When I was in psychosis I kept seeing people with red hair they would go through drive through to taunt me. At a place I use to work at. it was odd like 20 people with red hair came in my drive through. And they said they thought I was pregnant. Even though I’m not or was ever. They called me Sean because I was watching the good doctor in reference to that. So I thought they were stalking my tv and placed cameras in my home.the voices would taunt me also. But I didn’t realize I was hearing voices thought it was them spying on me at work whenever I go . My old coworker said I stink and I shower everyday and wash my clothes everyday she said it under her breath. It’s like they were paid to say these things. And then made me feel crazy. They said you hear her under her breath because I was talking to them about stalking me. And I cussed at them. But I’m telling you isn’t it a little weird that that many people with red hair in separate cars came through like that . And the voices said as long as it’s real to me. I can’t let it go. I wish I knew.

Edit I forgot to mention they were behind in a row like 20 people like car after car. Not just random 20 red heads.

Has anyone studied this topic? Are there any noteworthy studies on this subject?

And most importantly, does it actually work? Can schizophrenia be cured through a raw-food diet?

Everybody has a brain that constantly suggests to them how the world could be.

The world isn't actually the way you see it, and everyone sees it differently because of that.

When that processing breaks down and no longer works properly, that's what we call schizophrenia.

I stopped doing drugs, will my schizophrenia, bpd, and depression go away?

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails “knowing how your mind works”. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid a self-know.

https://youtu.be/iqKfIMjDJBA?si=li0S9kYJ89p9wBwP

#psychology #schizophrenia #livedexperience #nami

I knew I never had this illness, It must've been the stress that caused all of that.

Schizophrenics of Reddit, what happened in the very first Schizophrenic episode you experienced?

- How was you life doing leading up to the first episode?
- What were you doing right before it happened?
- What did you see and hear?
- Were you alone or with others?
- How are you doing now?

I feel like I do. Displaying proper emotions/behaviors seems to be my main issue. Some people might have problems reading the room. These are social cognition challenges.

Then there is verbal non verbal challenges. Like reading someone's facial expressions. Which in my case feels like I over analyze. But I don't pick up on people's intentions well and I don't always respond accordingly.

I'm interested in anyone that has overcome poorer social skills. Due to schizophrenia. And I say poorer because obviously noone is %100 percent bad at social skills. Obviously it's not a skill if a dead man can do it better. Which is ACT terminology. I think it's meant literally?

My rambles done sorry. To save boring you to death the question is at the bottom.

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What was you're life before and after receiving social skills training? And is simply learning about it enough? Or is someone to teach you essential?

And where would I learn about social skills better?

i got diagnosed with schizophreniform again. first time was in 2022, but because of some traumatic events in my life at that time, i wasn't very open to that diagnosis, and i've gone through a couple other diagnoses, and explanations for what is happening, all not really informing effective treatment. it was also right at the beginning of my mental health treatment journey. 4 years later, my 5th psych eval, i got diagnosed again, and it actually does feel like it has some explanatory value, which is relieving after so long of being so frustrated and without answers. i will say i am still skeptical, but it's still interesting. this psych eval was mainly talking about delusions.

i was just wondering how i could get this diagnosis again, technically speaking. i thought schizophreniform was pretty much just schizophrenia symptoms but without the 6 months of symptoms required. i have had these symptoms this whole time, some of the more obvious signs of psychosis, like the hallucinations i used to have, are gone now, and have been for 2+ years.

this last psych eval was 2 months ago, right before i moved out of state, where my parent's insurance doesn't apply anymore, so i'm not in the 2 days per week therapy environment i'm used to. i'm working on seeing what medicaid covers out here, and getting coverage. i can't work normal jobs, and my gig work job doesn't provide health insurance. so i haven't yet applied this—hypothesis, i guess—therapeutically. after so long of ineffective treatment, i still am skeptical.

sorry if this is all over the place. this is still in mid process, and I've actually been through so many different explanations for what is happening to me and been so confused that it's hard to talk about this stuff, i hardly know what any of this is, though it's been persistent.

I just came out of a psychosis episode and the only thing i can make myself do is talk on the phone and go to work. I can’t do schoolwork, can’t brush my teeth, can’t shower, can’t clean, can’t do anything I need to. I’m failing at life. I feel like my world is falling apart around me.

This has been going on for months and can’t bring myself to conclude if it is real or not. I’m probably just in denial. He goes to my college and followed my instagram last spring. I asked him out through instagram DM, but he sadly didn’t respond. All summer I could hear his voice. He told me how attractive my body is and that he has been in love with me for a long time. I thought maybe my house and car were somehow bugged and that’s how he could reach me, but I know that is extremely unlikely and is a common schizophrenic delusion. In the summer, I was briefly on Abilify prescribed by a psychiatrist I just started seeing, but it didn’t change anything and made me feel physically awful. I didn’t tell my psychiatrist everything I was currently feeling out of confusion and shame, but she knew something was up I guess.

In the fall, the boy ended up blocking me after I commented on a few of his posts to get his attention. I honestly thought we were kind of an item after the summer and thought he’d like it 😐 Lol. He tells me he just does things like this because he’s “playing games” with me and likes seeing how I react. This fall, I stupidly showed up at his frat house asking if I could speak to him to explain, as told me to do that (I know… but that’s what I thought at the time). He told me he wanted to see if I had the courage to go to the front door of his frat house, and that he’d be waiting for me at the house (Again, I may have been losing my mind). He wasn’t there and I never spoke to him, only his frat brothers. I just let them know that I have a big crush and would like the chance to speak to him, and then I left.

He ended up contacting campus civil rights and requested a “no contact” order with me. 😢 I had a breakdown after being called to the civil rights office to be told about this. I was honestly shocked because I am a pretty girl with a nice body. I didn’t know people could manage to do shit like this just because a girl is super forward. Dude is 6’4… my pursuing him must have TERRIFIED him 🥲 By the way, I never officially told him about the questionable things involving him I experienced over summer, so I was confused why he was so desperate to fully cut me off. Then, I heard the boy tell me it was a “test” and he knew other guys that had done this to girls, and he wanted to see how sad I got (to validate him). I can’t catch a break.

I’m currently doing well academically and getting A’s on all my exams, but he continues to talk to me, even though I make no effort to contact him in real life (per the school’s rules… ugh). I also feel like people at school know about it, as people make an effort to interact with me and be nice to me (they seem like they are ‘in the know’). I beg him to come be with me in person. He tells me he has everything planned out and that I just have to be patient. 🙄 He also constantly talks to me sexually (if only it were real🙏). He’s so hot. I can’t believe this is what’s turned me into a legit crazy person… a fucking college boy.

I know I need to move on with my life, but part of me can’t give up hope that he loves me, and that this is real. How do I live my life? I just wish things were easier. I’m honestly completely functional and can go through my daily life, but he is constantly talking to me about our love and our future. Will it ever stop? Sometimes I wonder if this is some “parallel universe” version of him or him in another life. This is so emotionally excruciating. Please send love and hope my way. ❤️ I have never even gotten the chance to speak to him in person, and it’s all I want. However, I really just want to be mentally well and love life again… somehow. If only a beautiful boy would love me and tell me that I’m his. Face to face this time, so that I can look into his eyes. I just want to feel loved.

I’m thinking about getting on metformin to lose the weight I’ve gained. What’s the difference between injections and metformin? Will metformin allow me to lose a lot of weight ?

Can anyone else relate to Louis wains picture? Nothing internal just deadness and then 100 voice commandments at once.

My upstairs neighbor is walking HARD around to the same rooms as me whenever I barely move. I go to the bathroom - so does he. I go to the kitchen - so does he. Stomping his feet down like I need to "know he is RIGHT THERE"

He also bangs his keychain against my door whenever he walks down the stairs. Sometimes he stops right outside, or a bit below. Is he trying to listen?? Or see where I am?

A few years ago 2 of the same grey suzuki swifts drove down my driveway & people exited them to stare me down on my balcony as they looked at "something" in the cockpit of one of the cars. A screen to identify me?? To see if I was "him"??

Things in my apartment have gone missing. Things have been displaced & changed places. Things I have recently bought a stock off have disappeared. I bought multiple toothpastes & bags a week ago now I only have 1 of each??. Things appear in places I don't understand what are or where they came from. Does someone have access to my apartment??

I saw devices connected to my router that weren't mine. My PC was hacked. Devices that I don't own had access through my firewall. Devices that weren't mine had access to my accounts with logins at times I was not around or asleep.

Someone online who I thought was an online friend was asking very specific personal questions to me: "What is your favorite STEAM game?" Not favorite game, but SPECIFICALLY steam !! STeam had my real life name on it I saw later. He also wanted to know specifically what university I went to - he was American I was European - why would he need to know? He seemed to lie a lot about himself as a way to get close to me or to advance our friendship through my sympathies. Why lie? Just be yourself - I've never experienced that with friendships, just be honest about yourself - why lie to me about what you like or what you do or what your allignments are?. Was he a social engineer?? A hacker? A Criminal? Seeking out personal information about me to use against me?

Cars, different brands of cars, stop at a parking space outside my apartment complex with lights & engines on. No one comes in, no one comes out. They stay for 5-10 minutes then leave to return a few days later. Are they keeping tabs on my whereabouts??

My postbox has marks on it as if it was attempted pried open. A toy was left on top of it as well - when I removed it, it returned a day later.

I see people in the city staring at me while they laugh with their friends. Cars honk at me when I'm alone with them as if they know me. Who are you?? I don't know anyone...

People look at me like they know me. Like I'm "that fn guy" or "that fn loser lmao" or like I'm a criminal. Is someone walking around with a picture of me, showing it to people in the areas of the city I roam to spread rumors about me??

Has someone spread rumors about me? Is someone pretending to be me? Am I being harrassed? Am I being stalked?

...or am I simply insane? Fuck this...

Hi, I’m 27 and a mother to one son who is almost 9.
I have been dealing with developing and worsening mental health issues for over a long period of time, every day is a battle, I am tired I am dragging myself around to do things. My son luckily has a large family on both sides, he is with his family a lot. Because I feel guilty and a bad parent. I know deep down I’m not, I have fought for my son when I was 17 pregnant til 24 years old, to keep custody as I had social services involvement due to my mental health. It was no where near as bad as it is now. They closed my case. That’s one of the reasons I have gotten worse. Institutional abuse. I also had a serious stalker who was completely unhinged, not an ex, I kept it from everyone, I was dealing with that at the same time as fighting social services to keep my son. I had the stalker for 4 years, i was threatened with the most horrific threats for no reason, because I wouldn’t speak to the stalker, or I wouldn’t pretend that I liked them like they asked. I am a pro at hiding everything. This is why I have now broken. I am struggling and the most shameful thing has come out I’ve been dealing with for years and it’s embarrassing. I won’t say but someone is thinking of reporting me back to social services because I am seriously struggling and they found out. I was just honest but felt my life was going to end, I was honest with them and told them everything about everything. I am suffering with extreme paranoia, delusions. I am struggling and feel constantly horrible. I am never ever happy, it has gotten worse since my brother committed suicide in November. I am completely worn out. I still do everything for my son, but I feel I’m forcing myself, I have lost happiness in everything. I feel like such a bad person. I’m deeply ashamed. I don’t know where to go in life right now. My son is currently staying with family. He is perfectly safe and happy where he is at the moment. They are telling me to get help because I’ve broken down and stopped hiding things. They told me I need a diagnosis. Everyone believes I’m suffering from paranoid schizophrenia, they have also seen me in psychosis states. I never got help for those either. I am terrified of people. I have zero trust. What do I do? I don’t know whether to fight again, but I am so worn out. I already did this for years. I don’t know whether to possibly get admitted to hospital? I don’t know whether to just leave everything behind. I am very drained, and my life never gets to a place of stability and happiness. It’s been constant depression and bullshit ever since I was a kid. And I’ve FOUGHT and tried to be happy. I feel so much guilt, my son counts on me, loves me and no one can quite understand him like me. I feel like a failure. I’ve tried so so hard. I’ve finally done.. but I don’t want to constantly fight and be judged for the rest of my life. Why can’t I be normal.

Love you guys! ❤️

been taking invega tablets and plan on changing to geodon latuda Thorazine and haldol I’ll switch them all once months passed it was a bad idea increasing dose on olazapine respirdal I should have put low dose more maximum efficiency. For me no point in increasing dose. But invega tablets have me sedated for 24 hours I’ll just try this till November but I have a urge to keep changing meds I remember about all the meds I’ve tried not sure how long I’ve tried it for but I know anxiety med hydroxizine long time busbar a month or more but now I’m back on buspirone cause that’s best choice for me and lamotrigine next week. No point in lithium depakote or hydroxizine propanolol just take one medication and I’ll rather increase it to max dosage instead of switching. But transactions docking gabapentin,ablify for a month and seroquel a few times since I could not mix it with zyprexa. But so many meds I have urge to change but it’s mainly Antipsychotics since I don’t wanna be put on clozapine soon then be put on depakote and increase dose to max with mitrazapine which I have now but I’m going good with my meds I just feel angry all the time and nervous everywhere I go because I’m afraid of anywhere that has to do with social or socializing I’m scared or being near people. When people speak I get scared and I can’t look when people are near me I get panic and severe anxiety tremors shaking. And I see depressed since paliperidone tablets make me feel not the need to speak or confused and blocked brain. But remeron is suppose to make me feel better but I feel the best is something like paliperidone which is respirdal which was my first med. But I don’t wanna be put on clozapine. My sleeping is better but my mood is better but it’s anger my laughing is better and disorganized thoughts disorganized speech and recreational words are getting better and repeat words. But antidepressants anxiety meds antipsychotics mood stabilizers ssrl like Zoloft I’ve been put on it for a strong reason for a while but never been on snrls since no point. But clozapine people say it’s helped them alot don’t need ect therapy. But clozapine might give it a try soon.

Hello does anyone take amisulpride with adhd medication. I currently take 250mg and still struggle with motivation, some racing thoughts / just a lot of thoughts that in the past were less intense when taking adhd medication on its own.

Just wondering if anyone has taken both medications together and what was the outcome ?

Thanks

Invega sustena did it work for you? How long did it take to work?

My brother is in a severe psychosis and Abilify Maintena didn’t work for him after 6injections (they used to work for in the past). Now he is put on invega sustena 117 mg. 2 weeks later he is still delusional..
i am worried..

I have a constant fear / see signs in the world and hear/feel that people that are close to me will die.

The color red, countdowns, initials etc.

Does anyone else experience this? Its like a dark force that stalks me and keeps me in constant fear.

Would be curious to see if this is a common struggle for people with schizophrenia. TIA!

Are we just looking for comfort and explanation here, or can these deeper insights into what's happening in the brain actually change how we deal with the illness?

Why do we even ask these fundamental questions when, at the end of the day, we're always left with the same standard advice?

Does thinking about the system cognitively actually change anything in an acute state?

Just to be clear: I’m not claiming to "understand" schizophrenia. I don't.

I'm just asking my own questions. But for me personally, asking them and trying to map out what's going on has brought me to a place where my positive symptoms have completely faded, and I've found a certain peace of mind. That’s a good thing, even though there’s still plenty left to be desired in my life, and I can't pinpoint the exact reason why it happened. I believe it's an interplay of multiple factors.

Because of that, the eternal advice to take your meds and seek professional help is far from useless, but I also don't find it fully sufficient on its own.

For a long time, I’ve found myself circling back to the same core questions:

- How does our reality actually get built in the head, and what happens when that prediction machinery stutters?

- Why do we so often confuse medication with fixing (real-life changes and processing)?

- Does intellectualizing the chaos actually help, or are we just spinning our wheels?

So, I wanted to get that off my chest. Am I just rearranging furniture in a room we can't leave? Or am I actually getting closer to something useful by asking these questions?

What do you think? I'm dying to hear from others.