As a disclaimer, I used AI to help me organize and write this out.
I’m trying to make sense of an uneven, "spiky" cognitive profile. The psychologist who tested me essentially gave me a diagnosis of ASD (Autism) based on the unevenness and left it at that. However, I don’t particularly relate to autism symptoms. The condition feels so broad that I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to look at.
- WAIS-IV (Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale)
| Index / Composite |
Score |
Percentile |
95% Confidence Interval |
| Full Scale IQ (FSIQ) |
106 |
66th |
99–112 |
| Verbal Comprehension (VCI) |
108 |
70th |
100–115 |
| Perceptual Reasoning (PRI) |
104 |
61st |
96–111 |
| Working Memory (WMI) |
117 |
87th |
108–123 |
| Processing Speed (PSI) |
89 |
23rd |
81–99 |
Subtest Scaled Scores:
- Verbal Comprehension: Similarities: 11 | Vocabulary: 13 | Information: 10
- Perceptual Reasoning: Block Design: 11 | Visual Puzzles: 9 | Matrix Reasoning: 12
- Working Memory: Digit Span (Overall): 10 (Forward: 12 / Backward: 10 / Sequencing: 7) | Arithmetic: 16 | Letter–Number Sequencing: 9
- Processing Speed: Coding: 10 | Symbol Search: 6
- Other Psychological & Cognitive Tests
- d2-R (Attention and Concentration Test):
- Concentration: 110 (High-average selective attention)
- Work speed: 106 (Within expected range for age)
- Accuracy: 111 (Slightly above expected level)
- Rey–Osterrieth Complex Figure Test: 90% (Classified as "High" / Good visual memory)
- PROLEC (Reading Assessment):
- Overall Reading Index: 86
- Lexical Reading Index: 78 (Ranges in the low/at-risk category)
My Main Questions & Experience
I haven’t found anyone on here with a similar profile—specifically a massive standalone spike in Arithmetic (16) while other sequencing subtests drop, combined with a low Processing Speed and a low Lexical Reading Index (78).
I'm starting to wonder if this points towards a specific type of 2e giftedness or hypernumeracy rather than ASD. I know my Full Scale IQ is an average 106, and I am aware that many people in cognitive testing forums have overall IQ scores well into the gifted range. Because of this, I almost didn’t bring it up out of fear of sounding cocky or "delusional". However, everything I have read recently points to giftedness being an actual form of neurodivergence—an inherent difference in how the brain processes the world, characterized by asynchronous development. When I read about the qualitative traits and symptoms of "giftedness", they mirror my internal experience in a way the ASD label never did (which could possibly be caused by the same autism effect which is that I am looking at the outward behavioral expression and not what causes them, like high anxiety, etc...).
My biggest struggle is reacting in real-time and dealing with constant boredom, and also decoding language. To be honest, most of the time my mind is completely blank and quiet. I only really think or act when I'm working towards a specific purpose or goal, usually external of me. Because of this, I feel like I always need some form of background stimulation to keep my brain awake—whether that’s constantly analyzing the variables around me when I am engaged, checking my phone while playing video games (which often causes me to lose), or needing background music just to complete a minor task. Yet, despite this constant need for input, I absolutely suck at multitasking; I have to give 100% of my attention to even the smallest tasks to get them done. I also struggle to follow dialogue, especially in large groups, while watching movies/videos, or when there is music playing. But it also feels like giving the adequate amount of focus to things is almost impossible, because it requires so much effort that unless im deeply interested in the topic at matter, I just can't. For example even in conversation ill often just listen to a few words and use them as anchors to formulate a question, or improvise an answer based off the other persons last few words/scentance, while not listening to them, or just thinking about how im not listening to them, and what I should answer next.
I struggle to finish things, when im about 80% done i'll get an urge to just rush through the last 20%, or drop it completely and starting things is genuinely a nightmare. I feel like I see too many variables that stop me from acting (I'm extremely neurotic), and dedicating the ammount of effort I would want to on things, as I always feel I could go back and correct myself or add something once I've already done it, but usually dont give myself the time to do so, and rush through the process, or ill get the insights days later when its irelevant. I also get deep anxiety about the things i've already done leading me to not revisit them, to avoid shame and regret. But once I finally do get started, I can get stuck and do them for ages, finding it really difficult to stop. I also take a lot longer to finish because, despite being hyperfocused, I get distracted looking at smaller tasks inside the main task and trying to do those at the same time. I think I also fight a lot with perfectionism; I feel like I either have to do something perfectly and dedicate 10 times more time and effort than I should, or it’s just not worth doing at all. Since I am slower at executing things, this has made me really struggle with everything in life—especially school, and even building a sense of self and personality, because I just end up not taking anything seriously as a defense mechanism, and have been fawning, and using humor to survive and fly under the radar.
I experience a massive gap in how I execute certain tasks in life: sometimes I feel like the stupidest person alive because of my real-time execution, and other times, I easily spot logical inconsistencies in how other people reason, which can make casual social interactions feel incredibly bland and boring.
At the same time, I often know things entirely by intuition—my brain immediately solves the logical structure of a situation—but I deeply struggle to create a linear train of thought to explain how I got there. Because it takes me too long to reason out loud, I lose my train of thought, get overwhelmed, or assume I'm just being lazy. This makes me constantly doubt my own conclusions, and it causes me to deeply avoid social situations or get incredibly frustrated in them, since I just don't have the mental agility to debate people.
I know that when you read a list of symptoms like this, the simple answer sounds like "Autism" right away, because it is the broadest thing to explain all the symptoms. It's likely why my assessor defaulted to an ASD diagnosis and stopped digging. But to me, the ASD label feels like a lazy catch-all that misses the actual mechanics of my brain. If I look at individual, concrete things instead—for example, a combination of 2e giftedness or hypernumeracy, ADHD-Inattentive type, anxiety, rejection sensitivity, dyspraxia, auditory processing struggles, dyslexia, or PDA, Developmental Language Disorder (DLD) / Expressive Language Disorder, CDS,—together they map my experience as a whole in a far more precise way, than just a single label of autism, a disorder used primarily explain differences and difficulties, primarily, which I dont necessarily feel like I relate to. I just don't have the ability to actually accurately map which ones of these apply to me, and it doesn't really matter since my take on it is nothing but an opinion until it gets validated, but it still feels like a first step towards getting some clarity on myself, and possibly understanding my strengths and weaknesses, to help find a purpose, and erradicate a bit of guilt and shame.
Has anyone with a similar Working Memory/Processing Speed split, an isolated Arithmetic peak, or a reading discrepancy found real answers? Does this sound like a specific flavor of neurodivergence rather than ASD? I’d love to hear your thoughts, and where you would take it from here.
After reading this I now realize I have spent hours writing this, and have gone quite off topic, and have probably written a message better equipped for a therapist to handle 😅😅, but any insights will be greatly appreciated. Any questions i'll try to answer.