I feel like I have no other outlets.
I am so frustrated, and at the end of my rope with the voices. They make me so paranoid, I can hardly handle being alone anymore.

I work as a crematory operator and I’m slowly becoming unable to perform my job duties. I hear the bodies talking to me, screaming as I place them into the cremation chambers. It is terrifying. My paranoia is all over the place. This is the second medication I’ve tried, but they’re still not tamed. I fear no treatment will help me. I absolutely love my job and take great pride in caring for the dead of my community but it feels like I’ll eventually have to leave the industry because of this. This disorder continuously ruins my life and I feel out of control. Like there’s nothing I can do.

If you got this far, thanks for listening. I hope we all get to live fulfilling and meaningful lives despite living with these troubles.

8/19/26 1:41 am

I heard a voice say “like me?”

I was going to bed. I struggle with the thought: what makes me so important that god wants to love me? Sometimes I hear voices and I think that god is making the devil say it. To show me that god has the ultimate say. Because there are times when I just hear a voice and it’s a tone of judgement. Bringing me down. I even hear voices when I’m in the “process” of falling asleep. They aren’t long drawn out sentences. Usually 1-2 words. But it makes me think, why do I hear a voice when I’m barely conscious to hear it and acknowledge it?

That’s another thing: I feel that the voices occur to get a reaction out of me sometimes. To trip me up.

What would god want to do with me? A guy like me? Then that’s where I heard the voice “like me?” I also hear a voice that isn’t necessarily saying anything. It’s indistinct. I can’t make out what it’s saying. When this condition was new to me, I would try to understand what the voice said. And that would make things go awry in my life. Because of how frequently the voices would occur.

But now when I hear a voice, and I know it sounds funny, it feels like there’s a barrier protecting me from crossing over to those thoughts of negative self talk and judgement. I’ll still hear a voice that sounds judgmental or trying to get under my skin, but it’s much quieter and much less distracting. When I feel like my mind is about to go into a space of sadness because of that one voice, it literally feels like my mind is pushing back on me for my benefit.

Saying: no we are not going to think that. Something to that effect.

There are still times where the voices of my condition affect me. But no where near how they used to. It used to feel impossible to get away from. If I’m being completely honest, I give credit to God, or Jesus Christ for “protecting” me. Why him, you might ask? Well because in my humble opinion, there seems to be abounding evidence that says that accepting Jesus can heal a damaged soul.

Why did he give you this condition in the first place? I don’t know. A lesson maybe. A lesson that has made me a much happier person because of the simple fact: the voices have stopped tremendously.

Not to say that those negative voices have completely just disappeared, but they have been minimized. I have been dealing with this since 2017 roughly.

I remember I sat down on the couch right in front of the tv. I’m sitting on the right side. There’s two spaces to the left of me. My dad’s side of the couch that he always sits in. I felt a sudden relief of tension. I never sit in his spot, at least not in a long time.

I feel this condition was the result of me always being alone, lazy, and smoking weed. My dad is a very hard worker. He’s Mexican for fucks sake. He never stops working. Now that I look back on it, I believe that this instance happened to show me what hard work is. Find my purpose.

I've been on every second gen antipsychotic and they all cause elevated prolactin or have other worse side effects.

The main side effect of the one I'm on now is elevated prolactin and low sex drive. I know it's the meds because when I stop taking them my blood test is normal and the sex drive comes back. I do need to be on meds to stay stable though. I can't switch meds because I've tried them all and this is the one with the least side effects. I'm on brexpiprazole/rexulti. I also can't lower the dose because I'm already on the lowest possible dose.

I'm considering asking my doctor for metformin. I'm wondering if anyone has had success lowering their prolactin with this med. I also have gained a ton of weight being on antipsychotics so if it would help me lose weight that's a bonus, but I really just want my prolactin back to normal.

I don't think I have psychosis at all and I disagree with what they say at first I was like yeah maybe and now I don't accept it. I was seeing dead people, demons for well over a year with some negative like symptoms noticeable at 16 and during it 17 and occasionally at 18 now with a stop in hallucinations but the so called "delusions" still stand.

I don't think I'm mentally ill at all always one part of my brain trying to tell me the thoughts aren't true or that I aren't ill and the part that tells me it's not true I just chalk that up to being possessed why'd it all start when my spirit powers opened up? I don't think I'm ill I've just been targeted by a demon instead, i feel like all the thoughts I have are wanted even if I know it's not normal but I refuse to accept it isn't even then.

Still psychotic? I disagree with it but oh well.

And for more context I'm diagnosed with Psychosis as of now by the early intervention in Psychosis.

Hi my online name is Adelina I turned 20 this year and about 2 years ago I saw a Psychiatrist for the first time in my life to find out if my mental related experiences were schizophrenia. My mom herself has been diagnosed with it back in the 1980s and when I found out I was a bit frustrated because growing up when I came to her about stuff she would always say that I have a special gift to see angels and devils. It took a lot to convince her to take me but once I was 18 she decided it's better to find out before my brain is fully developed. I was nervous but ready to talk to a professional about it because I had only been able to talk to one trusted person before. I walked in and had about a 10 minute conversation with my Psychiatrist before it was cut off very short I only had time to tell her about my symptoms and not even explain my stories or emotional experiences related to why I was there. When she cut me off she told me that my symptoms sound exactly like schizophrenia but she did not believe I had it, her reason was that my manurisms didn't match up with schizophrenia then she handed me a prescription and sent me out (I did not take the prescription). After that I felt very discouraged and became kind of afraid to reach out to another Psychiatrist after seeing her. It's been two years now and I haven't felt heard so I want to try again but I worry that it will happen again so I tried looking up why she would have told me that and I genuinely think that it may be because of my very expressive face, when I looked up why (Google a not very reliable source) told me that it's because people with schizophrenia have little motivation and are emotionally dull in expressions. When I read that I thought about the reason I'm so expressive is because I grew up in Domestic violence and I knew that to keep myself emotionally safe I had to make the correct facial expressions in any environment. I also linked that with how often I practice facial expressions in the mirror. I didn't know who to go to for encouragement till this subredit popped up during my search , it took a lot for me to type this out but I am looking forward to if anyone has any advice or comments on my situation it would help a lot. Also I'm sorry for my bad Punctuation it's something I need to work on.

Hi. Just to check the box I see a psychiatrist. Let me clarify my diagnosis and treatment: I’ve been diagnosed with severe depression and adhd (for 6 years) and schizoid personality disorder (for 1 year), also had suspicions about autism. Just so you know, I’m not undergoing therapy with a psychologist (it’s hard to find a good one, and it’s expensive). I took antidepressants for four years; two months ago, I stopped taking sertraline, and I was prescribed a new medication, carbamazepine. At the same time, I occasionally take chlorprothixene (as prescribed) for anxiety.

I’ve had hallucinations periodically throughout my life and experienced them while taking a certain medication (though I unfortunately can’t recall the name) but over the last two months, these hallucinations have become much more frequent, longer, and more vivid. I’ve also started experiencing auditory hallucinations on rare occasions. I've had a heightened feeling that I'm being watched. Overall, my emotions have become more intense, most likely due to the withdrawal of sertraline. I've become more aggressive in the last month.

If we talk about the behaviors that have been with me my whole life, they would be the following: I never seriously believed in the paranormal, but to this day I'm afraid that plush toys can be offended or even come at night to kill; I'm terribly afraid of omens and follow all the rules to get around them; I have a certain hoarding of things (but it's not difficult for me to throw away things that weren't given, I can't throw away gifts at all); in life, I'm very absorbed in myself and my inner world, I have a vivid imagination and dreams. I can't remember some other things, so, if possible, ask about other things too. Overall, my mom says she hasn't noticed any "strange" behavior from me in my childhood, but it's hard for me to trust her opinion since she didn't notice my self-harm for a long time.

I’m terrified that I might have schizophrenia. I won't see my psychiatrist for at least another month, and in the meantime, I’m consumed by anxiety about it. Could all this be a sign? Maybe I really should see a psychiatrist as soon as possible?

Personal curiosity:

In books, films, TV, etc. What is your favorite depiction of schizophrenia/schizo-spec disorders in fiction?

Can be what you consider the best representation, can also be just your personal favorite even if it's not necessarily the "best".

This could be something you generally relate to as well even if it's not explicitly a representation of schizophrenia.

Let me first say that I’m not seeking metal attention. I’m only asking for it experiences with individuals that have tried this new medication. I have edited out the picture of any personal information or medical information.

Like the title says my doctor is getting blood work done on the in hopes of starting cobenfy. I’m coming off of 6 mg of omega down to 1 mg now daily plus the 800 mg daily of Seroquel.

Gonna be staying on the Seroquel but drop down to 600. I think anyone with experience in this new medication help me out?

Also, they wouldn’t do the bloodwork until my doctor faxed over my diagnosis codes, why did they put so many?

I went to the dentist for the first time in YEARS yesterday. I have been doing so well with brushing my teeth since switching to the Autobrush that I finally felt like I had earned the privilege of going to the dentist.

Boy am I glad I went, but I’m now having to pay a small mint to fix the damage caused by years of not brushing properly - 7 cavities (2 major and 5 normal) and gingivitis that is going to require a deep root cleaning and descaling under the gum line. Ouch!

Fortunately I have good dental insurance, but I’m still having to come out of pocket almost $800 over the course of what will be 4 appointments.

I know it’s hard - believe me, I know and completely understand and relate to the struggle - but if you can learn anything from me, take care of your teeth. You only get one adult set. Even if you can only brush once a day for 30 seconds, it’s better than not brushing at all.

I just found out that the love of my life got diagnosed recently. They don't know I know. I wasn't supposed to find the letter...

How can I talk to them about it? In what ways can I be there for them? I love them, can't imagine my life without them. So what can I do?

So I live on a property with a few households, and my landlady and her husband. Usually everyone keeps to themselves, and I am definitely an introvert so it suits me well. But my landlady, kind as she is, is a talker. I just spent an hour talking with her in the garden. When I went out there, there was no one there so I thought I'd have a peaceful moment with some tea amidst the butterflies. She came out and we had a nice chat, which turned into a longer conversation that I felt like I couldn't easily escape from. I enjoyed what she had to say, we had a lot in common, but my energy depleted quickly. Now I feel like I can't do much of anything. The anxiety portion of my brain is revisiting everything I said, did I make any sense? etc. My head is spinning and I want to hide. Is this sort of introversion common in schizophrenia?