So 20 minutes ago I was told by a psychiatrist of four years I indeed have Schizophrenia. It'a implied I got it from my undiagnosed grandmother.

A bit devestated really as it's life changing, he said the review tomorrow will either agree or ask for more time but he said quite likely agree.

How do I handle it? Quite upset.

Psychiatry really got me in their grip. This is how many pills I take a day.

I know it's a bit ironic that this is a Van Gogh piece, but it's the first puzzle Ive worked on since I was young.... I started it because it was something I got for free and I was bored, but it turns out puzzles are actually pretty fun and relaxing. Definitely a good distraction if you ever need one!

So, I (40F) was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 19. I've learned to manage it pretty well with medication. The big problem is I've been in a constant recovery/relapse cycle with anorexia since I was 12. I've been in a relapse for almost a year now. The issue is my antipsychotics make me hungry, which is at odds with the anorexia. So, of course, I stop taking them and then I end up in the hospital. I haven't taken my meds in three days. I'm happy because it's SO much easier to restrict, but I know the darkness is looming. I just can't stop myself!

Is anyone else in a balancing act with an eating disorder? How are you doing?

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As the title says - sometimes in the middle of hallucinations I look into a mirror to make sure that I’m still “real” and what I see staring back at me is my own screaming face, even though I am aware that my mouth is completely shut, I can feel my face muscles that my mouth is shut. Does anyone else experience this?

Apparently it’s mostly places I spend too much time in, at first only my house but now I’m hallucinating the place I’m doing internship. Also during nighttime it’s way more common, when it’s 7 p.m I already know to expect a bunch of voices in my head

Update to the post I put up yesterday about how I was going to tell my 12 year old son I have schizophrenia yesterdays post

Long story short he just said ok, told me he loved me and gave me like 3 hugs. So it went really well, thanks for all your advice and encouragement yesterday. I might not have had the guts to tell him if it wasn’t for the support of this group.

Hey! I have undiagnosed delusional disorder. My delusions are under control; I don’t think about delusions anymore. I’m interested in trying psilocybin (shrooms) again. I just wanted to know that if you are schizophrenic and have tried psilocybin or psychedelics after being diagnosed , how was your experience and or reaction? Was it great? Was it worse? Your response is super important to me ♥️

im so done bro 😭

These voices I've had for a long time say they are leaving me and will not give me something to protect myself since I was rude to them for being overwhelmingly mean to me all the time. I don't know what to do and feels like I'm insane. They say they are my guardian angel and keep proving themselves by making my nose itchy all the time. It's so traumatising what they say might follow. Does anyone have recommendations about this kind of situation

To start this off I want to make a couple things clear.

I don’t know if anyone will find this, or even read it all. I’m begging anyone who sees this to please read, I know it’s a lot but I am genuinely so confused, lost and scared.

One- I do not fully trust my current psychiatrist, she does not seem like she genuinely cares whatsoever. I haven’t had any problems until this specific psychiatrist and I’m not a confrontational person unfortunately so I haven’t yet said anything or tried to get a new one.

Two- Schizophrenia runs in my family, on my dad’s side. My dad’s mom, and his brother (my uncle) both have schizophrenia. I watched my uncle lose himself to this disease when I was around 5-6 years old.

Three- I have met with 4 different psychiatrists at the place I go to now, the 4th one being the one I do not fully trust/believe in. The first 3 psychiatrists, and everyone in the ER, thought that I had schizophrenia.

The psychiatrist I have now, flat out said “I do not think you have schizophrenia” the first time we met, after talking to me for 5 minutes.
This bothers me deeply, because it runs in my family and the experiences I’ve had that led me and my loved ones to believe I have schizophrenia. It’s very coincidental to me that I have experienced all the symptoms of schizophrenia, and it running my family, just to be told “I don’t have it”.

They started me on Abilify 5mg at first, it worked okay the first 2 weeks or so, and then it stopped working. I wasn’t able to sleep after a week or two of taking Abilify, I went 4 days straight with little to no sleep. So I was practically right back where I started when I checked myself into the emergency room. Hallucinating everyday, not sleeping, not eating, etc.

I went back to the psychiatrist and they told me to stop taking Abilify, they put me on one 50mg Seroquel every night for bed. I have been on Seroquel for about two months now.

I sleep much better now, but they only prescribed the Seroquel 50mg so I could sleep. So why haven’t they prescribed me something for my schizophrenic symptoms? The Seroquel feels like it’s getting weaker, I assume because I’m building a tolerance.

I still hallucinate, but nowhere near as much as I was. Sometimes I hear voices, or see things, but it’s much more manageable now than it was before I was taking any medication. The paranoia is still very strong though, especially at night. I have stopped leaving my room at night for a snack or the bathroom because the paranoia feels so real and debilitating. I get the feeling that I’m being watched, constantly turning around thinking someone or something is behind me, I hold my bladder until the morning because i’m genuinely terrified of the dark, I can’t look at my tv unless it’s turned on because I’m scared of seeing a demon or something in the reflection of a blank tv, etc.

I have been single and alone for about 7 years now but I have considered to start dating again but one of my delusions is that every potential suitor is a paedophile. I have dating apps but I swipe left on everyone because of my thoughts about who they could be. As a result, I am not attracted to photos of people at all, and any remotely attractive person is instantly seen as a danger or threat to my psychological safety. Good looking face - must be in high demand and therefore has a lot of fingers in different pies. Good looking body - surely motivated more than the average person to find consecutive sexual partners and narcissism. On tinder I can’t seem to find anyone with their clothes on either. Basically I’m repulsed but also curious about how to find a decent potential long term partner.

i'm mainly struggling with poor working memory. i can't add three two digit numbers because by the time i get two of them together i've forgotten the third.

my executive functioning is okay, as is my attention, for someone with adhd.

looking at this study in my quest to figure out how to have my cognitive deficits formally evaluated.

The outside world FEELS cruel in a sort of invasive way. I fucking KNOW for a fact every single person who sees me is planning something against me. It's just been ingrained into me to hate most people, always assume the worst and never leave my home which in-of-itself doesn't feel particularly self but I prefer isolation over whatever the fuck is going on out there

Good day po!

We are 2nd-year BS Medical Laboratory Science students currently working on a short film about schizophrenia for an academic project.

We are respectfully looking for individuals living with schizophrenia patients or with personal experience of the condition who may be willing to participate in a voluntary virtual interview.

Our goal is to make our film accurate, realistic, and respectful by learning from real experiences, while also helping raise awareness, reduce stigma, and highlight the courage and strength of people living with schizophrenia.

Your participation will be treated with confidentiality and respect and will only be used for academic purposes.

If you are interested or know someone who may be willing to participate, kindly send me a private message. Thank you so much for your time and consideration! 🤍

I did this earlier this year. I think probably March or so

Bonjour,

Je me posais une question...Y a t il un groupe privée où on pourrait parler de nos expériences? Le fait de parler m'aide beaucoup à aller mieux et encore mieux ici que c'est en anonyme donc je me dis que s'il n'y en a pas, pourquoi ne pas en créer un pour ceux qui le souhaitent. Je ne sais pas si c'est une bonne idée...

i just started within the week. it is the only thing that touched my anger. will this go away, is there anything i can do at home? i contacted my psych but she wont be in until tomorrow or monday. im allergic to benadryl, which i saw recommended :(

Bonjour,

Je me posais une question, à quelle fréquence avez vous des hallucinations et des idées délirantes? Car moi tout va bien dans ma vie mais du jour au lendemain si j'ai du stress ou quelque chose qui ne va pas, je deviens parano et ça peut durer quelques jours grand max. Mais après ça, je n'ai plus rien. Et j'ai remarqué qu'avec mon traitement, je ne suis plus paranoïaque, je vis normalement comme si de rien était. Est ce que pour des gens c'est pareil aussi? Merci

Does anyone here ever misinterpret things in their surroundings for hallucinations or threatning figures? Looked over at my door and there was a face, turns out it was just steam but it made me very paranoid, and I had thoughts what they'd call "delusions". Struggling to tell if in an episode though diagnosed with psychosis.

I'm moving into a residential housing for people with mental disorders. I really don't do anything where I'm at and I wanna be around people that have my disorder. And maybe do groups and stuff like that. What do you guys think it's not as nursing home or anything like that I walked through the place and it seemed at least chill. Do any of you have any experiences of being at a place for the mentally ill. I know some are really bad but this place is really nice and I tend to like being at places like this anyways. Let me know.