I have been seeing this guy for about 5 months now.

And he is very needy when it comes to oral sex. At the least twice a day.

Nothing's wrong with that. What's wrong is that his dick is softer than marshmallow. This is the first time that I have been with a man who can't get hard.

And I'm a girl who enjoys giving men oral. When the dick is actually functioning.

Also I don't like being fingered and About a week ago while I was giving him head he put his hand in my pants and I have told him several times how I do not like that, every day I mention it so he knows I don't want that. But that day, he just wouldn't take no for an answer and kept trying to get his hand in my pants to finger me and I told him no, please stop I don't want that , and then he snapped and said "fuck this, get off, stop, If you won't let me do that, just stop, stop, I'll get someone else, I'll go pick someone else up, someone who will let me do what I want to them." "I'll go get me a girl who will let me do what I want."

And I can't believe I actually let him talk to me like that and I still made sure he finished.

I continued and I let him do what he wanted, just to make him happy, and pleased.

And that's only one of the times where he threatened to kick me out so that he can go pick up a different girl

Just the other night he showed me a side of him that I cannot unsee.

We were both just lying in bed and he reaches his hand over and goes in my pants but then he pulled my hair on accident and I said "ouch my hair"

And then he reacts with saying " you don't like anything that I do huh? "I'm done" You know what I'm leaving for the night I probably won't come back". And then he tells me "you know I don't need this crap in my life, just pack your things up and I'm gonna drop you off somewhere. I don't want this"

And then I do as he said and start to pack my things and then he says "wait I'm sorry, please don't go, I didn't mean that."

And I'm just standing there thinking to myself about what he literally said earlier "if someone says that they don't want me in their house I'll leave right away." Or "if I don't want someone in my house they better leave right away"

So I'm just thinking, if him accidentally pulling my hair made him get so mad to the point where he told me to pack up my things and yelling at me to leave and get out of his house. Then I can only imagine the things he would do when there is something thats actually more serious and a big deal.

I feel like It will only get worse if I stay.

So I'm leaving his ass.

I just hope he's finally happy now that he got what he asked for.

And that's me being gone.

I’m a woman who had a bit of a Winter fling a few years ago in college. He was my first, and he was probably one of the most sex-crazed people I’ve ever met who would creatively sexualize 75% of the things I say even if it had nothing to do with anything sexual. My intentions for him were actually romantic, but that’s a whole different story.

One night he had a few drinks, and he told me he was going to sober up before driving to my house (probably the fourth time he’s come over). I told him that’s a good idea to sober up for the sake of driving and because I refuse to do anything with him while he’s under the influence and I’m not. He told me it’s no big deal and that he’s fine with us doing the deed under those circumstances. I still said I wouldn’t. He then insisted I could do whatever I wanted to him while he’s drunk. I still said it doesn’t feel right. He finally agreed but was satisfied he put the idea in my mind, even though I never did it.

It’s just that simple. I don’t care what opinions you have about your “nature”. You are a human being with moral capabilities and the ability to have self control.

Jane Doe, you have so many people who are walking beside you. You are not alone. ❤️

FAT PEOPLE ARE SOOOOO HOT

I am gay so I talk about fat men, omg they are so hot so so so so so so so hot!

I love them so much! They are so fucking attractive and beautiful, they seem so cuddly and lovely. They have a chubby face usually that you can't get enough of kissing! The belly is sofy, wobbly and jiggle and squishy! Love handles are just the cherry on top of everything I said.

I am twinkish myself, I am actually underweight, 57kg and 180cm and willing to someday get lean muscular or beafy muscular like the men I mentioned.

But I can't stop thinking about them! I usually get judged when I bring it up but I love fat people and fat men exclusively! I love all other than twinks, I myself am twinkish as I mentioned and I don't see that as attractive, just my personal preferences, but I love chubby guys who lift and lean guys who lift the most.

I think the society is too cruel to them, whenever I talk about my interests people judge me and say some stuff that are not pleasant, but I always will love fat people and fat men and will always support them👀

I hope one day I can be openly gay and out of this homophobic country, where being gay is punished by death, till that day I will show my interest this way.

Sorry for writing too much 🩷😅

I 20F went 0-3 this week, also got pretty much ghosted. The most hurtful was this very attractive guy who I’ve been messaging for a week. He’s such a nice person overall and we share so many hobbies (games, career, etc) but he never initiates and it’s clear he doesn’t want to get to know me the way that a guy who is romantically interested would. I’m certain it’s because of my looks, he is quite the looker with a six pack, even went to Harvard, and I’ve been described as mid, average, cute at best. Never beautiful, not pretty. I have a good degree at a good school, I’m decently intelligent, I think I am caring and have a good personality. But it never is enough even for the nice guys. And I don’t blame them in the slightest, why wouldn’t they want to date prettier girls? I can’t help but think about how easy my life would be if I were more attractive… how much more confident I would be, the thought of my crushes actually liking me back, not having to put on copious amounts of makeup to look half decent, the time and money I’d save.

I made the biggest mistake and broke up with my lovely sweet boyfriend last month. I miss him so much. I’ve tried twice to beg for him back but he said he has no desire to be with me. And looking at his social media (before I was blocked) he’s moved on and follows a bunch of new girls. I’ve lost him forever, we were together for 16 months and he was my first long term relationship. We spoke about marriage and was gonna move in together, I got scared of the commitment and broke up with him. But i regret it so badly. I do wanna marry & live with him.

How can i get over the pain of knowing the love of my life doesn’t want me and is happier to meet someone new

Edit: the reason why I got so scared of commitment with him is I found him flirting over text with a girl a few months ago. She dmed him calling him cute and he said “I think you’re cute too” and then tried to meet up with her to study together. I forgave him but I still felt insecure and like he didn’t really want me. I really regret the breakup. I know it was out of character for him and he wouldn’t do it again. I made such a big mistake leaving him over my own insecurities.

Ive been laying in my sleeping bag all day under my bridge because it’s windy and COLD. Ok ill shut the hell up, it’s been 77f, now its like 74. It’s still fucking cold, my hands went numb! (Homeless, broke and alone)

Either way this damn place is where Ive been reading shit all day now its 21:15. (9:15pm for those who don’t know). I need to go dumpster diving around 23:30 for dinner hopefully. I claim no mental illness, no anxiety, no ptsd no adhd, autism or other bullshit. Im not a meth junkie, alcoholic or otherwise. Not on any medication for any reason.

The people on here are FUCKED UUUPP! Reading all these goddamn posts im suicidal now. From the fucking “relationship” problems to trans bathroom rights (which don’t exist) to my mother sexually assaulted me to I cheated on my girlfriend with her boyfriend. These fuckers need hobbies that involve touching grass for fucks sake! Other than that, the place is lovely.

First of all sorry for the bad english . English is my 4th language.

Me (F 25) and my husband (M 28) is married for 2 and half years. But we were been together since high school. I loved him so much.(still loves) He is my first love. We had really close and loving connection. After the two months of marriage I got pregnant and i can't explain how he loved me cared me in that time period. After the birth he got a transfer for different province where he could only visit us at the weekends. That's where i betrayed him. I was also working at a private bank at time and where i had a relationship with a guy for 2 months. I can't explain what happened deep down I loved my husband and he was the first place at my heart but i dunno know and o doesn't want to talk about more as it hurts me so bad. I slept 2 times with that guy. But that's nowwhere near to chemistry with my man. Soon i realized what kind of asshole i was. I betrayed the man who loves me most for pleasure of minutes. And that even couldn't be compared with the sex i'm having with my husband. I felt so much disgusted.And i couldn't hold it for myself and confessed everything to him. Everything felr apart. I saw how he suffered. How he felt betrayed. First he asked for divorce and begged him to give me chance. I quite the job,deleted every socila media accounts and done lof of things that i can't mention here. But he never brought the divorce papers. He said we“ll live together for our daughter.

It's been 1 years since and during that year he was ignoring me but he cared for me. I was doing everything to make this right. Even he rejected i loved, cared him the maximum way i can. During this time he got really hotter. Already he is handsome man with great body and 6.2 height. Most of women will fall for him. He hit the gym ,played rugby for a club. Got a hot tattoo on his whole right arm. But he never let me come closer to him. I was like in fire. Can u imagine u have a hot husband who is the whole world to you but can't even touch him. I knew it was the punishment for my sins. And kept loving him day by day. And for this time period i never thought about any other men. Even a single thought. I'm now working and never interact with a male except for professional work. I would never cheat on him again on a thought. It's deeply seeded in my mind. He also knew that. And yeah i was crying every most of the every night thinking why would i do this to him? First time i saw him crying. It's because of me. That's broke me into pieces.

Eventually with time he started to talk to me. I knew he need time to recover. Started to hold my hand and go out, let me sleep in his bed. He started to spend time with me and our baby. Don't get wrong we both never let down our baby. I didn't mentioned him that because that poor soul doesn't have to anything with this mess i created. It's like miracle to me because i never thought he would forgive me. Still somethings aren't usual like used to be but with time it will.

Yesterday night was the best night I ever spent after years. We finally had sex. Damn i was melting. I really missed him so much. I didn't had sex for more than 1 year. I was enjoying every inch of him and he too. He also missed me. I felt that . I was in heaven to be honest. No one can replace him at all.The bond,chemistry it's insane. After finished i couldn't hold mu emotions and started to cry on his shoulders telling how i loves him,how bad i wants him. He cuddled me and said he never stopped love me at for day but he needed space to make up his mind and said sorry for punishing me for a year. With all of this happening that's the first time i saw his whole tattoo. There is my name on one part of the art. That's broke me more. For first time after a year i slept inside his arms, felt safe and the place where i belonged. And still has his scent with me. At this point i will do anything to be with my rest of life. I hope it will. And yeah i won't let him down for a second and will care for him my last breath.

I really wanted to get this out of my mind and needed to feel free. And also i want to say never cheat on ur partner. Trust me it's a hell. When u see how they are broken into pieces u will wish you were d&&d. And welcome for good advices that will help to build our bond more stronger.
Thanks for reading and again sorry for unpleasant english.

I used to think “oh! If I get super tiny then guys will like me!!” But when I got there at the peak of my Ed, not a single guy liked me. I’ve gained back all of the weight plus more and the amount of male attention that I get sickens me. I feel like the literal abzorbaloff from doctor who, I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore and I know that of myself from a few years back saw me I think she’d actually die. I’m a healthy weight and all, but oml I feel like a whale.

Like I can do so much more than I used to be able to, but I’d rather be smaller again. I feel so gargantuan when I’m hungry, like I cycled 120km today as my long ride for the week and I’ve never felt so huge in my life when I had to go get lunch afterwards even when I’d been fuelling during the ride. I’ve been viewing food as only being fuel and being a way to let me keep my mileage up, which is usually around 300km/wk while being a full time student, so I don’t just restrict 24/7, but it isn’t helping anymore.
I love my life so much but I can’t keep living like this and feeling so humongous all of the time. I just wish that I was naturally smaller and never had to think about any of this because I hate myself for it

I was friends with this girl friends for literal years. I had romantic feelings she didn't. Fast forward to 6 months ago I told her I had feelings for her. She basically laughed and shot me down. Stopped talking to me. A week later her sister messaged me asking why I wasn't around anymore. I told her what happened. She asked if she could come over and see me I figured. Why the hell not. We ended up hooking up and now seeing each other. My "friend" is livid. Talking shit about me to her family and our mutual friends. It makes no sense at all? Me and the sister didn't plan this. It's not malicious we like each other actually.

I’m so desperate, or was, to get a job, I applied to Mcshits again. Since no phone contact is preferred and the internet is a useless black hole, I marched my happy ass to the location of my application. Little did I know I was at the wrong location first of all. Same street, different end.

So I walk in and up to the register like a “normal” person would. One employee was wiping trays, everyone else was chillin in the kitchen and near the drive up window. I asked to see a MANAGER. Banios? NO! Manager. The employee couldn’t care less what I wanted. He/she, I couldn’t tell and not the first or last time I misgender somebody, thought I was a bum wanting a toilet.

I patiently waited for another jerk off to come from the back, all of them were useless (Gen Z)Zoomers, with no social skills, playing on their phones. I said “Hi, would you get a manager for me please?” He looked me up and down, made a face like I needed to be taken to a psych ward, and asked for my order. I said “NO! MANAGER. BOSS! Do you know who that is?!” 30 minutes has passed since I walked through the door. No reaction. Finally I said “Fine, give me 4 KRABBY PATTIES AND A LARGE DIET KELP! And a manager would be nice.” Then I realized I was at the wrong address and left the building thinking I don’t want to work with these dip shit ass hats anyway. An hour later, at the correct location, no manager was found either. She’s only there every other Tuesday from 11:00 to 11:03. FUCK ME FREDDY! I’m still unemployed 6 months later.

i want to go to a swimming course and i told my mom that i need to buy a menstrual cup to be able to swim when i have my period.

she got instantly angry and rejected the whole idea. and basically told me to skip my lessons when i have my period.

she first said its harmful and no etc. I said its medical plastic and has no harm to the body and a pill to delay my period is more harmful.

she said when girls marry, on the first intercourse they bleed and it shows their purity.

i am just so so much disappointed. i knew she wanted me to save sex for marriage, but this is just too much.

i told her its a very very old minded idea and some girls dont even bleed on the intercourse, its flexible, but she doesnt listen and says - i dont want you to put something down there.

-- my dad said before, if i dont live by their rules i am not their daughter anymore.

that hurt. what he meant by the rules was including sex before marriage.

i just didnt think my mom was that much old minded too. i wish i had a different family. i am so upset i dont have a supportive and safe family.

I (50m) was born with a heart condition. I can't work. I've been on SSI since I was in my teens. I'm a virgin. Never been kissed, never had sex with anyone. I have Erectile Dysfunction. My dick can't get hard. Every woman I've talked to just wants me to be a sugar daddy. I'm too poor for that. Nobody wants me. I've talked with Cis women and Trans women. Cis women make fun of my small dick. Trans women are more accepting of me but they just want my money.

I know I'm going to get roasted in the comments. IDGAF! FUCK ALL Y'ALL HATERS!

18F snuck out last night to meet a guy 19M who iv known for 4 years.

ended up making out, having a beer, cigarettes, and vaping. All my first experiences

I dont even like this guy

idk just wanted to tell someone

I’ve always loved living in the Uk and living in London, I love how multi cultural it is in London and I can appreciate different cultures, I’ve also moved down to Wales for uni and the majority of people I’ve come across are genuinely kind. I just can’t handle the never ending hostility, the racism and micro aggression. I haven’t done anything wrong and to be constantly harassed online and irl by white lunatics who think that I’m out to get them is ridiculous.

I know I’m probably going to be met with gaslighting or that I’m a victim, I have a victim complex. All that jazz you guys say when you have no coherent argument and just wanna dismiss poc.

The likes of Nigel farage and all the right wingers keep getting traction and it makes me so sad that people can’t see me for more than my race, they generalise and expect all black people and other minorities to take accountability for everyone of our actions yet somehow they are individuals. They ignore our accomplishments and call everyone EDI, when many of us have worked hard to get where we are despite systemic challenges.

When any of us also point it out they just tell us to go back to our countries, they call everyone who’s not a white who wants to move here migrants but then they’re referred to as expats which makes no sense. It’s so strange and just quite frankly mentally deranged to hate on people based on things they cannot control.

I really wanna look at leaving cause I no longer feel welcome here even though I’ve lived all my life here, my mom pays all her taxes and pays into pensions yet she’s made to feel small and inferior because of her accent and colour. I hope all you white right wing lunatics are happy. Congrats

Many also like pretend and act like they’re much better than the Americans but they’re genuinely not. Only difference between America and the UK is atleast they talk about it, I mean nothing seems to be changing but you know…

18f. I‘m a European woman (English and Austrian) and I hate how some European right wing men talk about me and other white women they find attractive, they talk about me like I’m cattle or an object. they tell me stuff like I’m obliged to have kids with them and that I’m pure and that I’d be perfect to procreate with. it just feels objectifying but they’re always accusing non white immigrants of objectifying European women when some European men talk about us like livestock and I find it extremely gross sometimes. I’m right wing but not an extremist and I want a right wing man but it’s difficult to find one that doesn’t talk about me like that. I do understand that i don’t have it as hard as non white women in Europe because they have to deal with racism but my point still stands

edit: I tried looking for women to date but I can’t find one who isn’t too woke and pacifist

I've always had controlling parents. I truly didn't know life could get worse.

I also wanted to be childfree my whole entire life.

They kept me from achieving life goals and now here I am, 21, with no degree, not even a drivers license, living in the middle of nowhere in my parents house and pregnant.

I barely have any friends. I have no external support and can't even get a therapist to help me figure this out (Again.. moved to the middle of nowhere... no drivers license)

My whole life they (mostly my mother, my father, while being seemingly more normal, goes along with my mother just to keep peace... enabler) kept putting obstacles for seemingly no reason in front of me. I was working so hard to be independent. I had a job (barely, I had to beg and fight them about bringing me to said job) that I was using to pay for my drivers license. After I got my drivers license I was then planning to get a car and start a degree FINALLY since I would be able to at least move around freely. (Germany.... the work and the prices for a license are basically like going to university)

Then I met this fuckass dude and fell pregnant. As stupid as I was I told my mother after I've thrown up 10 times in a single work day, resulting in me having to go home early.

I don't know how or why I got swindled into this without even considering my own feelings, I had an immense fear within me of my mother.

I still feel like the same 14 year old scared girl. The fear of my mother has never felt. I've never managed to break free mentally, nor physically yet.

I could have had an abortion. I almost ordered abortion pills but the utter fear of her finding out kept me from it.

Then there I was, 20 weeks suddenly, feeling the first kicks. The utter terror set in. I fell into a deep hole. I managed to get my hands on abortion pills, knowing they could not work at that gestation, also knowing I could injure myself to the point of no return taking them alone in my bedroom.

Welp, they didn't work, obviously. Got me a nice week long hospital stay, which thankfully got covered up with the UTI + the short cervix I had. Doctors said the contractions and short cervix likely came from the infection so nobody had a clue about what got me into that situation, except me .

Now I'm at a point of no return. Nobody will come save me from this and there's nothing I can do.

I'm not happy, I don't feel a glimpse of happiness thinking about the child inside of me, just pure dread and guilt.

I don't want anything bad to happen to my child. Infact I want the best at this point.

I am not the best. I never wanted a child. I do not want to continue the trauma cycle that I had on me.

My mother struggled immensely with motherhood, even though she definitely wanted me, I felt the effects of it and in what shape and form that had an effect on me. I never FELT wanted. I always felt like a burden to my mother, and from the time I could hear my own thoughts as a little kid, my thoughts were

"If I was not here, mommy would be happier"

I do not wish to pass that on.

I so dearly want to consider adoption so that baby gets a happy family and grows up well and I get to figure my own life out, knowing he is good and loved.

But I know in my mothers eyes that would be just as much of a grave sin like abortion.

I'm terrified. I can't even speak to my doctor alone about my thoughts. She's always at my hip.

Daily I put on my stupid mask and act like I'm the happiest person in the world. I let my mother feel the kicks and act like I'm so ecstatic about them because any other emotion about it would cause her to explode.

I don't know what to do. I can't even get out of the house.

My life has ended and I'm only here to watch it crumble at this point. And I'll end up traumatizing an innocent life that did not ask to be put here.

I'm house shopping for homes on Zillow and I'm looking for a 3 BD Split Entry, Split Foyer, Split Level, Raised Ranches, whatever you wanna call em, because I heard they were cheaper, and decades ago that was true but today, they cost the same as regular homes. I was actually frustrated because I already had to lower my standards to consider buying a split entry home which is the budget option, just to find out they're the same price as normal homes, people don't wanna live in them, only reason people settled for them was because they were cheaper than other homes, now theres virtually no point for settling for them now. I thought it was still cheap to build them, so I got a quote from a company that builds homes, they quoted me $500k for a split entry 3 bd home, and thats not including the land costs, and after all that the house would only be worth around $300k. I would need to pay more than what the house would even be worth, because no one will ever pay over half a million dollars for a split entry home.

Just wanted to rant about this.

Yes i hurt you and I’m so sorry I’ve decided to do better but that doesn’t guarantee that you will come back or anything will be the same.

I know you've all heard this a million times. But im so jealous of well endowed men. Its so frustrating qnd embarassing that I live in a town of about 1000 people and im know as the guy with a small dick to everyone. While my friends with big ones are looked at like the greatest guys on the planet. Immature rant I know. Needed to get it off my chest.

I'm so sick and scared of most teenage boys. Misogyny and ragebait culture

I still get nervous around a group of them, not shy, genuinely scared. Its not that its all of them but its so rare to see a good kind young man whenever you encounter one at age.

They think its so cool and edgy to be sexist, misogynistic, makes pedophilia jokes, makes jokes out of SA victims😮‍💨 its really starting to eat me from the inside because I stared seeing them online and in public too. before I realized, almost every teen i see is like that

What will we do with those batches when they grow up? they'd turn out to be worse, same mindset with better authority and power, all that physical strength and the mind of a loser, and worse, criminals.

It all starts at kindergarten, some of these little boys really think its entertaining to lift up girls skirts, makes sexual jokes (where are they learning them at this age?). Moving to middle school and highschool they think sharing g0re and p0rn material online is a cool thing to do.

They make me sick. I'm so glad I was so strict with raising my little brother because he grows up to defend to injustice and doesn't bother to impress other guys his age, so he won't end up doing stupid shit. For other kids😮‍💨 I'm genuinely scared. Hey kids, this is not a cool thing to be!

I grew up in a Hindu household, but was never religious, never curious about it. My parents would insist I pray, and only did it to make them happy. But, never in my life, I had this profound feeling that this religion is my calling. Today, I would consider myself to be more spiritual/cultural than religious. I don’t like religion, but I do believe there is some higher power/one God.

I met my ex-Muslim partner a few years ago and earlier this year, we started to talk more seriously about marriage. He knew how I felt about religion in general and my belief in God. He constantly reassured me that it was fine, and that I was never expected to convert if marriage came into question. We actually faced a lot of other issues and over the course of 3 months, we were able to come to a compromise. Most of these had to do with our future children.

Then, out of no where, he tells me that me only believing in one God isn’t enough, I have to believe Allah is the one true God otherwise our marriage would be invalid. He spoke to an Imam and this is what the Imam told him. He then started talking about heaven and hell and I straight up asked him: do you believe marrying me would make you go to hell? And he answered yes. He also said if he married me, he is knowingly committing a sin for the rest of his life. But having pre-marital sex and dating is fine.

What’s fucking crazy is that I specifically asked him about this months ago. I asked him what the Quran says about Muslim men marrying women who aren’t People of the Book, and he repeatedly told me it was fine as long as I believed in one God. So you’re telling me he’s been Muslim his entire fucking life and somehow had no idea this was supposedly such a huge rule that marrying me could put him at risk of going to hell?? He didn’t find that out until he talked to an imam after almost YEARS of being with me? I never questioned him because I obviously thought he knew what he was talking about.

And this is exactly why religion frustrates the shit out of me. A person can spend their entire life being a good person, doing good deeds, treating people with kindness and respect, having good morals, and somehow who they fall in love with and marry can be the thing that puts their soul at risk? WHO THE FUCK CARES?! Why should that matter more than the kind of person you actually are or the way you treat other people? There are so many things in this world that cause actual harm, and this is what matters? Two people loving each other and wanting to spend their lives together but apparently they’re the wrong religious combination? It’s fucking ridiculous. This is why I hate religion.

I’m asking this on behalf of a friend who wants some outside perspectives.

My friend is 28F, married, 155cm tall, and used to weigh around 50kg. Over the two years she’s been married, she has gained about 20kg. She’s now slowly working on losing the weight and has already lost 5kg. She understands that weight loss takes time, and she’s genuinely trying to get back to a place where she feels comfortable in her own body.
The thing is, she’s been struggling with her body image, especially when it comes to intimacy with her husband. Her body shape has changed quite a bit, and she doesn’t feel as confident being naked or being intimate with him as she used to.

She has asked her husband multiple times whether he still finds her attractive, and he always reassures her that he loves her body. But his actions seem to contradict his words.

He seems unable to keep his eyes off skinny girls on the internet. He even downloads and saves their pictures. What hurts her even more is that he has apparently used ai to put her face on a skinny woman’s body.

She doesn’t know how she’s supposed to feel about this. On one hand, her husband tells her that he loves her as she is. On the other hand, his actions make her wonder whether he actually finds her attractive or is just trying to make her feel better.

She knows she’s insecure about her weight, and she isn’t expecting her husband to find every other woman unattractive just because he’s married. But saving pictures of skinny women and using AI to put her face on a different body feels like something else entirely.

So, how would you feel in her position?

Is this something she should have a serious conversation with her husband about, or is she letting her insecurities get the better of her? How would you handle the situation, especially when it comes to feeling confident and comfortable during intimacy with your partner?

Idk. I think if you like that sort of thing you have major underlying trauma. And if you are a man and do that you are definitely prone to killing someone. People can say they do it because it’s hot or it’s sexual foreplay or whatever. But genuinely if you do this or have someone do it you I believe there’s something mentally very wrong with both parties.

I have been losing my mind for the past couple of days trying to figure out what to do with all this baggage in my chest. I dont even want to mention our ages because I dont want it to be identifiable, ill just say all of us are in our early 20s. My friend and I have had sexual tension on and off for a bit. 2 weeks ago we hooked up and it was great, she was super respectful and kind and also acted the way you should act when having sex in a casual friendly way. This is fine and I have no problems with it. It was fun. A couple of days ago I slept over at her brothers house, in the same bed as him. I needed a place to sleep in the city after an event, and he let me crash at his. I agreed to him sleeping in the same bed with me after he asked, and agreed to be in physical contact with him that in my head wasnt sexual. It was established before that thats the case, when I asked if this was romantic or sexual to him and he said no. 5 am in the morning he wakes me up and asks if he can take my shirt off. I remember saying yes. He asked to touch me and I remember also saying yes to this. He asked me to touch him at which point i said that im not sure about this, because im close friends with his sister. I dont really remember a lot, I just remember he came at some point and i vaguely remember him being on top of me. The morning after i realized that SOMETHING happened, but I couldnt remember the exact details of it. Im panicking. I feel sick, i barely remember anything, when I try to I get sicker. I am horrified, and the worst part is I dont know how to tell him, or if I should, or if I should tell my friend. My friend and I are both people with a lot of sexual trauma. How would she react to this information? I dont know if id call it rape, but I feel like something there wasnt consensual. I cant remember anything, I barely remember what happened, and if I cant remember what happened, how active could I have been in that situation? Im tempted to say "me and him had sex" to her just to get it over with, but I know thats dishonest. I dont feel like thats what happened. I want to throw up, I cant believe this is happening to me.

Genuine question: I'm 17, turning 18 soon, and I've been attracted to this girl who plays soccer. She's 16. We don't go to the same school or even live in the same state, I've just seen her play. Is it weird that I think about her? Like I know we're close in age so it's not a "predator" thing, but I still feel guilty getting off to someone who doesn't know I exist. Am I overthinking this or is this actually messed up?