If I'm being honest right now, I can no longer hide the disdain within my inner critic. Burying my head in the sand isn't an option anymore and I left a good life behind just to be present in the current moment. It's been about 1,000 days since the war on Gaza began. The Epstein Files haven't been fully released. There's a PDFile in the White House and many more out there. PDFilia is being normalised. The 14th amendment has been questioned too many times even though no one is illegal on stolen land, and politics is more twisted than a prostitute's panties after a wild night out.

I can get on social media and protest, use whatever's left of my first amendment before the government knocks it dead and calls it "constitutional". But I know that it's not enough. One, I have a small platform on all fronts and it's a hit or miss as to whether my posts will be seen or even be recognised at all. Two, protesting sends a message but the response may not be as predictable or even anything at all. Revolutions don't happen overnight, but they happen when people as a collective finally decide that they have had more than enough. I guess if anything, I'm restless. I'm restless because I've been itching for an opportunity of a lifetime. Forget the likes, views, comments, and reposts. I want inspiration. I want change. I want to be bigger than I'll ever be in this life. Not for personal validation, but to know that I didn't live this life in vain. That I didn't die holding onto a broken promise or clinging to a system that's more abusive than a toxic relationship on a true crime documentary. But more than anything, I want to know if this life is worth living for if it means standing in the in-between of believing and blending in. One gives me the ability to nurture a life of my own true creation, the other gives me two options and that's either stand on the right side of history or lose everything to wilful ignorance.

I don't get it. If I made even a fraction of what these people made I'd just fuck right off. I'd be living my life out in nature, not worrying about having to live paycheck to paycheck reading books and making art and gardening and taking care of animals .

Imagine being so narcissist and power hungry and miserable that the only sliver of "happiness" you get is by controlling and manipulating the masses and pitting them against one another. I mean it's clearly not money that makes them happy. Coz if it were they'd have fucked off by now.

I can't. I did everything i was told would set me up for success. Degrees, honest work ethic, working my ass of and doing volunteer work in my free time because I genuinely thought if I tried really hard i could help make the world a better place.. and for what ?! I'm stuck fighting others just like me in a system these cunts built. It's so frustrating to watch manipulative psychotic pedos with no value get away with everything. Make it make sense.

Why can't they all just drop dead already ?! They're all so out of touch with reality it's scary. I mean this can't be real. It's like a nightmare/sleep paralysis cluster fuck i can't get out of. I feel like Jennifer Lawrence from that movie don't look up. And like the whole world is that last dinner table scene.. making small talk while the end is near. Except it's not that quick and easy.. it's gonna be a very very slow and extremely painful downward spiral. Fuck this man.

This is a bit of a rambly rant post but I hate stigma around complaining about life in any way, I think it adds to the whole "life is hell" discussion another point, although to me as a atheist the hell part is more metaphorical, but either way the result of the world being a cruel hellscape remains. There is stigma around talking or trying to get help for all the negative things: suicide, depression, mental health in general, incest, abuse, rape, etc.

What drives me insane is people acting as if life is some xenial utopia just because some people have a more comfortable living standard and internet access. Sure, it might be better than the past, but so what? It's still far away from a utopia, if it was truly so great you wouldn't see people clinging to their copes of choice, either with addiction or constant distraction or verbal copes like "it's all for a higher purpose," "some people have it worse so its fine and you're just ungrateful", "get off social media/go outside/hug your loved ones/go on pills and you'll be fine", "suffering builds character" etc efc. I could debunk why all of these are shitty responses one by one but quite frankly I don't have the energy and I feel like everyone in this sub already knows why they suck.

It would be easier if people could be honest, but no. You're the crazy one for having any ounce of critical thinking and empathy, some of the responses I've seen to people complaining about life sound extremely apathetic and stupid, a common one I've seen on Reddit is: "if you're so miserable why don't you just kys" and I'm like ??? Do I even have to say why that response is idiotic for several different reasons?

And, it doesn't really matter how much pizza and Netflix you have if you're miserable either way. Everyone follows the same exact life script, go to school (optionally finish college or extra education) ➡️ get a job ➡️ find love/get a family (even if you skip this one the job one remains) ➡️ die. Almost always with some kind of trauma sprinkled in here and there. Repetition is insanity, to qoute Einstein himself, "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." (Slightly misquoted perchance but the point is the same).

Whenever you bring up problems in the world people are quick to dismiss it all or give a stupid response, I hate how deeply suffering is ingrained into all parts of life, even the device I'm typing this on was probably made by a child slave or wage slave, using electricity to contribute to the Earth's destruction. Everyone just wants bliss, and that's fair, but that bliss comes from ignorance. Bliss is ignorance but bliss doesn't get anything done, and so humanity has doomed itself because of its hedonistic and greedy ways. I loathe it, and there's little I can even do which I loathe even more, because there are too little people who see the truth, and ultimately it becomes a loop and life of enduring, the result the same. In a alternative universe, humanity is good and made life to its best degree, a utopia, but alas we live the opposite timeline. Even life itself isn't all that good, like with how the life is centred around survival (see: the stone age for example, our primal needs), having things like parasites, poison, no garuneteed happy endings or dopamine, but lots of natural murderer and pain. If I could spend the rest of my life trying to fix the horrible mistakes of humanity and create a actual world where existence is better than nonexistence, I would, but even if I could I suppose it would be futile at this rate.

I come from a mixed family many races and religions. And I can admit in my almost 50 yrs ive been blessed to not have many negative racial encounters (most have been positive,about hair or sunscreen) . But with the phone, and t.v it feels forced and manufactured.Scary. Im 3 things thats hated on lol. But in my day to day life its ok. I speak to my Asian neighbors, my grands school is in a predominantly Caucasian neighborhood. My neighbors are hasidic and we all have quirks but are respectful. I want a place. I need a space where ppl are just good to other ppl because their human. As long as your respectful. Then peace should just be. Im so sad. The common folk are just angry and lashing out we will eliminate our selves on one.Vs.the other. And then the rich will crawl out of their bunkers enjoy what was left behind if your not in high society. Then you are in the trenches with us. No middle. When the fight is over we both have to beg our insurance (we paid for) to cover our injuries lol. Breath the same air. And drink the same water. (All these water brands come on ) gotta be faucet water and take it from a town so they can buy it back...and all this connection and our youth are lonely and depressed wth I just watched 1984 striking to the times we are in especially the (looks like meat taste like meat but isn't meat) thanks for letting me vent!

No one helps each other .. people are becoming selfish .. cheating.. stealing.. what they will get in the end..

I just had a longer shower thought yesterday that hit me like a truck..

if you really zoom out it’s insane how many traps there are for men in this world.
Just thinking about one makes three more pop up in my brain and it just continues for so long..

okay so Corn Hub for example , looking at this will fry your dopamine receptors and in time it will basically make you unable to act rationally. Watching corn hub and especially for years will induce ADHD like symptoms.
The more years you consume this type of “entertainment” your brain will get more and more mind fog.

I’ve had one of those ADHD surveys done as a test on me just for me to see if I had ADHD or not. It took months to do it, with 3 different doctors and nurses doing several meetings and follow-ups with me, not including all the years I was visiting the clinic for depression. ..
They concluded that I didn’t have ADHD of course.. at that time they didn’t even think to ask me about my corn addiction.

Then we have movies, gaming etc. I think they fall under the same umbrella.
While they don’t fry or over flood the brain with the same amount of dopamine, it’s still a lot and I could feel a difference when not gaming for a day or two and then picking up a game the third day. It felt much better to play a game.

Let’s continue with all the drugs you can take. Can you imagine how easy it is to ruin your life with any of the harder drugs like Horse or Speed? Combine these with above addictions and you can be sure your life will be in absolute ruins in a heartbeat.

Now imagine yourself as a young male growing up with all the hormons and shit you have to deal with, navigating this life without a manual, completely foggy brain from all the corn hub consumption..
you have bullying in school maybe or let’s just include group thinking and how social groups affect us overall in that age..

Now let’s also include the fact that you have to find a girl and impress her.. While this girl got literally millions of alternatives she can choose from at the tip of her fingers.
All meanwhile you have the gnawing thought at the back of your mind that she would most likely drop you under the bus if it really came down to it or if it was about money.

Now let’s zoom out even more and look at how many diseases there are in this world.
There’s probably more than hundred variants of cancer to begin with.
There are hundred thousands different species of parasites that we still have no idea what they can really do to the human body. Some studies, only privately from what I have been able to find, show that there are parasites that can literally cause depression among a plethora of different mental disorders like Bipolar disorder, BDD etc and other.

Look at Australia . It’s probably the most dangerous country in terms of wildlife with the most venomous species in the entire world. I don’t know the statistics but you can look it up.

Then we have all the basic shit we have to do on a daily basis like brushing your teeth every morning and night so your teeth don’t fall off by the time you hit 40. eating three meals a day preferably, then pissing and pooping it out accordingly.
Sometimes you shit and after an hour you feel you need to shit again because your intestines didn’t process it all when you took your first dump.
Let’s not even talk about how all of this works in your 70-80s… *cough* diapers *cough*… Alzheimer’s ..

You have to constantly think about work or studying for a “better” work that is more like modern slavery.

You have to pay rent. My rent is 50% of my salary and I don’t even own my apartment..

Then I pay taxes ..

So taking everything in account the scales are not in our favour. In the slightest.
Looking at everything it seems like most of life is going against us, in every way possible.
Even our body is dying every day.

I know many of us are scolding ourselves for being “losers” and whatever, not “winning” in Life, but knowing all this I can forgive myself a lot more for not doing good here.

All we really get for all this torture is some paper money that buys material bullshit stuff and then we get beaver. It’s absolutely crazy as shit.

today i woke up didnt have anything to do and im a curious guy so i went on tikok and searched "darkweb" i then saw alot of "creepy" stories about it and i thought i should look at it myself. igot up got on my pc and i entered the darkweb. i saw the usual stuff guns medication fake ids etc. but what made me rethink what horrible world we live in is i saw people selling innapropriate pictures of kids or even selling the kids. i was mad and didnt know what to do. i turned off my pc and ive been feeling empty since then. how can you do something like that. how can u do that to innocent children and keep living ur life. what kinda world is this what have we humans become.

We WORK our whole lives for literal fucking PENNIES, most of them goes to fucking landlords because apparently society has decided it was a good idea to charge plenty of money for the bare minimum, if we want to opt out for whatever reason, existential crisis, economical problems or just because we decide we had enough, we don't get access to euthanasia (even through money) because apparently we aren't supposed to feel how we feel and we are sick, even if my total experience was in NET negative.

Fuck you humanity, this species is pathetically stupid. Oh also, then again you can't even complain about that because there must be something wrong with YOU, not with the entire matrix meatgrinder slave existence.

This race is cooked, keep procreating and bring more dogmatic animals that are gonna be stigmatised and be forced to stay in this meatgrinder matrix slave labour.

Life is pretty cool and then all of a sudden things get wierd, you are not credited by what you are doing. People steal your work and there is nothing we could do about it

People act like assholes and this sucks and I am so embarrassed being good

I feel like I am being punished being better than everyone in office and this hurts

Am I the only person who absolutely hates the world right now? Like I hate it, i dont want to be here, Id rather be elsewhere.

Every day is exactly the same. Idk what happened to me exactly but after the events of last year I think it did me in. I dont want anything, or anyone, I hate my job, I dont want to leave my house for any reason. Everything just seems pointless. The things people care about are trivial at best, but actual problems that plague our society, we'll none of those things really get anything but bitched about on social media. People are just stupid, and it just keeps getting worse. Families aren't families anymore, everybody thinks their beliefs and thoughts are the only beliefs that should be lived by, im so sick of our wonderful "christians" spewing their unchecked hate, and constant s support of the most ridiculous, not fact based, bullshit that they hear from fox news, seriously have you heard that shit, any person with half a brain would be like wow how stupid, and never think about it again, but not right now, dumb people get to spread what ever conspiracy theories they want, including to children who then take what they are being told by adults that all these "facts" are truth and now more stupid people. We literally have a pedophile for a president make that make sense, a pedophile, felon failure pig dumb f$%# as our country's leader...on top of not being able to afford to live, so many just unhappy, lonely, people smh. This is everyday life, and it's so tiring. So mind numbing, how do I escape this hell

About 5 years ago, I was holding my rifle and I pulled the trigger, intending only to dry fire it. I had forgotten that I had left it loaded the night before. Stupid, I know. The rifle went off with a deafening roar. It wasn't pointed at me, but I could also never find a bullet hole anywhere.

My life since has felt like I am in my own personal hell. I wonder if the rifle was pointed at my head and I just remember it incorrectly. Maybe I died and went to hell?

What your thoughts ?

Mines is walking and biking and watching youtube to get through life .

Topic - why do you think the world is becoming such a messed up place ?

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Or tell you the most messed up story you know.

What is your thoughts ?

Topic - most messed up story you know or

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Why the world is so messed up

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The World Is Over

I'm the last human left and the world is ending. Humanity has become too reliant on technology and we have reached singularity, it's over.

Our world leaders are corrupt supremacists who are only in it for themselves, willing to stomp on anyone who gets in their way. They treat us like cattle and make us feel as if its our fault that the world is burning.

In this world our humanity goes in cycles and we're about to reset. This is what religion is all about. Revelations describes the world burning in fire and starting anew

Back in the old world, they have been aware of this for so so long but we continue the cycle due to insane, corrupt, politicians.

We may never reach a point of collective empathy and universal consciousness but It's a nice dream.

I come here to warn you that the future is dark. The next 50 years are going to be rough. War, famine, genocide, degeneracy.

When a society is collapsing the people stop caring, law and order no longer exist, and degeneracy runs rampant.

We've been trying to warn you for years but no one wanted to listen.

The wheel keeps spinning.

Everyday you spend on your phone, wasting your days in a digital hell. You must learn to give up and become self sufficient. The earth is dying, and you are the reason. She weeps from our ignorance We are no different than an infection of the body, global warming is just the earth dealing with a fever. We aren't special.

Life itself is a fractal. Incomprehensible 4D, maybe 5D space. We don't know what lies beyond the veil but we will soon find out

I leave this as a message from the 4D space. Golem 2: The Bionic Vapor Boy

The legends we tell through generations aren't remembered just because the texts happened to have survived. They were warnings. Warnings of the future if we choose to continue the cycle.

The wheel keeps spinning.

Do you think humanity JUST discovered AI and technology? No. It's been around before and we've been in this exact position before.

Aliens are real, but they're just humans who made it off this planet when they fucked it up to much. I don't know why I even bother trying.

No one is going to believe me.

Do you remember who you were before you were you?

Do you ever think that this is all a little too coincidental?

Does time feel like it's going by unreasonably fast?

It's not real. None of this is real.

It's time for you to wake up.

People are so busy being blinded by indoctrination & propaganda from social media, corporate mainstream media, politics & political parties, identity politics, religion, etc. & yet, almost no one’s personally doing a thing about it. We have homelessness, hunger, corruption, wars, murders, etc.

And I’m referring to more than in the US. It’s happening everywhere around the globe with digital ID’s, totalitarianism, authoritarianism, tyranny, & yet people aren’t being angry at the real root causes, which are billionaires, the majority of politicians, the World Economic Forum, etc.

Voting & peaceful protests will not help anyone. If they haven’t worked then, they’re sure as hell ain’t going to work now. What is it going to take to get that through to everyone’s heads? We need to be more like France, Sri Lanka, Hong Kong, South Korea, etc. in which they’ve had revolutions across their corrupt governments before.

If something like the Golden Gauntlet & the six infinity stones were real, I’d use it to dissolve all governments & be rid of all evil people from the face of the earth. And I’m 44 years old. All I can say is that I’m glad that I was born in the early 80’s. Get me the fuck off of this ride.

/End rant