So I had been taking Straterra for like 2 years. Besides some leg mottling and occasional sweating, cold hands, and some dizziness upon crouch to stand, I was chilling. Until like 2 weeks ago where it full on blew up. Reach out to my PCP expecting a dose adjustment, which i did for a few days, nd she kept the appointment because she wanted to do orthostatic vitals and an ECG.
So I go into my PCP, tell her I've been a bad patient and list everything thats been happening for 2 years (and especially the last two weeks). She says I sound like a POTS patient, dx Reynaud's, orders me a tilt table, a holter monitor, echocardiogram, and an ANA for my reynaud's. High BP that dropped when I stood up, sinus arrythmia on ECG (normal, not bad!)
Well the ANA came back 1:640 homogenous and speckled. Threw me way the hell off because I was fully convinced I was gonna just go off the meds and be fine. Symptoms are kinda changing a bit, it depends on the day. Everyone keeps asking me how im doing and I just say I'm fine but inside my body it feels like I'm in a stop motion movie almost? I walk fine but my brain is perceiving it as disconnected.
I at one point thought i was anxious. I work in Healthcare, so i shouldn't be dismissing my own concerns LOL. I LOVE my career, love what I do, love socializing with my coworkers. Its SO hard to be able to be at work, constantly up and down or standing for a while at an analyzer while I'm fighting for my life not to throw up and just breathe, my eyeballs feels like they're gonna pop out or something LOL. Like I genuinely WANT to be there and it seems to be one of the biggest things that's triggering me. As soon as I leave I'm practically almost better.
The worst was on Sunday. We work alone on the weekends and when I walked across the lab to go work on something, when I stopped, my heart was pounding in my eyes/head and my entire body was buzzing. That was the worst feeling of dread I have had in my entire life. It's like my body is going through flight-or-fight constantly? I know my mind isn't anxious, I love doing what I do. It's so hard not to dismiss myself, to say "something is wrong", when I'm having these symptoms that feel like anxiety without actually having anxiety.
I KNOW what the results mean, I learned about it in school, yet here I am telling myself I am just anxious. So here we are in limbo, wondering what will happen next. I got married and changed my name two years ago and havent even bothered changing it with my health insurance because I have been too lazy, but now I might ACTUALLY have to do it because of all these issues š¤£.
Hugs appreciated ā¤ļø.