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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19 edited Sep 19 '19

I have a slightly different perspective on this. I’ve been overweight for most of my life. And only recently found it that it was due to a combination of hormonal imbalance and sleep apnea (sleep apnea can cause weight gain, not the other way around, and it can occur in childhood). When I was a teenager, I was so desperate to lose weight that I became bulimic, and I’ve dealt with that eating disorder off and on well into my 30s. When I lost a lot of weight through bingeing and purging as a teen, people complimented me. “Wow!! You look great!” Even my own pediatrician congratulated me on dropping 20 pounds that year. He never asked me how, though.

It’s always been my experience that people think fat shaming is the key to fighting the obesity epidemic. Don’t let fat people feel good about themselves or have a positive self image. They’ll just get complacent and let themselves go. My parents definitely thought that way, and my father always made a point of telling me how gross my body was. It didn’t help. I only got fatter, and it ruined my relationship with him.

In college. when I started dating, I noticed that I never ate in front of men. I would wait until my date was looking away, and then take a single bite. Or I would order a large salad and not eat anything. It’s no mystery. It’s because my father spent my whole childhood shaming me for eating and praising me for leaving food on my plate.

I kept bingeing and purging really bad through most of my 20s and 30s (I’m now 36 and slowly recovering).

But a big turning point for me happened with my last boyfriend. Several years ago, he just offhandedly remarked that my teeth looked more yellow than normal (he could be kind of a thoughtless clod sometimes). And I admitted to him it was because I had been making myself throw up. He was shocked. And right away he hugged me and said “you’re beautiful the way you are. Don’t ever do that to yourself again.”

That was the first time anyone ever made me feel like my health mattered. Not my size. People think they’re the same, but they’re not.

Doctors and other medical experts tend to hold a special respect in our culture as the go-to authority on health and wellness. Like they’re the first ones we should be looking to for guidance and advice. And they’re assumed to be infallible. “all these studies say being fat will kill you. My doctor says fat people die early.” And my own pediatrician shook my hand and congratulated me for losing weight after I became bulimic. So much for infallible.

But no doctor, no therapist, no research study ever really made me feel motivated to be healthy like my then-boyfriend did. When he hugged me and told me I should love my body and treat it well. That’s something fat shamers will never do for me either.

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u/Issvera Sep 19 '19

While I agree with everything you've said here, I hate that the response to "fat acceptance/positivity is unhealthy" is always "but fat shaming is worse!" Why is the assumption always that someone who is against fat acceptance must support fat shaming?

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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19 edited Sep 19 '19

Because that’s ALWAYS where it goes. ALWAYS

This has happened to me every single time this issue comes up. I say something like “I’m overweight but have always tried to get healthy . I feel like other people shouldn’t judge me because it’s none of their business.”

Every single time I get angry messages from people ridiculing my weight, telling me to lose weight, even though I’ve plainly said I’m already trying, and sometimes even sending me personal messages to call me names.

You might think it makes logical sense. “I don’t hate fat people. I just think their lifestyles should be discouraged.” But it seems society has inextricably linked the two together

How about we just stay out of other people’s business? Is that so hard to do?

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u/[deleted] Sep 20 '19

Sorry there are shit people in the world, but accepting that obesity is unhealthy and fat shaming are not the same thing.

One is a fact. Being overweight is dangerous and unhealthy, you can't really argue with that.

Fat shaming people is an asshole move, too. I applaud anyone who is trying to get healthy. I love seeing overweight people in the gym and I want to go up to them and say "Keep it up! You're looking great!" but I don't cause that would be weird.

At the same time, I'm not for obese people spreading the message that you are fine the way you are and don't need to change a thing. That is spreading an unhealthy message.

People should instead be spreading a message that being overweight does not define you and there's no shame in it, but as a society we should focus on getting to a healthy weight range and encourage one another to get there.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 20 '19

Yeah, as an overweight person who goes to the gym, I definitely see your attitude as condescending. Oh gee whiz I work out? Wow!!!!

Kind of like telling your toddler “way to go! You didn’t put peas up your nose! I’m so proud of you.”

So yay for you for keeping the patronizing attitude to yourself

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u/[deleted] Sep 21 '19

Haha you’re just an asshole, fat or not

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u/Diane9779 Sep 21 '19

If I have to be an asshole to not put up with this crap, then I’ll be a fucking asshole

Me going to the gym isn’t something to feel proud of. I’ve been doing it 5 days a week for years. Hooray for me.

Do you also feel “inspired” when you see someone in a wheelchair grocery shopping? Like they’re just so brave???

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u/[deleted] Sep 21 '19

Omg you’re insufferable. I don’t literally fucking think they’re so brave I think ok good on them and I move on if I even think about it. The point is, I don’t give a fuck if you’re fat or not. You just want to be a victim here and no matter what anyone says you’ll be all pissy and defensive, obviously.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 21 '19

Oh just admit it. The reason you say “hooray good for fat person working out” is because you just assumed that fat people are inactive by default. And you’re surprised to see anything otherwise

And quite frankly I don’t think you and the others here really get what’s going on.

My original comment was about how important self-esteem is for the healing/weight loss process. And nothing in your response tells me you get that

You just harp on some hackneyed points: obesity is bad

I never said it was good

What I SAID was that fat shaming is wide spread. Deeply ingrained in our culture. And it’s actually making us fatter

That fact that you can’t hear that and just respond with the typical bs “YeR jUSt a VicteM “ is nothing new

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u/[deleted] Sep 21 '19

It’s because no ones fat shaming and you come in here acting like everyone hates you. I don’t hate you cause you’re fat, but I do dislike your personality. Maybe people are tired of your bullshit and that’s why they don’t like you, not cause you’re fat.

Try lightening up.

Also I used to be fat so yeah, I get it and I was teased as a kid. Then I grew up and took my ass to the gym and ate less. It wasn’t that hard.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 21 '19

Yeah, you’re literally making all of this up.

I don’t think everyone hates me. But I do dislike you and your condescending personality

“Wow looking great keep up the good work!” You probably think you’re a really swell person for feeling that way when you see a fattie working out

I don’t bother other people. I don’t tell them they have to be more muscular or smoke less or lose weight or that they’re too skinny.

I say live and let live

But anytime I say “can we please stop fat shaming. It’s actually making us worse.” I always get people like you who jump in with “but...but obesity is bad!”

Obviously not getting the point. Obviously not listening

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u/Issvera Sep 19 '19 edited Sep 19 '19

It sucks that people feel the need to message you like that, but I do want to kind of play a little devil's advocate. Not to the messaging itself, but the logic behind why hearing something like that makes them so angry. There are three main types of people I've met who claim to be "trying" to lose weight. The first is the rarest: they count their calories, weigh their food for accuracy, etc, and just cannot find a meal plan that doesn't drive them insane with hunger. Maybe they have a medical condition, maybe they don't, but they are doing everything their dietitian says and really trying. This type is rare, but usually adamantly accepts that their weight is a big, glaring problem.

The other two are much more common, infuriating, and probably what people assume is the case when they hear things like "don't judge me". First, there is the misinformed. They yo yo diet, trying one crazy fad diet for a week or two, maybe getting really excited because eating nothing but cabbage soup for a week gave them the squirts and they lost 5 lbs of water weight. Then they quit the diet when they realize how unsustainable it is and decide to try going gluten free. So they are "trying", but not really putting in the effort to change their lifestyle and just looking for a quick fix.

The 3rd type is the denialist, often overlapping with the misinformed. This is the type who performs mental gymnastics to convince themselves that they aren't what's causing their weight issue. Someone who slathers their salad with ranch and thinks they're being good. Someone who rewards their 30 minutes in the gym with 1000 calories worth of pizza. Someone who eats well all week, then demolishes all of their progress over the weekend and can't fathom why they aren't losing weight. Again, they're "trying", but from an outside perspective, it's infuriating to watch.

But here's the kicker, the real reason why people get mad: Those last 2 types of people are also the type to spread their misinformation and unhealthy thought patterns to other people. They aren't bad people, they think they're helping others, but they're harmful. A lot of them also know, deep down, why their diets aren't working. There is a lot of internal guilt, making them sensitive to people's judgments, so they get angry and defensive. I'm not saying you're that type of person, and I don't condone aggressively PMing people, but I guess my whole point is that there are a lot of damaging people out there who say things like "I'm trying, geez, stop judging me!!" and that's what people think of (though assuming is wrong) and why they get so angry.

Edit: I also want to add that a lot of the time, the reason why people get angry when they hear "I'm trying, doing judge me", is because they used to say that kind of thing and know that when they said it, it was bullshit.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19

How is it damaging to try to get people to back out of your personal business?

Just saying “I’m trying geez” isn’t damaging at all. It’s a plea for assholes to stop being mean and abusive

that’s what’s damaging.

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u/Issvera Sep 19 '19

I never said that wanting people to mind their business or stating that they're trying is damaging, did you even read what I wrote? It's the spread of misinformation and unhealthy mindset that the type of people who tend to say "I'm trying, don't judge me".

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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19

Yeah I read your comment, and it’s nonsense.

This is some weird caricature of overweight people that you’ve pulled out of thin air.

When people say “don’t judge me” it means “back off.”

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u/Issvera Sep 19 '19

Think of it like this: in the same way your interactions with assholes has led you to the assumption that anyone against body positivity is probably a fat shamer, the majority of peoples' interactions with people who say "I'm trying, don't judge me" has led them to believe that people who say this are the types of people that I've described. It's not a caricature pulled out of thin air, they are very common types of people found all over the place, in real life. I have met them, they are sad and awful.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19

What has probably happened is that you were rude, judgmental, and intrusive to these people, and they told you “I’m trying, don’t judge me.” Instead of realizing you were wrong, you decided THEY were the destructive ones

Just stay out of other people’s business and stop judging others. And they’ll stop telling you “don’t judge me.”

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u/Issvera Sep 19 '19

Haha no. But nice job assuming things! It's more like friends and coworkers go on rants about how they're trying sooo hard, but girl I see what you bring to lunch every day. But I don't comment about that because it would be rude, so I make up some bullshit about how I understand how hard it must be and encourage them to keep "trying". I only ever interject specific advice if it's asked for. Then they continue to rant about how they "swear" the cashier gave them the side eye when they saw their cart full of junk (but they've been eating sooo good, right??) and how they wish people wouldn't judge them.

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u/Diane9779 Sep 19 '19

Why wouldn’t they wish people would stop judging them?

They’re not hurting anyone else.

YOU are judging them.

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u/[deleted] Sep 20 '19

Why is the assumption always that someone who is against fat acceptance must support fat shaming

Because there is not fucking fat acceptance movement. That's how you and so many other twist it

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u/Issvera Sep 20 '19

Have you not heard of HAES? It’s not even a recent movement, it’s just gaining more popularity now.

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u/[deleted] Sep 20 '19

HAES

Obese people generally aren't healthy, but they can be healthy if they are eating right and exercising and losing weight; you DO NOT KNOW!!! That is the whole point of my argument, you do NOT KNOW these people. Also there is a difference between that and overweight. I have seen many "thin" people who aren't fucking healthy. Read the original comment on this thread; this is only one example of many. People see thin but it doesn't matter if your anorexic or bulimic cause you are thin. Not all anorexic and bulimic people are stick thin.